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Police Officer Scott Alan Wertz

Reading Police Department, Pennsylvania

End of Watch Sunday, August 6, 2006

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Reflections for Police Officer Scott Alan Wertz

Scott,

Happy Birthday. Ill will have a few tonight for you.

Off. Matthew Mish
RPD

May 5, 2009

Happy Birthday Sassy....There will be glasses raised in your honor tonight....Keep us safe

Chris Jenkins #625
RPD

May 5, 2009

Happy Birthday Hon. 43 today. Love you and miss you like crazy!!!

Love,

Trish

Trish Wertz
Loving Widow

May 5, 2009

Happy Birthday Scott! Still missing you.

Friend
RPD

May 5, 2009

Hi Scott....just wanted to stop by and say Happy Birthday! We miss you tons!!

Cathy Hertzog
Friend/Neighbor

May 5, 2009

Hi Scott,
Just wanted to come by and wish you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY! You would have been 43 this year. We miss you.

Brooke Mish
Friend

May 4, 2009

Scott,

I know its been a while, but I wanted to stop and say hey. There isnt a day that goes by where I dont stop for a moment and remember how much fun we used to have. Travis is getting really big, and the paybacks have started. He is just as stubborn as I am...The girls are in AC, I guess Trish taught mama how to gamble...That may or may not be good. Ill stop back in a few days....People often say the more things change, the more they stay the same. I disagree. I miss you brother...Take care.

Chris Jenkins #625
RPD

May 1, 2009

YO BRO, IT HAS BEEN A LONG TIME, THERE STILL IS NOT A DAY THAT GOES BY THAT I DONT THINK OF YOU AND THAT NIGHT. WE HAVE A CASE COMING UP THAT HAS TO DO WITH THAT NIGHT AND IT JUST BRINGS EVERYTHING BACK THAT I JUST WANT TO FORGET. MISS YOU BRO. MUCH RESPECT, AND KEEP WATCHING OVER US. AJ.

OFC. ADAM LINDERMAN # 655
READING POLICE DEPARTMENT

April 20, 2009

Hi Scott...just wanted to come by on this sunny, Easter day. Thanks for being here for us this week...it's been rough. We stopped by to see you Thursday after the service we were there for was concluded.

Trish...I wanted to send you and the boys a blessing on this day. Hope all is well.

Becky Mooney
Official Court Reporter

April 12, 2009

Hi #2 son

It is always good to hear from you. I just want to thank you for having the boys with you and looking out for them and also to thank the three of you for looking out for Dustin and keeping him safe. It will be so good to see him when he gets home. Thank you again for always being there for him when he was out of the country. I know it meant a lot to him to know you were always around.

Love and miss you a lot.

Barb
mother-in-law

April 5, 2009

Hi Hon. Just wanted to say thank you, thank you, thank you!! It was soooooooooo wonderful to hear from you!! Any doubt I ever had about you not knowing the way I feel or second guessing anything I do or have ever done (thanks to some naysayers), were finally put to rest!! I always knew in my heart that you knew/know exactly how I feel. It was just nice to have the affirmation. I love you always and forever!

Love forever,

Trish

Trish Wertz
Loving Widow

April 1, 2009

Hey Scotty,
It's been a while I know, but I know that you're ok!
You wouldn't believe what's been going on lately!!!!
I wish it was good , but not really.
I still pray for you and the family not often, but every single day! Just want to let you know that you and your family are not forgotten!
D!

Dennis Smith
"Friend from long ago!"

March 29, 2009

Hey,

I've been having really strange dreams. Only you will understand when I say that I don't like these dreams....
The waking up at 3am stopped along time ago when I asked why. so I am asking again...why???
I like good dreams,not haunting ones....
But again, it is you I am talking to. You probably love it....

I have to say that you are sooooo missed by your family. I don't think people really understand what really happens to a family even after 2 years....Families want to move on but are afraid of what others will say...
It just sucks that you are not here....I don't even know what else to say about it.

Scott, Sending Love Back
Trish, LOVE YOU, MEAN IT.......Lisa

Lisa Fronina
Friend

March 25, 2009

Hi #2 son

Sorry it has been a while since I was here. I want to thank you for always keeping a watch over Dustin and being there with him while he is out of the country. I know it really means a lot to him and especially to us that you and his other two angels are keeping him safe.

The boys are getting so big and it is such a shame that you can't be here for them, they are growing up so fast. You would be so proud of them and of all their accomplishments. Trish is doing such a wonderful job and I know that it is not easy, but I am sure you are giving her the strength to get through every day.

The other day the song "Mrs. Jones" was on the radio and thank god I was by myself. It brought back so many good memories. I could just picture every time you sang that song and the joy you always got singing it, (don't know if you remembered every time, but we sure do.)

We thing of you so often, you're on our minds each day
It's been almost three years since death took you away
We catch ourselves throughout the day wanting to call you on the phone(I sure do miss those calls)
When we remember you are gone,we feel so empty and alone
We miss your touch, your warm embrace,your big brown eyes, your loud voice, and your smiling face
And when our loss is hard to bear,
You give us strength, we know you're there
You really were quite special, so strong and very brave
You held nothing back from anyone, you loved with your heart and soul
You were always ther to turn to and you made our family whole
We know that your in heaven and we will see you again
But for now we say good-bye, to a wonderful father, husband and everyone's friend
So until we meet again some day
In our hearts you will forever stay.

