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Police Officer Isaac Anthony Espinoza

San Francisco Police Department, California

End of Watch Saturday, April 10, 2004

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Reflections for Police Officer Isaac Anthony Espinoza

Isaac, the man that took your life was sentenced today, the ordeal has come to an end, your family can now have closure. My prayers are with all your family. We were on vacation on your anniversary, but you were very much on our minds, went to church to say a prayer for you and your family. Miss you

Sonia

April 21, 2007

Hey Isaac,

Thank you so much for being there with me this week and especially today. I felt your arms wrapped around me as I waited to be there for you. I wanted so much to be there for everyone and at one point I thought that wasn’t going to be possible. Yet, I prayed and thought about you and thought what you would do in the situation that I was in this morning. I stayed calm; realizing what lies ahead was in gods hands and with your guidance, faith was going to have to bring me to you.

Guess what, faith did just that. Today I prayed and hoped that I would be able to be there for you at the end of this difficult and long drawn out period Thank you for staying strong for all of us. Thank you for sharing with us some really wonderful times. Thanks for always smiling and thanks for loving me. Thanks Isaac for being my cousin. I am truly blessed and so grateful for having known such a wonderful person like you.

You are truly missed,
Irene

April 20, 2007

Zac, it is the evening of the sentecing verdict and kim and i are here in connecticut with our son parker (16 months old) upstairs in his crib. i got your star number tattooed on the third anniversary of the shooting and it is just about healed now. i wish i could be out there with the guys on this day. its tough being so far away, especially on a day like this. we read the article in the chronile and saw the pictures. we think of you and your family alot and i hope renata and isabella are o.k. i know the department is taking good care of them for you. i really miss you brother, it hurts to see the pictures but i still smile when i remember our time together, from the acadamy to southern, and then to potrero where the real police work happens. i am proud to have had the privilage of being your friend and i am a better person for it. you will always be with me....

OFFICER SCOTT KENDALL
SAN FRANCISCO/STAMFORD,CT P.D.

April 20, 2007

Today, justice was served. The judges voice cracked with emotion while she told the killer of how he devastated your family by taking you away from us and as she told him he will never be allowed out on the streets again to hurt another family. She sentence your killer to Life in Prison. He will never be allowed on the streets again and this makes me very happy.

A

April 20, 2007

Today they sentenced your killer. I'm gald that they gave him life in prison without the possibility of parole. But I still don't think it is fair that he gets to live and breathe when you don't.

I didn't realize how much I really miss you until I saw your picture on the news today.

I never stop thinking about you.

Your "Little Carmen"
Friend

April 20, 2007

Hi,

Well tomorrow is the sentencing and I will be going to court. It's still real hard for me as for all of your family. I just wanted to stop bye to say that I love you and no matter what happends the Lord will give us justice. Even if your physical body was taken from us, nothing could ever take you from our hearts. nothing. I miss you and every single day I look at your picture and remember everything good that you were.

I miss you!


Ru

April 19, 2007

Isaac,
I have been thinking of you and your family. Especially Renatta and your beautiful daughter. I remember three years ago standing by my husbands side and watching the news of your death on tv. We were both silent in sadness until my husband said, "that is awful I feel so bad for his family..." and I stood in silence knowing that it could of been my husband. Then just five days later my husband Officer Stephan Gray was also shot and killed in the line of duty. I feel forever connected with you and your family because of what I have just shared. I pray for your family and know that you are missed everyday. I just wanted to let you know that you are on my mind. Renatta, I wonder how you are often. When our children struggle and are so sad for their daddy I think of you and Isabella since Cami and bella are the exact same age. I hope that you have found some peace.

My best to you and your family...
Michelle Gray
EOW 4-15-04

michelle gray

April 17, 2007

A GOOD COP
A GOOD MAN
A GOOD FRIEND

GONE BUT NOT FORGOTTEN...

Sergeant Sherman W. Lee
Bayview Station-Third Watch

April 16, 2007

Can't believe it's been 3 years man..... Time is now of no concern except in relation to when we will all be together again. The best of everything to your family members, and thanks again.......

GC Sargeant
SFPD

April 12, 2007

Isaac,

It has been a long time since I have sat down to write you and remind you here, as I do daily in prayer, how much you are missed and how so many of us carry on each day in your honor and memory. I have tried to write so many times but can never find the right words each time I try. I usually have no loss for words in any given situation but when it comes to you and your family, the depth of the heart can sometimes not be tapped appropriately to allow me to say all that I would like to. I guess what I am often left with then, is the hope that as your family knows me, they know how I feel and how truly honored and committed I am to them and your memory.

