Officer Down Memorial Page

another Mother's Day without you ...it never gets any easier . You would be loving those grand kids of yours... Carson especially ...he is always smiling that smile of yours and loves everyone ... He is such a charmer...... Connor is tuning into a cool little baseball player with a pretty good arm and Kendal would absolutely have you wrapped around her little finger..we all miss you so very much . this trip to Sacramento ..I heard more Jim stories... 2 women deputies who worked with you told me that you were the best man they ever knew and that the inmates cried when this happened to you . you left a huge hole in a lot of hearts. we love you and keep smiling my son.

Maureen Tutino
Mom
May 16, 2012

A most blessed holiday to you and your family. I know at dinner today that stories about you will be shared and laughes and some tears will go with those precious memories. I ask that everyone that knows you, especially your close friends, share memories with your loved ones and not be afraid to talk to them about you. Maybe this short poem will help them understand those feelings:

Love Song: To Hear Their Name

The mention of my Child's Name may bring tears to my eyes,
But it never fails to bring music to my ears.
If you are really my friend,
Let me hear the music of his name!
It soothese my broken heart and sings to my sould.
(Author Unknown)

Bob Gordon
Father of Fallen Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04
April 8, 2012

Maureen (& family)…a thousand apologies for my error in my last post to you. I can only say I have a "one track mind" in that my grief revolves around losing my spouse (my other half & the love of my life) EXCEPT for my kids. Maureen in No Way can I imagine it being my. Child. God bless you…I. Am truly humbled @ my error and sad part is, I knew he was your beloved son…i can only say I operate on a brain clouded by grief…I truly apologize for it & wish you & ur family only the best. Maureen I know the feeling. Of grief (extreme) & pride, but. Will never claim to know how how you feel. I just want you to know how much your thoughts of us mean & you are appreciated! Thinking of you tomorrow on ur birthday. Your son will NEVER BE FORGOTTEN. Sincerely…Jo'Nee

Jo'Nee Cochran
Spouse of Tom Cochran
April 7, 2012

We are having a party tomorrow to celebrate my birthday ....the only thing missing will be you .. you will be in my heart though ..Life has not been the same and I know it never will be normal again....I miss you so very much. It is bittersweet to see Carson smile ...and he does that a lot , but the smile is you .... we all love you ....and miss you my son ...keep smiling

Maureen Tutino
Mom
April 7, 2012

Thinking of you a lot today. Keep giving us your blessings from above. I love you. 2658 forever!

Deputy Tutino
LASD, Son
March 31, 2012

Happy Birthday to you. I wish you could have enjoyed a taste of retirement as you surely earned it after serving the amount of time you did in law enforcement. Continue to watch over all of your loved ones for I know they miss you dearly and that their waking thought as they start their day is of you and the last thought they have before drifting off to sleep at night is also of you. You will never be forgotten.

Bob Gordon
Father of Fallen Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04
March 7, 2012

I will be thinking of you all day Tuesday... happy birthday my son .....I miss you everyday ... I would give anything to be able to hug you again. We just posted the Scholarship again ...Tony said this will be 23 and 24 kids we have helped in your name ... I know you would be proud of us . It is a joy to help these kids. ...love you ..keep smiling

Maureen Tutino
Mom
March 4, 2012

Maureen,
I read your reflection (and all the others you so graciously left) for our family and want to thank you & express my sincere gratifude to you for always thinking of us. I visit your husbands site also and have no excuse other than "there are no words"…and I know you understand. However, you manage to let us know that you are thinking of us and I want you to know we do the same and appreciate you so much. We have a connection through this tragedy (one we of course never wanted) but I am humbled at your amazing posts. I have not missed a year in DC and hope to one year soon meet you during our stay. I pray for your family's healing as I know this pain never goes away. I also pray that the man who brought you this pain gets what he deserves…and that is the true "life" sentence he has imposed on you and your wonderful family. Just know how much you have touched us through your thoughtfulness and I thank God for this site. All we have as you know is to ensure our loved ones are NEVER FORGOTTEN. Thank you for touching my family so deeply.

Jo'Nee Cochran, Spouse
Tom Cochran, LPD EOW: 1/26/05
February 3, 2012

I am a few days late in posting this reflection. I know those that love you will forgive me as they know how hard it can be to come here to read or post reflections. Know that you will never be forgotten and will love in the hearts of those that love you dearly. I'd like to leave the following for your Mom for I know the daily struggle she deals with for I walk in her shoes. Continue to wrap your wings around all of your loved ones to protect them and help with their grief:

"The sense of loss does not diminish with time. In truth, the expression 'time heals all wounds' is a myth. For parents, the loss of a child is permanent and mental scar tissue really does not grow over the grim memory. Rather, all tears are expended and a dull ache remains."

Bob Gordon
Father of Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04
January 31, 2012

Your heroism and service is honored today, the seventh anniversary of your death. Your memory lives and you continue to inspire. Thank you for your service. My cherished son Larry Lasater was a fellow police officer murdered in the line of duty on April 24, 2005 while serving as a Pittsburg, CA police officer.

Time never dimishes respect, and your memory will always be honored and revered. I pray for the solace of all those who love and remember you for I know both the pain and pride are forever. Your family is in my heart's embrace today, especially your mother and my good friend Maureen. Losing a beloved child surely has to be life's greatest sorrow. A mother's love is fierce and unyielding and our sons have out hearts forever.

