Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Happy Birthday

Nick

October 30, 2014

Well Ethan not sure why you are totally on my mind today but you are.. You are there a lot but today I keep crying. Not sure why, because your and Moms birthday is in 5 days and we were laughing about your first Halloween with us , which you missed because you had to take a fruitcake to the hospital, and Kylie being upset you were gone so long to visit a friend... Bahaha still makes me laugh!! It has happened we are building a inlaw suite in the basement of your and Kylies house ( even though she moved this is still very much your house too, you always were a wonderful provider and still am) Madison is such a grown up now at least SHE thinks she is , but your baby girl is very mature for her age and she has a great group of friends, I even think you would like and approve of her boyfriend.. Yep boyfriend.. She still looks like you so very much but although Hayden still looks like Kylie , most of his actions are you !! He told me the other day that some weird things makes him laugh including farts!! Oh my goodness it has to be you in him coming out !! The kids want to go to Disney in Jan over your EOW so disney it is.. Anything to take their mind to happy memories of you.. Kylie is doing a great job of raising the kids but even Maddy will say my dad would have been so much stricter.. She has your and Kylies quiet smile, but can be sooo blonde sometimes. I am sure you are having a great time with Jake, losing him was so hard. Kylie has a great friend in Jamie Shell one of your deputy buddies, He helps her out and listens to her , he always honors you and looks out for this family.. Thanks for sending him . Well Bud I need to go , open house at farm tomorrow and Auction is Nov 1st.. So lots to do. We love you bunches and bunches... Connie

Connie Miller
morher in law

October 25, 2014

The Punishers Motorcycle group put together a wonderful Memorial Ride yesterday for you, Chad and Brett. It was a great turn out and we went and watched the bikes take off and for the little ceremony that they did prior. We went with your Mom and Dad and then to lunch. They still miss you so much every day, and I know that they get by, but, it is still so hard for the both of them. We went and watched Hayden's baseball game, and he did well. I could see his Mom in him, just like when she played softball, very hard on themselves, when they make a mistake. He is getting so big! Both of them are growing up so much. Maddy don't look like a little girl anymore and she is not.
There is still great support to help keep your memory alive, and we will never let it be forgotten.
We miss you and love you!

Aunt Lori

Lori Collins
aunt of Deputy Ethan Collins 01/04/2006

July 20, 2014

The holidays are upon us, and we know that your anniversary date is coming up soon. It is a day that replays that day in 2006 in our minds over and over. We all miss you and love you every day and wish that we had been able to have kept you here with us longer. I always remember our last Christmas Eve at your Grandma's, you and Nick were at the eating bar and I was doing the dishes and we were laughing and talking and Nick asked you if you wanted to help him fillet some fish that he had caught and you said, "No, I cannot do that, I can't even clean up dog poop without gagging." I laughed because of the type of job that you had, and asked how you did that, and you said I don't know, I just can. I cherish that memory of that Christmas Eve and that time that the three of us spent in the kitchen, laughing and talking, it means the world to me. We will all be together again someday, we know, and laugh again.
Love,
Aunt Lori

Lori Collins
aunt

December 29, 2013

Today would be 12 years of marriage for us. I am very grateful we had 4 1/2 years together. I truly married my best friend that day ....Love you always...

Kylie Collins
wife

May 5, 2013

We had Easter this passed Sunday, and it was at your Mom and Dad's house. They kids are all getting so big, and Maddy thought that she was too old to join in the games for the little ones. She is getting to be be such a young lady!! She is so pretty! Hayden is growing up too.
We miss you and still it seems that you will just walk in the door when we are all gathered for a family event. I wish you would!! Love ya, and think of you each day!!

Lori Collins
Aunt

April 4, 2013

7 years ago you were called home to heaven and while I am happy you are in paradise I am still so sad you are not with us..Kylie is having a rough time as I am sure you know..the kids miss you but are doing well..Madison still looks like you so very much but is such a young lady now,and Hayden oh my goodness he acts so much like you..He loves his legos and actually anything you liked he does too..I know you are watching from above and if here would be extremely proud of Kylie and the kids...We miss and love you Ethan very much....

