Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Patrolman Allen William Gibson, Jr.

Waverly Police Department, Virginia

End of Watch Saturday, April 25, 1998

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Reflections for Patrolman Allen William Gibson, Jr.

Happy Birthday, Allen! You would have been 39 today. I hope you have a wonderful day of celebration in Heaven as I'm sure you do everyday. You are loved and missed by many.

It's almost time for police week again so I will be heading to DC soon. I can't wait to see all of my extended family that I have met through the years in COPS. Love them so much and sincerely appreciate their continued support. It's amazing how close you can get to "total strangers" when those strangers have the same fears, emotions, and grief as you do. It's an amazing bond that no one would ever understand. I know you're proud of us all for making sure no survivor ever stands in front of that wall facing the engraved named of their fallen officer alone. We will be there.


May 4, 2011

15 years ago today I became a bride, only to become a widow two very short years later. This year I'm not going to dwell on how traumatic it was to pick out a casket on our 2nd wedding anniversary, instead I'm going to focus on how happy we were on that beautiful Saturday when we said "I do". Little did we know our time would be cut so short. Thinking of you and wishing you a Happy Anniversary in Heaven.

Here was our wedding song...

Our love is unconditional, we knew it from the start.
I see it in your eyes, you can feel it from my heart.
From here on after let's stay the way we are right now,
And share all the love and laughter
That a lifetime will allow.

I cross my heart and promise to
Give all I've got to give to make all your dreams come true.
In all the world you'll never find a love as true as mine.

You will always be the miracle that makes my life complete,
And as long as there's a breath in me, I'll make yours just as sweet.
As we look into the future, it's as far as we can see,
So let's make each tomorrow be the best that it can be.

I cross my heart and promise to
Give all I've got to give to make all your dreams come true.
In all the world you'll never find a love as true as mine.

And if along the way we find a day it starts to storm,
You've got the promise of my love to keep you warm.
In all the world you'll never find a love as true as mine,
A love as true as mine.


April 27, 2011

04/26/98 – I sat on my parents’ sofa and watched as the sun came up. I was unable to sleep at all. Grief had brought me to a place I had never known before, the place of utter despair. I found myself in a place of hopelessness, the feeling that someone had reached into my chest and ripped my heart out. I just couldn’t understand why the sun rose like any other day. This was NO ordinary day! Then I started hearing cars pass by. Where were those people going? Were they going to church since it was Sunday, or work perhaps? HOW COULD THEY? Did they not know Allen had been killed? That’s when all the innocence in my very young mind was sucked out of me and I realized that although my heart was broken into a million pieces this world would keep spinning around and I would have to go through the motions of the next few days because the world wouldn’t stop for my broken heart.

As I sit here at my desk at work looking at your flag, I am happy that its home is in a police station. That’s where you would want it to be. As I look at the beautiful folded flag, I am reminded that it once draped your casket. I remember the folding of the flag and the chief kneeling down and presenting it. I held on to that flag with all I had, for that’s all I had left of you. As I look at your badge, dog tags, pictures, patches, your name as it appears on the police wall in DC, the candle I have lit in your memory, the beautiful replica of the DC police monument with your name engraved, I realize this is all that is left. These few items and all the memories I have tucked inside my heart. Thirteen years later, the world is still spinning around. Life does go on, but that doesn’t mean we have forgotten. We will never forget the sacrifice you made on that beautiful Saturday morning. Thank you, Allen. We love and miss you.


April 26, 2011

13 years today. Gone but never forgotten, Heroes Live Forever!

Officer Hayes

April 25, 2011

04/25/98 13 years ago today my world changed forever. Maybe I will be stronger and able to write more tomorrow. All I can write today is you will never be forgotten. I love and miss you...


April 25, 2011

Happy Easter! I'm sure you're rejoicing in Heaven today! I can't imagine what it's like up there but I know I will see it one day! Tomorrow is the big day. 4-25-98 13 years ago tomorrow you were taken from us. Send me strength so I can carry on yet another day without you.


April 24, 2011

Can't sleep, having a rough time. I miss u. Will I ever understand why this happened? Just reading letters and notes you gave me and looking at all of our pictures tonight. Wish I could post them here. Anyway, send some strength down please. Next few weeks are always so hard for me. Even after 13 years the pain is still right there and the love has only deepened. We will never forget u, Allen b/c as long as you live in our hearts you will never really die.


April 16, 2011

Having grown up as a child in Waverly, VA from 1973 to 1977, I was particularly struck by the news of Officer Gibson's death. As I read the reflections left by his family and friends I could not help but be overcome by emotion. I'm 44 years old now and haven't cried for a long time, until today. Though I did not know Officer Gibson personally, I thank him so much for his service to our community. I am deeply humbled by the ultimate sacrifice he gave.


April 14, 2011

Well u welcomed 2 more officers home a couple days ago as we lost 2 more here in Virginia. LOD deaths bring up so much pain for me and memories I try to keep tucked away but are unable to at difficult times like these. I can't help but sit here tonight and pray for all those families, friends, and coworkers left behind not to mention the other 2 still fighting for their lives. I just don't understand why cowardly acts such as this continue to occur. I mean if the guy wanted to die why couldn't he have just taken his own life and not shoot 4 men just doing their job?! And then to read some of the comments those backwood rednecks wrote about how "the cops probably asked for it" made me want to throw up! They have no idea what LEOs sacrifice everyday. Anyway, I know you're keeping them company now just send some strength down this way for those of us left to carry on w/out our heroes. :(


March 16, 2011

Merry Christmas!! I can't believe our last Christmas together was 13 years ago, that just seems unreal. I can't imagine the celebration going on in Heaven, especially at Christmas. Well one thing is for sure you may be gone, but you will never be forgotten!


