Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Isaac, I sit here at work watching my brothers getting ready and heading out the door to the funeral of Officer Bryan Tuvera. All dessed up in their Class A uniform, brase polished, shoes shined. I can't tell you how sad I am today, another brother is taken away from us. Shot down in his youth, just like you. A few days before a major holiday, just like you. God Bless him and God Bless you and God Bless all of us who remain.

Auntie

December 29, 2006

Dear Renata, Isabella & Espinoza Family,

My thoughts are with all of you at this time. I think about how hard it must be trying to celebrate the holidays and yet feel very sad. I am also so sad for Off. Tuvera's wife and family. My husband is an SFPD officer too and I don't know what I would do if anything ever happened to him. I pray for God's continuing strength and peace for your lives. God Bless!

Anon
wife of an officer

December 29, 2006

Hi Renata & Family,

Just wanted to leave a note to let you know that you are in my prayers. I'm keeping a close eye on the trial. I pray that God in heaven gives you the strength you need at this time and in the coming month.
Its amazing how quickly time goes by, how quickly our kids grow, in the blink of an eye. I have two boys now, can you believe that? After doctors had said I would NEVER have kids. God really has everything in His control after all, even if we can't understand what HE is doing.
May you have a Blessed New Year, please give my best to everyone.
Love always!

Julie

December 27, 2006

I Love you, I miss you now more than ever. Thinking of you always. Thanks for watching over us you are always in my heart and in my thoughts.

Viviana

December 26, 2006

Zak,

I can't believe how Bella has grown, we have pictures all over Bayview, she's looking more like you now and her hair is darker too- a beautiful little girl with that smile! I got to see your family during the closing arguments and as always, they welcomed me with open arms. Thank-you. They showed your picture in court and I looked over at Regina, I'm so sorry you guys...I don't even hurt for me anymore, I hurt for your family, they love and miss you so very much. I pray for a safe and blessed holidays and new year for you and yours, you are missed Zak. When will it end? PB

Ofc. Patty B. USMC
SFPD BAYVIEW MIDS

December 25, 2006

Dear Brother in Blue, and those that love Officer Espinoza:

my heart is with you and your loved ones on Christmas. and now another SF brother joins you. my brother followed you in 2005. MY HEART IS SICK FOR ALL OF US. Christmas is verrrrry hard for all of us. we share your never ending heartbreak and grief. I said to someone today; "it never gets better, just somehow easier to accept the unacceptable". my family is remembering you and yours during today, for the holidays, in the coming new year. ALWAYS. YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN. MY FAMILY CRIES WITH YOU, YOURS,

with deepest sincerity and respect,
sister of
Howard Stevenson, EOW 1/9/05

December 25, 2006

I watched as Class 12 worked so hard to emulate the "Isaac Would" motto and how your memory served as the start of something miraculous at our academy. Your honored photo hangs proudly in the "Hall of Warriors" alongside Tony and Larry. I am saddened by your department losing another officer this week. I am so sorry. I know that you will be there taking him under your angel's wing and welcoming him into the family up there. One of my local brothers in blue joined you this week too. Please watch over him as well. This is an especially hard time to be reminded that life is precious. Thank you for watching over us all left behind down here. Thank you for your service and thank you for your sacrifice. Merry Christmas.

JB #375
EPD / PCPA Staff

December 25, 2006

This is a tough time for your family and your department family. Help those that need help and look out for each other. Their are so many wonderfull people on these pages. It breaks my heart to read some of these passages. Some one out their is thinking about you every minute.

Jeremy

December 25, 2006

My thoughts are with your loved ones this Christmas Day. They miss you and think of you ever day, but today they will be thinking of you more than other days becuase of the holiday. You will be the topic of conversation where everyone will be sharing stories and memories of you. This is a good thing as it keeps your memory alive and can bring a smile to their faces even though their hearts are filled with pain. Continue to watch over your loved ones and protect them. Merry Christmas Hero.

Bob Gordon
Father of Fallen Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

December 25, 2006

You would of loved last night. The whole family was there, everyone smiling. Your wife looked as beautiful as she always does. Your daughter, you would of been so proud of her. She got up with her other cousins and sang. Remember how we all sang when we were all younger. There was all Popo's food too, Calimari, Jumbot. Everyone looked happy. The children made it happy for us. They we all so good. It was wonderful, magical. Now today, back to reality. You were missed.

Auntie

December 25, 2006

Merry Christmas Eve Isaac. I will miss seeing you tonight. Auntie

December 24, 2006

Isaac, we lost another brother. Take care of him, as I know you will. You will be missed this Christmas.
Auntie

December 23, 2006

To the family of Officer Espinoza~
My husband Rich May was killed in the line of duty on January 7, 2006 in East Palo Alto, Ca. Although he worked in the Bay area, we do not live there. He has family that lives in the Bay area, and I live in Santa Maria Ca. with my children. My family told me your trial has finished and the jury is in deliberations. I check the SF Gate online every day to see if there is a verdict. I pray that monster gets life in prison. It makes no sense to me why the DA did not seek the death penalty. These monsters that kill our husband's, sons and our children's daddy's don't deserve to breath. Our trial won't start until probably Oct. 2007.
Please know I am thinking about you all and praying for you.

Diana May
Wife of Fallen Police Officer Richard May EOW 1/07/06

December 19, 2006

Left Behind

Those that are left behind
when others have gone,
are the ones that cry
all night long.

Under the cover of the night
so many tears fall,
we cry ourselves to sleep
until there is nothing within us left
to weep.

Tomorrow,
our tears will start anew
for those that are left behind,
what else is there to do?

