Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

DEAR ISSAC,ITS ALMOST TWO YEARS SINC THAT HORRIBLE NIGHT.ITS SAURDAY TODQY AND IT HAPPENED ON THIS KIND OF NIGHT. I VISITD YOR PARENTS TODAY AND IT WAS A NICE VISIT.I REALLY CHERISH Y FRENDSHIP WITH THEM.THEY ARE ALWAYS CONCERNED ABOUT ME,AND ITS THEM THAY HAVE THE BIGGEST PAIN,BUT THEY ALWAYS UNDERSTAND.WE TALK ALOT ABOUT YOU AND ISABLLA CALLED ON THE PHONEAND THEY WERE SO HAPPY.LEFT HER A EASTER GIFT.YOUR LOSS IS FELY VERT DEEP,AND I KNOW MONDAY IS GOING TO BE SO HARD FOR YOUR FAMILY,WE WILL ALL BE THER TO GIVE THEM SUPPORT AND LOVE. I ALWAYS LOOK AT YOUR PICTURE WITH ATHENA AND SHE WAS SO HAPPY WHEN SHE KNEW YOU WERE COMING OVER ON XMAS EVE.SHE LOVED HER GODFATHER AND I AM SO HAPPY YOU WERE A PART OF OUR LIVES. LOVE MARIAN

April 8, 2006

Miss your jokes and laughter. Wish everyone was like you Isaac!

April 7, 2006

Issac,

I'm here to thank you again. The day I was hired with FVPD I left you a note telling you how great it was that you saw me through and here I am again because today, I completed my FTO training. I know you were with me, during the long nights and the difficult calls for service. I constantly think about you when I am out patroling the streets.

I have had such great teachers, and to each of them I look when I am in question, but I ultimately model myself after you. You were the best, and remain to be the driving inspiration that sends so many behind bars where they belong.

Watch over me as I continue on my own. Watch our brothers and continue to inspire the next generation. Still be the light that has become a beacon of hope for the future of this cold and dark world.

I thank you for all you have done for me. I would not be half the man I am if it werent for the legacy you left and the impact you stamped on my heart.

Officer James Cataline
Fountain Valley Police Department

April 7, 2006

It will be two years that your tour of duty ended. Many broken hearts were left behind all because of some reckless individual who had no regard for human life. You have not been forgotten and are a true hero. Keep watch over your loved ones and those still out on patrol. Wrap your wings around your family and keep them close to you and help them with their grief.

Bob Gordon, father of fallen officer Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

Bob Gordon

April 6, 2006

It is going to be two years, and seems like yesterday. We keep you alive in our house. Every day we have to say something about you. Your picture is on our mantel and of course Monica walks by there every day, and says, "oh Isaac, we miss you. You are missed so very much, and even though it has been two years, it seems like yesterday. You will always be in our hearts. Rest in peace, Isaac. Love you. Sonia

April 6, 2006

Isaac- Its been a while since i have left you some thoughts. Things have just been so crazy with work and trying to get hired on. Im just chasing that dream still. Its almost been two years since the good Lord figured it was your time to watch over us. Not a day has gone by since the first time i heard your name that i dont think about you and the major impact you have left in my heart, you have changed my thought process about life entirely. You are the picture perfect portrait of what a man should be and your name will live on forever. Everday when i open my wallet i have the pleasure of seeing a "64 isaac would" sticker in there and it reminds of the lifestyle i am trying to lead, Everday when i walk to my car i see the big sticker i have on the back window that says "Issac would" with the 64. I get questions all the time of what that means, and when i get to take time to mention your name to a complete stranger it honestly gives me the chills. You are a good hearted man and a rolemodel to me. If i could EVER be half the cop you were i would be 100% satisfied with my career. I cant wait to get on the streets and pick up where you left off. I think about it every single day. I will do nothing but make you proud. I will brave the streets with confidence because i know someone is watching over me and has my back! Thank you so much for being an inspiration in my life!

I was reading through my Bible the other day and for some reason this verse caught my eye and made me think of you and Law Enforcement!

Psalm 140:1-3
- Rescue me O Lord from evil men; protect me from men of violence, who devise evil plans in their hearts and stir up war everyday, they make their tounges as sharp as a serpents, the poison of vipers is on their lips.

-God Bless you Isaac Espinoza!

Eric Dunn
Palomar College Police Academy Class 12

April 5, 2006

Officer Espinoza,
Although I never had the pleasure of meeting you I have been lucky enough to know your one of your cousins for over 20 years now. He rercently within the last few years changed his entire life by becoming clean and sober after over 20 years of addiction. I am very proud of him as I know that you were proud of him also. I know that you are one of the people that he continues to look up to and there is not a day that goes by that you are not thought of. Your life and the human being that you were inspire your cousin to contine his sobriety and live a better life. You are a hero in his eyes, your family's eyes i'm sure and even thogh I was never lucky enough to meet you, you will always be a hero in my heart. Thank You Isaac.

jmh
CIVILIAN

April 4, 2006

Bro, I will never forget you.It still feels unreal after almost two years. I think of you everyday bro.
Love you
Edgar.