December 25, 2010

just got back from Surviving Spouses Getaway in MO and had a blast! I love being with other widows and being able to help them and also get help myself. COPS is such a wonderful organization that helps those of us left behind learn to rebuild our shattered life. I'm already planning another mini spouses getaway to California in the spring. Love my girls and can't wait to see them again. I know we make u all proud up there looking down on us.


September 22, 2010

I did not know this page exsisted until the other day and could not resist reading all the reflections. Looking at your picture brings back such memories both happy and sad. I can not believe it has been 12 years since you left an empty place in so many lives. You were such a very loving person. I still to this day do not understand why all the good ones are taken, but I guess God takes the best! Your love and tenderness will always be cherished! You have made an impact in so many lives.


September 13, 2010

Rough couple days...could use some strength sent my way. Had another funeral dream. Those always shake me for days. Thank GOD I have all my survivor COPS friends who I love dearly. I'm getting ready to go to spouses weekend in St. Louis so I can see them. That is always so healing!


September 4, 2010

I found something of yours the other day that I thought was gone forever. I'm so happy!! It's funny how timing is always perfect. :)


August 6, 2010

I'm so sad. we lost 2 tampa fl ofcs yesterday and i'm sad for their families, i'm sad for all the survivors i know and i'm sad for me. sad we know this pain. the pain that will never end. it's always here allen. it has never left. sometimes when i think i'm strong BAM it hits me all over again, especially when i hear another officer has been killed. i relive my own pain. those first hours. screaming, begging God not to take you when i knew in my heart you were alreay gone. i remember when they told me you had been shot i ran toward the door to come to you, they held me, they told me you were already dead. i fell to the floor and just screamed. screamed...screamed for you. screamed no. prayed to God it was a nightmare and i'd wake up. i needed you. u left me. i didn't understand. how could this have happened. just more than one person can comprehend. my heart is breaking. please send strength to me. i need it. love you


June 30, 2010

Just got back from DC for National Police Week. Bo went with me this year. He's such a good officer. I'm so proud of him!! We really enjoyed visiting the wall and leaving you some things. I loved seeing all the survivors I've known for so many years and new ones I've met recently. There is a strong bond between us I have never felt before. Anyway, hope we made you proud! Love & miss you!!


May 19, 2010

Happy Cinco de Mayo! I had Mexican for you today (yesterday too!) I remember how u used to love to go eat Mexican. Anyway, today is better hopefully I will get stronger ever day. It's been a rough couple weeks. :( oh by the way, did u like your birthday balloons? Hope they made it to you okay and the note was still attached. Miss and love u!


May 5, 2010

Happy Birthday to YOU! Happy Birthday to YOU! Happy Birthday to my Angel Allen....Happy 38th Birthday to YOU!!!! I know you are celebrating your birthday in Heaven today. Just know we love and miss you everyday. I have a candle lit in your memory at the police department (along with your pics, flag, etc.) and I will send your balloons up to you later today so be looking for them. :)


May 4, 2010

Know that you aren't forgotten and I still think about you often. The memories we shared will never be forgotten. It's hard to believe it's been 12 years since your death, and I'll never forget that day. It's assuring to know that when I strap on that vest and place the badge upon my chest you are with me to help keep me safe.
The "Swat Pup"


April 26, 2010

We dedicated our shift to you on the 12th anniversary of your passing. R.I.P. brother, we have the watch.


April 25, 2010

12 years ago today. Thank you Allen for your service. R.I.P. Brother

W.A.Beasley Deputy/Retired
Chesterfield Sheriff's Office, Chesterfield, Va.

April 25, 2010

A Police Officer's Wife

I cannot believe this day has come
only two short years we've overcome.
Please dry your tears my loving bride
for I will still be right by your side.

I know you're young, but you must be strong.
And don't worry, for we won't be apart long.
I can't wait to see your beautiful face
and show you this glorious place.

The flag today they will hand to you.
They will dry your tears and salute you, too.
Sorry I didn't get to say goodbye,
you know I loved you, you know I tried.

My job called and I had to go
I just wished that you could know.
As I lay dying, I wasn't sad
for I saw God and he held my hand.

Now when times get hard,
hold your head up high.
If you feel you need to see me,
just look toward the sky.

Until we meet again on Heaven's bright shore,
I just have to tell you once more.
Remember Sweetheart, make the most of your life-
for you will always be a
Police Officer's Wife!

Laura Gibson-Szerokman
This poem was written by me about a month after Allen was killed. I was sitting at work and the words came to me so plainly and quickly that i remember grabbing a pen and writting as fast as I could. I believe he spoke these words directly to me and I hope you enjoy them as much as I did.

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April 25, 2010

I could REALLY use some extra strength this week so please send some down my way. I'm trying to be strong but it's hitting me really hard this year. :(


April 19, 2010

Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared beneath the stars above
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known you'd ever say goodbye?
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I the king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance


March 24, 2010

just thinking about you and laughing at some of funny stories i remember. good times...


January 7, 2010

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