Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Hey Sarge, just wanted to tell you that we still keep your memory alive at the 6th. Just do me a favor and keep an eye on Flipper up there, you know how he can get. Miss you Sarge.

PFC. Paul R. Hoke #4031
Baltimore County Police

August 22, 2013

Mark, just spent the weekend with Caroline at the AC Retreat in MO. She just graduated from college and is looking forward to the next chapter in her life. Caroline has so much to offer to this world. Her wonderful mother and brothers have helped her grow into a beautiful young woman. How proud all the family is of her achievements. The few years (too few) she shared with you are precious to her and will never, ever be forgotten or taken for granted. Thank you for being the Dad that shaped the little girl that we all love so much.

Judy Deckert
family friend

June 25, 2013

Police Week has ended for this year and I'm left feeling great from seeing all my COPS family, but sad of course because I'm missing you so much. It's a lot of conflicting emotions to see new families that are starting this grief journey. I want to be there for them, and show them that this all gets better... but it's so hard because it doesn't go away. 11 years is such a long time but it sometimes still hurts like it was yesterday. My heart is always aching. I would do anything to have you here, Dad.

Caroline, daughter

May 17, 2013

Been thinking about you this week during all of the NLEOM activities. Wish you were still around.....

Deputy Julie Strebe (former BCoPD)
Dent County Sheriff's Office (MO)

May 14, 2013

Was thinking about Mark today & what a good guy he was to work with. I remember buying Girl Scout cookies from his daughter when he was @ PC-1 :-D Mark always seemed to have a smile, a laugh & really was a leader for us patrolman. I hope his family knows how much he is still missed by his friends & colleagues.

Deputy Julie Strebe (former BCoPD)
Dent County Sheriff's Office (MO.)

February 18, 2013

Well Mark another year is starting without you here with us. Yes your spirit is with us in so many ways, but obviously not the same. Our kids are young adults now with young adult lives and issues. How I wish you were here to guide them and just be here to listen. The four of us went together to the cemetery, got to reconnect with some of your co- workers and then had a nice dinner out. Caroline is headed back for her last semester of undergrad/college, not sure where the time has gone. Of course the Ravens headed to the Superbowl and winning the AFC CHAMPIONSHIP last night really helped us today knowing how much you love theRavens!

Lynne
Wife

January 21, 2013

11 years, Mark, 11 years! It feels as if your passing was just yesterday. Your kids and I were talking about how you had to have had a hand in the Ravens win last night, yes, your team is going to the superbowl. You see, we think of you all the time. Though enough time has passed now that we can talk about you without crying. I miss my big brother every day and I love you so much!

Maria Parry Danaher
Sister

January 21, 2013

I've never met you Mark, but this 3rd. week-end in June I felt a connection to you through a very lovely young woman with beautiful brown eyes.
You may or may not be able to read this but I feel that you know what it is that we write in these reflections. It is how we, that are left behind, are able to stay connected and cope. We share. We share with you, about us and about you. It keeps you "alive" with us. Thank you COPS and the Officer Down Memorial Page.
Know full well that the COPS organization has helped, in some way, even many ways, to have your loved ones deal with your passing.
Caroline is so blessed to have you and COPS in her life. She's on the mend.

Jim Deckert
Adult son of a fallen officer. EOW 2/11/57

July 1, 2012

This is the first time I've visited your memorial page. Today was the 2012 National Police 5K and I wanted you to know I ran in your honor. After 16 years of service, you are still remembered to me as a positive mentor who I will never forget. Baltimore County Police (PC01) "Cat Squad"

Ofc James Saunders
Baltimore County

May 12, 2012

Happy Birthday Mark! I may be older then you now but you are still my big brother. I think about you every day and yes, the pain has lessened but it is still there in my heart. Ten birthdays gone by, so unbelievable and so so sad! I love you and miss you...Maria

Maria Danaher
Sister

March 5, 2012

Dad,

Days like today are always harder for me than the day you passed. That day would mean nothing if you were still here. Today though, I can't help but feel the loss, the loss of the celebration we should be having. You'd be 53. Some days I just can't Dad, I just can't. The older I get the less I feel I knew you, the more about you I want to know. 12 years with you wasn't enough.

