Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Cole I just want to tell you I love you with all my heart. You have been with me this month. I have felt you close by. I never forget and I always love you.

Mother

May 26, 2013

Cole, remembering you our hero on this Law Enforcement Offier's Memorial Day.
You are not forgotten and I know that you are dearly loved and deeply missed.

Lorraine Bond

May 15, 2013

We leave Sunday for Police Week in Washington there is nothing more in this world I had rather do Monday than be there for the Candle Light vigil an hold a candle high for you. You are so always remembered and never forgotten. And always always loved.

Mother

May 9, 2013

Today is the dreaded day. I hope you liked the flowers. I'm finding it difficult to express my thoughts in words today. How do you capture ten years of heartache? Never thought this day would come... but it will pass, as will many many more without you on this earth.

I'm saying a special prayer for your family today, especially your mom and dad.

Love Always and Forever!
~J

Jessi

April 25, 2013

Today is a hard day for us all. Please send strength our way today. I pray for God's peace to comfort your family, today and always. Allen was taken from me 15 years ago today, so I feel their pain. Tell Allen hello for me and watch over us from above. I'm sorry you all were taken so early. Just doesn't seem fair. :(

Laura Gibson-Szerokman, Surviving Spouse
of Ofc. Allen W. Gibson, Jr. EOW: 04/25/98

April 25, 2013

April 25, 2003 to April 25, 2013 a decade. In ways it seems forever since I heard your voice saw your smile and had your hugs. I miss hearing you tell me I love you Mama. What I would give to hear those words from you. Jesse flowers are beautiful I know you are proud of her. At least my memories of you last were of a very happy young man full of life and dreams and I know you new how much we loved you. When it first happened even for the first years I could hardly breath with the reality of you being gone. It has been a hard 10 years. I cannot image another 10 without you. Cole I think of you every single day almost every moment of the day. I love you with all my heart and soul. I miss you so much. I am so very proud of the young man you were. I cannot image a better person or son, I have been so blessed to have had you in my life. I will see you again someday and I cannot wait for that day. I love you.

Mother
Mama

April 25, 2013

Cole,

As we near the hours to the 10 year anniversary it is raining outside which makes it even more of a reminder of that last night of your life and duty as an officer. So may thoughts go thru all our heads as to what could have been done differently that day/night but no matter how hard we think about it there is no changing the reality of what did happen. The world lost the best son, grandson, fiancee, cousin and friend that any of us could ever have in our lives. I am so grateful that I had the opportunity to spend 20 years of my life with you and would give anything and everything if I could have 20 more. Thank you for loving and caring for me. You were the little brother I never had and I lost so much more than just a cousin that horrible night. I will always hold you dear to my heart for the remaining years of my life and look forward to when I can spend eternity with you and the rest of my family. Please look over all of us as I know you do and never forget how much you were loved here on earth. I love you Baby Cole!

Love,
Lynn

Lynn

April 24, 2013

Cole,

I simply cannot believe almost 10 years have passed since I last saw your face, felt your touch, and heard your voice. At that time, I didn't think anything in the world could keep us from living a long, happy life together. Instead, I found my life, hopes, and dreams shattered into a billion pieces in a split second. The pain is just too much, especially at this time of year. The memories of that night keep flooding my mind, and I just have to push them aside in order to keep my sanity right now.

I ordered a flower arrangement to put at your grave. What a sobering experience that was. I hand-picked the flowers they used to make it - blues, whites, and silvers.
Blue - the color of your beloved police uniform
White - the wedding we were supposed to have had
Silver - the silver lining that in this life we can have such an awesome love and be changed by it

When I went to pick up the arrangement, I burst into tears right there in the florist shop. The arrangement is far more beautiful than I could have imagined. It just doesn't seem right to be buying flowers for the cemetery 10 years later. When you were first taken from this world, I couldn't have imagined standing in these shoes 10 years later. I couldn't even imagine the next 10 seconds without you by my side, much less 10 years.

I've learned a lot in the past 10 years, most of which was because of you. I've learned how to love again... differently... and let myself be loved. I've learned how to appreciate the small things in life: the beautiful sunsets, the sound of the ocean waves, the precious moments with friends and family that we can never get back once they are gone. I've learned how to let go things go that don't really matter. I've learned that you can never count on having tomorrow to make things right or better or to show or tell someone how much you love them. I've learned the importance of honesty, loyalty, and friendship.

I cannot believe that it's been almost 10 years since I stood by your side. Thank you for loving me whole-heartedly. Thank you for sacrificing your young life, when you shouldn't have had to die so early.

Who knows what would've happened and how our life together would've gone if you hadn't gone so soon. I imagine we would be celebrating a wedding anniversary, watching a child or two run around in the backyard, possibly with you as a U.S. Marshal. Maybe your mom would be our babysitter, and she'd be spoiling our kid(s) rotten. Who knows. It obviously wasn't meant to be the way I had it all planned out in my mind. I am thankful that I had you in my life, even for such a short time with all the tragedy and heartbreak.

