Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Thank you for your heroism Sir, RIP

James Kotke
Civilian / Former Officer
WSF Park Police (Wi.)

July 30, 2012

Hi honey

I recently read this and thought no better words were written

Death leaves a pain that no one can heal
Love leaves a memory that no one can steal

You are forever in my heart.......I miss you so much each and every day.....There is much to tell you....and I miss not being able to pick up the phone and tell you personally (and hear you laugh as I shared it all).

Always remember that I love you.

Hope you had your favorite Easter candy in heaven and that you shared it with daddy.....

Love mom

Sandy Tuvera
Bryan's mom

April 12, 2012

Happy Easter Bryan. I know it's been a long time since I've wrote and I'm actually a day behind on email but Happy Easter nonetheless. You are missed and thought of all the time.

Love, Andrea

April 9, 2012

Hi Honey

It's mom.

short and sweet - but from the heart

I LOVE YOU

Wish you were here....I have SO much to share with you.

Love mom

Sandy Tuvera
Bryan's mom

February 1, 2012

Rest in Peace, Officer Tuvera. Your sacrifice is not forgotten.

Officer 11169

January 22, 2012

Thinking of you and your family today, especially your mom.
How we moms miss our beloved children, but we know that our sons continue to watch over us. Bryan, you are remember with love and honor today and I hold your family in my heart's embrace.

Phyllis Loya
Mom of fallen California Officer Larry Lasater, Pittsburg PD, eow 4/24/05

December 23, 2011

Hi honey

It's mom......

5 years ago today my heart was broken.......My heart now has a gaping hole that will forever remain. This should never have happened. You deserved to live a long and fulfilling life. I believe that God had a mission for you, both on earth and in heaven. He must have had a major assignment for a father and son team in heaven. What an impact you made down here. I was so very blessed to have been your mom. You brought me much joy and laughter

The dept held a tributed memorial for you last night. They are difficult but necessary. It was nicely done and I am sincerely appreciative for all they do.

I love you very much.....and miss you every moment of every day. There is so much I want to share and experience with you...but you are now only here in spirit.

I wish you and daddy a merry xmas in heaven. I am sure that it is spectaclar there.

Love you always
mom

Sandy Tuvera
Bryan's mom

December 23, 2011

Hi honey

It's mom....

I know it is a few days early but I wanted to wish you a happy thanksgiving...I hope they have a GREAT feast in Heaven. I know you were not much on turkey...but OH how you loved the taco dip.

I miss you ever minute of every day. You are always on my mind....and ALWAYS will remain in my heart.

Send me a sign soon...as it helps remind me you are still here....

Love and kisses to you and daddy
Love mom

Sandy Tuvera
Bryan's mom

November 22, 2011

I know I'm a few days late and for that I apologize. We toasted to you Friday night, again on your birthday and ate your favoriate pizza in between. :)

I shared your video Sunday night and needless to say it was watched not once, not twice but several times over....and still so deeply missed.

Happy Birthday dear, Bryan. I love you.

Andrea

October 11, 2011

Hi honey

It's mom.....

Just wanted to say happy birthday...I hope daddy and all the angels are singing to you for your birthday. We went to your favorite pizza restaurant, Amici's and had pizza and cake in your honor....I so much wish you had been with us in person. I know you were there in spirit, but it is just not the same.

Miss your laugh and your jokes.....and plain miss you.
Love and miss you every single day

Love mom

Sandy Tuvera
Bryan's mom

October 6, 2011

Hi Honey,

It's mom......Miss you TERRIBLY. I spoke in Sacramento last Thursday to address the fire camp issues and the need for changes and improvements to their screening and evaluation process for determining the inmates placed in those camps. It was very emotional and very difficult for me to speak....but it was an absolute necessity that I spoke in your behalf. If improvements are made, then at least something positive can result from this unbelievably terrible loss that we all have been forced to endure.

I love you very much...and there is not a day that goes by...that I still don't cry........Please help to give me strength as I pursue these necessary changes.

I was so blessed to have you in my life...and so very blessed to have you as my son........You always made me laugh...and always made me feel loved.......Thank you for that......

I hope you and daddy are enjoying heaven and keeping watch over all us from there....you have the BEST seat in the house

I love you honey

Love mom

Sandy Tuvera
Bryan's mom

August 29, 2011

I love you Bryan. Just wanted to let you know.

