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Police Officer Isaac Anthony Espinoza

San Francisco Police Department, California

End of Watch Saturday, April 10, 2004

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Reflections for Police Officer Isaac Anthony Espinoza

My thoughts are with all of your loved ones as Christmas approaches and I know that on that day you will be in their loving hearts, probably more than any other day of the year because it being a special day. You have not been forgotten by those that love you. I have decorated the outside of my home in all blue lights, one of those lights is lit in your honor to let you and those that love you that you have not been forgotten. Continue to watch over your loved ones.

Bob Gordon
Father of Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

December 18, 2007

Isaac, today was one of those especial days we could not stop talking about you. Remembering everything about you. The very first day you guys to look at the house, when you moved in and all the cars you guys had! Veronica asked, "do you think Isaac spoke spanish? And I said, are you kidding, but he knew how to salsa dance, well thats what Isaac said, who knows, we never got the chance to see you dance (uhm), who knows you might have made it to dancing with the stars. We miss you every day of our lives Isaac, you were such a especial neighbor and friend. We keep you in our hearts and prayers. By the way Tim sold his house and moved out. Your daughter is so big, and so beautiful, she looks so much like you. We laughed so hard at all the pranks you played on us, and then we cried, yes we still cry for you, isn't that something!! Miss you

Sonia

December 14, 2007

YOU MOTIVATE ME!!! enough said right??

-Dunn, Eric W.

Civilian
Friend

November 27, 2007

Although I did not take the time to write, I did not forget you on Thanksgiving. I know you were there at the table, because I could feel you in my heart.
Auntie

November 26, 2007

Dear Son:

I love you, and I miss you.
My stomach hurt so bad at Holy Mass this morning. I asked God what I could do to make it stop hurting. I started thinking about "some" of the things about you that I'm thankful for, and my stomach filled up with love.

Thank you for being such a good son.
Thank you for loving me.
Thank you for letting me love you.
Thank you for forgiving me when I wasn't a good mother.
Thank you for Isabella.
Thank you for the fun we shared while "we" were growing up.
Thank you for calling me your life-long friend.
Thank you for the hope you brought to my life.
Thank you for the hope of eternity you bring to my sorrow.
Thank you for the joy of each and every day we shared.
Thank you for the joy I now look forward to when we shall meet again.
Thank you for your honesty.
Thank you for trusting me.
Thank you for the laughter you brought to our home and our family.
Thank you for being respectful, caring and understanding.
Thank you for listening.
Thank you for always giving me something to look forward to.
Thank you for your unconditional love.

I love you,
Mom

November 21, 2007

Happy Thanksgiving Isaac, always in our prayers.

Sonia

November 21, 2007

Issac,

Have you ever known a person who reminds you of someone? So much that you can't place your finger on it at first? As I read through your reflections, I am reminded of someone I know, who reminds me of you. Although I never knew you, I feel as though I do. Your mother,father, Regina and Renata have shared stories about you with me that make me feel comfortable enough to say that you remind me of someone...or like I said...they remind me of you... who knows!!!

This person is such a phenominal human being with the biggest heart of anyone I know! He faces every day trying to be the best son, husband, father, partner, friend and cop that he can be. He ceases to amaze me because he never settles for mediochrity and always strives to do more than is expected of him. I know, you know who I am talking about.

I am so fortunate to know this person and little did I know that three years ago, he would come into my life again. He was a recruit in the police academy and I was one of his training officers. He came to the academy every day, giving nothing less than 110%... always knowing there was more to give. He graduated and hit the streets in Escondido, California and I always knew I would never forget him. Years passed and I was fortunate enough that our paths once again had crossed. I was the new supervisor for the Palomar College Police Academy and one of my training officers came to me and told me that he had a partner that wanted to come on board as a recruit training officer. When he told me who it was, I didn't even hesitate,I knew that this officer would make a difference and would be a great influence to many recruits that he would supervise and mentor. His performance alone in the police academy years ago was never forgotten. His work ethic was consistent and he made it hard for anyone to forget him, let alone me. Little did I know what would come of giving him a job at the police academy.