Connie Miller
mother in law

January 4, 2013

Deputy Collins,

I didn't know you, but I work for your department now. All your co-workers always talk about you and how much of a great deputy and great person you were. Actually, we were just talking about you, right before I left roll call this afternoon. It's obvious that you were loved around the office. RIP brother, we've got it from here.

Justin FC411
Fairfield County Sheriff's Office

January 3, 2013

Well today is our daughters 12th birthday....It is so hard to believe..She misses you so much and it has been hard....you have always been a wonderful dad and we will never forget the love you had for her the day you first layed eyes on her....she will always be your little girl...Love you always....

Kylie Collins
wife

November 27, 2012

Just wanted to say that I miss you so very much cuz. Wishing u were here to talk to and get advice from. Went to the cemetary to say happy birthday to you. It's still hard to deal with,hard to believe you are gone. The hole never really goes away, you just have to learn to live with it I guess. Kyle is such a srong woman and such a great mother to your children. Well tell grandpa I said hello.
Love and miss you both so much!!!!!!

Lorelie
Cousin

November 9, 2012

Your birthday came and went, and we went to the cemetary and left flowers, and spoke those words of Happy Birthday Ethan to your head stone. It has been 6 1/2 years ago, and it is still so hard to believe. Your little cousin Karter is always with me when I go to the cemetary, he is four now, and he always has lots of questions, and he tries to understand it all. He is so very proud to wear his Mud Volleyball t-shirts and they can't get dirty. He calls them all his "Ethan shirts" and says that Ethan is my cousin, like we didn't know that bit of information. I wish he would have gotten to meet you, he loves Maddy and Hayden, of course, Hayden is his older boy cousin and he thinks he is the iciing on the cake.
We love and miss you each day, and always will!

Lori Collins
Aunt

November 5, 2012

Well our son turned eight today....He has such a love for legos and things you loved. We missed you deeply today ....But i remember the big smile on your face when you saw and got to hold him for the first time...It will be a day I will always cherish...We love you always...

Kylie Collins
wife

July 22, 2012

Miss you ...

Kylie Collins
wife

July 5, 2012

Ethan I met your wife Kylie on FaceBook today. My husband, Officer Jim Knapp lost his life the same day as you. By now you two have probably met in Heaven and I hope the two of you are friends. I understand that today is your wedding anniversary. Happy Anniversary in Heaven Ethan.

Lt. Grace Castillo Knapp (Ret.CCSD)
Police Survivor

May 5, 2012

This isn't a reflection, this is a note. My name is Ethan Collins I was born and lived Ohio for a short time. But I remember this like it was yeasterday

ethan collins

February 17, 2012

Your heroism and service is honored today, the 6th anniversary of your death. Your memory lives and you continue to inspire. Thank you for your service. My cherished son Larry Lasater was a fellow police officer who was murdered in the the line of duty on April 24, 2005 while serving as a Pittsburg, CA police officer.

Time never diminishes respect. Your memory will always be honored and revered. Rest In Peace.

I pray for solace for all those who love and miss you for I know both the pain and pride are forever.

Phyllis Loya
Mom of fallen California Officer Larry Lasater, Pittsburg PD, eow 4/24/05

January 4, 2012

This is the anniversary date of your death. Six years have slowly passed by. We still miss you and think of you daily. The holidays came and went and they just seemed very gloom this year, everyone was very blah. The kids are getting so grown up, Maddie in the tween years and being a girl on top of it, she will certainly give Kylie a run for her money. Kylie is a good Mom, she loves those kids very much. She talks of you often and I know that she misses you so much still everyday, as do the kids. We all still wonder why it was your time to be taken away from us, but, there is someone that makes those decisions and it is beyond our control. We love and miss you!!