(From The Broken Badge)

December 13, 2006

My thoughts and prayers to the family and friends of Officer Espinoza. I'm sorry for your loss. When I lost my brother suddenly in 1999 I would look to this passage and it gave me comfort. It still does:

...but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary; they will walk and not be faint. -Isaiah 40:31

Blessed be to Officer Espinoza and his wife and daughter.

Retired
Animal Control

December 11, 2006

isaac i miss you so much, please come back.

Monica

December 5, 2006

Stephanie's baptism came and went yesterday. I thought about you and your mother, and I also thought about you and your daughter when Father Cameron put his hand on my shoulder and said, "Stephanie is your daughter and your souls are intwined. You will be together for all eternity."

I told Father Cameron how touched I was that he said that. I believe that Isaac. I believe that when you have a child they are your TRUE TRUE soulmate. People have mentioned soulmates throughout my life, but it never felt more real than when I baptised my daughter. I am now a true believer in "Soulmates." They ARE our children.

I know you watch over your daughter and mother everyday. They are and will forever be apart of you.
A

November 27, 2006

From "The Vigil" CD

You wore your badge pinned on your shirt.
You carried a gun to protect those from being hurt.
Yu took an oath and swore to uphold and enforce the law.
You gave it all

Then God took you by the hand with St. Michael by His side.
You walked among the bravest of all men.
As a hero you lived and died.
Brother can you hear us all.
The pain we feel inside.
Brother will you guide us with St. Michael by your side.

You wore your heart upon your sleeve.
You never failed to help those who were in need.
You were the finest.
The most caring of all men.
But most of all you were our friend.

And when God took you by the hand,
St. Michael was by your side.
You walked among the bravest of all men.
As our hero you lived and died.

Brother can you hear us.
All the pain we feel inside.
And brother will you guide us,
with St. Michael by your side.

Brother can you hear us.
All the pain we feel inside.
And brother will you guide us,
With St. Michael at your side.

November 25, 2006

Thanksgiving is remembering and being thankful for what you have. I am thankful for having you in my life, if only for a short time. I am thankful for being allowed to be your Godmother and being part of your life. I am thankful for all the memeorizes I have, they are all joyful. I am thankful for watching you grow up to be a man, I was always so proud of you for all you accomplished is such a short time. And I am thankful for loving you, and you loving me, for we were lucky enough to be part of each others lifes, if only for just a short time.

I am missing you, but I am thankful that God gave you to me, even if just for a short time. I love you Isaac, and I will miss you through the holiday season. Auntie

November 25, 2006

Wishing you and yours a blessed Thanksgiving holidays, missing you my brother...

Ofc. Brown
SFPD, Bayview MIDS

November 24, 2006

Thank you, Son, for giving us such joy in this life.
Thank you for giving us your love, good humor, understanding and so much more.
Thank you for always being such a wonderful son.
I miss you, and I can't wait for all of us to be together again with you and Jesus for all Eternity.

I love you, Mom

November 23, 2006

Happy Thanksgiving Isaac. I remember when we all used to get together at Popo's house. I miss those days! I remember the tables going out the door because our family got so big. Miss you cousin.

November 23, 2006

"Good Man"

I remember the first day I met you
we were so young
you were a blessing
and there was no guessing
you were the one
Love is so crazy
We had a baby
and said our vows
That's when you told me
should anything happen
I can hear you now
You told me

[Chorus:]
If the sun comes up, and I'm not home
be strong
If I'm not beside you, do your best to carry on
Tell the kids about me
when they're old enough to understand
tell them that their daddy was
a good man

First anniversary
remember we
chose a star
And as i stand under it
I can't help but wonder if
You see it where you are
For whatever reason
You don't see the seasons
Change again

Go there with peace of mind
We'll meet on the otherside
Cause true Love don't end
and baby

[Chorus]

Two eyes looking up at me
Pointing to a picture like where is he Mamma are you OK?
What did the paper say?
To make you cry that way?

It said your Daddy lived for you
and your daddy died for you
and I'll do the same


Renata, I bought the latest India Arie CD, and this song "Good Man" totally reminded me of you and Isaac. I started to cry thinking about Isaac and the both of you. I know he would want you to be happy. Love, A

November 22, 2006

Hey Isaac, Just wanted to stop bye and tell you that I think bout you all the time and I pray for all our family you know... your mom, dad,regina, nina, bella, my mom and dad...you know.... everyone. I pray because it is ssoon to be a ney year which means another year spent without you. It's still very hard and i'm not use to not having you around. But everyday you are in our conversations, hearts and mind. I want you to know i am writting something for you.

the babe is growing up so fast and she is JUST like you. Alwways playin tricks on people. SHe is smart and beautiful. Reminds me a lot of you! Ok well I got to go for now. Love ya always

Rudy

November 15, 2006

Isaac,
You are a daily reminder that we should not take anything for granted. I think of your family and you daily and lift all of you up in prayer. I wanted to tell you that you have yet influenced another Cadet from Class 12 to reach the goal of becoming a law enforcement officer.
On October 27th, I had the honor of pinning Deputy Eric Dunn's badge on his chest. He now has a star on his chest
to remind him daily of your courage. I know you will continue to inspire him to be the best Deputy he can be.
I have seen the reflections he leaves on your page and I know, he will never forget you...
He will do everything just like "Isaac Would"
Thank you for all you have done for Class 12, you will never be forgotten.

Blessings to all of your family and continue to watch over each and every day. I pray that God gives them strenght to carry on, just as you would want them to.

In Him,

Shanon Dreyer
Palomar College Police Academy

November 15, 2006