Happy Birthday Dad, I miss you more than ever.

Danny

Danny
Son

March 5, 2012

This ten year anniversary was not an easy one Dad. Between that and the Ravens loss, whew. I really didn't know how I would truly take it all in when the 21st finally arrived. But within minutes of walking into your tribute the officers organized Saturday night, Brown-Eyed Girl began playing. And this morning, two cardinals were sitting outside the window. Those moments, such little things, yet they mean so much to me. I get so much comfort in that, I just know you're watching over us and sending your love. I miss you so much Daddy, I know you're here with me.

Caroline, daughter

January 22, 2012

Your heroism and service is honored today, the tenth anniversary of your death. Your memory lives and you continue to inspire. Thank you for your service. My cherished son Larry Lasater was a fellow police officer murdered in the line of duty on April 24, 2005 while serving as a Pittsburg, CA police officer.

Time never dimishes respect and you will always be honored and revered. I pray for solace for all those who love and miss you for I know both the pain and pride are forever. I hold your family in my heart's embrace today and thank them for sharing the devotion of a wife, children, and sister with us through their reflections.

Rest In Peace

Phyllis Loya
Mom of fallen California Officer Larry Lasater, Pittsburg PD, eow 4/24/05

January 21, 2012

Rest in peace and god bless you Sgt Parry.

Lt JPease
Brentwood P.D.

January 21, 2012

I can't believe at the end of this week will be 10 years...every morning as I drive into work I remember where we were 10 yrs ago..you fighting for your life at Shock Trauma, and the kids and I sitting at your bedside praying for a miracle.

Oh my dear sweet Mark, I wonder often how different would all our lives be if you were still here? I know the kids continue to amaze me and make me proud-they each have so much of you in their personalities, but in different ways.

Hon, I am so afraid some times that our lives are moving too quickly and we are not retaining your memory enough. There is so much you have missed...I love and miss you and still can't believe how much it hurts not to have you next to me at night. I hope we all make you proud, you always made me feel so special and proud to be your wife.
Love and miss you always,
Lynne
1.18.12

Lynne
wife

January 18, 2012

Obviously losing you at such a young age made it really really hard. And I knew as the years passed and I got older, it wasn't going to get easier, but I thought it would somehow get better. And it does, it really does. But there are some days where it sucks SO bad, and it hits me so hard. It sucks to even get out of bed on those days. Because all I think is just "what if you were still here today?", "why did you have to leave!"
I think I've just come to the realization that years passing by may make it seem better.... but I'm still going to have those milestones and moments that are reminders. They hurt so bad. That pain never ever leaves... it just changes and hits me in different ways.
What I'm really dreading the most is this January. 10 years you will be gone. And all I can think is, I got 10 freaking years with you and now I've spent 10 without you. It just doesn't seem fair Dad...

The COPS Walk is in 2 and a half weeks. I've raised a good amount of money for it. I really do owe this organization a lot. They have helped and still are helping so much since your loss.

I love you and miss you so much xoxo

Caroline

September 18, 2011

Oh Mark, some days are so hard without you.

Our children are not so little anymore and they all make me so proud.--But it is not fair that you are not here to celebrate their accomplishments! I need you some days and just push on because I have to! But they need your fatherly guidance and insight--and I just can't always do it. It is exhausting to say the least, between work and home and life in general.

Some dear friends have lost loved ones recently, and it is never easy and I feel their pain. Help us all stay strong. Caroline will be leaving soon for her Junior year of college, and Danny is now a Senior in college...where have the years gone. Caroline is walking in the C.O.P.S. walk in Oct and has raised nearly $2500!
Keep trying with Kevin, he needs you more now than ever.

