Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Deputy Sheriff Kevin Carper

Spartanburg County Sheriff's Office, South Carolina

End of Watch Tuesday, February 27, 2007

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Reflections for Deputy Sheriff Kevin Carper

Can you see the change in me? It may not be obvious to you.

I participate in family activities. I attend family reunions. I help plan holiday meals. You tell me you're glad to see that I don't cry anymore.

But I do cry. When everyone has gone---when it's safe---the tears fall. I cry in privacy so my family won't worry. I cry until I am exhausted and can finally sleep.

You tell me you admire my strength and my positive attitude.

But I am not strong. I feel that I have lost control, and I panic when I think about tomorrow...next week...next month...next year. My heart is raw, broken, and fragile.

I go about the routine of my job. I complete my assigned tasks. I appear busy. I drink coffee and smile. You tell me you're glad to see I'm "over" the death of my loved one.

But I'm not "over" it. If I get over it, I will not be the same as before my loved one died. I will never be the same. At times I think I am beginning to heal, but the pain of losing someone I loved so much has left a permanent scar on my heart.

I visit with family and friends. You tell me you're glad to see I'm holding up so well. But I'm not holding up well. Sometimes I want to lock my door and hide from the world and scream at the unfairness of it.

I spend time with loved ones. I appear calm and collected. I smile when appropriate. You tell me it's good to see me back to my "old self".

But I will never be back to my "old self". Death and grief have touched my life, and I am forever changed.

(Adapted from Rhonda Wilson, Asheboro,NC)

This is from Kevin's baby sister...Amanda
myspacekevincarper memorial for Kevin
Thank you all, for your support and your comments,. we love to read them so keep posting them please!!!!!!!!

Amanda Sweeney
sister

August 13, 2007

i love the respect, everyone is giving us? but the laws of the world should be intact/ my brother was so sure of his duty in life. and for that to be cut short,because of time? the duty is"to protect and serve", not let off, because?????????????? it might be your time to go home???? if everybody would follow the rules or protacol, in a busness,just, maybe, maybe,people would realize what they would lossssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

August 11, 2007

My daughter, Danielle, and her husband, Spartanburg Co. Sheriff Deputy Andy Daniel, bought stickers for themselves and one for me in remembrance of you ~ and even though I am so proud to place it in my car, I would be even prouder to have you personally here in our presence. I know your sixth-month anniversary is near, and it will be a very sad time so extra prayers will be said for your family...Patty

Patty Dennis, a citizen

August 10, 2007

To Deputy Carper's sister,
Over the past 18 years I have been through the death of three officers that I knew. The last was in 2005 when a partner of mine was killed as he stopped to help a stranded motorist. Alex was already off work and on the way home. He never made it home. He was struck and killed on the side of the road. I think about him often and I know that he would not want us to be sad but to rejoice that he has gone to a better place. I still have his number in my cellphone and to the time I no longer have a cellphone it will stay there. I know your brother would want you to rejoice that he is in a better place. He and Alex are looking over us all. They are walking the best beat possible. Keep him in your heart and he will never be gone or forgotten.

Don Hodges
Anderson SC Police Dept.

Don Hodges Patrolman
Anderson Police Dept.

August 6, 2007

dearest jocelyne, my heart goes out to you and yours. i know my brother would love more possitive reponses to what has happened here,.... please keep him and yours in our thoughts. l t

teresa carper
sis

July 28, 2007

dearest, we girls drove together to florida, to stay with mom,best trip us girls ever took together.i know u will laugh at this part, it will be another ten years before we do that again. flying is the only way to go.jeff is all moved, now. i hope to fly back in a week, and stay with mom. we painted her livingroom,dining area, and redid the flower bed out front, you would really like it, the way we cleaned grandma's&pa's plot at maplewwood. hope next year we all can get together like it should be. love to you and yours, xoxxxoooxxooox