Andrea
Family

August 21, 2011

Hey Brother,

Thinking of you. I miss you.

MZ
SFPD

August 17, 2011

Hi honey

It's mom.......

Never does a day go by that you are not on my mind. You are with me in spirit and will forever remain in my heart.

I talk to you all the time...but it is so hard not to get an answer back...and not to hear your voice. I so much wish you were here. I have a lot I want to share with you, but mostly, I just want to hug you and hold you to protect you.......

I hope that you and daddy and all your fellow fallen officers are patroling the gates of heaven to keep it safe for when we arrive.

Always remember how much I love you. I was honored to be your mom......even if it was only for 28 short years.

Love and kisses to my precious child
mom

Sandy Tuvera
Bryan's mom

June 30, 2011

thinking of you

MZ

April 22, 2011

I came across Bryan's reflections and my heart breaks for his family and coworkers but mostly his Mom. It might be because I am a Mom and lost my daughter in the line of duty. Your reflections touch my heart. The days go by and the pain eases but the loss is always there.

Your son’s sacrifice never be forgotten.

In my prayers,

Debbie
Parent of P.O. Jessica Nagle Wilson
Hazel Park Police Department
EOW 7/28/2002

Anonymous

April 21, 2011

I was thinking about you today Bryan; Know that you are not forgotten and that we will always remember your heroism. Miss you buddy.

Officer D Terry
SFPD

March 22, 2011

Hi Bryan honey......

It's mom.....

Below is the speech I am presenting at the first Bryan Tuvera fellowship Awards presentation scheduled for this Friday. I sincerely hope I have done you justice with this. I love you and miss you every breathing moment of every single day.

3/18/11 – FALEO scholoarship/fellowship awards

I was asked to come up tonight and speak to you all about my son, Bryan. These speeches are always very difficult for me…..because I would much rather speak TO him than ABOUT him. As you can imagine, this terrible tragedy shattered our lives forever. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about him or about all that “SHOULD HAVE BEEN”. I miss him more as each day passes. I buried my heart that night with my child. He was only 28.

Bryan never asked for anything. He just wanted to enjoy his simple life and fulfill his dreams of growing old with his new wife. He could not wait to be a father and create a lifetime of cherished memories as a family. But he was robbed of that, and so were we. He only got to enjoy 2 months of marriage and never got to be a father. What a terrible, terrible tragedy and injustice this has been.

I cannot turn back the hours of time, for if I could, I would a thousand times over, trade places with him so that he could live. He so much deserved that. All I can do now is to hold his memory close to my heart and ask each of you to do the same. Remember him for the wonderful person he was and for the great memories we all shared together. He would want that.

People often say that time heals…...but reality is…time does not heal…..Time may fade the intensity of the hurt, but the permanent heartache and scars NEVER go away.

Today should NOT be a memorial about his death. It should be a tribute to his life, to the impact he had on all of us, and to honor the recipients of today’s awards….so I’m going to tell you about Bryan….and the wonderful person he was.

Bryan was a loving husband, protective brother, devoted officer and a great friend to everyone who knew him….and to me, his mother…..he was a mother’s dream….I could NOT have asked for a better son.

He had an incredible sense of humor and played the most awesome practical jokes on us all. To this day, we still laugh when we think about those jokes. I can’t even imagine how he thought of them, let alone, how he managed to pull them off without laughing himself. And what’s even more incredible, is that we all knew he played jokes….but we fell for them EVERY single time…..

Bryan had a unique story telling ability that ALWAYS managed to perk our interest and keep us intensely focused while he told his stories. He had a magical laugh, like his sister’s, that easily made others laugh too. I miss that laugh……I miss him…..

The happiest day of his life was his wedding day – the day his wife said “I DO”….What a great day that was…….It is hard to believe that this tragedy happened just 2 months after the wedding; before he even got his wedding album from the photographer.

Bryan had a passion for comic books and was an avid collector. You have NO idea how many comics we now have…..His favorite series was the superheroes, because they depicted everything he believed in - fighting for justice…..He even had the batman symbol on the front of his cell phone.

