Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Police Officer Stephan Gene Gray

Merced Police Department, California

End of Watch Thursday, April 15, 2004

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Reflections for Police Officer Stephan Gene Gray

Scubs,

It's been awhile since I been here, but I think of you almost everyday. Still hard to talk about your passing, so I keep it inside and deflect the topic. I was recently talking to a friend who encouraged me to face some things. This job plays an awful toll on some of us. Not all, but from what I can see, a large number. Day in and day out we try and do the right thing, by helping people and making our piece of the pie safe. We joined this line of work because we accepted the challenge and wanted to make things better. I am sure there are a few rouges out there but 99.9% of the people that raise their hand and promise to serve and protect, do it to help and make a difference. A lot of negative rhetoric towards officers these days. We are faced with all kinds of new people who don't and never did want us around and, a president who condoned their behavior. You would be just as disgusted as I am. Working counter-terrorism is a whole new ball field. Almost makes this job worse. Seeing what is out there and the impact their actions can create can make a grown man weep. I am coming to the back 9 and if all goes well, hopefully starting a new chapter. Remember our golf play in Monterey? With a little time, I would have corrected your slice..LOL. There are a few things I would have done different. Chief handled the situation horribly and I needed to get out. What a POS. I feel like I ran, rather than help. Not sure where my mindset was but obviously not where it should have been. I regret leaving and I am truly sorry for that. You haven't been to see me lately, but I know you have more important things to take care of. Still not able to watch the tribute DVD the guys made, but someday I will. I have never had a friend like you and I never tried to replace you. No one would come close. I need a work out partner man. It sucks to workout alone. These cats in the gym these days are morons. Just wanted to touch base with you. I miss you and love you buddy.

Friend

January 19, 2017

Thinking about you today! I hope you are singing your heart out in heavens paradise. I miss you.

Your Friend

August 1, 2016

Stephan....Recently there has been some really bad news about police brutality and excessive use of force..But I always look our time together at MPD and our days at the academy. It's those memories that remind me that it's women and men who serve their community like you did, with honor, professionalism and care that make cops heroes. You will always be my hero..I will never forget your smile, laughter and strength.

Tony

Tony Garcia
Merced PD Co-worker '97

April 13, 2015

Michelle -

Kathleen and I think of you and your kids often. The anniversary of that tragic day never passes without us thinking of Stephan and your family. It amazing how much time has passed since we got to know both of you through Wal-Mart and Gottschalks. He was the best employee I had and took to that line of work, like a fish to water. He was a natural and ALWAYS had a smile on his face. You'll always be in our thoughts!!

Brad

Brad Brigham - Wal-Mart / Employer
Friend

April 7, 2015

Stephan......after all these years I can still see you roaming the station with your big smile, hearty laugh and singing a tune. You always called me "Papi" and I remember our days at the academy with great fondness. I love you brother and will never forget!

Tony - Friend
Merced PD Co-worker '97

November 26, 2014

Stephan, I was so proud tonight. I picked up my granddaughter tonight, she was spending the night with us. On the way home she told me that she had a project due at school soon. I asked her what her project was on, she said that she was writing about her HERO. I asked her who her hero was, (thinking it was me, haha) she told me that she was writing about yon, Stephan Gray. I was so proud. It just tells me that there are so many you are a hero to. I had to share this with you wife. Love you brother.

Joe - Detective friend
Merced PD Co-woker

November 23, 2014

Today was a tragic day, two officers are down from a senseless act. This brought so many heart breaking emotions for me, it took me back to the day you were taken. My prayers are with your family and the family of lost officers today. May God continue to watch over your family and keep them safe. May your memory and love carry them through the difficult times. I think of you often, Rest in Paradise!

Me

October 25, 2014

Remembering you and your family.

Carol Espinoza
Mother of Officer Isaac Espinoza, SFPD, EOW 4/10/04

April 19, 2014

Stephan it was an honor knowing you... RIP Brother

While you may be gone you will never be forgotten

Floyd Padgett
MCMC 507

April 17, 2014

We want to stop by on this 10 year anniversary to thank you once again for your service and sacrifice. Officer Gray please know you will Never be forgotten in the hearts of those who love you and your family.

Our son was so grateful to be able to attend the beautiful dedication ceremony for Sergeant Leap and Stephan Gray on this 10 years anniversary. He wanted to express to everyone including, Michelle how wonderful the ceremony was...

To your family we want to let you know you are always in our prayers and we know you are keeping the beautiful smile on Stephan's face alive as he waits in the Heavenly places watching over all of you

family of
Sgt. Howard Stevenson E.O.W 1/9/05

April 15, 2014

On the 10th anniversary of your death you are still not forgotten and will always be a hero in the eyes of many. Praying for your family and brothers in blue today. Thank you sir, for your dedicated service.

Brandon
Aspiring Police Officer

April 15, 2014

You are on my mind today as you are often when I reflect on the friendship we had! I know you are watching over your family and friends. I can't believe it has been 10 years that you have been gone. I will continue to keep your family in my prayers! May your soul always rest peacefully in heaven!
God Bless you my dear friend!!!

Your friend!

April 15, 2014

RIP brother, was just browsing todays EOW and found you. May God be with you and the ones that are left behind.

