Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Patrolman Allen William Gibson, Jr.

Waverly Police Department, Virginia

End of Watch Saturday, April 25, 1998

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Reflections for Patrolman Allen William Gibson, Jr.

I pass by his grave to see my dad's and brother grave. Little did I know that he would be there before them. For I was his Aunt by marriage and I was there for his birth.
I am sadden to lose him and for his parents that had to go through what no parent should go through to lose a child that way.

Elizabeth Gibson Branham
His Aunt

October 16, 2013

My niece and I were talking the other day about how much fun you used to have on Halloween scaring people. Oh my, we sure had some good laughs on that night. You were such a cut up, always had to make everyone laugh and have a good time. Even after 15 years, you are thought of so much and missed by so many people. We will always keep your memory alive in our hearts. Love you always.

Laura Gibson-Szerokman, Surviving Spouse
of Ofc. Allen W. Gibson, Jr. EOW: 04/25/98

October 14, 2013

Allen was a wonderful person I should know I am his aunt and was there when he was born. Allen is buried at the Powell Valley Gardens and his daughter words to her dad are written to her dad on his grave slate and it makes heart cry out why did he have to go.

Elizabeth Ann Gibson
Aunt by marriage

July 25, 2013

Allen was a beautiful child and a wonderful person. I should know for I waiting on his birth and often watch him for his parents. And I was proud of him for he wanted so much to protect people and do what was right for his country.

Elizabeth Gibson
aunt

July 22, 2013

My brother joined you last week, as I'm sure you know. Please send us strength as our hearts are broken during this very difficult time.

Laura

July 15, 2013

Allen my freind, i have never forgotten you. sadly another freind of mine has recently joined your ranks.

lt. k. rayburn
cumberland river fire/rescue

July 8, 2013

Happy Father's Day in Heaven.

Laura

June 16, 2013

Today is Police Memorial Day. Remembering you (of course) as well as all the officers that have made the ultimate sacrifice. WE WILL NEVER FORGET!

Laura

May 15, 2013

Happy 41st birthday, Allen.
Love Always!

Laura
Wife

May 4, 2013

17 years ago today, I became your wife.

Looking back on the memory of
the dance we shared 'neath the stars above;
For a moment all the world was right.
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye?

And now, I'm glad I didn't know
the way it all would end, the way it all would go.
Our lives are better left to chance;
I could have missed the pain,
but I'd have had to miss the dance.

Holding you I held everything.
For a moment wasn't I the king
If I'd only known how the king would fall,
Hey, who's to say - you know I might have changed it all.

And now, I'm glad I didn't know
the way it all would end, the way it all would go.
Our lives are better left to chance;
I could have missed the pain,
but I'd have had to miss the dance.

Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd have had to miss the dance

Laura
Wife

April 27, 2013

Thinking of that day in 1998 and remembering how it took me back to when I lost my Tom 9 years before. My heart broke for your family that day and still. Today I think of Laura, Christianna and your parents as they face another year without you. RIP brother.

Sharon Story, Surviving Spouse
Tom Felton EOW 04/29/1989 Sussex County SO

April 25, 2013

Glad I wrote all that last night, because today, I am at a loss for words. Dedicating a shift today in your memory. You live on in our hearts. RIP sweetheart.

Laura

April 25, 2013

15 years ago today you were taken from us. I cannot believe it’s been 15 years, just seems crazy. Some days it feels like you were killed an eternity ago, everything is fuzzy and gray and details are hard to recall. Other times, I feel like it was only yesterday they were handing me your folded flag. I remember my heart pounding and tears flowing down my face as I leaned over and kissed your casket. Time may have helped me become stronger, but the pain is still very much there. My daughter helped me place beautiful flowers and an angel for you on Saturday. Allen, I have just been so blessed in my life. I have a wonderful, loving family that allows me to continue to grieve and helps me keep your memory alive. Thank you for continuing to send me strength on difficult days such as these. Watch over us from above.

Love Always,

Laura Gibson-Szerokman, Surviving Spouse
of Ofc. Allen W. Gibson, Jr. EOW: 04/25/98

April 24, 2013

Wore your shirt today and it brought me luck ;). Just qualified at the firing range and shot 100, my Sergeant was proud. I know you're proud & smiling down :) Thanks for being a guardian angel to many officers!