You would be amazed at how your legacy at the academy has grown and how many lives you have touched and altered in so many ways. Starting with you and "your" class, we created an academy and a new caliber of officer to work the streets that has been unprecedented. You have been such a pivotal part of that. I think that the most recent count is of the 23 that graduated from Class 12, 18 of them are now working cops. That is phenominal and no other class or period of this academy can touch that. And those 18 have you in their hearts and atop their shoulders with your brilliant blue wings as their angel each day and night they go 10-8.

Please continue to guide and inspire all of us in our daily endeavors and in our continued fight for justice in our time on this earth. Your family are the most amazingly strong people I have ever met and I think of them daily.

I almost cried the other day from an unexpected gesture that my 5 year-old daughter, Emily, did. She had a great week in school and got a special certificate that she was so proud of, so I took her out to get some ice cream, just her and I. She had gotten a balloon from the lady in the shop and was so excited because she really loves balloons. As we sat on a bench outside and were talking and laughing about something, she suddenly got a different smile on her face and turned and looked up and to the north and then looked back at me and said, "Daddy, I think that I would like to give this balloon to fly to Bella." It was like a hammer hitting my heart because it was so touching and I couldn't even say anything because it was so random and completely from her heart. I managed to nod to her a "yes" and with that she stood up on the bench, stretched her arm out and while looking straight up at it, let it go. We both watched the bright orange balloon for about two minutes as it slowly disappeared in the sky and then she gave me a big hug and said, "I think Bella will like that one." It took all my power not to break down right there and I was so incredibly proud of her for the gesture and for thinking of Bella at that moment. I knew too, that you were smiling down from heaven at that moment knowing that there we were, in San Diego, touched by and thinking of you and your family. She still names you all in her prayers at night; "Isaac, Renata, Bella, Regina, Mr. and Mrs. Espinoza and the SFPD" !!

I just wanted to share that story with you and remind you how you are always a part of us.

On April 10th one life was lost and thousands were changed.

God bless you and your family and I look forward to seeing you all again soon.

Officer Damian Jackson
Escondido PD

April 11, 2007

I kept thinking April. 10th....I will never forget you. I can't believe it's been 3 years.

April 11, 2007

Your sister, Regina, thanked everyone and then read the following lyric from the CD "He Was" (thanks Jo Ann)at your 3rd Year Anniversary Memorial at Bayview Station, April 10, 2007. Your family and friends were there to honor you. You are loved and you are missed. Mom

He Was...
Not a badge on a uniform, not a flashing blue light,
Not a faceless nameless officer, not a siren in the night,
He Was...
He was his mother's precous baby, he was his father's loving son
He was his sister's favorite brother, he was a friend to everyone.
He had a life that had a meaning, he had a future with his wife,
he had a child whom he lived for, he had a job that took his life.
Not a badge on a uniform, not a flashing blue light,
Not a faceless nameless officer, not a siren in the night,
He Was...
He never called himself a hero, just an ordinary man
But there were things that he believed in, and a need to take a stand
So he lived each day with courage and he prayed each night for strength
And his life must now be measured by its depth, not by it length
Not a badge on a uniform, not a flashing blue light,
Not a faceless nameless officer, not a siren in the night
He Was...
He was his mother's precious baby, he was his father's loving son
He was his sister's favorite brother, and a friend to everyone.

Recorded at Gator Hole Studio, Nashville, TN
Performed by Shelly Rann
2004 Sandie Thurston & Frank B. Jones

April 11, 2007

My prays go out to the Espinoza family on this date 04/10/07 and every day.

Sir,
Not there yet but, soon. i'll talk to you tomorrow.

#1234
"Isaac Would..."

#1234

April 9, 2007

I missed you at Easter Isaac! I thought of you when Vinnie went around talking about his new job to everyone. He had a sparkle in his eye just like you did when you started the academy and that long distance phone service deal. I remember you trying to recruit people, and how you thought That Long Distance Phone Thing (I can't rmember the exact product) could make you rich. It was a trickle down theary, and you got paid from everyone you recruited. Vinnie had that same look in his eye yesterday. That same drive and determination you had. That drive to get ahead. It brings tears to my eyes thinking about it.