teresa carper
sis

July 28, 2007

"The Badge"
He starts his shift each day
To respond to calls unknown.
He drives a marked patrol car.
A police officer he is known.
He's paid by the citizens' taxes
To make it safe on the streets.
But he usually has a second job
'Cause a waitress has his salary beat.
Now he doesn't know a holiday
'Cause he works all year round.
And when Thanksgiving and Christmas finally arrive
At his home he cannot be found.
He's cursed and assaulted often,
The one whos blood runs blue.
He seldom ever gets a thanks,
To some he's just a fool.
His friends are always other cops
'Cause people just don't understand
That underneath his badge and gun,
He's just another man.
He knows there might not be a tomorrow
In this world of drugs and crime.
And he gets so mad at the court system
'Cause the crooks don't get any time.
And each day when he leaves for work,
He prays to God above.
Please bring me home after my shift
So I can see the ones I love.
But tonight he stops a speeding car,
He's alone down this ole' highway.
It's just a little traffic infraction.
He does it everyday.
Well, he walks up to the driver's window,
And his badge is shining bright.
He asked the guy for a driver's license,
When a shot rang through the night.
Yes, the bullet hit its mark,
Striking the officer in the chest.
But the Department's budget didn't buy
Each officer a bullet-proof vest.
So he lay on the ground bleeding.
His blood wasn't blue - His blood was red.
And briefly he thought of his loved ones
'Cause in a moment the officer was dead.
In the news they told the story
Of how this officer had died.
And some who listened cared less,
But those who loved him cried.
Well, they buried him in uniform
With his badge pinned on his chest.
He even had his revolver,
He died doing his best.
Written By:
David L. Bell
Sergeant
Richland County Sheriff's Department
Columbia, South Carolina
Used with Special Permission of the Author
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and may not be duplicated without permission

Investigator David L Bell
Richland County Sheriff's Dept.

July 11, 2007

I haven't spent a lot of time this year reading the memorials of the fallen officers, mainly because it saddens me that so many great men and women have fallen. It's a terrible thing that so many great lives were cut so short. As a fallen officer survivour, my heart goes out to all those that knew and loved Deputy Carper. Know that you are not alone in this journey that you walk and that Kevin will not be forgotten here in Winnipeg.

Deputy Carper, thank you for helping to make this world a safer place. If you run into my late fiance Dennis up there give him a hug for all of us down here. It's been just over four years and we still miss him terribly.

Wishing you brighter and better days,


Jocelyne
"Forever Loving & Missing 26-3"

Jocelyne Brar (Winnipeg, MB Canada)
Surviving Fiancee of Deputy Dennis R. McElderry (EOW: 01/03/03)

July 8, 2007

dearest, we miss you so much, jt, can't. never mind. i want to thank everybody, for keeping kevin in our hearts, please keep doing so.''' it, helps us so much. please keep sending your thoughts',and prayers, to all of kevin's family. the more we here about his life in s.c., the better it helps us to understand, why we had to be apart all these years???? kevin would say,"you guys crack me up" lighten-upppp// so please,/ keep in touch with this page. love t,a,k,m,c,j??????????

teresa carper
sister

June 25, 2007

The HPD SWAT team shares in the sadness over the loss of Kevin Carper. The SESWAT Competition trophy in his name will always sit proudly on our shelf. We are humbled and honored to be the first recipients. We promise to always honor his name and commitment. Godspeed to him, blessings to his family and friends.

APO Kent R Folsom MD
Tactical Physician, Harrisonburg VA PD SWAT

June 25, 2007

to, jon, and ,wendy, thank you, for leaving the great memo's of my brother. i'm just learning to work my comptu."
please send more info, about kevin's job? i want to here more about kevin's life in s.c./ we all had to move in different states, growing up. but we we're all close. we all took care of each other... i know kevin would want everyone to do the same. "be one happy family,;;;

teresa
sister

June 25, 2007

Every night as I turn the lights off to leave I think of how you would laughingly turn the lights off on those of us still here as you walked out the door. Not a day goes by that someone doesn't bring up something funny that you said or did,or we talk about one of those great warrant services we had that will go down in the WO "history book". Just last week, Kish chased that same guy that you and Kendall "chased" on the railroad overpass a couple years ago. After almost four months,its still hard to believe that you are not here. We miss you. Watch over your team until we see you again.