Laura

January 29, 2013

We lost another LEO Friday night. I know you welcomed Trooper Fox to his new home but he is missed by many down here. Grief is such an emotional roller coaster ride. My heart is breaking today. It's breaking for my loss, the family of Trooper Fox, and every other family that has lost an officer. I try to be strong for the families they leave behind but it's so hard because with every LEO death it just brings up my own pain and loss. I refuse to let them walk alone though. I will be there for them. Grief is a journey that doesn't end when the funeral is over, when you've remarried, or even after 14 years. Grief is a lifetime journey full of ups and downs and today is just a "down" day. Please send us strength to carry on.

Much love being sent to Heaven.
-Laura

Laura Gibson-Szerokman, Surviving Spouse
of Ofc. Allen W. Gibson, Jr. EOW: 04/25/98

October 8, 2012

God is such an awesome God. It simply amazes me how he works when we truly put our faith in him. I am very thankful you had a personal relationship with Jesus Christ as well. I read a book after you were killed that helped me so much. Not sure if "read" is the best word to use, (probably more like clung to it desperately). It was entitled "When Your Rope Breaks". I actually took an excerpt from it and taped it to my car, bed, refrigerator, work, etc. It helped me realize that God not only SAW my broken heart, but he would also SEE me through it! I found that book this weekend and a copy of the following that I had taped inside my car. Here’s what it said:

"I suspect that God says to those who have a broken rope (if we listen), "Child, I know it hurts. I know your fear and your emptiness. If there was a way your finite mind could understand, I would explain it to you. I want you to remember that if there was any other way, I would have chosen it. But there isn't, so hang tough and someday you will understand."

This gave me the realization to believe God saw me right where I was at that very moment in time. He saw my pain, the worst pain I have ever felt in my life. He saw my emptiness. He saw my hopelessness. He saw how deeply my heart ached to see you again. BUT this excerpt also gave me hope. Hope that life would eventually get better. Hope that I would learn to live and love again. And guess what? Life did get better! Do I still miss you? SURE! Do I still have bad days? ABSOLUTELY. Will I ever be “normal” again? Lol nope. But I know where my hope lies and that gets me through day after day after day. Sometimes all we need to do is stop and remember we have that blessed hope of seeing our loved ones again in Heaven. Thank God for the hope, peace, and comfort he sends to those who mourn. “Blessed are they that mourn, for they shall be comforted.” Mat. 5:4

Laura

September 10, 2012

We just got back from DC for National Police Memorial Week. Words cannot describe the emotions and feelings that emerge from visiting that place and seeing all the mementos left at the wall. I loved seeing my extended COPS family and meeting new ones. It’s always sad when the time comes to leave them. I find it hard to believe I now have “family” from coast to coast. I sure do hate I made it into this organization, but I’m so grateful for their support and friendship. A Hero remembered…NEVER dies!

Laura

May 16, 2012

We are celebrating your birthday at the police department today by eating Mexican :). I am ordering your favorite dish...ordered just the way you liked it!

Laura

May 4, 2012

Happy Birthday, Allen!! It is so hard to believe you would have been 40 years old today. It sounds crazy that you have been gone that long. You were 25 the last time I kissed those lips and told you I loved you. I will release balloons today in your memory. Hope they make them to Heaven & bring a smile to your face!

Laura Gibson-Szerokman, Surviving Spouse
of Ofc. Allen W. Gibson, Jr. EOW: 04/25/98