He felt a special connection with you through reading your reflections. In many ways, he is every bit of the person you were in life. He is a father to three daughters and a devoted husband. Many of us call him friend and he is always there to lend a hand to those who need it. I consider him to be one of the most sincere people I know. I think because he felt such a connection with you and your family, he felt that you should not be forgotten.

He had his first class honor you by doing push-ups for you every day...what he started was an amazing thing. Push-ups grew into so much more!!! For the past five classes, the Palomar College Police Academy has honored officers who have been killed in the line of duty. You, Officer Tony Zeppetella (Oceanside Police Dept.), Officer Larry Lasater (Pittsburg Police Dept.), Officer Daniel Bessant (Oceanside Police Dept.), and Officer Jeffrey Mitchell (San Bernardino Sheriff's Dept.).

It is unfortunate that we have officers to honor, but what has come out of all this has been more than amazing. The recruits who honor their fallen officer come to learn about them, honor them and strive to be just like them. The fallen officers are a source of motivation for the recruits, to help them through their training and influence each recruit to be every bit of person and officer that their officer was.

Throughout their year of training the recruits do communtiy service fund raisers to raise money for the fallen officer's children. Your family was the first; Isabella received a check for what we would hope would go towards her education, but ultimately, it was for whatever the Regina felt it should go to. Your parents, Regina, Renata and Bella were great. I am so fortunate to know them. Every year when I am in San Francisco for meetings, instead of having dinner with colleagues, I choose to have dinner with your family. I have told you this before, but you are so lucky to have such a wonderful Mom. I truly adore her. Your whole family is special.

Isaac, you are the first officer on our "Hall of Warriors" and it is all due to Officer Damian Jackson who works for the Escondido Police Dept.(and me). He has been such a role model and mentor for the recruits who have been fortunate to have attended the academy. He is my lead training officer for a reason and every single recruit who walks through our halls seeks out his approval and respects him more than words can say. It's hard not to respect him. The amazing thing is that he works his full time job and comes to work for me 20 hours a week to mentor recruits because he truly believes in what these recruits are trying to achieve. He is making the difference in the lives of many.

I know I don't have to tell you, you know exactly what type of person and man he is. He's just like you. He has made such a difference, not only in the lives of many recruits and officers, but he makes a difference in my life and although I am his boss, I am truly fortunate to call him "friend."

I just want him to know that he his truly "one of a kind" and I truly value his friendship and have a great deal of admiration for him. He is the most well rounded person I know. He has his priorities straight; God first, family and then the rest follows. He is such a caring person and it shows in all that he does. His family is truly amazing as well. His wife is the most supportive person and understands how important his job as a police academy training officer is to him. Just like him, she is just as amazing. I have read several of his reflections to you and the other officers and he has no problem sharing his feelings and doesn't care what anyone thinks. Through his reflections it is easy to see why he is the type of person he is.

Isaac, I just want to thank you and Damian. If it wasn't for you two phenominal men, our program would not honor fallen officers. Had Damian not had such a strong connection to you, who knows what would have been.

Damian, for all that you do and all that you are, thanks is not enough. Words cannot describe how special you are and I am so fortunate to have you in my life.

Shanon Dreyer, Supervisor
Palomar College Police Academy

November 20, 2007

As the holidays approach we need to be thankful for the times we shared, the bonds and memories that came from those times, and the love that will always be in our hearts. You are always in ours hearts, that can never change.

It's times like these where we see who we value in this lifetime, who we appreciate, who we trust and who are our true friends. Even though we were cousins, you will always be more than that, you were the brother I never had. You were honest and sincere and caring, and that's more than I can say for a lot of people who focus on themselves, and the material things in this lifetime which mean nothing. Instant happiness and gratification is just that, it satisfies the moment not the future. Self Respect is another thing that you exemplified, that was a characteristic of the man you who you were, a Good Man and a Good all around Person, and that is why you were looked up to and always will be looked up to for years and all the classes that will come after you. You inspire others to be the type of officer you were. You didn't just talk the talk, you walked the walk. I love you! BC

Cousin
Cousin

November 19, 2007

Wishing you a Happy Halloween from a family that cares about you and yours.