I love and miss you so much.
me

Lynne
wife

August 18, 2011

Hi Mark, I miss you so much, some days more than others but not one day goes by without me thinking of you! Just wanted to tell you that I love you, Maria

Maria
Sister

July 3, 2011

Hey Dad, I wish we could have celebrated Father's Day together. For some reason, it's always a hard day for me. Probably cause it seems like everyone around me is fortunate enough to celebrate it. I actually worked the whole day, and I thought it would distract me. But numerous people asked why I "wasn't spending the day with my Dad". And not to mention, I saw TWO people with some sort of fallen heroes, line of duty type shirt. It was kind of eerie to be honest. I'd like to think it was you saying hello from up there. Until we meet again Dad, I love you so much.

Caroline
daughter

June 21, 2011

Mark,

Today while sitting next to your sister at work--we learned a lot about your childhood. So nice to hear that you had a close relationship with your sister. She told us a lot about you. Of course, she made it seem like she was the innocent one all the time. We know better ! Just letting you know that she still talks about you--and its wonderful to hear the stories.. .

P.S. Several officers heard stories today at Dulaney Memorial--I was glad to be in Dispatch to hear stories about someone I worked with and miss.

Brigid
co-worker

May 6, 2011

This song, I really don't think it could explain it any better. Been missing you a lot these days Dad. For some reason, I keep having dreams about you. And I always wake up sad because they feel so real. I just wish you were here, I love you!!

Sometimes the road just ends
It changes everything you've been
And all that's left to be
Is empty, broken, lonely, hopin'
I'm supposed to be strong
I'm supposed to find a way to carry on

I don't wanna feel better
I don't wanna not remember
I will always see your face
In the shadows of this haunted place
I will laugh
I will cry
Shake my fist at the sky
But I will not say goodbye

They keep saying time will heal
But the pain just gets more real
The sun comes up each day
Finds me waiting, fading, hating, praying
If I can keep on holding on
Maybe I can keep my heart from knowing that you're gone

I don't wanna feel better
I don't wanna not remember
I will always see your face
In the shadows of this haunted place
I will laugh
I will cry
Shake my fist at the sky
But I will not say goodbye

I will curse
I will pray
I'll relive everyday
I will shoulder the blame
I'll shout out your name

I will laugh
I will cry
Shake my fist at the sky
But I will not say
Will not say goodbye

Caroline, daughter

April 27, 2011

Well, you never met him, but Tucker was a cool dog. He was a nice little addition once you had left us. And it was nice since we knew you always kinda wanted a dog. We're gonna have to put him down, and it sucks... a lot. Maybe you can keep him straight up there, you'll like him... he's adorable. But as I think about it, if you were still here with us when he was, I don't think he would have even lasted this long. You wouldn't have taken any of his crap and bad behaviors. But regardless, I came to write on here cause I was kinda just sitting here crying and upset about it all. I'm really gonna miss him. But as soon as I turned on my iTunes, the first song to come on was Colin Raye's 'I Think About You'. And that and Brown Eyed Girl, were our songs. And I knew that was you saying it'll be fine. And I know it will be okay soon, this too shall pass. But for now, it sucks a lot. I miss you, love you, and wish you were here. When you see Tucker, rub his belly, that's his favorite.

Caroline, daughter

March 15, 2011

Happy Birthday Mark! Today you would have been 52 years old, so hard to imagine, seeing as you were taken from us at only 42! The pain may get easier but I still miss you every single day, I don't think that will ever change. Hope you are having a blast of a birthday party in Heaven....Love You Always my Big Brother, Maria

Maria Danaher
Sister

March 5, 2011

Hey Dad,

Had a real dream about you last night, first time i remembered one in I dont know how long. We were just discussing football...thats all. Trying my best to make you proud everyday, love you.

Danny

Danny
Son

February 4, 2011

It really blows my mind that we've been without you for 9 years. It's just not fair, and I wonder everyday how it would be if you were here. Sometimes I'm scared that I'll start to forget all the small things and memories I hold on to. I don't want to ever forget you, I just wish you were still here. I love you and miss you so much.

Caroline, daughter

January 25, 2011