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Trooper Jason Eric Beal

Indiana State Police, Indiana

End of Watch Saturday, January 15, 2000

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Reflections for Trooper Jason Eric Beal

I really dont know how to word this. It has been 11 years since we made plans for our birthday. We never got to it. I have been down a very dark path in my life without you! You always seemed to balance me out. Funny thing was that I was the older one but you were the mature one. Em has always been great to me but I know I have let her down many times. I feel that I have let everyone down. I miss you! My life is good from the outside looking in but it's torn me up since you been gone. I've tried therapy I've tried meds nothing is ever going to work. There has never been a day that goes by that I don't think of you. I think that's why I have a hard time staying in contact with em; but I love her just as much as I love you. It just hurts really badly. It always hurts. I'm starting to wonder if time really does heal all wounds. But you will be glad to know that J and I are still together. She still puts up with me. We have three kids boy and two girls. Em was nice enough to let us borrow part of your name. You only missed him by 7 months. I know you have watched over me the past several years because I know I've walked out of a lot of houses I never should have made it through. So I thank you. I can still remember you pinning my graduation pin on me. I didn't know who was prouder that day you or me. You were and always be the best friend ant one could have! I love Jason!


January 27, 2011


I have tried to leave you something on here for a long time but always end up hitting cancel.

I have thought about you quite a bit lately, and I cry every time. I know you would want all of us to be strong and think of all the memories we had with you, and I do. They always end with your damn smile...even the ones where you were agitated with me for doing something that a stupid younger brother were still smiling!

Em brought up another memory the other day when she reminded me that you locked me out of your cabinet - Because that is where your shotgun were sooo mad at me for getting your shotgun out when you weren't their. So you locked it up and took the key. And after you yelled at me and bruised my arm, then threatened to tell Mom & Dad what I had done to the Stop sign you stormed out - When you got into your truck you turned around and I saw you through the kitchen window, you were smiling...ALWAYS smiling...

You are up their watching over all of us (Em and the rest of the family) smiling right now. We know you are!

I know you would be proud of all of us and how we have progressed with our lives.

We sure do miss you, love you always your lil bro David

Lil Brother

January 16, 2011

Thinking about you Jason.

Rob McKeeman ISP

January 13, 2011


You've been on my mind so much lately! We have lost another officer in Indiana. It is so heartbreaking each & every time that I hear that another family has to endure such heart wrenching loss!

Not long ago someone had said something to the effect that Cody wouldn't do that or act that way if his Dad were still alive. Well, that hit me wrong. I know what type of parent you wanted to be, but I also know that holding Cody could have changed all your perceptions of what kind of parent you would be. This was said in front of Cody. I hope that Cody did not feel like he wasn't the kind of boy you would be proud of. I tried to assure him that Cody is Cody & I wouldn't want him any other way. Yes, our lives would have been different if you were still here, but that doesn't mean that Cody wouldn't be who he is. This wasn't said out of spite, but it was still a hard pill to swallow.

I have no doubts that you are proud of Cody & myself. i strive each day to be the woman that you would be proud to have on your arm.

Please continue to hold me in your heart. I feel your presence when I need you most. I hope that Cody can feel your love when he needs you too!

Some days it feels like a lifetime ago since our final kiss goodbye. Other days, like today, you are so fresh in my memory & the pain of losing you is sharpened again.

I love you. I have since I was 14 and no amount of time or space can take that away. Life has changed it, but it will always exist.

Love always,


October 6, 2010


I was just leaving a reflection for another fallen brother from Arizona and I had to check on you. I just wanted you to know that I have never forgotten you, or your family. They seem to be doing well. Way to go Em!

J, I took a rubbing of your name from the Peace Officers Memorial in Washington DC recently. It is a constant reminder of your sacrifice. I strive every day to be the best Officer I can. I sure hope I make you proud.

Take it easy brother. Talk to you soon.

Detective Jody McInnis
Mesa Police Department, AZ

August 7, 2010


Happy Anniversary! Today would have been 12 years. I love you dearly & cherish every day we shared.



