Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Happy Halloween Mike!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

October 31, 2006

Happy Halloween! Not so painful this year and for that I feel blessed. Pumpkins are carved, costumes are purchased and we're ready to have everyone here tonight. Exactly the kind of party you would have loved. Always keeping the traditions for the kids so that your memory stays strong in their minds. I love you, boo.

neece

October 31, 2006

Thinking of you today

October 29, 2006

Hey bro. Just stopping by to read your reflections again. It blows my mind the impact you had on people in your way too short of a life. I don't think you had any idea how much people love you Mike. You wouldn't even admit that you were such a great person because that's how humble you were in life. I miss your voice on the phone. I miss sharing my hunting success with you most. When I would take a deer out of the woods you were ALWAYS the first person I thought of and called. Keep showing me your badge number. I see 33 everywhere. Thanks for that Mike. I love and miss you. You're still my hero.

till next time
Brian
Brother

Brian Scarbrough

October 27, 2006

Definitely got your sign. In the midst of being really down I get a call from Clay asking if the kids and I were available for the second game of the World Series. Of course I told him yes and it got us talking about you and your grandpa and how you would have been so geeked about the Tigers being in the game. How you would have done anything to get a ticket. Then Clay calls me last night to ask if we were available tonight for the game. The first night of the World Series! You know I jumped at the chance and the kids and I are headed there. They are bouncing off the walls and are all geared up in Tiger wear. Just the thought of all the great energy there has me really excited. That not only did we get tickets but four of them and for the first night! I can't help but think you had a hand in all this. Just when I feel about the lowest I can feel, something like this happens and it makes things a little easier. That you're constantly being thought of and so are the kids and I is a great feeling. That you made such a positive impact on so many people is comforting. That you were really loved is priceless. Know that I'll be thinking of you tonight and as always loving you, boo.

neece

October 21, 2006

Hey buddy-

By the time this posts, your wife and kids should be just settling into their seats at Comerica Park for the 1st game of the 2006 World Series.

Mike, can you believe that the Tigers are there??

Thanks to a great friend of yours and of mine, I made a phone call and asked if he could do anything for the kids in regards to the Games. He called me late last night and told me he was able to get 4 tickets for Denise and the Kids in left field near the area where Magglio hit his homerun.

So, if you have any pull up there, make it happen....

You'd be amazed at the happenings at the Station these days. You'd also be shocked at all of the promotions that are going on and all of the BS that we now have to endure.

I only wish that more of these guys could remember how you conducted youself and try to emulate you a little more.

Miss ya buddy, really, really miss ya.

Go Tigers!!

Clay
Friend

October 20, 2006

I finished watching the episodes I missed from last years Grey's Anatomy. I heard this hauntingly beautiful song so I bought the soundtrack and listened to it in the car today. Probably not the best time or place. These days I find myself crying for no reason and this song brought the tears on. The song is called Grace. I miss you and love you, boo.

I'm on my kees
only memories
are left for me to hold

Don't know how
but I'll get by
Slowly pull myself together

There's no escape
So keep me safe
This feels so unreal

Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it seems
Turn my grief to grace

I feel the cold
Loneliness unfold
Like from another world

Come what may
I won't fade away
But I know I might change

Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty sapce
Nothing is like it was
Turn my grief to grace

Nothing comes easily
Where do I begin?
Nothing can bring me peace
I've lost everything
I just want to feel your embrace

neece

October 20, 2006

Hi, Mike

I haven't been by to say HI in awhile. But I think of you everyday. We really miss you. Keep watching out!

Alison

Alison Weber
wife of wcaap

October 18, 2006

hi

October 18, 2006

Thinking of you today Scrap.

L

October 17, 2006

It's been rough since Kel's birthday...not unexpected, though. It's this time of the year that was always our special time...our favorite time...all of the great things happening for us as a couple time. Definitely not unexpected. That's one thing I've learned with this grief that situations, times of the year, a certain feeling can take you back to those dark days when everything felt so overwhelming, to the days that I would give anything to have you back, to the days where I couldn't believe you'd never be here again...but, I also know that the lighter days are to return. They always do, thank God. It's the one thing that makes this journey bearable. I'm lonely for you and missing you today and always. I love you, boo.

neece

October 17, 2006

Visiting you today...

October 13, 2006

May God watch over you and your family. I know that your beloved Michael is already doing so...
JoAnne Bemis

Deputy JoAnne Bemis
Oakland County Sheriff's Dept

October 10, 2006

20 months today...getting so close to two years. Unbelieveable sometimes. I love you, boo.

neece

October 9, 2006

Got through the first "seconds" of this year. Brett and Mike brought flowers for my birthday and Gary took me out for lunch. I got alot of phone calls and cards, too. I was really happy to see everyone and hear from everyone and felt excited about the day...totally different from last year which I thank God for. Instead of wanting the day to end really quick, I was able to sit back and enjoy.

