Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Police Officer Isaac Anthony Espinoza

San Francisco Police Department, California

End of Watch Saturday, April 10, 2004

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Reflections for Police Officer Isaac Anthony Espinoza

Thinking of you and all of your loved ones on this day. I know for some it has felt like just yesterday that you were here, but for others it has felt like a lifetime since they saw your smile, felt your warm touch and heard your tender voice. You will never be forgotten and all those cherised memories of you will live on in the hearts of those that love you. Continue to watch over them and protect them. You have not been forgotten.

Bob Gordon
Father of fallen Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

April 10, 2008

Isaac, you are in inspiration today as you are everyday. I can't believe tomorrow will be four years, Your memory lives on everyday, and just yesterday T did something you did when you were 10, all I did was smile, knowing how cute he was and seeing your mischeif in him :) You were an absolutely beautiful person, and I so miss you!

I am so thankful for your beautiful wife and daughter. Because of them, it helps :( I sure miss you but thanks for all the memories. I love you !

I

Your cousin

April 9, 2008

ALWAYS IN OUR THOUGHTS
FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS...

See you Thursday night in the garden...

Sgt. Sherman W. Lee
Bayview Station-Third Watch

April 9, 2008

Always in our hearts and prayers

Sonia

April 9, 2008

ITS THAT WEEK AGAIN WHERE ALL THOUGHTS ARE OF YOU AND THAT NIGHT.NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES WE SAY CANT BELIEVED YOU ARE GONE ITS TRUE AND UNBELIEVEABLE EACH TIME. ITS CONSUMES EVERY THOUGHT AND REASONING IN ME. ON HOLY SATURDAY MY THOUGHTS WERE OF YOU AND HOW GOD CHOSE THAT NIGHT TO TAKE YOU TO HEAVEN. IT SHOULD NO HAVE BEEN YOU ISSAC. AND THE YEARS JUST KEEP GOING BY FASTER .YOU ARE NEVER FORGOTTEN IN OUR FAMILY FOREVER MARIAN AND FAMILT

April 6, 2008

Isaac,
As this 4th year comes up quickly, I was reminded of this awesome poem that sums up a lot. For you and your family, I think it's very fitting:

SAINT MICHAEL'S BOYS
Not long ago, the struggle between Good and Evil erupted, again, into war.

The Devil threw his forces against the very Gates of Heaven, themselves.

His attack beaten back, and his forces decimated he withdrew and called for a meeting with God.

And Satan began.....

“Who were those men who stood their ground, When they were just some thousand few?

And when Gabriel's Army is clad in gold, Who were those warriors all clad in blue?

They were out-numbered one thousand-to-one And should have run like new-born foals,

But when they showed no fear I knew That you'd sent out men who have no souls,

And there, at last, I have you, Through all your boasts you've lied,

So no more claims of righteousness And behind your Commandments hide,

You've cheated and you've robbed me, Those men, they are my proof,

The soul-less can't be yours in Heaven, But mine in Hell, beneath my roof."

God listened, then replied....

"My poor, misguided child The countless errors of your ways,

Those warriors stood against you, now, As they did in mortal days,

I knew they wouldn't turn and run, For they've faced your worst before,

And that is why I placed them there, To keep safe and guard my door.

As for those battered coats of blue, They wear with such fierce pride

That if I ordered them to change, Even then I’d be defied,

Yet, you believe they have no souls, When their souls are why they're here,

For in life each took an oath they kept With a price so steep and dear,

When even in the face of death Their honor did cowardice decline,

Their hearts, they never could be yours, Blessed children, they are mine,

And it's strange that you don't know them, Since you've sent me every one,

Each time your murderers and thieves Killed a policeman's father's son,

With tear-stained eyes I greet them all, Cut far too soon from their families' joys,

So send your worthless soldiers of Hell...

And they'll meet Saint Michael's Boys."


God bless.

Officer Damian Jackson
Escondido PD

April 3, 2008

The other night Dave and I both had dreamed about you. It was if your spirit was in our home. I had a dream it was your bday and all these people were were in your home giving you gifts. You were so happy and the smile on your face was just contagious. I woke up knowing that you are really happy where you are.
Dave had dream that he was going to back you up the day you were shot. He flew across town just like the night of april 10th, but when he got to there it was too late.

It's amazing to me that we were both were dreaming of you. We didn't even talk about you the night before, so that was even more weird. All I can say is that I know you are around us at times. If it wasn't for you, who knows if our own paths would have crossed. For that reason, we will forever remember and be grateful to you.

I love you cous.

A

April 3, 2008

God Bless you, Isaac and the Espinoza family,

Yesterday was an amazing service at church, the most important of the year and I thought of you and your family and kept you in my prayers.

We had a small gathering at home following the service. It had been a while since it had happened, but once again, all on her own, my daughter Emily let two balloons go up into the air and told me that she was giving one to Bella and that the other was going to fly up to see everyone in heaven.