August 1, 2010

It has been 10 1/2 years since we lost you. My involvement with other survivors has been intermittent for many reasons but over the last 2 years I have gradually become more involved. I continue to encounter others who, because of you, are honored to meet me. I have attended the COPS Siblings Retreat the past 2 years and met a wonderful group of brothers & sisters. You would be proud of me at last years retreat...I shot a rifle!! I did pretty good too! I am unable to attend this year :(
Today, I attended my first COPS Bike Ride Memorial stop. I didn't realize the riders would be reading your ODMP page to the group. Needless to say I was quite emotional. I do ok when I talk to others about your accident but for some reason your story has an entirely different impact when I hear someone tell the story! I also had the honor of meeting the State Troopers escorting the riders. They actually asked to meet me when they learned I was your sister. One Trooper was your counselor at ILEA. She spoke highly of, your smile!! I have come to hear a lot about your smile and personality and look forward to hearing many, many more stories! Everyone I encounter who knew you continues to amaze me with "Jason" stories and I love to hear them.

You should know, I am sure you do, your short time with the Indiana State Police has left a lasting mark...just like you!!

Your nephews will be 15 this year! Can you believe it! Just yesterday you were holding them upside down by their ankles! Dalton reminds me of you. There are certain opportunities where he looks just like you. I have determined you both must carry the same DeBaun genes!! Marquis has your gumption and energy level. Both mention you occasionally, you know teens...minds are elsewhere. I will say you would be glad to know that the physical affliction of "No Butt Beal" and the other one (sorry Jeremy A., your phrase is probably not appropriate for this site) has carried on with "No Butt Barrett"!!

I love you and miss you dearly!


July 26, 2010


There was a memorial service at our local FOP this weekend. So many from our home community came together to create a wonderful memorial park with a beautiful granite memorial with all the Shelby County officers who gave their all. I was so touched by our hometown that words fail me in describing the memorial here. Cody was in tears, which like me he hates for others to see. They are doing so much to help us and to honor you. The granite wall, a chrome shovel that was used for the ground-breaking, a memorial mile on SR 14, a street in town in the new market place will be named after you, and there's a possibility that the road in front of your HS will also honor you (I don't think that one is official yet). How amazing that when Cody goes to play ball there that he will see a sign honoring you?! And what a great message for the high school kids who will attend that school!

I love you, I miss you!

Emily Beal-Nelis
Surviving Spouse

May 3, 2010


We had another first without you this weekend. This was one of those that really hit my off guard & I was soooo wishing you were here! Had to go to the sports store to get Cody some baseball equipment. Ok, I can handle new baseball pants, new batting glove, new bat, but really wish you were there to buy him his first cup! This momma was soooo unprepared!

Love you! Miss you!


April 12, 2010

Your heroism and service is honored today, the 10th anniversary of your death. Your memory lives and you continue to inspire. Thank you for your service. My cherished son Larry Lasater was a fellow police officer murdered in the line of duty on April 24, 2005 while serving as a Pittsburg, CA police officer.

Rest In Peace

Phyllis Loya
mother of fallen officer Larry Lasater

January 15, 2010

Thinking of you Jason. I felt your watchful eye over me early this morning while assisting a motorist on I-70. Thanks brother. Rest now.

Deputy Randy Bennett
Henry County Sheriff's Department

January 15, 2010

10 years, holy cow. You aren't forgotten now and I will be thinking about you in 2020. Miss you bro

Rob McKeeman
ISP 56th

January 14, 2010

Two days ago Cody & I helped break ground during a ceremony at the local F.O.P. By next may, there will be a memorial in our home town honoring you & all the local officers who have gave the supreme sacrifice. It is great to know that you will be honored close to home.

More news on the home front - Cody is almost as tall as his Aunt Leah now! I can't believe how tall our boy is! There's a good possibility that he may end up taller than you!

I love you & miss you. I am planning a 10yr memorial tribute for you on your birthday & it's bringing back all the wonderful memories we shared. With those memories come the desire to have you back home with me again. So, instead I ask you to watch over me & put your loving arms around me when I need you most.

Lots of Love,


December 21, 2009

As I just finished watching Extreme Home Makeover with built a home for a wife of a fallen brother in TN, I thought of Jason. Jason was not only an honorable Trooper is was an amazing man. He loved his wife and I remember the last time I talked to him, he was so excited about being a father. He always had a smile. I was honored to work with Jason at Shelby Co. and with the Reserves at Shelbyville. I was proud to stand honor guard at his funeral, Jason you have never been forgotten my brother.

Angela Scott
Shelbyville Police Department Reserve

December 6, 2009

Take care of Shaw.


November 20, 2009

Was thinking about my experiences with the Shelbyville Police Department, and I remembered Jason, along with others who are no longer on this plane of existence.

God speed all . . . the world was darkened when you left us.

