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Police Officer Isaac Anthony Espinoza

San Francisco Police Department, California

End of Watch Saturday, April 10, 2004

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Reflections for Police Officer Isaac Anthony Espinoza




July 16, 2008

Happy Birthday Gorgeous! I love you and miss you terribly. Thanks for always watching out over us. I will never forget you.



July 16, 2008

In the depths of my despair
Lost and confused
I said to myself,
What shall I do?
Where shall I go?
Who can I trust?
I am nothing and
I am no one.

"Climb, climb the mountain,"
my spirit said;
"You're drowning in the
Valley of Tears."

Then I heard a voice, your voice.
"Don't worry," you said,
"I've taken care of everything."

Surprised and hopeful
Hurt and missing you
Gradually feeling better
Ever so slowly
I come alive again.

I love you,


July 15, 2008



July 15, 2008

Happy Birthday my brother, my nephew. Your life was much to short for me. I think of the times we had, they were to little. I think of the talks we had, should of had, they were to little. I think of your birth, what a glorist joy you were, a little boy, my Godson. I felt an honor to be that for I knew, if ever you were alone I would be there for you. That never happened becasue you were too great a person. Now you are gone and it hurts to know that, for I cannot talk with you, see you, have those special times with you, and it hurts to know that. I love you and miss you like it was yesterday.


July 15, 2008

Hey Cuz: I was reminded of your birthday yesterday when my sister had false labor last night, we hope she delivers tomorrow on your bday or Saturday on my dads. Either way, we miss you and we love you. Thinking of you, and thank you for putting good thoughts out there for me with my new job at the SFPD. So much has happened for me, finished my BA in psychology on Thursday, started a new job, things just keep getting better and better, I wish you were here so I could tell you.. Love ya!

Big Cousin

July 15, 2008

There's a stirring in my soul.
Memories of your birth are upon me.
Happy memories of days gone by.

Aching in my body
Those days no more.
How quickly life
comes and goes.

Four years already since
that devastating night.
The grief still lingers on.

Remember me.
I will remember you.

I love you, Mom


July 14, 2008

Always with a memory in our hearts, and always in our prayers.


June 27, 2008

Thinking about you on Father's Day and every day.

I miss you,

June 15, 2008

We celebrated Regina's birthday this past weekend. We missed you. We talked about you and laughed with joy remembering precious moments shared with you.

I love you,

June 11, 2008

Always on my mind, always in my heart. I love you.

June 10, 2008

One of the things why people love and admire you is because your life exemplified how you were on a daily basis, You treated people with love and respect, and you showed us that what matters most, what will be remembered is how we treat each other on a daily basis here on earth & that is what really counts.

You cared about others and went the extra mile for your fellow person in your daily life & you treated everyone fairly and with respect.

June 9, 2008

I put a candle on the wall by your name in DC during Police Week. I touched your name and breathed a prayer for you and your family. We never forget.

Linda Rittenhouse, Matt's Mom
Matthew Rittenhouse EOW 9/16/2004

June 5, 2008

This was sent to me today by someone close who yesterday lost their mother who was also like a mom to me. This made me think of you when I read the part about the smiles and happy times:


I'd like the memory of me to be a happy one,
I'd like to leave an afterglow of smiles when day is gone.
I'd like to leave an echo whispering softly down the ways,
Of happy times, and laughing times, and bright
and sunny days.

I'd like the tears of those who grieve to dry before
the sun, Of happy memories that I leave when life is done.


June 4, 2008

I miss you!

May 30, 2008

Remembering you and all the good times we shared on Memorial Day. You live in our hearts and the memories you left behind.

I love you,

May 26, 2008

Thank you for protecting and caring for us. God Bless you and your family.

May 26, 2008

Dear Son:

I'm back from the National Law Enforcement Officers' Memorial in Washington, D.C. One of the most profound things I heard was just before the Roll Call of Heroes for 2008, at the Memorial Service in front of our Nation's Capitol. It was, "Let me go. I will be waiting here for you with all the heroes."

You know I have been working on letting go and acceptance.
You are my son, my motivator, my gift, my true friend. The following is one of the thoughts that have come up for me during my process of trying to find acceptance.

You were never mine.
I offered you up to God
in your first month of life.

I became accustomed
to having you around.
I thought you would
always be there.

As the years passed
I forgot you weren't
really mine.

The shock of your sudden
and violent death
shattered my being.

Now I must let you go,
and with you,
the love, hope and joy
of you here on Earth.

Until we meet again,

I miss you.