We love and miss you

Barb
Mother-in-law

March 13, 2009

Hi Scotty,

Thinking of you today. This past week has been a little rough for me..I know it is just a hiccup, and there is a much bigger picture to look at. Its just hard to see that now. Is it too much to ask for a little sunshine? I am so tired of the dark cloud that seems to hang over me.

We miss ya Scott...oh and by the way, Matt has crossed over to old man beer. Your favorite! lol

Brooke Mish
Friend

March 3, 2009

Scott, Not a day goes by that I don't think of you. I miss you so much. Still haven't figured out a way to enjoy special events without you around. There is just that huge void without you being present. I was over at your house the other day. I just can't help but get a strange feeling everytime I am there. Trish has the place looking beautiful. I think she has done a great job of keeping your memory alive in that home. It is hard for me to walk into that house without getting all choked up. Hopefully it will get easier the more time that goes by.

Love you and miss you more everyday.

Michele
Sister

March 2, 2009

My heart goes out to Josh and Jared. They're good kids and they need you. Trish is doing a good job but the reality is that she can never be their dad.

Denise L. Wise
Widow, Michael H. Wise, II EOW 6/5/04

March 2, 2009

Well, yesterday our "baby" turned 15. I can't believe it!! It is truly amazing how time flies!! He had a good day. He kept reminding me how in 1 year he will be driving!! (God, I can certainly wait for that!!) I, on the other hand, was a different story. All I kept thinking about was how you are not here to see another birthday and how that just sucks!! I also thought about all the years you were here for, and that hopefully he will never forget them. I couldn't also help but remember and think of how you almost missed him being born and the look on your face when you walked in the door and he was crowning (I'm just going to go home and change)!!! Awww - those dark eyes of yours!!

I saw Josh's post the other day. God, it just breaks my heart!! I sat and cried! I feel so darn bad for them! I just can't imagine. I know what I feel like and go through. I can't even begin to fathom what it is like for them! I'm so glad he remembers things. I worry so much that he won't because he is so young. I will forever remind them, remember, and talk about you!

We love you and miss you terribly!! Please continue to watch over us until we meet again!!

Love forever,

Trish

Trish Wertz
Loving Widow

February 27, 2009

Scotty,
Just wanted to stop by and say hello. It has been a while but I also wanted to thank you for stopping by last night again. I just saw Josh's post and that breaks my heart that he has to go through life without his dad and same with Jared. You should be proud of the young men they are turning out to be. We all see so much of you in them.... well I'll talk to you later Bro!

Dustin
Bro-in-law/ BPD Maryland

February 26, 2009

Dad I Will never forget you and Jared And Mom Are doing good to today was not a good day at school bacause everybody found out who i like so that made me EMBARESED wish you were here to play baseball and football i remember when you came back from outfield you always used to put your glove on your head until you got back to the bench.LOVE YOU AND YOUR NEVER FORGOTEN!!!love Josh

Josh Wertz
son of Scott Wertz

February 23, 2009

I WAS THINKING OF YOU ALOT LATELY. COMMING TO WORK ISN'T FUN ANYMORE FOR ALOT OF REASONS. IT MAKES ME THINK BACK TO THE TIMES WE HAD RIDING TOGETHER. THANKS FOR THE GOOD TIMES THAT I CAN ALWAYS FALL BACK ON, AND NO ONE CAN TAKE FROM ME.

BATTLE OF THE BADGES WAS THIS WEEKEND. I WAS THERE WITH THE HONOR GUARD TO SHOW MY PRIDE. GOD BLESS TRISH AND THE BOYS. CAN'T WAIT FOR THE WARM WEATHER AND THE "BLUE HEN"

ANOTHER ONE FELL IN PHILA. I'M SURE YOU WILL WELCOME ANOTHER BROTHER HOME.......

HEAVY D
RPD

February 16, 2009

Trish,

I hope 2009 and every year from now on is full of blessings, happiness, and love for you and your boys. You deserve it. What happened to Scott was a terrible thing but you're right, your life shouldn't end because of it. It makes me sad to think you have been dealing with such judgment from people who have no right to judge. They don't walk in your shoes. They should count their blessings that they don't have to. You have stood strong and graceful in the face of all of this and I want you to know that I respect you for that. Scott would have expected you to go on with your life. He was too much of a live in the moment kind of guy. He was all about being happy and taking every opportunity to try something new and laugh like hell. You're right, those who really know you and who really knew him would understand the decisions you have had to make. It doesn't mean you love him less. It means you have finally reached the point where you are ready to take a bend in your road. You won't forget what you had before. It will always shine bright in your heart and in your children. Good luck with whatever your future has in store for you.

Friend of Scott

Anonymous

February 15, 2009

Scott,

I'm pretty sure I never got the chance to thank you for being involved in some of the events for Michael. I do remember that you were the one I threw the first pitch to at the softball game and I just want to say "thanks". I'm sorry you had to join him. It makes me sad for you (even though I know you're in a better place) and for your family.