The 4th brought us to the second "seconds" with that being the anniversary of our first date and the day Lizzie died. I had written a short reflection but it didn't make it on here...that's never happened before. I just told you how much we missed you and that I hoped you and Lizzie had joined forces to watch over everyone.

So far, all the "seconds" are manageable. I'm in a good place for right now and really pray these feelings continue for a while. It's a given that I miss you and will always love you, boo.

neece

October 6, 2006

Thinking about you today....Rest in peace

October 5, 2006

Just thinking of you and Lizzie today. We miss you so much...I hope you both have joined forces to keep watch over all of us...I love you, boo.

neece

October 4, 2006

Got back from spouses retreat...Thank God for COPS. I know you watch over us and see how instrumental they've been in helping the kids and I. I can't say enough about the staff and everyone who volunteers their time to help us. We are blessed by having them all.

The retreat was way better than last year...I didn't realize how much of a fog I had been in. I truly was able to do some work on this grief and have a great time doing it...I haven't laughed so hard in I don't remember when. True belly laughs...where it was hard to catch my breath...the kind where tears are rolling down your face...the kind of laugh you always had when watching a really stupid movie..the kind of laugh that made me feel so good watching you feel it.

I reconnected with so many women I had met before and met many new women. I always hate that we had to meet because of our loss but am soooo thankful we have each other. Got alot of names and numbers to stay connected.

Coming home was exciting because I feel another burst of energy to face the upcoming "seconds"...for right now, I feel o.k. I feel the break from everything makes it easier to cope with the kids and their grief. As always, I still miss you and love you, boo.

neece

September 26, 2006

Had a dream about ya a few weeks ago. You didn't say anything, but you gave me a hug. I remember I was saying to you "Why are you here? You aren't supposed to be here." I didn't remember it until the next afternoon when I heard a song on the radio. All of the sudden I remembered and it felt like you had just left. It made me very sad, but I also felt like I got to give you a hug goodbye. Brian did so good at the retreat. He came back having made some great connections and having had the opportunity to really open up to a few people. He needed to do that. He needed to connect to people that understand exactly what he's feeling. I can only do so much for him and I think he's afraid to really open up. He misses you so much and I know that the retreat made him feel closer to you. Layton is still collecting patches and talking to every police officer that he sees. He's obsessed. He draws pictures by the dozens and remarks every time he sees a 33. Brian said that he probably will become a police officer because you knew what you wanted to do as a kid and Brian knew what he wanted to do as a kid....so it's in the blood. Of course, I had to remind Brian that Layton also has my families blood in him so that could wipe out that guarantee! Hehe...I thought you would get a kick out of that. I miss you and I giving eachother crap - I actually looked forward to it! You would be so proud of Denise - she is truly a rock. She would argue I'm sure. I don't know what I'd do without her in my life and I'm so glad that you made her part of the family. We miss you Mike! Thanks for the hug.

Bridget
sister-in-law

September 22, 2006

Hey bro. Stopping by again to see you. Went to the siblings retreat about a week and a half ago. I was apprehensive about going. Didn't want it to be a cry-fest if you know what I mean. It was awesome. The COPS organization just wraps their arms around us and tell us that everything is going to be okay; and for the first time since your death I believe them. I really had some moments at retreat. Some good, some hard. I could really feel your presence with me there. Thanx for being with me. I heard some awesome stories about other brothers who were similiar to you. I miss you and it still hurts so much, but the sting of it all is a little better. I love the COPS organization so much. I feel like I've become part of a huge family of brothers and sisters. I hope to continue to go to retreat every year and maybe some day I can help someone coming for their first time. Thanx for looking out for all us up there.

I love you Mike
Brian

Brian Scarbrough
Brother

September 22, 2006

Leaving for the spouse's retreat tomorrow...I'm a little nervous leaving this year. I think last year I was pretty numb and I had the crazy thinking that the worst had already happened so I was safe to leave...reality has set in and with that the anxiety of being the only parent left for our kids and knowing the risks...but I know that I need to go not only for myself but to continue to deal with this grief and get and give support and relax some...It did make me feel better when I came home last year...I'm thinking it'll be the same this year...I miss you and love you, boo.

neece

September 21, 2006

God Bless up there.......................................

Michigan

September 18, 2006

Thinking of you on the gloomy day...take care up there

September 18, 2006

You have an awesome brother who misses you very much. Please send him some signs and help him through the difficult times.

Suviving Sibling

September 14, 2006

Just thinking of you today, even know I don't know you personally but just wanted to say hi, god bless and kepp watching over your loved ones sgt.

September 12, 2006