October 31, 2007

Happy Halloween!

October 31, 2007

I haven't been here in a little while and just wanted to take a moment to let you ALL know that you are still and will always be in my constant thoughts and prayers.

The strength and love of your family inspires me each day and I set out to be the best friend, father, husband, son and cop that I can be.

Isaac would...

Damian Jackson
EPD

October 29, 2007

Always thinking of you, of course. This would be time that you would be helping Bella carve her pumpkin. We saw her the other day on the deck, she had a little table and her pumpkin, she was with her little cousins helping, and it just brought tears and pain to see her, and that you are not here to share that with her. There is always something that gives us something to remember you by. Always in our hearts and prayers. Happy Halloween, Isaac, we keep you close to our hearts.

Sonia

October 27, 2007

This message is for Regina. Your brother brought you up often in conversations. We used to talk about my single life, and he always said he wanted a good guy for you. I being a single gal, complained to him about being "out" there. I never met you formally, but I knew Isaac from the "R" Ranch days. I'm the one who always asks him to watch over you. He had his wife and daughter and your parents, but there was YOU too! I hope reading this makes you smile.

October 22, 2007

My dearest brother,
As my daughter sleeps peacefully, I sit here staring out my window thinking of you. I'm looking up at the sky one minute smiling as I see your face and the next minute crying. I miss you so much. The pain continues. The joy of my daughter is better than what I imagined it would be, but the sadness continues. Spending time with Isabella fills my heart with laughter and joy, but again the sadness continues. You were a blessing to all of us. I'll go back to staring at my daughter and staring out the window thinking of you. Stare back at us when you get a chance.
I love you
Regina

October 17, 2007

The holidays are coming and all I can think about is you. You will be missed as you are every holiday since you were taken from us. There is always a void in my life when it comes to you. I wished spent more time with you, called you more often, hugged you harder each time we said good-bye. If I had only known that you would be taken from me as such a young life. If only......

I love you my little angel and I miss you dearly.
A

October 16, 2007

It has been a pleasure and an honor to have met and getting to know your family, wife, and beautiful daughter Bella. You have inspired the lives of many, including your childhood friend, Hans. We met 3 years ago and I will never forget the first night we met. All he would talk about was you. Your family and friends keep your memory alive. They talk about all the funny pranks you would pull. I even saw the video of the whole gang when you guys were in high school. LOL. You guys were great actors by the way, especially you. I feel like I know you through them and it would have been a pleasure to have met you in person. Now you are in heaven with God and his family and I ask that you please watch over my Hans as he will be graduating from the San Francisco Policy Academy in only 3 weeks. Thanks Isaac. Our prayers go out to you and your family.

~Gabriela~

Gabriela
Friend

October 2, 2007

You are my little angel.
A

September 28, 2007

I logged onto ODMP and you were the featured officer. I have been to your pages in the past and figured I would stop in and pay a visit. By the numerous pages I see that your loved ones and friends have not forgotten you and they never will. Their love for you will forever burn within their hearts. Continue to watch over all of them.

Bob Gordon
Father of Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

September 25, 2007

I hope you are as proud of me as I am of you!

I hope you know that I am forever grateful for what you brought into my life. You gave me a new start! A new beginning. If it wasn't for you, I would have never found such a amazing wonderful husband, who is my BEST friend. I would have never had had such a beautiful LOVING daughter. I am thankful for the gifts your brought me.

I will be forever thankful.

I love you!

Forever in my Heart.