We were all blessed to have been part of Bryan’s life…..and I assure you, we are better people as a result of knowing and loving him.

We must NEVER forget the sacrifice Bryan made that night, for it is his sacrifice that saved the lives of many. The prison escapee was cornered with over 100 rounds of amo on him.

Bryan is now an ANGEL IN BLUE, riding along side of Nick Birco and Isaac Espinoza. Their assignment is to patrol the gates of heaven. God chooses ONLY the BEST. I can’t think of a better police assignment.

Love mom

Sandy Tuvera
Bryan's mom

March 17, 2011

Hi honey

Time marches on....but my heart stopped beating that horrible night. I miss you so much. I miss every little thing about you.......We have an event coming up shortly in your memory. These events are always so hard because they remind me even more that you are not here.....but I know you are here in spirit....... Please send us signs as we need to feel your presence even more.

The family is changing and new additions will be joining the family soon....can't help but think what would have been and what should have been....It is so unfair.

I love you honey......and hope that you know it.

Love to you and daddy
Love mom

Sandy Tuvera
Bryan's mom

March 10, 2011

It is a New Year Bryan. Can't believe how quickly time passes.
I'll raise a toast to you tonight.
Love you much.

Andrea
Family

December 31, 2010

I know it's a few days late but still worth saying "Merry Christmas Bryan." I know it was your favorite holiday....
Lucky I got to spend it with your family...they are such fun and loving people. Admittedly I crept into your room just for a second to gather some of your presence I hoped I would find....so sad seeing seeing everything you left behind. Such an emptiness in our hearts still...
I miss you so much. And I love you you a ton Bryan.
Keeping you close always,
Andrea

Andrea
Family

December 27, 2010

Hi honey, it's mom

It has been four years and I can honestly say, it has been the worst four years of my life. There has not been a single day that I have not cried. I miss you so very much. Life without you is no life at all.

My only comfort is knowing that you are in heaven with your dad, sitting next to God, patroling the gates of heaven together. I am sure the two of you are sharing jokes and laughing alot, just like you did at home.

I can only imagine how beautiful heaven must be this time of year.....with the angels singing Christmas songs and the stunning decorations, I am sure heaven is sparking each year at Christmas. You always loved Christmas.

Please know that I pray for you and daddy every day....and look forward to the day when I can put my arms around you and hold you.

I love you honey and am so very proud of you.

Merry Christmas honey

PS - I could use some more signs....so send them my way whenever you can.


Love always, mom

Sandy Tuvera
Bryan's mother

December 24, 2010

4 years ago your death shook our family and has forever changed what Christmas is for all of us. You are still thought of and missed, in the big celebrations this past year to the small get-togethers we have with Salina and family. You will always remain our hero and a guardian angel.

JW

December 22, 2010

Bryan,

As today is the four year anniversary of your entrance to heaven, I scan my memories of you and your SFPD brothers in blue. I recall the day you and MZ dropped by the house for a quick visit on the way to the Hall. Sammy was just barely walking and wary of strangers. You and MZ sit on the couch and make silly faces at her. She doesn't know what to make of you two but doesn't start screaming. MZ wants to hold her and extends his arms ready to have her come into his arms. She gives him one look, then looks at you, then toddles her way toward you. The look on your face was priceless. I think you gave a little grin at that point. We all let out a holler of laughter. I suppose MZ's unusual stature for an Asian man was scary to her. Such a great fond memory of you, one that will always put a smile on my face!

Bryan, you are missed. I remember getting the call while finishing up our Christmas shopping four years ago and just falling to the floor in the middle of the mall crying hysterically. I will always remember you and miss you. This is always such a difficult season for us because we miss you so much! I believe you are a guardian angel for all your SFPD brothers. Today, I will remember you fondly...you are my hero...

EO
Wife of SFPD

December 22, 2010

4 years ago, I was watching the news and saw that a SFPD Officer had been shot and had arrived at SF General. CPR was being applied to the Officer as they wheeled him into surgery. I thought, "No way that was Bryan".

20 minutes later, I received the worst call of my life. My furthest thoughts were now reality. It was you.

I can't even put into words how much I miss you. You courage and heroism inspire me everyday.

Life goes on... But... We never forget. I'll never forget.

Steve Leonard
Cousin

December 22, 2010