I wanted to take a moment to say Happy Easter, tell you that you are all still and will always be in my thoughts and prayers and to give you some heads up on those random balloons coming your way...

May the Lord walk with you always.

Officer Damian Jackson
Friend

March 24, 2008

Hi ,I`m Kassy I`m 8 years old now HappyEaster.I MISS YOU.

March 22, 2008

Always remembering you and keeping you in my prayers. Today is Good Friday and always such a sad reminder of what is just around the corner. Tonight was the night that my husband saw you for the last time, you and Renata were going out to dinner for your anniv. something he will never forget. Always in our hearts and prayers. Happy Easter!

Sonia

March 21, 2008

This is Holy Week and today is Good Friday, the last day that I saw you in 2004. You were waiting for me to pick up Isabella, and I was late. I'm sorry I was late.

I miss you,
Mom

March 21, 2008

Though it has been a few years since you left this place, your memory still inspires me. I never knew you personally, but your influence is felt upon me by the others you have touched. Whenever I feel like my judgement may be slipping or is flawed in a specific incident, I remember back to my academy (class 12) and ask myself "What would Issac Do?" I also ask myself what would God do...somehow the two decisions seem similar to me. You lived your life as a true hero, always walking in the light of the Lord. I am thankful I knew of a person who walked through life in a manner many cannot acheive, as daily I see many who are on the opposite end of the spectrum. You, as well as others close to you, inspire me daily to: temper my judgement with empathy, put myself in another man's shoes, treat the people I deal with as a fellow soul, and to remember what is important in life. Working in the job can jade that perspective often times, and I am glad I can reference you as an anchor to hold me to what is important in life: God, family, my fellow man. Thank you Issac...God bless you as you walk with him...and your family as long as they still walk here with me.

Friend
Friend

February 26, 2008

Happy Valentine's Day!! :)
Still think of you. You will never be forgotten.

February 14, 2008

Missing you on Valentine's Day and everyday. I love you!

Mom

February 14, 2008

Isaac although we were not here for the holidays, you were in our thoughts were we were. Went to mass and said a prayer for you and your family. You are so very fresh in our hearts, thoughts and prayers. Miss you always. Love

Sonia

January 19, 2008

dear issac,its been awhile since ive written but younare never out of my thoughts holidays have come and gone,but they are never the same. you and gil are not here anymore and i feel we just go through the motions. we do it for the kids but our feeligs are very sad. i still expect you and your family to come over xmas eve and have dessert and see mike and athena. she turned 10 yrs old already. just yesterday was the christening and you were her godfather. we miss you very issac and still cant believe you are gone. watch over gil for us and we will be looking forward to your vigil again love marian

January 19, 2008

Dearest Son:

Its New Year's eve. Looking back over 2007 I'm remembering after nine agonizing days of waiting for the verdict in January, "guilty with malice, for the murder of a police officer," you my precious son. Then in April the sentence "life in prison without parole." God bless the Judge for the most severest sentence possible in your case because of the politics of the city.

Then the very next week after the sentence, Regina telling us that she was five months' pregnant, and on Labor Day weekend, the birth of Aiyana, a gift from Heaven. Isabella turned 7 on her birthday and she, along with Aiyana are the joys of my life.

Three other trials ended this year for Police Officers, Stephan (E.O.W. 2004), Larry, and Dan (each E.O.W. 2005), killed in the line of duty in towns near our area. All three ended with death penalty sentences. The facts in your case, the witnesses, testimonies, and evidence collected all were just as compelling as theirs. The California and Washington D. C. Memorials honored three of your SFPD brothers, Darryl, Nick and Bryan, each killed in the line of duty in 2006.

Your cousin Lucy, died of breast cancer. And numerous new cousins were born. Jerry received the Police Officer of the Year Award, Hans graduated the academy, Ruddy got married and Derrick turned 40.

Nothing will bring you back, and all the changes of life can't heal the pain. As I "move on" in this life I'm reminded that I'm moving closer to where you are. Three years and eight months since you went to our Heavenly home. It's as if it was yesterday. Time passes quickly, and one day at a time helps to see it through. I miss the way it was, and the joys you brought to my life.

As the new year approaches I can't imagine how it will be. For one thing I am sure, it will have its ups and its downs; its joys and its sorrows. Until we meet again your love, my son, and my motherly love for you remain a constant in my heart. With every breath I take and with each beat of my heart I give thanks to God for, and I treasure, our time together.

I love you,
Mom

December 31, 2007

Sometimes when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated. With you being gone there is a heartache that no one can heal, but love leaves a memory that no one can steal. My family and i miss you ZAK. We think about you everyday. Take care my friend.

December 31, 2007

Merry Christmas, my precious Son:

I received the following on a card from your cousin, Nancy, and I wanted to share it with your page.