May 18, 2008


I want you and your family to know how sorry I am that I have not left a reflection for a long time. We should never be to busy to at least write that we are thinking of you. I think of you and your wonderful family every day. Your picture with all of your brothers in blue behind you, is still my screen saver on my computer. For the past three years, plus, you have been a constant reminder of what a true hero you are to many. I cannot bring myself to change the screen saver...actually, I don't even think I have ever considered changing it!

I will see your family in June, a day I truly look forward to. I know Damian will be there this week for the Sacramento Memorial and I have to say, I am jealous that he gets to spend time with your family. I wish I could be there too.

We just had our fifth motorcycle rally fundraiser for Deputy Jeff Mitchell's son and I know you were looking down on us with the other officers we have honored, including Jeff. I know you saw the commitment that the recruits and staff have made to the Officer Down Memorial program that Officer Jackson started. Thank you for playing a pivotal roll in Damian's life that would change him from the inside out and lead him to start this dedication program that started with you. You will NEVER be forgotten.

At church our pastor tells us to let go and give Jesus the steering wheel of our guide us down the road we were meant to go down. Whatever it is that is in store for your family, friends, people who were fortunate to be a part of your life and all of us here who honor you, one thing I know for sure is that the steering wheel of our lives will lead us to you.

God Bless you and your family.

Shanon Dreyer, Supervisor
Palomar College Police Academy

May 7, 2008

Isaac: It's five days before Jean and I go to Washington, DC,for Nat'l Police Week. I was just thinking about you tonight, how Jean and I looked forward to seeing you when we visited with Derrick and Buffy in San Francisco. Your personality and smile would always warm our hearts, and we were so thankful that you would take the time to stop by and visit with us while we were there. Thank you for your dedicated service to the San Francisco Police Dept. God bless you and your wonderful family. We miss you.. Ed Hill

Ed Hill

May 4, 2008



May 1, 2008

A Warrior’s Prayer

Today is the day the Lord has made…

I prepare and ready myself for war, awaiting battle and what it holds for me.

Not because I am a seeker of oppression or the taking of another, because these are the true tests and measures of my faith and love for my God.

Lord I pray; Let my compassion and understanding run swifter than my judgments, but in moments of duress and where innocents fall underfoot, let your sword of justice destroy my enemy by my hands. And in all my endeavors, let my actions and my words glorify your name.

Daily will I face the works and the very army of satan himself and witness the horrors and evils of non-believers and the twisted motivations of the lost who seek to undermine you and hinder my aim, though none shall deter my cause for I know my calling.

Like the symbol of the eagle, the branch of peace extends first for those who seek it, but the arrows stand ready to take flight when provoked. And when provoked and tested, I will fear nothing, for I am eternally protected by my faith in you and covered in the armor of your blood.

Lord, you are my guide, my purpose and my shelter from the destructions of evil men. My Every move is according to your plan.

As a soldier for Saint Michael, satan’s armies will be trampled beneath me in your name and through all doubts cast and burdens bore will I rise again, if even in death.

For as it is written: No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him.

In this, I pray.


Officer Damian Jackson
Escondido PD

April 30, 2008

Hey Cousin: I was down at the HOJ the other day, and I stopped to look for you on the wall which had the group pics from the various academy classes, and got excited, cuz I found you and immediately got the chills, in your picture, you were the only one giving your side profile, almost like you were looking up at God and on your cap there was a bright light shining down on it, like you were picked out of that group for some reason. I was blown away to see that, it was almost like a sign, were you the star, we'd say so of course, but I am amazed to see that and laughed to see you sporting your side profile, always in a class of your own my dear, love you and miss you! oh, I ran into Hans in uniform and that was nice to see, he was rushing off to be in court, wow, lots of friendly faces, watch over him, Dave, Crystal, and the others pls keep them safe. I/We know you will. Love YOU always!

Big Cousin

April 23, 2008

Miss u more than you know...

April 21, 2008

You are a hero and I have come to believe that:

God sends heroes into the world.
He gives just the right parents and families to
welcome, love and encourage each hero.
God blesses their lives together on Earth
with more love, joy and happiness than
could be imagined.

God surrounds each hero with true friends
to laugh with and share their way.
He blesses them with brotherly love
and treasured days.

Heroes are called to be
warriors in the Army of Christ
and are armed with His power and might.
Heroes shine with the Light of Life,
and bring God's love, hope and joy
to all they meet.

God gives His heroes work
to serve and protect His people.

Sadly, God doesn't tell them their time
on Earth will be too short.
Heroes simply follow His call,
lay down their lives for their friends,
and are missed dearly.

I am grateful that I was chosen to be your mother,
a mother of a hero.

I love you,

April 15, 2008

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