Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Merry Christmas son.
I Love You

Dad

December 24, 2015

Thanksgiving is a time when we give thanks for all that the Lord has given us.
And I want to thank the Lord for the sons that he gave us to keep for him for a little while.
Debra, thinking of Cole today and thinking of you and I know how much you miss him.
May God continue to comfort you as you continue to travel through this time.
Time will pass and we will see our loved ones again.

Lorraine
Mother of a Fallen Deputy

November 28, 2015

Thinking of you and your family as another holiday season rolls around. Please say hello to my Daddy for me. It's so hard having empty seats around the dinner table, especially at this time of year.

Jessi

November 27, 2015

Cole

It's been a while since I have been on here. I think the of you everyday. It's been so long since you have gone. Sometimes it seems like forever and then it seems like yesterday. There's a song that goes " I've come a long way since you where here and I'll tell you all about it when I see you again ". That song is for us. I have come so far since you left and I can't wait to tell you all about when I see you again. Those words are so true for us. We have so much to talk about. I love you my son and I can't wait until I see you again. I have been so blessed in my life and you are the reason for every blessing.

Momma

September 23, 2015

Cole,

I remember when you and I went to high school together. I remember giving you a hard time about carrying a tennis racket around when you didn't even really play tennis! I remember having random conversations with you and laughing about the craziest things. I also remember in school that we called ourselves friends, now that I too have taken the oath of a law enforcement officer, I can now call us brothers... Rest in Peace brother and watch my 6.

Keith Cantrell
Catoosa County S.O.

June 16, 2015

Hi my Angel. Today is your birthday. You would be 33 can you believe that. I have tried to stay busy today it has not worked. I can't help but think of the grand babies we would have. I can't even imagine what it would be like to see your eyes and smile in another. I think about that a lot. I still have the nightmares of you not being here. I guess they will never go away. I long with every fiber of my being to see you to hear you to touch you. Happy birthday my beautiful son. I love you forever.

love
mom

June 4, 2015

Another year has come and gone. I tried to pretend April 25th wasn't what it really was. That didn't work too well. Even though minutes turn to hours and hours to days... to weeks... months... years... and now 12 years... the hole in my heart from the day you were taken is still there. It is so hard to believe, even after all this time. That seems like a different lifetime, a different place, a dream... that really became a nightmare. I hope you are enjoying the beauty and awesomeness of Heaven, but the emptiness of those of us left behind is gut-wrenching. Lifting up prayers, as always, especially for your Mom, Dad, and Nan. Say hi to my Daddy for me please! Love you both beyond words!

Love,
Jessi

Jessi

April 30, 2015

Cole,

I love you and I miss you.
You will never be forgotten and always in my heart.

Love,
Lynn

Lynn

April 25, 2015

Cole it's been 12 years today. It's been long and hard. I never stop missing you. I dreamed that I saw you and talked to you and hugged and held you. It was wonderful. I would give anything to hear your voice and hold you and tell you how very much I love you. I have tried to stay busy but I can't let it go. A lot of tears. Sometimes it is so overwhelming that I don't know if I can stand it another minute. You are missed every minute of the day and I never ever forget. I love you with all my heart. I prayed that Jesus would give you a special hug for me. Please be with me. My beautiful son.

Momma

April 25, 2015

Cole,

It's hard to believe that 12 years ago tomorrow I lost a great friend and brother. I'm thankful for the time we did have and thankful for having such an amazing human in my life. Can't wait to see you again and thank you for serving and protecting from above. I love you friend.

Adam H

April 23, 2015

Many have come,
Many have gone,
As long as you are in my heart I am never alone.
I Love You,
My Son

DAD

April 7, 2015

Happy New Year Cole. I hope you and Momma and Uncle JC are have a joyous time in Heaven. Miss you and love you with all my heart and soul!

Love
Lynn

Lynn

December 31, 2014

Merry Christmas Cole. I didn't forget you I thought of you every second. I was a little sick. I know you were with me. I love you and miss you every minute of everyday. I know you had a wonderful Christmas say hi to Daddy and Gary and Rat and all those that have gone on. I know Jessie gives you lots of hugs and kisses for me. Lynn misses her terribly. I love you my beautiful son always and forever. Be with me.

Mother

December 28, 2014

Cole remembering you and your family during these holidays.
It is still so hard.
We miss our sons so much.
The "new normal" doesn't always work especially around the holidays.
God bless your family and may He continue to give them comfort.

Lorraine Bond

December 24, 2014

Merry Christmas my son.