MPO Gent #2247
DeKalb County PD, GA

April 15, 2014

Stephan,
I used to see you serve and protect where my brothers and I grew up. You called me, The Kid. I was given the chance to help keep your brothers safe when the organization let me wear a headset. ...I've been given a chance to be a patrolman, near by. Recently I went through an experience and I know you were there. Watching my back. Just as you did when I used to sit at the console closest to your picture in Dispatch. Say Hi to Lee Smith for me. Thank you. 5259 / R10

The
Kid

October 28, 2013

Today you would of been 44!!! I couldn't help but wonder what these past 10 years would of brought, and felt robbed of that opportunity for us all this morning when I woke up. Know that I am thinking of you and that we love and miss you with all of our heart....

michelle gray
wife

August 21, 2013

Big things are getting planned Stephan..you will be proud. A permanant reminder to your department of who you were, a reminder to your beautiful family that we really don't forget..even after 10 years

K Madayag

August 1, 2013

I've been shaing your story with my Criminal Justice students for the past couple years. For some reason we had a really in depth discussion tonight and they were asking alot of really painful questions. I got to share some funny stories. I feel like I got to spend some time with you but it always makes me miss you. I have them monitor ODMP every week and had them pick an officer to dedicate their work. You already know who I dedicate mine to..Miss you my friend. Watch over Michelle, the kids and the rest of us.

Kim Madayag

February 28, 2013

Steph,
The weather outside has been crazy, it reminds of the time you use to make your rounds to the pharmacy to make sure everything was ok. No matter how busy things were you always had a smile and new how to make others smile. Just know you are still making others smile. I want to thank you for showing me that you have to smile no matter what comes your way in life. Keep watching over your loved one. You are missed my friend..

a
Friend

October 23, 2012

Dear Stephan, It has been a long time. I havn't forgotten you,quite the opposite actually. Everytime I head to Fresno I look for your boulevard. I have had the worst 3 years of my life. I often think of you and your smile and wish we could talk like we use to. You always had a way to make me feel better. I lost my nephew due to an overdose, very questionable, but he was only 29. his 2 yr old daughter was sitting on his feet for two days before they found him. ripped my gut out,a year later i lost his sister from a drug overdose, beautiful girl 27 years old. I can not tell you the pain i feel. I am having such a hard time of it. You always had a way of listening and smiling at me, I remember how I would get into trouble at wal-mart for talking with you for too long. I really miss you my friend, Take care of my family, I know that you know who they are. Always remembering you. love to your family. Lisa

Lisa
friend

September 11, 2012

STEPH...
I just wanted to write to you on your birthday today...i can only wish that you are resting peacefully and i am sure you know I would give anything to be making your German Chocolate birthday cake for you today and the kids and I could sing Happy birthday to you on your lunch break like we used to.

I love and miss you so very much
Shell

michelle gray
wife

August 22, 2012

It's weird brother my relatives had a baby tonight, I saw the picture and all I thought about was you. It's wonderful to know that your presence is forever missed. So many of us think of you often and talk about the good times we all shared. Your memory is still making us all happy around work even through the tough times right now. We will never forget.........................57-16.

Joe , co-worker
57-19

June 22, 2012

Steph...
I can hardly believe it has been 8 years now that you have been gone. The PD had a beautiful ceremony to remember your life and your sacrifice on the 15th. It was Sunday this year and I was so proud to see so many people there to honor you. They truly miss working with you and all the life you brought to that department. The kids and I miss you so very much everyday. I can not believe your son will be graduating 8th grade soon. I am so proud of him and how well he is doing, yet I am saddened that you will not be by my side watching it. I have come to realize that the milestones will come regardless and find strength in knowing that somehow I know your presence is there, that 106 will pop up somewhere just like it always does. Just in time to remind me that you are always with us. You will forever be missed by "your babies" and your "shell". I am so thankful that I had the time I had with you, but what I wouldn't give to have you come home. We love you...

michelle gray
wife

April 27, 2012

Stephan,

I spent the entire day wishing I could be with your family, friends and co-workers as they honored you today in Merced. Unfortunately I couldn't be but I thought, all day, about what it was like to work with you and the other officers of Merced PD. I miss those days; we saw some crazy stuff, did some wild things, and we were all pretty tight. I was telling some of my new co-workers about you and about how you loved your Mocha Blast. I intended to buy a round of Blasts for the shift in your honor but calls for service caused us to be too late, and B&R closed on us. So, I hope you don't mind, but I bought a round of shakes at In & Out (Neopolitan). I told them that I knew you would have enjoyed it, and we would have certainly enjoyed your company.

Deputy Colin T. Smith
San Mateo County Sheriff's Office

April 16, 2012

I hope you are resting in peace. Keep giving your family the strength you always had. You are missed and thought about often my friend.

Your friend
Friend

April 15, 2012

Stephan, I am so grateful for you, being in so many life's. Another year has gone by and it seems like it was just yesterday. Your family is just amazing, knowing how hard it must be for them, yet I know they're charging on. I will see Michelle and the kids at 10:00 am. today as we all get together to honor a great man. We will never forget "106", "57-16"

Joe Deliman, Peace Officer
Merced PD Co-worker

April 15, 2012

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