Lori Collins
Aunt

January 4, 2012

Well it always seems a little harder this time of year,still feels like something is missing from our christmas. We are going to grandma's tonight like we have done since we were children. I remember those stupid plays we used to put on. Or you, Jeni, and I playing our instruments for everyone. I know that you are in a better place, and that we are not always able to understand why God calls some people home so early. However, that doesn't make it any easier to handle. Time does not heal these wounds either, there is a missing peice in all of our hearts that will only be filled on that day that we are able to see you again. For now we will hold you and grandpa in our thoughts and prayers. Know that we all love and miss you so very much! Merry Christmas

Lorelie
cousin

December 24, 2011

Ethan, today is your 35th birthday and after almost 6 years I still cannot believe that you are not here to celebrate. We all miss you so much everyday. Madison and Hayden have grown into wonderful and beautiful children. We see you in both of them and sometimes it is amazing to watch, because it is just like watching you at that age. Kylie has done a wonderful job with the kids and you would be very proud of her. Sometimes I imagine what you would be saying to Maddy, now that she is in her tween years and how you would be with Hayden at baseball practice. But we all carry you with us everywhere and try to be the family that you would want us to be.

I love you and you are always in my heart!

Mom

October 30, 2011

Well happy birthday my dear cousin. I have been thinking about you and grandpa alot lately. You are two of the greatest men that I have ever known! I miss you both so very much and grandma does to. We are starting another holiday season and as much as I love christmas, it's just not the same anymore. I guess there are some hurts that time just can not heal. Love you and miss you.

Lorelie Gordon
cousin

October 30, 2011

Well Ethan ,Kylie and your mom went to DC for the COPS Walk..they called last night and said they finished in the top 10 in the first leg of the walk.they did this last year and it is so good to see their relationship blossoom so much..your dad took hayden and cousin bryar for a mens weekend and red and I have Maddy...the boys went fishing and caught a 8 lb and 14 catfish,they were so excited and your dad cleaned and cooked one of them for their supper..Hayden andMadison are growing up so fast..Kylie is still missing you so much but is so good with the kids..they went to COPS Kids camp this year and loved it..now it will be a summer trip for the 3 of them...kids made good friends and so did Kylie,while I missed them I was so happy that they had a great time..we all miss you so..but we do know you are watching over the whole family...
Loving and Missing you
Connie

Connie Miller
mother-in-law

October 9, 2011

Ethan,
A few days ago I spoke to a group of recruits about the dangers of law enforcement and the responsibility that we all have to each other’s safety. Your name came up and I told them about the sacrifice you made.
I feel that it is an honor to have served with you. I will continue to pray for your family.

Officer Steve Mason
Columbus Ohio Division of Police, former FCSO

March 23, 2011

Thinking of you and all of your loved ones today. Continue to watch over all of them. I wish I had some magic words that I could offer your loved ones to help with their grief, but there are none. I walk in the footsteps of your parents and I know the daily struggle they face. The following I leave for them:

"The sense of loss does not diminish with time. In truth, the expression, 'Time Heals All Wounds' is a myth. For parents, the loss of a child is permanent and mental scar tissue really does not grow over the grim memory. Rather, all tears are expended and a dull ache remains."

You will never be forgotten.

Bob Gordon
Father of Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

January 4, 2011

Well today is the day that we lost you 5 years ago today. Still remember the conversation that we had when you drop the kids off to me before you started your shift that day. Makes me laugh out loud all the time. You are so missed by everyone, we think of you everyday and recall all the memories together. As you know the holidays are over and they went as smoothly as they could. Hayden and Madison are growing so fast and they are so much like you in everyway. Hayden with him having to keep everything and put it in a box, and Madison with the looks and gestures that she does just like you. Kylie is well and you have done an incredibile job looking down and taking care of them. We miss and love you until we meet again. Danny, Kindra, Hunter, and Mailyn

Kindra Sunkle
Sister in Law

January 4, 2011

Ethan,tomorrow is the five year anniversary of that horrible day in our lives, that took you from us. It is very hard to believe that it has been five years. Your mom and dad are doing well, they of course, have their good days and bad days. Your mom, has become quite an athlete, and maybe you knew of this athletic ability that she has, or let me say, thought that she had, but, God love her, she was trying to please your little girl and roller skate at her birthday party, and your mom and the skates didn't really work very well together, needless to say, she has a bummed up shoulder from the fall. The kids and Kylie seem to be doing okay, again, I know they have their good and bad days, too. The kids are just adorable. We all think of you and we wish that you were here with us, and we do know that someday we will all meet again.
We love and miss you!!!
Aunt Lori

Lori Collins
aunt

January 3, 2011