Dad

December 23, 2014

Hey Cole, missing you and Momma so much more this season than last year. Seems each year gets harder even after so many years. I have accomplished something this past week that I have wanted to do for almost 12 years. When Momma died I couldnt bring myself to fix her room back and I kept the door shut for almost 10 years until I finally opened it up and actually took the door down. Then after 2 more years I have finally painted the whole room and put up a new bedroom suite and fixed it how I thought she would like it. I am pretty proud of myself and I hope she is proud of me. I have come a long way from losing her then you were gone and I was completely lost and no clue as to what to do with my life. I will always be sad without you and Momma but I am going to do my best to make it thru this lifetime until I can spend it with the two of you again. Please keep looking out for your Mom and Nan and Jessi as I know you always do. I love you with all my heart and more.

Love,
Lynn

Lynn

November 25, 2014

Missing you...
Losing you was the first time I realized that life really isn't fair and that no one is promised tomorrow. If God can take such a wonderful man at the young age of 20, he can take anyone at anytime. It seems though that he doesn't. It seems like he only takes the good people. Those of us who are left behind have to just find a way to make it through each day. I hope that you and my Daddy-O are having a great time in Heaven. I can't wait to see you both again and hug your necks. How on earth your parents have made it 11 1/2 years without their baby is beyond me, because 4 months without my Daddy have been sheer torture. My heart literally aches to think of the possibility of living 50+ more years without my Daddy around.
Love,
J

Jessi

November 15, 2014

Happy Halloween baby. I have been sitting here thinking about all the best times we had. It was our favorite holiday I think. I remember you wore that batman costume forever. Such wonderful memories. I love you with all my heart. I never forget.

mother

October 31, 2014

I miss you so very much Cole.
I love you always and forever.

Lynn

August 15, 2014

Cole,
By now I'm sure you have done a lot of catching up with my Daddy. I hope you've shown him the ropes around Heaven and introduced him to JC and to other fallen officers like yourself (especially Daniel Starks). It is so hard to believe that in about a decade I have lost three men who meant more to me than any other man -- you, my Daddy, and my PopPop. Help out my Dad and watch over our families. I cannot imagine the pain that your Mom, Dad, and Nan still feel almost 11 1/2 years later. I know how terrible it has been to lose my Daddy-O, and I can't fathom losing a child, especially an only son as wonderful as you. I had the privilege and honor of seeing your Mom, Nan, and Lynn at Daddy's visitation. I was so humbled and honored that they come to support my family. I had no expectations that they'd come, but it touched my heart in a way that I cannot even begin to explain. It was so good to see the three of them and hug their necks. Your Mom is as beautiful as ever and I saw your twinkling eyes when she looked at me. It took me back in time.
Please watch over us all. I'm so jealous that you are with my Dad, but I know you'll take good care of him. I love you both, and please tell my Daddy that I miss him more than any words could ever express.

Jessi

August 4, 2014

Cole I saw Jesse she is beautiful. You would be so proud of her. I know you are. I am. Cole I love you and miss you so very much. I see in Jesse what you would have been and it makes me so proud.

Mother

July 28, 2014

Cole my heart is broken. John Garger Jessie dad passed away Monday night. I know you know that because I know with out a doubt that you were there to embrace him. John went to every memorial police ride to honor your memory in April and collected blue ribbons for police week for Whitfield and Murray county and gave them to the departments. He loved you very much and never ever forgot you. He honored your memory more than any person I know . My heart breaks for his family he was so young. He was a active member of COPS. I don't understand why the best people have to be taken away so young. Wrap your arms around him and thank him for all he has done to honor you. He will not be forgotten by my family for he was a true hero. I love you Cole.

Mother

July 16, 2014

Today is your birthday 11 birthdays without you here to share with you. You would have been 32 today. I am going to fix your flowers that is about all I can do for you other than remembering and loving you each day. So many tears such sadness . I wonder what this day would be like if you were alive? I can only imagine. I love you Cole to the bottom of my core. I never go a day or hour without thinking of you and loving you. I miss you. Always and forever

Debra Hickman
Mother

June 4, 2014

Happy Birthday Cole. You are loved and missed so very much.

Love you always and forever!

Lynn

June 4, 2014

I find so many thoughts going thru my mind tonight. I keep thinking about how I survived going off of a mountain and how one minute I was wide awake and then the next thing I knew I woke up many hours later unaware of how long I had been unconscious and what had been going on around me during that time I was out of it. I find myself wondering why I survived something like that and you didn't. I feel so much guilt sometimes especially when I am looking into your mother's eyes knowing how much she misses you and would give anything to have you back. It is just so unfair. I don't know why you are gone and I am still here. I just need some explanation and I know I am never going to get it. Our lives would be so different had you lived. I don't know if it would have been a perfect life but it would have been a very happy one regardless. I know I should not be having these thoughts but I do. I so look forward to the day that we are together again. I miss you so very much my dear baby cousin. I will always love you!

Love Always,
Lynn

Lynn

May 30, 2014