"Always Remembered

I know I am still with you
in your prayers, your thoughts, your heart.
And though you cannot see me,
I will always be a part
of life's sweet celebratons
in those times when you reflect
on how, though things are different,
through our love, we still connect.
We'll see each other someday
when our spirits all are free,
until then, I am with you
because you remember me."

I love you,
Mom

December 26, 2007

Merry Christmas Isaac. I know that all of you boys are together this holiday season. I would have never thought in a million years I would know two killed in the line of duty. My boyfriend reminded me sometime ago last year when I folded your shirt (the one we received at your walk) and I muttered out loud (and unknowingly) and prayed I would never have to go through somethng like this again. I never wanted to see another fellow officer to be harmed ever again. Little did I know the evil, pain and tragedy lurking literally right around the corner that would affect and change my life forever.

I remember you too this holiday season. Merry Christmas from a friend who was greatly touched by you even if only having the pleasure of knowing you for a short while.

Friend
Friend

December 26, 2007

Hi Isaac,

I just wanted to take a moment to wish you and your family a Merry Christmas.... I know it has been a while and I am sorry that I have not left a reflection, but I wanted you to know that you are always in my thoughts when I go 10-8. Your memorial Isaac sticker sits on my computer keyboard so I look at it every time I am in my car. Thank you for being such an inspiration to so many!

Please give Larry, Tony, Dan, and now our newest member to the Wall of Warriors, Jeff, a big hug for me.

R.AKANS #1354
ESPD/PCPA

December 26, 2007

Merry Christmas my sweet little God Son. You are always in my prayers, my heart, my memory. Auntie

December 25, 2007

Hi Cous:

It's that time of year again and we can't help but think of you and popo and uncle tony and all those that are with them in heaven. X-mas can't be the same without you, but life goes on and time helps the wounds but never completely heals them. There are about 18 little ones running around or about to, that's nuts, you'd love the chaos and the looks in their eyes when they are opening gifts, I know you would, we'd have to calm you and the kids down Im sure, ha. Not to mention, the Bostons, can't forget them, the joys of our day, what keeps us going. I know you'll be watching us and know we'll be thinking of you. I love you and wish you were here with us. Love, Big Cousin.

December 20, 2007

Isaac,
I came across this and thought it was so fitting to share with you and sums up so much. You're still with me each and every day. Renata and Isabella - thank you for the beautiful Christmas card (it is my favorite and Emily wanted to hang it in her room!...she should be letting another balloon go your way very soon!)

Carol,
You called us Soldiers for St. Michael and I carry that honor each day. For you too, I thought this was very special.


SAINT MICHAEL'S BOYS
Not long ago, the struggle between Good and Evil erupted, again, into war. The Devil threw his forces against the very Gates of Heaven, themselves. His attack beaten back, he withdrew and called for a meeting with God.

And Satan began.....

Who were those men who stood their ground,
When they were just some thousand few?
And when Gabrielle's Army is clad in gold,
Why did they all wear blue?

"They were out-numbered ten-to-one
And should have run like new-born foals,
But when they showed no fear I realized
That you'd used men who have no souls,

"And there, at last, I have you,
Through all your boasts you've lied,
So no more claims of righteousness
And behind no more Commandments hide,

"You've cheated and you've robbed me,
Those men, they are my proof,
The soul-less can't be yours in Heaven,
But mine in Hell, beneath my roof."

God listened, then replied....

"My poor, misguided child
Can't you see the error of your ways?
Those men just stood against you, now,
As they did in mortal days,

"I knew they wouldn't turn and run,
For they've seen your worst before,
And that is why I placed them there,
To keep safe and guard my door."

"As for those battered coats of blue,
They're worn with such fierce pride
That if I ordered them to change,
Then even I might be defied,

"Ye, you believe they have no souls,
When their souls are why they're here,
For in life each took an oath they kept
Although the price was steep, and dear,

"Even tempted by the face of death
Their hearts did cowardice decline,
You see, they never could be yours,
As they were then, and always, mine,

"And it's strange that you don't know them,
Since you've sent me every one,
Each time your murderers and theives
Killed a policeman's father's son,

"With tear-stained eyes I greet them all,
Cut too soon from their families' joys,
So send me all your soldiers of Hell...
And they'll meet Saint Michael's boys."

God bless you guys this holiday season and may the peace of the Lord comfort and hold you.

All my best...

Officer Damian Jackson
Escondido PD / Palomar Police Academy

December 20, 2007

I never met you. You passed while I was in the academy. Your service and dedication still motivates me to this day.

Reading all the reflections from your friends, family and co-workers makes me realize that I will never be even half the man that you are.

I've got no doubt you are with God now and are looking over us all. Rest in peace Isaac. The world needs more men like you, not less.

My prayers are with your family.

December 19, 2007

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