Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Happy Father's Day Issac. Thinking of you.

June 17, 2006

Isaac Happy Fathers, you must be so proud of your little angel, she is a beautiful and smart little girl with your charesmatic way and and sense of humor. We miss you.

Sonia

June 15, 2006

Wishing the Espinoza family and friends a blessed Father's Day and weekend filled with pleasant thoughts and happy memories! Zak, you always showed me new pics of Bella-the proud father who took time out to express his love and appreciation for creating a beautiful life...we miss u.

ofc. brown
sfpd, bayview mids

June 15, 2006

Iz, You would of been so proud of our baby cousin Joe graduating from High School, and receiving many awards, not to mention he was in his is local newspaper. He reminds me a lot of you, not only is he hansome and funny but truly wonderful person. He has a huge heart and when I look at him, it's like you are right there w/ us, you would crack up. It's sometimes scary how goofy you boys are, all comedians. He was telling a story, something sad and splashed water from the glass on his eyes like he was crying, I swear, that definately reminded me of you. A part of you is with us all and in our heart, funny how we notice this sometimes. You were and are obviously an inspiration that he has had to look up to! Love you and Miss you.

Big Cousin

June 5, 2006

Son: Krystal graduated tonight from the Police Academy Class 210. She is so happy and so excited about doing police work just like you were. We are all so proud of her and I know you are proud of her too. You are such an inspiration to her. Your Dad and I were asked to go on stage and give the Officer Isaac Espinoza Award. It was so hard to stand there and not cry. So much about the ceremony reminded me of you. One of the new Officers had his hair like yours and I saw you. An old friend of yours introduced himself to us who I hadn't met before who said he will never forget you and he showed us that he was wearing a blue cops wrist band. Another Officer introduced himself to me and said he aspired to be like you. It felt like family, son. I love you, Mom.

June 3, 2006

Isaac -

Thinking of you today, and always, as the sun dips down on this year's Memorial Day...a day for warriors and heroes. You are both.

Continue to keep all of us safe as we step out into the daily battle. Comfort and support your amazing family today and always. Be the breeze in their hair and the warmth on their shoulders. God bless, brother.

Officer Damian Jackson
Escondido PD / Palomar Police Academy

May 29, 2006

Zak,
You know what happened last night...Continue to watch over us with our fellow brothers above, we love and miss you! Thank-you, and we wish you and yours a blessed Memorial Day.

sfpd officer
bayview mids

May 29, 2006

Hi Isaac, you are still very fresh in our minds and hearts. I ran into one of your friends in blue, and it was so nice to talk about you. We miss your charasmatic smile and your jokes. Always in our hearts and prayers Love Sonia

May 25, 2006

dear issac,wish you could have been at your goddaughters communion. she looked like an angel.she asked her mon if you and her grandpa would see her in church. she waw told yes.you would be looking down at her. we missed you very much. your parents and regina were there. your parents came to the house. michael gave a great part and that friend of your sure can cook. you would be proud.he told us of when you guys would cook in his room. there is a wall in his house and your name zak is there forever.your parents are very important to my family and we love them as our own. god bless you always and i hope gil is there witn you take care of him for us. love marian

May 24, 2006

Isaac,

Thank you for all the guidance to Class 12 and the motiviation you gave them to persevere. We have dedicated a hallway at our academy to fallen hero's; the cadets of Class 13 painted it. It is dark blue with a black mourning band through it. We are calling it our "Hall of Warriors" and you will be the first officer honored on that wall.

As I sit here and see you looking back at me...a picture of you in your uniform, smiling like you had no worries; I find it hard to believe you were taken away from the very ones who love you and those who leave messages on this site. How hard it must be for them to do so; yet they have the strength to. I read the reflections from your mother and am brought to tears. She is such a special woman and you were so fortunate to be able to call her "mother"...just as she is fortunate to call you "son."

I have been blessed to know your incredibly gracious family. Not only have you forever imbedded yourself
in my heart...they have too.

Mrs. Espinoza, I will see you in June, until then...
blessings to all...

Love,
Shanon

Shanon Dreyer
Palomar College Police Academy

May 24, 2006

Lately I have been coming to this page everyday. Why, I don't exactly know. I guess it makes me feel close to you when I am here, reading what others have written and looking at your picture. It makes me think about you and how great a person you were. You are still missed.

I missed you yesterday when your cousin had a birthday party for her two boys. I know you, Renata and Isabella would have been there. It was a great day.