September 20, 2007

"The Badge"
He starts his shift each day
To respond to calls unknown.
He drives a marked patrol car.
A police officer he is known.
He's paid by the citizens' taxes
To make it safe on the streets.
But he usually has a second job
'Cause a waitress has his salary beat.
Now he doesn't know a holiday
'Cause he works all year round.
And when Thanksgiving and Christmas finally arrive
At his home he cannot be found.
He's cursed and assaulted often,
The one whos blood runs blue.
He seldom ever gets a thanks,
To some he's just a fool.
His friends are always other cops
'Cause people just don't understand
That underneath his badge and gun,
He's just another man.
He knows there might not be a tomorrow
In this world of drugs and crime.
And he gets so mad at the court system
'Cause the crooks don't get any time.
And each day when he leaves for work,
He prays to God above.
Please bring me home after my shift
So I can see the ones I love.
But tonight he stops a speeding car,
He's alone down this ole' highway.
It's just a little traffic infraction.
He does it everyday.
Well, he walks up to the driver's window,
And his badge is shining bright.
He asked the guy for a driver's license,
When a shot rang through the night.
Yes, the bullet hit its mark,
Striking the officer in the chest.
But the Department's budget didn't buy
Each officer a bullet-proof vest.
So he lay on the ground bleeding.
His blood wasn't blue - His blood was red.
And briefly he thought of his loved ones
'Cause in a moment the officer was dead.
In the news they told the story
Of how this officer had died.
And some who listened cared less,
But those who loved him cried.
Well, they buried him in uniform
With his badge pinned on his chest.
He even had his revolver,
He died doing his best.
Written By:
David L. Bell
Sergeant
Richland County Sheriff's Department
Columbia, South Carolina
Used with Special Permission of the Author
Copyright © 1999 - All Rights Reserved
and may not be duplicated without permission

Investigator David L Bell
Richland County Sheriff's Dept., Columbia, SC

September 20, 2007

If I could go back and change everything I would
If I could go back and hold you more I would
If I could go back and love you more I would
My heart aches for you right now, I long to hear your voice. To feel your touch. If I could make this pain inside me dissapear I would. No matter what I do I can't let go. No matter how hard I try I can't forgive. No matter how big I smile I cannot hide. If I could, I would give all I have to have you here. It's not easy to live with this pain. It's not easy to live this life sane. It's much harder than anyone could bare. But I do it each day that goes by. Even when I have days like these were I can't pretend, were I miss you so even after so long. My life is not perfect I know, but Im trying the best that I can to live my life without you.
If I could go back and make it alright I would
If I could go back and take your place......... I would!

September 15, 2007

Brother,
Your niece is here. I think about you everyday but as her birth neared it was difficult to hold back the pain. The day before your niece made it clear she was on her way, I walked around work barely able to hold back the tears. All I thought about was how wonderful it would be to finally see her little face and to hold her in my arms, yet at the same time I thought how painful it was going to be knowing that she would never feel the arms of her uncle wrapped around her. She would never hear her uncle's words of encouragement. She would never hear her uncle's laugh. She will know about you because I will talk about you always, but I sit hear crying because she will only know you through stories and not through actual experience. She's beautiful just like your daughter. I have two beautiful angels here on earth and one in heaven. I love you brother and I miss you. I know your here with us in spirit, I just wish you were here with us on earth.

regina espinoza
sister

September 13, 2007

I come to this page every few weeks. It is my time to spend with you. To remember the man you were, the hero you became. It makes me feel closer to you when I come to this page. I see your face, I feel you near me. I come to this page because I miss you.
A

September 4, 2007

What up Iz,
I have to let you know how proud of your sister you would have been this weekend. She had a healthy baby girl and she was so strong and a trooper, not even one whimper. Your niece is beautiful. Just beautiful! I know you were there in spirit. We all miss you everyday and even more with every moment and experience that passes us by.
Love ya Iz

September 3, 2007

Your sister gave birth to a beautiful baby girl! You are an uncle! So many memories came to mind as I watched her, so small, so beautiful, so innocent. It's hard to believe that you were not there as she was born, as I sat there and saw how this perfect angel brought smiles to everyones face, it was hard not to think that a big part of us was missing and should of been there.

You will forever live in our hearts sweetheart! Now there's another precious soul to watch out for. We miss you so much. We will always love you.

September 3, 2007

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