Keep smiling down on your friends and family.

Denise L. Wise
Widow, Michael H. Wise, II EOW 6/5/04

February 12, 2009

trish, you do not know me but i was good friends with mike wise. when he was killed i got a sick feeling when i heard it. the night scott was killed i was working and heard it. i can only imagine how you must feel. i just read your reflection to scott and all i can respond back with is to those who judge you the hell with them. like you said scott will not be forgotten no matter what changes you make or have to make. just keep doing what you are doing and scott will live on with you and through your boys. you have my support 100 percent. and hopefully the scum who took scott from you will never see the light of day again. bob

bob jones

February 10, 2009

Hey hon. Been thinking so much lately about you and how quickly the past 2 ½ years have flown by. I can’t believe it sometimes. Some days it still feels like yesterday. Some days it feels like a life-time ago. I was checking several other fallen officer’s pages the other day. I check certain ones once-in-awhile to see how their widows and children are doing. One I check is Officer Jesse Sollman (EOW 3-25-05, Easton Police Department). When I read his widow Carin’s reflections, I sometimes feel like I am looking in the mirror. She has such a way with words. She expresses exactly how I am feeling sometimes. It is kind of scary, but she makes me feel like I am not alone, nor that am I going crazy! As I was reading her reflections, I found this one in particular, dated 12-25-08, that expresses exactly how I have been feeling for almost 2 ½ years. I don’t think she would mind that I “borrowed” it. I have not been fortunate enough to meet her – yet. She had reached out to me before the trial to offer support and a place to stay if we needed it. Fortunately, we didn’t need that place to stay, but I will never forget her kind offer. She seems like such a wonderful person and I am looking forward to one day meeting her. Anyway, this is what she wrote:


A Pair of Shoes---

I am wearing a pair of shoes
They are ugly shoes
Uncomfortable shoes
I hate my shoes
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step
Yet I continue to wear them
I get funny looks wearing these shoes, they are looks of sympathy, and I can feel and tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs.
They never talk about my shoes
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable
To truly understand these shoes, you must walk in them
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off
I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes
There are many pairs in this world
Some women are like me and ache daily as they try to walk in them.
Some have learned to walk in them, that they don't ache as much
Some have worn these shoes so long that days will go before they think about how much they hurt
No woman deserves to wear these shoes
Yet, because of these shoes some day I may become a stronger woman
These shoes have continually given me strength to face the next day
They have made me who I am now
I will forever walk in these shoes of a woman who has lost her husband......Anonymous.


I have found how much people like to look at me (and other women like me) and judge how we have handled our situations. People think if we take any steps to try to move on with our lives that we are betraying your memory - that we didn't love you or that we somehow weren't devoted to you. But you and the people close to me know that you are always right below the surface of my being - it's hard to explain how I function day to day and yet you are on my mind constantly. People who don’t really know me or know what it’s like to be widowed so young don’t understand that trying to move on isn’t about not loving you and still wanting you here, or about forgetting you – trying to move on is the only choice I have because you aren’t coming back. Finding happiness again doesn’t erase the darkness, your memory is a shadow of heaviness that follows me every where I go, but our lives didn’t end the day you died (nor should they!) and I finally have come to accept and believe that I do deserve to be happy again. I remember reading a reflection on another officer’s site left by his widow after she had remarried and she talked so eloquently about the blending of her past and her future and how by marrying again she wasn’t leaving her past behind – she was taking it with her and that he would always be a part of their lives. That is how I feel too, Jes – you will always be a part of our lives. The only response I have for anyone who would pass judgment on me for wanting to move on and be happy is that I hope you never have to walk in my shoes – they are terrible, ugly, painful shoes and I wouldn’t wish them on anyone.


___________________


I couldn’t have said it any better. There are a lot of things/changes that are going to be going on in 2009 and I know I will be judged beyond belief – like I have been for the past 2 ½ years - by some. I am always trying to learn from what I have been through. I have learned that what I have been through in the past 2 ½ years has only made me stronger. Another thing, and probably the most important, is that I have learned that what matters most to me (besides the boys) is that those people who have stood by me and supported me in the past 2 ½ years (and haven’t talked shit or judged) are the people whose opinion are the only ones that really, truly matter in the end!!

Hon - you always did tell me to stop worrying about what other people think! I’m really trying. I thank you for the strength to go on and to say the things that I have wanted to say for so long. I am who I am today because of you and what I have been through. I know, that you know, that I love you and miss you terribly. You are and always will be forever in my heart and soul. Please continue to keep watching over us and giving us strength. We need it. Until next time . . .

Love forever,

Trish


P.S. I hope I haven’t offended anyone. I’m not trying to. Nor am I directing this to anyone in particular. I just am hoping that people will read this and learn not to judge - anyone. If I have offended you – then perhaps you need to do some reflecting. For those of you who have stood by me and offered me a kind word, support, or anything else – thank you so much. It means more than you will ever know.

Trish Wertz
Loving Widow

February 9, 2009

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