Just want to tell you that you were missed, A

April 9, 2007

Zak-

Three years on Tuesday and another Easter passed without your presence, its not fair. The sentencing was postphoned, go figure...Nothing was done right by you or your family and friends. I will be in Sac for Birco and Tuvera's memorial and will see your dedication for the first time, I couldn't make it last year and really didn't have it in me to try. There shouldn't even be a memorial for cops, we are the ones protecting and serving, selflessly putting our lives out there and worrying our families- we should not be endangered period! I'm pretty knumb about Tuesday and don't even know what to expect or how to feel. Nevertheless, we miss you and hope you know this, you are definitely not forgotten. Remember when I came to visit you when you broke your leg? You said, "Patty, I'm happy you came to see me, but can you please leave? I gotta go to the bathroom!" Priceless. Thanks bro, I will always thank-you for treating this rookie as an equal, love u. I still get asked why I won't leave Bayview, I know you understand why not, its almost 6yrs. now...bless you and yours.

PB
SFPD Bayview Mids

April 8, 2007

HAPPY EASTER IN HEAVEN ISSAC. I WENT TO CHURCH LAST NIGHT WITH YOUR MOM AND NEVER REALIZED THE SIGNIFIANCE OF THE NIGHT YOU DIED ANE THE MEANING OF EASTER VIGIL. THE CHURCH WAS ALL DARK AND THEN CANDLES WERE LIT AND IT SEEMED TO BE FOR JUST YOU I CRIED THROUH THE WHOLE MASS AND REALIZED HOW VERY SPECIAL YOU WERE THAT GOD TOOK YOU ON THE WHOLIEST OF NIGHT OF DEATH AND RESURRECTION. THE WHOLE WORLD WAS CELEBRATING AND IT WAS FOR YOU. THEY SAID YOU NAME IN MASS AND I KNEW NOONE WILL EVER FORGET. AFTER MASS THE PASTOR TOLD YOUR MOM HE REMEMBERED THAT NIGHT AND YOU ARE NEVER FORGOTTEN. WENT TO YOUR HOUSE AFTER AND YOUR DAD MAKES A DELICIOUS SANDWICH AND WE TALKED OF THAT NIGHT AND THE PAIN. BEQUTIFUL PICTURES ALL OVER THE HOUSE OF YOUR ISABELLA AND YOU., YOU ARE MISSED VERY MUCH AND ALWAYS ON HOLY SATURDAY YOU WILL BE REMEMBERD WITH JUST REVERANCE AND WHY GOD MUST HAVE CHOSE YOU ALWAYS IN OUR HEARTS AND MIND MARIAN

April 8, 2007

On Easter Vigil Jesus rose from death to life; and April 10, 2004, after the Easter Vigil Masses he took you with him, my son. That's what Father Angel said that Easter morning, the day after you left us behind.

I went to the Easter Vigil Mass tonight. The Saturday night you were slain by evil and God, in his goodness, took you with Him wasn't any ordinary night. When I think of all the Catholic churches in the City and all the people in those churches who held candles in their hands to welcome new baptismal candidates to the church that Easter Vigil night and all the sirens and police lights flashing to come to your aid on that night you left us, I become amazed at all the light of that night. That cold and windy heartbreaking night.

Tonight is the three-year anniversary of that Saturday Easter Vigil night you were taken from us. I miss you and I love you.

Mom
4/7/2007

April 8, 2007

nothing could tell you what this night has meant. i went with your mom to easter vigil.it was so emotional because it was 3 years this easter eve you were taken from us all. your mom wasnt going to go because she was to have isabella ,plans changed and we went together.for the first time in 3 yrs i realized if you had to leave this earth this was the night god chose. it was filled with candles and beautiful prayers and words. i cried all through the mass because i finally realized it was never just another night the meaning of easter eve was overwhelming and god knew how special you were to all. then he said your name in rememebering all who have died. i was proud to be with your mom. after mass the pastor recognized your mom and told her he never forgot that night ,that mass was just gettig over .you are in everyones thoughts and never forgotten. stopped by your house and visited with your parents your dad makes a delicious sandwich and we talked of you . now i know what easte vigil will always mean ,you were taken a beautiful night where all celebrate and you will never be forgotten and we light the candles,your smile shines forever issac.happy easter in heaven marian

April 8, 2007

Another Easter without you there. You will be missed. You will be in my heart and I will think of you all day as I do each day since you have been gone. I love you.
A