May 4, 2012

April 27, 1996 - Wow, 16 years ago today we said I do. I remember that day like it was yesterday. I remember so much, maybe too much…I remember your face when I started walking down the aisle, I remember your laugh when I was unable to blow my side of the unity candle out, I remember us driving off with our car fully engulfed in “police line-do not cross” tape. I remember your smile, your laugh, your contagious good mood, I remember you continuously singing in the car – even if it was usually off key :), I remember you loved making us dinner, I remember you always greeting me with “hello beautiful” when I answered the phone or walked into the door, I remember the countless practical jokes you used to play on me. I guess when all you have are memories…those memories become treasures you hold in your heart forever. Even the smallest, most minute memory you hold onto with everything you have and hope you never forget it. As long as we keep your memory alive in our hearts, you will never really be gone. There is no doubt in my mind, you’re still here. Happy Anniversary, Allen. Love you always.
"You're Still Here" by Faith Hill
Thought I saw you today
You were standing in the sun then you turned away
And I knew it couldn't be but my heart believed
Oh it seems like there’s something everyday
How could you be so far away
When you're still here
When I need you you're not hard to find
You're still here
I can see you in my baby's eyes
And I laugh and cry
You're still here
Had the dream last night
That you came to me on silver wings of light
I flew away with you in the painted sky
And I woke up wondering what was real
Is it what you see and touch or what you feel
Cause you're still here
Oh you're everywhere we've ever been
You're still here
I heard you in a stranger's laugh
And I hung around to hear you laugh again
Just once again
Oh...
Thought I saw you today
You were standing in the sun then you turned away
Away

Laura

April 27, 2012

Thinking of you and your family today, the fourteenth anniversary of your death. I am holding your family in my heart's embrace. Thanks to your family and friends for sharing their memories and devotion to you through their reflections, especially Laura and your princess daughter.

Phyllis Loya
Mom of fallen California Officer Larry Lasater, Pittsburg PD, eow 4/24/05

April 26, 2012

rest in peace and may god bless you.

Lt. J Pease
B.P.D.

April 25, 2012

04/25/98 – 04/25/2012 14 years...wow that's just crazy. I cannot believe you've been gone 14 years now. I guess to many people my grieving days are long gone, but they’re not. I’m remarried to a wonderful man that allows me to grieve when I need to and keep you in my heart forever. He attends police week with me and holds me as I stand by your panel, looking at your engraved name and reflecting on the life we once lived. I have two beautiful children, whom I love more than life itself. I have supportive friends and family, my PD family, and a loving God I serve. So on the outside…yes, I’m doing fine! But on the inside…somewhere deep down I’m still that grieving young widow that got the news so long ago that the man she loved would never return home again. I have learned a lot since that day. I realize sometimes dreams do shatter, but I have also come to know that God is always there to help you pick up the pieces and rebuild your shattered life. There will always be a missing piece, a scar, an imperfect part…but that’s just who I am now. So even though I have “moved on”, you’re still a part of me. I remember our good times and I’ve learn to let the “why did this have to happen?” questions go for now. I don’t have to understand. I just have to rely on the one who does understand and he gives me strength to face days like today and the unknown tomorrows. RIP Allen. You will be loved and missed forever.
Grief~
You don't get over it, you just get through it.
Your don't get by it, because you can't get around it.
It doesn't 'get better'; it just gets different.
Everyday... Grief puts on a new face....

Laura

April 24, 2012

We had a LODD in the next town from me yesterday. I know you greeted Ofc. Crouse yesterday but he has a big family, including five children that misses him terribly. Please send strength down to us and watch over us from above. This is bringing up my own nightmare as well as other survivors (got a call from one last night) so we could really use some strength so I can be there for this widow and family and let them know I've walked in their shoes and I can help them trudge through this horrific nightmare that has somehow become their reality. I love and miss you all, our fallen heroes.

Laura
wife

December 9, 2011

Just got back from DC for police memorial week, which was a very surreal, emotional experience as always. I loved seeing my extended COPS family and meeting new friends. Im already planning next years trip!

I sat there Saturday night looking at your name on the wall. It was very late so it was quiet and peaceful and the moonlight seemed to dance across Panel 26. I couldnt help thinking about how far Ive come in 13 years. Instead of sitting there crying my eyes out, I smiled.NOT because you were gone, but because you lived and because of how far I have come since your death. I used to go police week to get help, now I go to help others. Thats when you know youre truly healing. Thats when you KNOW you have stopped being a victim and have become a survivor.

Thanks for all the strength you have sent down to me over the years. I know I am making you proud, because I am proud of myself. I am proud that I have fought to keep going and with Gods help, I have succeeded. God knows Ive felt like giving up so many times, but I never did. My experiences have only made me more determined to live my life to the fullest. I now live one day at a time, and enjoy every moment as if it were my last. I treasure life and everyone in it. This is the way life was meant to be lived!

Laura

May 16, 2011

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