I will be taking the flowers to your grave this weekend in honor of the 10-year anniversary. I hope you like them!

Love,
Jessi

Jessi

April 19, 2013

I love you Cole this is a hard time of the year for me. I miss you so much.

Mother

April 17, 2013

Missing you

Lynn

March 26, 2013

I love you thinking a lot about you. Such sadness. I miss you so much.

Momma
Mither

February 28, 2013

Debbie, think about you and Cole today.

Lorraine Bond

February 24, 2013

Thinking of you always. I love you!

Lynn

February 11, 2013

I got my Christmas wish, thank you Cole, I know you helped. My New Years resolution is to make you, Momma and Debra proud of me and I intent to keep that promise. Tell Momma I still believe the words she told me before she died.

I love you Cole!
Lynn

Lynn

December 30, 2012

Tears

Mother
Momma

December 25, 2012

Merry Christmas Cole. I love my beautiful son.

Mother
Momma

December 25, 2012

Merry Christmas Cole, I love you and miss you!

Lynn

December 24, 2012

Hey Cole,

I just finished watching The Heart of Christmas and it was the most heart wrenching true story. I treasure every single moment I got to spend with you. It was the happiest time of my life. Thank you for all the love you showed me and I will remember and love you til my last breathe. I have only one Christmas wish this year and you know what it is. I miss you and Momma so very much!

Love,
Lynn

Lynn

December 10, 2012

Hi Cole, I am working in the house and listening to Amazing Grace and I miss you so much. The sadness just will not go away. I don't understand why I am here and you are in heaven. It should have been the other way around. You are loved so very much I know you knew that. In that I can find solace. If not in anything else. I wish so much I could see you and just talk and see your smile and twinkling eyes. I love you Cole more than anything in this world. My heart breaks daily and the tears flow everyday. I love you my beloved son.

Mother
Momma

December 3, 2012

Well you have another friend in Heaven. Richard was a great man and I am sure he will bring as much joy and laughter to Heaven as he did here on Earth. It is getting harder and harder as I watch my family and friends continue to pass. I wish you and Momma were still here. I miss you both so much.

Lynn

November 19, 2012

I love you Cole and miss you terribly. I think of you always.

Mother
Momma

November 13, 2012

Hi Cole,
I was sitting on the couch today watching a Christmas movie and I have a picture of you sitting directly below the TV and all of a sudden a ray of sunlight came beaming thru the window and lit your face up and it looked as if an angel had appeared you were glowing so bright. It lasted about 5 minutes and it felt as if you were there and my heart didn't feel so heavy. Maybe I am watching too many movies but I think you were trying to tell me something. I don't feel so scared about the test I am suppose to have on Wednesday any more now. It will be what God wants it to be. I have had a good life with family and friends that love me past and present. A lot of people never have that but I am thankful that I had the time I had with you. I need to correct something I wrote in the past to you. What I meant and thought I had written was after 10 years it has finally hit AT HOME that I am on my own. I always had someone to come home to after work whether it was Momma, Snoopy, Powder Puff or Sophie but now they are all gone. It has taken me a while to figure it out but now I realize why I stay at work so long every day because I dread coming home to an empty house. If everything works out I hope to have me a puppy and kitty sometime after May.

I miss you so very much Cole. I wish you were here but I know in my heart that you are in a better place than we are and I take peace in that. The world has changed so much since you have been gone.

I love you always.
Lynn

Lynn

November 4, 2012

Miss you Cole.

Lynn

October 26, 2012

Just wanted to say hello, I can't believe its been nine years since we have spoken. I still remember our last conversation at the plaza.. sometimes I still replay the events.. thank you for being a great officer for our city. You will always be remembered.

Billy Greene, Chatsworth Georgia
friend

September 28, 2012

Hey Cole, I have had a heavy heart today. I would give my sole to be able to talk to you today. Delores and Richard got bad news yesterday that he has at the most 4 months left to live. Richard told me he thinks of you often. I can only image what thoughts are going thru his mind. I remember sitting in the hospital and hearing the doctor tell Momma she had maybe 8 months then after the surgery that changed to 6 weeks. I wouldn't let Momma see me cry but I would sit in my bedroom floor and look at the calendar and count the days hoping that this wasn't the day and I would cry. The night you died I remember going to bed and everything was fine and then I woke up to a real life nightmare. No matter how you look at it there is no good way to handle death. All of it is so unfair. When Delores told me how long Richard had for a brief moment I was almost jealous that it wasn't me. I know how selfish that sounds but I had much rather be in Heaven with you and Momma then be here without the two of you. I know it has been almost 9 1/2 years but it still feels horrible. Who ever said it will get better over time didn't know what they were talking about. I love you with all my heart Cole and you are in my mind and heart every single day dear cousin.

Lynn

September 25, 2012