April 2, 2006

God Bless you and may you rest in peace.
To Officer Espinoza's family I am sorry for your loss this little verse was sent to me on the loss of a loved one, I would like to think it will bring you some comfort.

When I am in need of comfort
I walk down memory lane
There I see you smiling
I talk with you again
And as I wander slowly back
I seem to hear you say
Don't grieve don't cry dear loved one
We'll meet again someday.

Anne (civilian) U.K.
S.W.Police (retd)

March 31, 2006

Hey dude, I brouse your reflections now and again. I worked some overtime in the bayview last week and was walking out the back when I ran into Derrick. I see you in him everytime I see him. I dont know what it is. He will never know how much respect I have for him. I saw Barry too. I trained Barry and look at him as one I can say I will never forget. I am all so proud of him too. It just fits that those two are together as partners. They work very hard and are a reflection of you. I wanted to stop by and say hello my brother. --- Ian

Ian
SFPD

March 21, 2006

Son: You know that I think about you everyday and often throughout the day. All most daily I come to this page. I usually do not leave a reflection because words do not adequately describe the feelings I hold inside. I am consistently searching for things to read that will bring me comfort. The following short poem reminds me of how precious our memories are. It also helps to confirm for me the hope of eternal life together with our family and friends and also the communion of saints (you up in Heaven with us here on earth):

Family

There is nothing like family.
Our memories sustain us
through whatever life may bring
Wherever we may be...
We are connected by ties that
neither time nor distance can alter...

poem by Richard Woodard

March 18, 2006

You are always in our hearts and prayers. Sonia

March 18, 2006

you will always be in my prayers for you and your family..

Estefano L.

March 15, 2006

Espinoza Family and Friends,

Stay strong and keep your heads up during the trial, and with the coming date...Please know that we love (not "loved", because we STILL and ALWAYS WILL love) Isaac and think of him every day- whether its the "Isaac Would Go" t-shirts, his "64" star pins, or if we're watching his video, Isaac is remembered. I've seen Isaac, and he has comforted me on the street...thank-u. May God bless you and yours, Patty.

Ofc. Brown, mids
san francisco pd

March 15, 2006

I come to your site almost every other day, and I look at your picture and still can't believe your really gone. It was only yesterday we were at Popo's house having our Sunday Dinner. I love you Isaac. I hear your dads birthday is coming, and I can't help to think how he must feel when he can't celebrate his birthday with his only son.
The son who was his best friend. The son who just like him. The son who loved him more than anything. The son who lay down his life for him. The son who made him laugh. The son who made him proud. The son who gave him his first beautiful grandchild. I can't imagin the pain my uncle must feel as he trys to put on a smile to carry on. Please watch over your dad Isaac, and remind him that he has a lot of family that loves him! May God Bless you Uncle Isaac, Aunt Carol, Regina, Renata, and Bella, as you celebrate this day. May you find peace, joy, and comfort in having one another to lean on during these wonderful yet hard times.

From: Your cousin who misses you everyday.............

Cousin

Cousin

March 14, 2006

Save your tears
for the day
when our pain is far behind
on your feet
come with me
we are soldiers stand or die
Save your fears
take your place
save them for the judgement day
fast and free
follow me
time to make the sacrifice
we rise or fall
I'm a soldier, born to stand
in this waking hell I am
witnessing more than I can compute
pray myself we don't forget
lies, betrayed and the oppressed
please give me the strength to be the truth
people facing the fire together
if we don't, we'll lose all we have found

Cadet Jason Veraldi
Class 12 Graduate, Palomar Academy

March 14, 2006

dear issac,you are missed very much. today is 23 months and i know that terrible day is coming soon. i yalk to your mom alot and she misses you so much. we went to erics grandma's funral and as always it bring so many memories. i took jeanne to your grave and we stayed awile and reflected. it still isnt real i still see your friends carrying you and its a beautiful thing they wanted to do but something that shouldnt have had to be., watch over us issac and if gil is there with you tell him i miss him very much. love marian

March 10, 2006

Isaac, I still see you every day. You are the first person I see each day I come into work. We will never forget you here at Palomar. I continue to pray for your family. Mrs. and Mr. E, Renata and Bella...I think of you often and hope you are doing well...you are all in my prayers.

Shanon Dreyer
Palomar College Police Academy

March 9, 2006

A Tribute to the Heroes Among Us


Our hearts go out to you and your families. You’re in our thoughts and our prayers. Thank you just doesn’t seem like enough for men and women who are heroes when we need them, but invisible, ignored, and unappreciated when we don’t.

You rescue us, save our possessions, our lives and our families. You are the heroes among us. You are always there for us in the most traumatic moments of our lives. No matter when we call, we just expect that you will come and do whatever it takes to help us. Your selflessness and dedication are awe-inspiring. We show our appreciation with low pay in many parts of the country, little respect, and indifference for the issues in your lives, most of the time. As young children, we want to grow up and be you until we get older and realize the risk isn’t worth the reward.

