Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

I miss you so much.

Anonymous

March 15, 2009

Sometimes I sense a little flutter.
Like a shadow swiftly slipping by.
Or I hear a silent, gentle murmur.
Like a soft whisper from out the sky.

Sometimes... I hear you call my name,
Or clearly see your face before me.
And I feel that you are with me still.
Then peacefully... I come to know

As I am thinking happy thoughts of you
You, my bubby, are thinking of me too.
Loving memories fill my aching heart.
As dreaming dreams of what could be.

Or might have been, if you were here.
Until the piercing pain of losing you
Comes tumbling down on trembling fear.
And clearly once again I hear you say,

"But Sissy…What if I had never been.
You could not then in LOVE remember me."

-- I miss you terribly. You're still my rock. But that rock is nowhere to be found. I Love You Bigger than the Sky. Best Buddies "foreber and eber".

Kierstan
Sister

March 11, 2009

To the family of Deputy Sheriff Charles Cook:

I came across this memorial today, as I come to this website every now and again to pay tribute. Your notes brought tears to my eyes. I am so deeply sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers today. What a wonderful man Charlie must have been to be remembered so fondly as not just a hero, but a Daddy, a Husband, a Brother and Friend.

God rest. Never forgotten.

Laura
Philadelphia, PA

March 6, 2009

When you wake up tomorrow and I am no where to be found
When you scream out my name to the emptiness around
When every beat inside your heart is skipping and unsure
Cry not my sister for I am here, inside your love so pure

When the waves that used to touch our feet have gone back out to sea
When everything you once held dear was lost when you lost me
When the sun that once lit up your face is setting far away
Cry not my sister for time shall pass, but my love for you will stay

When age arrives and children play and pain creeps up on you
When loved ones show you happiness that your life never knew
When all of your expectations are met, no matter what the pain
Cry not my sister, for I am waiting to hold you once again

When beauty in your eyes turn gray and all of the rainbow, white
When strong undying hearts no longer feel an urge to fight
When winter snows become more pain than beauty in your heart
Cry not my sister, for I am here and we will never ever part


---- I miss you more with each passing second. You were the light of my life, when I lost you all the lights went out. Thank you for keeping all of us safe and healthy. Thank you so much for watching over Dad. I Love you Bigger than the Sky, Forever and Always. You will always be my #1. Noone will ever take your place. You will never be forgotten. Best Buddies "foreber and eber". Love you

Kierstan
Sister

March 5, 2009

Today would have been the 8th anniversary of you and my sister getting married. We all miss you so much, and still think of you daily.

Jenny
Sister-In-Law

March 3, 2009

I still love you very much. Happy 8th anniversary! Thinking of you.

Renee
wife

March 3, 2009

Tears fall from my eyes
as softly the memories flow,
with the tears, salty on my tongue.
I miss you so much.

Tomorrow is frightening
except for the thought
of seeing you again;
another time, another place.

I hear your voice...
in my dreams you come.
We talk and laugh
about silly, important things.

Each day without you is less;
less bright, less full, ...less.
I feel your love with me,
yet, I want you to hold.

Faith in God eases the pain
for moments, sometimes days.
Still, I cry; not only for you,
but for the loss I feel in me.

-- I LOVE YOU BIGGER THAN THE SKY. FOREVER AND ALWAYS. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY #1. YOU ARE MY WORLD. BEST BUDDIES "FOREBER AND EBER".

Anonymous

March 1, 2009

tears of a cop

i have been where you fear to be.
i have seen what you fear to see.
i have done what you fear to do.
all these things i've done for you.
i am the one you lean upon.
the one you cast your scorn upon.
the one you bring your troubles to,
all these people i've been for you.
the one you ask to stand apart.
the one you feel should have no heart.
the one you call the officer in blue.
but i am human, just like you.
and through the years i've come to see
that i am not what you ask of me.
so take this badge and take this gun.
will you take it?
will anyone?
and when you watch a person die,
and hear a battered baby cry.
then so you think that you can be
all those things you ask of me?

Dad

February 27, 2009

i miss you bubby. i love you biger than the sky forever & ever.

Anonymous

February 27, 2009

I am learning how to live
In a new way
Since that day
You were taken away
I am learning how to live
With the things left unsaid
Knowing I got to say them
With every tear that I shed
I am learning how to live
By embracing the pain
Knowing that you live on
Through the memories that remain
I am learning how to live
Knowing I will never again see your face
And I have peace knowing
You’re in a better place
I am learning how to live
Knowing you’re in God’s care
It gives me the strength to move on
And makes the pain much easier to bear.

.... I miss you more with each passing day, youre my rock and it just keeps getting harder and harder without you here to help me through. I will love you forever and you will never be forgotten. You are in my heart forever. I Love You Bigger than the Sky. Forever and always. Best Buddies "foreber and eber".

Kierstan
Sister

February 23, 2009

Thing of you,love you bud.

Anonymous

February 20, 2009

I miss you, so much.

Anonymous

February 18, 2009

We miss you Charlie.