April 7, 2007

hi ISSAC,ITS BEEN AWILE SINCE I HAVE WRITTEN.BUT NEVER OUT OF MY MIND. THIS IS THE BEGINNING OF HOLY WEEK,AND ITS ALMOST THAT TERRIBLE DAY AGAIN. MICHAEL HAD A BABY BOY,GIANNI DRAKE. HE IS 9 LBS AND A DOLL. WENT TO SEE HIM YESTERDAY,AND TOOK THE GIRLS OUT TO BREAKSFAST YOU WOULD BE SO PROUD OF YOUR GODCHILD SO POLITE AND PRETTY,WE TALKED OF THE CRUISE THEY ALL WENT ON WITH YOUR BELLA.YOU ARE IN MY THOUGHTS EVERYDAY.AND STILL CANT BELIEVE U ARE GONE.LIFE DOES GO ON BUT NEVER THE SAME. HEARD TO BELIEVE ITS 3 YEARS,YOUR MOM IS SO PRAVE ANS MIISES YOU SO MUCH AS WE ALL DO.WISH IT WERE YEARS AGO AND YOU WERE ALWAYS AT MY HOUSE MISS THOSE DAYS SO MUCH. WILL VISIT YOU SOON.SOME TIMES ITS TOO HARD TO GO THERE BUT I WILL WATSCH OVER US IN HEAVEN AND TAKE CARE OG GILL TOO. ALWAYS IN MY HEART MARIAN

April 1, 2007

Isaac, we are not going to be here for your anniversary but i will go to church were we are to say a prayer for you and your family. Have not for gotten you and never will, we miss you every day of our lives. We have new neighbors, Peggys house sold, and the new neighbors will be moving in soon. Your little angel has lost her upper teeth, she looks so cute, she came over the other day to show us., almost forgot to tell you Monica is now driving you really would have gotten a kick out of that, the good thing, she does not drive like Veronica, and she knows how to park., and she makes her stops up at the corner, not like some sfpd officer that never did, hahaha. We miss and love you. God bless you

Sonia

March 28, 2007

Zak-

Sentencing is coming up and its been a long haul for you family, please be there for them and remind them to be strong with that comforting way you had. You could smile and charm anyone into handcuffs and into the back of a patrol car, I swear! Haahaa.
No matter what, it won't be enough for what was done to you and the sadness we've endured. No one seems to care what happens to us on the streets, its like an occupational hazard when we get hurt- even maliciously. Its ridiculous, but yet we still perform our duties with the utmost "intestinal fortitude" and energy that we would hope any other officer to have while keeping our own neighborhoods safe. Tu sabes! Prayers and blessings to you and yours always...

P.B.
Bayview MIDS

March 17, 2007

I come to this page often to look at your face and to remember what was. I love you and will never forget the beauty you gave to everyone you came in contact with. I miss you.
A

March 13, 2007

Hi Isaac,

I haven't written to you in a while and I apologize for that..... I just wanted to you to know that I am reminded of you, your wonderful family and your brothers and sisters at SFPD weekly when I walk through the academy doors......

I have been talking to a couple of "your cadets" from Class 12.... One of them is over in the "sand box" as we speak and another is getting ready to go over in August. Normally I would be worried to the point of an ulcer as one of the nominated "Team Moms" but I know their "Blue Angel" is watching over them..... THANK YOU ISAAC!

The one that is over there now was asking me if "Class 12 and Isaac are still remembered." I wanted to smack him upside his head! Of course everything is remembered....You are the first on the Wall of Warriors. Your photo collage is the first thing that the Senior class sees when they walk in the door.... The junior class is not allowed to have photos yet! LOL When asking for permission to talk to Tac, the knocker was made to be a SFPD shield. Your 6' photo hangs directly outside the Tac office... So basically when they are in HUGE trouble, they not only have to answer to Tac, they also have to look at you and answer to you as they leave..... You are everywhere in this academy, in all of our departments, and our lives..... Once again, THANK YOU Isaac.......

Spring is on it's way (even though it rained AGAIN down here tonight) Thank you for continuing to remind us about what is truly important on this earth...... I hope that your family is doing well. They are such wonderful people. I will never ever forget playing catch with Bella and her bear on Class 12's graduation night... She is such a treasure.......

I am going to close now my Brother as tears are starting to come to my eyes.... THANK YOU ISAAC for everything you continue to do and work through in our lives....

God Bless

R.Akans #1354
ESPD/PCPA

March 7, 2007

Isaac today is Ash Wednesday, we cannot believe another anniversary is a few days away, you are still very much in our thoughts and prayers, we still miss you very much.

Sonia

February 21, 2007

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