As outsiders, we envy you secretly. You have benefits in your careers that our jobs just can’t provide. Your work is not the same old thing every day. You get the opportunity to be heroes every time you go to work. You obviously love what you do, and you’re a family. You have a oneness the rest of society longs for. You care about and support each other. You know each other’s families, share each other’s lives. The rest of us face life’s trials and tribulations alone. You are never alone. You have each other, always.

It is our loss not to know you better. This world, this country, your individual towns truly are better places because of you. To lose one of you is a great tragedy, an irreplaceable, immeasurable loss for society. We should be grateful for and to you, and honor you regularly for all you do for us day in and day out without a word of thanks or praise.

We should be ashamed of ourselves; and yet, you continue to do all you do for us in spite of our behavior, which speaks to the people you are. How many of us are willing to do a job knowing we may not go home at the end of the day?

Maybe one day in the future, you will all be recognized for all you do with better pay, and the community support and respect you so richly deserve. Until then, hang tough together, and God Bless You and your families.

Anonymous
Houston,Texas

March 7, 2006

We Do Not Need A Special Day

I do not need a special day
To bring you to my mind.
The days I do not think of you
Are very hard to find.

Each morning when I awake
I know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heartache
As I try to carry on.

My heart still aches with sadness
And secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know.

My thoughts are always with you.
Your place no one can fill.
In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.

There will always be a heartache,
And often a silent tear,
But always a precious memory
Of the days when you were here.

If tears could make a staircase,
And heartaches make a lane,
I'd walk the path to Heaven
And bring you home again.

I hold you close within my heart,
And there you will remain,
To walk with me throughout life
Until we meet again.

(Author Unknown)

March 7, 2006

That was such a beautiful poem and I'm sure if little Isabella is anything like her papi...she will be that little girl, standing, speaking proud of her beautiful ANGEL.

March 1, 2006

Thank u so much! This day I have imagined over and over again but I know that once it comes Bella's song will touch the hearts.

February 26, 2006

what a beautiful poem! thank-u!

sfpd-bayview mids

February 26, 2006

I also lost a special person, my beloved classmate, in 2004. I think Isaac's friends and family will like this poem. It was written by an anonymous person who cares about Police Officers.

Her hair up in a pony tail, her favorite dress tied with a bow.
Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go.
But her mommy tried to tell her, that she should probably stay home.
Why the kids might not understand, if she went to school alone.
But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say.
What to tell her classmates, on this Daddy's Day.
But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone.
And that was why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home.
But the little girl went to school, eager to tell them all,
About a dad she never sees, a dad who never calls.
There were daddies along the wall in back, for everyone to meet.
Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats.
One by one the teacher called, a student from the class,
To introduce their daddy, as seconds slowly passed,
At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare...
Each of them were searching, for a man who wasn't there.
"where's her daddy at?" she heard a boy call out,
"She probably doesn't have one," another student dared to shout!
And from somewhere near the back, she heard a daddy say,
"Looks like another deadbeat dad, too busy to waste his day."
The words did not offend her, as she smiled at her friends,
And looked back at her teacher, who told her to begin...
And with hands behind her back, slowly she began to speak,
And out from the mouth of a child, came words incredibly unique.
"My Daddy couldn't be here, because he lives so faraway,
But I know he wishes he could be with me on this day.
And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know,
All about my daddy, and how much he loves me so.
He loved to tell me stories, he taught me to ride my bike,
He surprised me with pink roses, and taught me to fly a kite,
We used to share fudge sundaes and ice cream in a cone,
And though you cannot see him, I'm not standing all alone.
'Cause my daddy's always with me, even though we are apart.
I know because he told me, he'll forever be here in my heart".
With that, her little hand reached up, and lay across her chest,
Feeling her own heartbeat, beneath her favorite dress.
From somewhere in the crowd of dads, her mother stood in tears,
Proudly watching her daughter, who was wise beyond her years.
She stood up for the love of a man not in her life.
Doing what was best for her, doing what was right.
When she dropped her hand back down, staring straight into the crowd,
She finished with a voice so soft, but its message clear and loud."I love my daddy very much, he's my shining star,
If he could he'd be here, but heaven's just too far.
Sometimes when I close my eyes, it's like he never went away."
Then she closed her eyes, and saw him there that day.
To her mother's amazement, she witnessed with surprise,
A room full of daddies and children, all starting to close their eyes.
Who knows what they saw before them, who knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for a second, they saw him at her side.
"I know you're with me daddy," to the silence she called out-
What happened next made believers, of those once filled with doubt,
No one in that room could explain it, for each of their eyes had been closed,
But there placed on her desktop, was a beautiful fragrant pink rose.
A child was blessed, if only a moment, by the love of her shining bright star.
And given the gift of believing, that heaven is never to FAR!

LAPD FAMILY

February 24, 2006

Zak,

there is absolutely nothing that i can do to help bring u back. i can only remind u and yours that we think of u every day, at all times...i will never forget that night, i was there, i responded, with all your brothers and sisters...Zak, we love u soooo much, i'm sorry we lost u, we did everything possible...its not fair. i was one of the very last to see u before...i'm sorry.

ofc. brown, bayview mids
sfpd

February 23, 2006