I go to court as much as I can while D28 is going through the 'motions' for your case. It is hard to sit in the courtroom with the same devil who took you away from us. Very hard indeed. Your mother is there each day. God Bless your mother, father, sister and wife during this most difficult time. And Thank you to those few cops who show up to sit with your mother. They are a blessing.
Auntie

May 22, 2006

Mrs. Espinoza,
I am sorry for the loss of your son. I have read your heart wrenching reflections that you have left for your son. My heart goes out to you and even though I don't know you or your family I often think about all of you and hope that you do find some comfort in the wonderful memories of your son.
It is evident that your son is a saint and continues to look down on you and the rest of his family, including his family in blue.
Take Care & God Bless

Denise Smith

May 22, 2006

Renata ,
I have visited this site many times and I am sorry I haven't written something sooner. First of all I am sorry for your loss. My friend Michelle and husband Colin lost their partner and husband, Officer Stephan Gray whom was murdered five days after Isaac. Your strength and courage is remarkable, and I am sure Isaac is so proud of you.

The reality of the possiblity of losing my husband is even greater and after being at the California Peace Officers Memorial in Sacramento for the last 2 years makes it that much clearer. It is evident that it takes a special kind of man/woman to do this job and that is what they love doing. Your husband is a hero he probably saved some other innocent person's life that night, he gave the ultimate sacrifice for his community. May God Bless you and your daughter. My prayers continue to go out to you and your entire family.

Denise Smith

May 22, 2006

Last night, a paramedic at SFGH asked me who my mourning band was for. I told him it was for you, and that I haven't taken if off since the night I saw you leave us- and I haven't taken it off! I can describe that night verbatim...and wish it upon no other family. We miss and love you Zak, please keep us safe, comfort your family and let them know you are here...Patty.

ofc. brown/sfpd
bayview mids

May 22, 2006

Police Officer's Prayer to St. Michael, the Archangel

Dear Saint Michael, Your name means, "Who is Like a God," and it indicates that You remained faithful when others rebelled against God. Help the police officers of our day who strive to stem the rebellion and evil that are rampant on all sides. Keep them faithful to their God as well as to their country and their fellow human beings. Amen

May 18, 2006

Well, Son, your aunt and I went to the National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial in Washington, D.C. I have to tell you it was not the same for me the second time around. It all seemed so much bigger when your name was on the roll call last year. The National COPS Conference for famly survivors was pretty much the same. I was so happy to learn that Derrick's mother-in-law is the new National President for COPS. She's always so caring and helpful to me whenever I have an opportunity to talk with her.

Before the Candlelight Vigil, I was able to attend St. Patrick's Cathedral. The thought that came to me sitting there in that Holy place was that "I was chosen to be the mother of a Saint." You know that it was the eve of Mother's Day that I was at St. Patrick's and the Candlelight Vigil. I also concluded this week that you and all the other heroes killed in the line of duty are from the same pot of God's clay. Your traits and those for other honored officers that I heard about are mostly all the same. I am so honored, Son, to be your mother. I love you, Mom.

May 18, 2006

Hey Isaac,
I been thinking about you all morning. Dave, Marqez, and a few other cops went to Crystal Springs today to play golf. I can't help but to think that you would be there with them right now. Your mom told me you loved playing golf!!!! I'm sure Marqez knew that too. I'm just saddend by the fact that you never got a chance to bond with my husband. I just wish you could be there playing with them right now. I miss you Isaac. Adele

May 17, 2006

Carol and Renata,
Happy Mother's Day to you both and God bless. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers this day...it never diminishes.
All my love,

Damian Jackson
Escondido PD / Palomar Police Academy

May 13, 2006

Wishing the family and friends of Isaac Espinoza a blessed and safe Mother's Day!

bayview officer
sfpd

May 13, 2006

Hello Isaac,

It’s been a while! Just a little note to say you and your family were in my thoughts and prayers.

Thank you!