Anonymous

February 17, 2009

Gold flows from the mountains

Silver fills the lakes

Diamonds made of teardrops

Behind the pearly gates

Diamonds are the seeds

That make the garden grow

The garden grows the knowledge

We all will someday know

The lights shine on the garden

That keeps us dry from rain

The lights fill up the darkness

And wipes away our pain

Music has a heartbeat

Colors laugh and cry

Souls are making love

As the angels gently sigh.


.....Happy Valentines Day to the greatest blessing God gave us... Love You

Kierstan
Sister

February 16, 2009

Jessica Andrews
Everything

I heard it on the street that you were seeing someone.
It knocked me off my feet; I guess I walked into that one.
I haven't even cried; now you know that's a lie.
I'm tearin up inside; this ain't easy.
It's killin me, I'm goin crazy.

Chorus:
I think about you every single day
Every second, every minute, every prayer I pray
To get you back in my arms.
What I'd give to have you around.
Every night I lie awake cause I can't sleep.
Midnight to morning feels like a damn week.
I miss you so much I can barely breathe.
You are my everything, everything, everything.
You are my everything, everything, everything to me.

It's gonna take time to finally see things clear.
Even when you're off my mind, you always reappear.
I'm trying to make it through but I really need you.
What can I do to get you back; I'm on my knees beggin please.

Repeat Chorus

Bridge:
I'm on my knees; I'm beggin please;
Come back to me; You're all I need;
You're everything, everything, everything I'm goin crazy!

Chorus

Oh (I'm on my knees I'm beggin please)
(Come back to me You're all I need) Oh, you are my everything.
(You're everything everything) Everything, I'm going crazy.
Everything, everything, everything to me.

.. I miss you. Love you Bubby

Kierstan
Sister

February 14, 2009

Mariah Carey
Bye Bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
[ Mariah Carey Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

[Chorus]

... I miss you more and more each day.. Your the most important person to me.. today, tomorrow, forever.. You will always be my hero, my idol, my best friend, my everything. I heard about how yo were riding the jet ski on senior trip and it ripped your pants all the way down. We all really miss you. It hurts so badly. The pain never ends. I LOVE YOU BIFFER THAN THE SKY. BEST BUDDIES "FOREBER AND EBER"... always my #1.

Kierstan
Sister

February 14, 2009

It was two weeks after the day she turned eighteen
All dressed in white
Going to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat
Sixpence in a shoe, something borrowed, something blue
And when the church doors opened up wide
She put her veil down
Trying to hide the tears
Oh she just couldn't believe it
She heard trumpets from the military band
And the flowers fell out of her hand

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

The preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray
Lord please lift his soul, and heal this hurt
Then the congregation all stood up and sang the saddest song that she ever heard
Then they handed her a folded up flag
And she held on to all she had left of him
Oh, and what could have been
And then the guns rang one last shot
And it felt like a bullet in her heart

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

Oh,
Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
Oh, now I'll never know
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

Oh, this is just a dream
Just a dream
Yeah, Yeah

Anonymous

February 14, 2009

i love you bubby. I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU AGAIN!!!

Anonymous

February 12, 2009

bubby thank you so much for everything!!! i cant even explain how much this means to me....i hope it stays like this! i love you bubby i'm so glad your my brother!!! talk to you later

Anonymous

February 10, 2009

What Hurts The Most
Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

Sissy

February 7, 2009

It was beautiful yesterday and just as nice today. I wish you were here to see it. I spent time with your old buddy Mike last night and he shared alot of stories that I was too young to remember and I can see you doing all of it. He sure does miss you, we all do. We were talking about you, sharing memories. It hurt that you weren't there. You should have been sitting there, laughing and joking. Just like that song by Rascal Flatts "What Hurts the Most". I miss you more and more everyday. Your in everything now. You never leave my mind. I Love You Bigger than the Sky. Best Buddies, forever and ever. Always my #1.

Kierstan
Sister

February 7, 2009

i love you & miss you bubby!

kailee
sister

February 6, 2009

He wore his father’s badge

On his first day,

Pinned to his young chest

By his father’s partner, a cop now old and gray.

His hat was once his daddy’s,

And his gun once was his too,

For like his daddys,

He felt the calling of the blue.

He’s falling in the silent footsteps,

Of a father he never knew,

No longer a yearning dream,

Like his daddys, he now is a man of the blue.

His father didn’t see

His boy become a man,

But he had many daddys in blue,

Who were there with a fatherly hand.

It takes many daddys,

To raise a fatherless boy,

To turn tears to laughter,

To change sorrow into joy.

He’s walking in his daddys’ footsteps,

And believe me, there are quite a few,

Daddys who carried on,

For a fallen brother of the blue.

Anonymous

February 4, 2009

Such a big smile

Upon my face,

Aren’t you so glad

You’re in such a happy place!

But don’t look in my eyes

For then you will see,

The broken heart within

The shattered me.

The eyes don’t lie

They can not hide,

What a smile covers

The broken soul inside.

---Miss you..

Kierstan
Sister

February 4, 2009

Spring will be here soon. Its not any fun without you anymore. I really miss you throwing me off your shoulders in the pool. I miss you more and more each day. Always my #1. Best Buddies "foreber and eber". Love You Bigger than the Sky.

Kierstan
Sister

February 4, 2009