Dispatcher Tim Hill
Shelbyville Police Department

October 5, 2009

Trooper Beal thank you for your service to the citizens of Indiana and Shelby County. Please guide us while we work to build the Fallen Officer Memorial Garden in your honor. Please help it become a sacred place of peace for your family and the citizens of Shelby County. God Bless you and yours.

Theresa Nolley
President FOP Auxiliary Shelby Lodge#84

October 1, 2009

I just wanted to post that Cody & I (along with several other family members) are planning on celebrating your 35th birthday (the day after the 10 yr anniv since you passed) by having a big celebration. There are lots of great ideas & I hope that we see them happen - for you! You were one of the best gifts I have ever received in my life. I will hold you close to me always!



August 16, 2009

I miss you more than words could ever convey.



April 25, 2009

I miss you more than words could ever convey.



April 25, 2009

I found ODMP about 6 month ago, and my routine was to check the history and then check the states close to mine. On 01/15/08 I was checking the history when I saw a name that raised the hairs on the back of my neck and that was Troooper Beal. I told myself that it could not be, but when I clicked on the sight I was staring again in the young troopers face again.
It was late 1999 and I was with my department for about 10 years, and I was in Indiana visiting a few friends of mine. The last day I was there they decied to go out and I was the D driver since I was driving home the next day. On the way home they were so drunk I was speeding just to get them out of my car when I saw the flashing lights in my mirror. During my academy I was taught during officer safety to roll down my window and place my arms over the steering wheel top, so this is what I did while I was arguing with my fiends. The Trooper made his way to my window and when I looked towards him I was looking into the face of a young Trooper, and my first thoughts were " My god a young trooper just my luck and he is probably going for trooper of the year" He told me that I was doing 20 over the speed limit and he needed to see my drivers license. i told him that he was probavly correct. he then asked me for my drivers license. I handed him that and he headed back towards his car. A few minutes later he reappeard at my window and adked me to step from the vehicle, so I stepped to the rear of my car. Thje Trooper asked me if I had been drinking which I thought I thought he would and I said no. He made me do a field sobiety test which I passed. He then looked again at my drivers license and asked me what department I was with, I starred at him for a second then answered him. I asked him how he knew and he said that the first clue was the way I was sitting when he first approached my car, which he had seen during his training, and the second he saw my off duty badge when I got my drivers license out. We both laughed and shook hands and i appoligized about my friends. We both left as friends that day and when I got back yto work I changed my FTO program. I made them tell me what they saw in the car and around and the driver. It saved a few lives.
That day I saw dedication, understanding and compassion from and officer that took his time to understand. I try to teach that with my new officers.
To Emily
Your husband was a man of integrity, but after we got to know each other that night he told me that he was going to be a father and he was the proudest man alive. After reading your reflections I am glad that you are taking Jason with you, because I would if not you. Please make sure that Cody knows his dad and let him know what kind of a mam he was. His handshake stood for sincerity, and his smile helped me through hell.
You will always be in my prayers, and belive me you will never be forgotten


January 17, 2009

My, oh, My. These reflections from his former wife and his Mom and Dad are
amazing. I am sooo sad that you had to experience this deepest heartache,
but am happy that you know that God has a plan, Jesus died to make all thingsnew and good, and that you have the assurance of being together again. I don't know you, but after reading these messages, you have a special place in my heart and I know Jason is sooo proud of you for overcoming! May God continue to richly bless you and surround you with His love.
Lynn Kole
Bellingham, WA


January 15, 2009

Rest in peace brother, gone but not forgotten.....

Sergeant Chris DiToro

January 15, 2009


It's hard to believe that it's been 9 years now since you left us. There are times when I am more at peace with it than others. I have a good life now. I am happy, but I can't help but wonder where we would have been today had the accident not happened. I know you would have been soooo proud of our son! Cody is a wonderful boy! How many other kids would we have had? What kind of house would we be living in? Where would we be living? What would my career be? These are all questions I have, but will never have any answers to. Our life together ended way too soon.

I am moving on with my life. I have kept the promise of learning to live again and I am happy. I wish that I never had to keep that promise to you.

Only other spouses who are living a similar life can understand when I say that I am happy where I am now, but I long for what could have been.

You are always in my heart!


January 15, 2009


I always miss you, but there are times when I miss you even more than others. Right now is one of those times. I've received signs that you are watching over us, but right now is when I could use one of your hugs. I hope that you have welcomed Grandma home and you are taking care of her.

I love you!


October 27, 2008

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