1st Sergeant Wendy Bradley
Spartanburg Co SO Warrant Team

June 21, 2007

hello you, we just got are bracelets today, really miss that smile, but all i have to do now is look at my wrist, going to have one made with the girls pics on it. sure miss talking with you. but i know you are there when i do. i love you terrylynn

teresa bowlin
sister

June 16, 2007

Kevin,

I still think about you everyday! We just got everything moved and the house is wonderful. I know that you would be so excited. We miss you so much! I will never forget you. I want you to know that I will do everything I can to make sure that your children will never want for anything, and I will help raise them the best that I can. I hope you knew how much I loved you.

Jon C. Fowler
Brother-in-law

June 5, 2007

Kevin, We just passed that 3rd month without you and I still think about you every day. I hope that never changes. I can still see your smiling face, and remember the talk we had outside the warrant office just days before your passing. I will never forget that conversation or you. Look in on us from time to time and surround us with protection.

Sgt. Curtis Kesler
Spartanburg County S. O.

June 1, 2007

I just wanted to let you know that I am still thinking of you and your girls. I hope you are getting by ok. Hopefully you still have some family that is helping you.

Nicole Burdette
Wife of Alex Burdette EOW 3-12-05

May 22, 2007

kevin,i talked w/J.T Yesterday,he's leaving 4 aust. 4 4mos.he won't be able 2 come home until jan. we ordered brac-lets w/your pic/@info.we are coming 2 visit w/u after that.take care of the blue above,,luv t

teresa
sister

May 20, 2007

i am the sister of kevin carper, i would like to hear more postive answers on how to cope with this loss from family and frinds, people who know my brother. the friends,co-workers,etc. what my brother meant to them? exp,the people who called him chopper? i called my son that the other day, he said mom my nick name is toad?? i realized after reading,this page, that was kevin/ i have not heard that nickname in years? please send info?? luv t

teresa
sister

May 19, 2007

I am deeply hurt that to hear the news that Officer Kevin Carper cant go home to give his wife and kids a hug. Every night I give my dad a hug befour he leaves for work, knowing that it might be the last time I see him alive. As I heard the news I picked up the phone and called my cousin to see if he was ok and to see if I knew the officer, I didnt but it doesnt make it any easier. To the family and fellow officers, I'm sorry. Its hard and I didnt even know him. As I give my dad a hug befour he leaves for work I cant help but think about Kevin's kids because they cant give their dad a hug anymore

The son of a Police Officer

May 16, 2007

Rest in Peace brother! Heart felt condolence to your family!

Officer Matt Lyons
Oceanside, CA PD

May 13, 2007

What you did in service to your community meant more than you'd ever guess - Thank you so much for your service

Sgt Don "Boots" Jensen Retired
Milwaukee Police Department, Milwaukee, WI

May 12, 2007

You gave the ultimate sacrafice while serving and protecting the community. Watch over the rest of us as we work to make this world a safer place to live. God bless you and your family, you will never be forgotten.

Deputy Mary B. Syson
King County Sheriffs Department

May 8, 2007

KEVIN YOU ARE STILL IN OUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS, AND YOU WILL ALWAYS WILL BE. WE ALL MISS YOU AT THE OFFICE.REST IN PEACE.

DEPUTY 3 ANDREW DANIEL
S.C.S.O.

May 6, 2007

One of the most humble people I have ever known. The father, the husband that is beyond compare. I sit and have a bad day and I realize "how selfish" it is not as bad as the day Kevin had. Words are never enough to express this loss. Kevin is in heaven and there is no doubt of that. You will be missed forever and you will always be loved to no end......

anonymous

May 2, 2007

Dear Family, Friends, and Co-Workers of Deputy Sheriff Kevin Carper,

We are so sorry to here about your tragic loss of Kevin. Our thoughts and prayers go out to you in support during this very difficult time. We know that sometimes there is little comfort that comes from words. Keep focused as you can on the memories and joyous times for these things may bring you comfort. Rely heavily on family, friends, and other law enforcement for support. Honor your fallen loved one, for their sacrifice will not be forgotten. Deputy Sheriff Kevin Carper is a hero.


Respectfully,

Alissa Scott
Widow of Beryl Wayne Scott
E.O.W. 09-10-02

Lisa Schultz
Widow of Don Schultz
E.O.W. 05-12-04

April 27, 2007

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