I am sure that you are proud that your son continues your legacy of protecting and serving and it is awesome he wears your badge number.

Rest In Peace

Phyllis Loya
Mom of fallen California Officer Larry Lasater, Pittsburg PD, eow 4/24/05
January 26, 2012

Just wanted to let your family and you know that we have not forgotten you. I enjoyed my time with your Mom at Parent's Retreat. Maureen loved looking at your sons scrap book and talking to you, you have been in my thoughts and prayers. Deputy Tutino you are a hero, and we will never forget...

Connie Barker
Mother of Officer Clint Walker Prattville P.D. Alabama E.O.W. 1-14-04
January 26, 2012

It is that time of year again when we mourn and remember our heros and loved ones. Ms. Tutino, I was thinking of you and your family today so I wanted to tell you that you are in my thoughts and prayers as 1/26/12 is upon us and we again feel the loss that we felt for the first time 7 years ago. You and your family are always in my thoughts and I will be remembering your son's sacrifice as we try to remember and honor my father as well. Take care of one another and never forget.

Tomya Cochran
daughter, EOW 1/26/05
January 25, 2012

Merry Christmas my son. I am having a very bad time this year..I guess it is because I am on the parents web site and we all have been talking about how hard Christmas is without our children.... It was the last time I got to see you ....Please hug my bro and his wife, Mom and Dad and especially yourself. We all miss you and love you so much. We always spend some time on Christmas remembering you, and wishing you were here... Keep Smiling

Maureen Tutino
Mom
December 24, 2011

Thinking of you and all of your loved ones on this very special holiday. You have not been forgotten. Continue to keep watch over all of your loved ones, let them feel you all around them so they know you are watching over them. You will never be forgotten.

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Bob Gordon
Father of Fallen Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04
December 24, 2011

Merry Christmas Pop! Your still missed as much today as the day you left us. I love you.. Give our family blessings from up above. And dont forget our troops! 2658 forever..

Deputy Sheriff, Nick
LASD, Son
December 24, 2011

I know the holidays are hard when someone very special is missing. Your family is always in my thoughts and prayers and on this day I want to say happy Thanksgiving to you. I will especially be thinking of you all today. Take care Tutino family.

Tomya Cochran
daughter, EOW 1/26/05
November 24, 2011

Happy Thanksgiving my son.It would be Mom and Dad's 75th anniversary ...so give them a big hug from all of us down here...love always

Maureen Tutino
Mom
November 22, 2011

We just got back from COPS Parents Retreat in Little Rock..... 50 new parents and over 200 in all... It is a shame that any of us are there ..but it is very helpful to be among people that share the same sorrow ...It was your Dad's first time and he said he would go back .....we both miss you very much ,the hole in my heart is still there and always will be ..we wrote letters to you in one session, and I told you all the things I would ask and all the things I would say to you if I had the chance.. Carson's smile is exactly like yours... he reminds us all.. of you ...hope you are keeping watch over him and all of us ...you would love the kids ...they are the cutest !!! keep smiling ...keep shining ....my star in the sky... love always

Maureen Tutino
Mom
November 8, 2011

Today would have been our 11 yr wedding anniversary ...love and miss you so very much ..

Rita Tutino
Wife
October 21, 2011

Just missing you like crazy. I love you dad. Our family has grown so much, I truly wish you could be here to see James' kids. Keep watching over us. 2658 forever!

Deputy Tutino
LASD, Son
October 13, 2011

God ...I miss you !!!! Along with lots of other parents all across the country.....I sent up a balloon for you today and then I cried all over your Dad.. I wish so very much that you were here to call me on your way to work and I could hear you say what's up Mom...or do your little jokey thing, or tell me about a good book to read......I did read the one you told me about in our last conversation about Pat Tillman . You two had a lot in common....you both worked hard at doing the right thing. You left a huge legacy and lots of people still talk about you . Some inmate painted this huge mural of you on the wall of the jail...he did a great job. We all miss you very much ....please watch over all of us and keep on smiling that wonderful smile ... love forever

Maureen Tutino
Mom
October 2, 2011

It is 9/11/11 and I have been thinking about you a lot today...
I know how all those families feel. You and I talked a lot about that day. I had just gotten home from Pittsburgh ..and I was glad that I had made it home after I saw the towers go down... I have said many prayers for all those we lost and their families. If you come across any of them tell them that a lot of prayers went up today....Keep smiling and watching over us... we miss you and love you a lot

Maureen Tutino
Mom
September 12, 2011

Just thinking about ya it's coming on football pactices and games and I wish you were here for it . I miss you so very much ...going back to Pa.and will probably stop by the Steeler Camp ...hope they have a good year. I know you are around us and would be having a good time with your grandkids if you were here in person... Carson has your wonderful smile and disposition ....he's a cutie ,,but they all are . Keep the smile up there and keep watching over us all ..my love as always

Maureen Tutino
Mom
August 10, 2011

Missing you like crazy.. Keep protecting our family from above. And watch out for your brotherhood down here. I love you. 2658 forever!

Deputy Tutino
LASD, Son
July 18, 2011

Just a brief hello and to tell you how proud of Nick you would have been last week ...he did a great job marching in honor of Deputy York. He kept everything together [unlike your Mother ...no surprise ] I could hear you looking down and saying Good Job Son..keep smiling and watch over our family.

Maureen Tutino
Mom
June 1, 2011