Ray Valeros
Class 12

May 9, 2006

The California Peace Officers Memorial in Sacramento was good for me, Son. One of the speakers said the memorial helps families gain strength from one another and it is so true. It is such a privilege to talk to other mothers and to wives and to hear their stories. Then, I was on the elevator with a beautiful young widow whose eyes only looked down and who said nothing. Her pain was so deep it penetrated right through me. It was hard seeing all the precious children and teens who are now fatherless. What good can come from all this shock and loneliness? Everyone was so brave as they honored their loved one. It was comforting for your Dad and I to have family there to support us and to meet with friends like Val and Damien and Collin. We remembered the 300 SFPD and almost 90 of our family and friends who attended last year when your name was on the roll call. I miss you. Mom

May 8, 2006

Couple days ago I parked my car to go to work when a couple drove by and stopped by my side asking me if I knew Issac. That question caught me totally by surprise. The couple pointed to my "Issac Espinoza 64" sticker on my truck and said that they were from San Francisco and they were on vacation in San Diego. I started telling them about the Class 12 honoring Issac Espinoza when the lady repiled "Yeah, from Escondido right"? The lady told me that she knows the Espinoza family and she knew about Class 12. I will not forget her smile when she said that Espinoza lives in our hearts. Also I could not help to notice her compassion when she was speaking about Issac. The traffic light turned green, we said good bye and I started to speed my pace crossing the street. The couple went on enjoying their vacation and I went to work. Those few seconds that we spent was marked by a very emotional connection that two people that never have seen each other before share. The Issac Espinoza connection.
Throughout that night I kept thinking about the impact that Issac had in the lifes of every single cadet on Class 12. Since week 1 when Officer Jackson came up with the idea of honoring Issac, all the stories, the photos, the video where we saw Issac with friends and family, the e-mails and letters that were exchanged, all the push ups, the catchy phrase "Issac Would", the motorcycle rally, until our graduation, the actually meeting the family. As we marched and bestowed flowers to the family, I remember myself bitting my lips trying not to cry. After a whole year talking and thinking about them, now they were right in front of you. It did shook me up. Also I remember Mrs Dreyer'voice breaking up and pretty much everyone in that room being touched by the emotions. You could feel the emotions in the air.
The academy ended almost six months ago and now I am in the process with some agencies. Life goes on but I will not forget the academy and specially Issac. I come from a far away country where the police is very different from the police in America. Issac is a role model that makes this difference even farther apart. Issac is the role model that I will strive for. I will remember Issac. He might not be here among us but his spirit and legacy was passed on to every cadet on Class 12.

For all the memories and lessons....... Thank you Issac!


Issac would....

Cadet Andre Huebes. Class 12.
Palomar College Police Academy

May 6, 2006

To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say.
But first of all to let you know, that I arrived okay.

I'm writing this from Heaven. Here I dwell with God above. Here, there's no more tears of sadness; Here's just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight. Remember that I am with you every morning, noon, and night.

That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through. God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you.

It's good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone. As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.

I need you here so badly, you are a part of my plan. There is so much that we can do, to help our mortal man."

God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do. And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.

And when you lie in bed at night the day's chores put to flight. God and I are closest to you...in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years. Because you're only human, they are bound to bring you tears.

But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain. Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned but if I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.

But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is o'er.
I'm closer to you NOW, than I ever was before.

There are rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb; but together we can do it by taking one day at a time.

It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too; that as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.

If you can help somebody who is in sorrow and pain; then you can say to God at night..."My day was not in vain."

And now I am contented...that my life was worthwhile. Knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.

So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low; just lend a hand to pick them up, as on your way you go.

When you're walking down the street and you've got me on your mind; I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.

And when it's time for you to go...from that body to be free. Remember you're not going...you're coming here to me.

May 4, 2006

Tomorrow I leave to honor you, for the second year, in Sacramento. This year I do not feel as dazed as I did last year. This year I think of the other wifes, mothers, fathers, sibblings, family and family in blue, who lost their loved one in 2005. It makes me so sad to think of their pain, for I know and understand their loss. I honor you, my dear nephew, and all those who gave their lifes. It saddens me, words cannot express what I am feeling. I can only tell you that seeing your name on the wall at the hall of justice, in sacamento, HURTS. HURTS so deep to know you are gone. I miss you so much. Auntie

May 3, 2006

My coed baby shower is Saturday, and I really wish you could be here for it..... I always wish you were here. You never made it to my house, but I know you wanted to come by. I remember us talking about it and you were so interested. I could see you walk in the door now with your big eyes and big smile shaking your head in amazement that I'm having a baby. Saying I got knocked up or something really funny. I could also see you in the backyard with the guys enjoying yourself and cracking jokes with your proud father face as Bella sat on your lap. I could also see you telling her to get down and go play with her cousins. You never wanted her to be shy. You were cute Isaac. I miss you!

April 27, 2006