Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Today is graduation. i can't believe I made it. You are one of the reasons I am here to enjoy this day. THANKS. I wanted to have a big party but I really lost interest in having a party after February 16. I know you would have made it spectacular. Miss you. Love ya.

Linda Brewer

May 21, 2005

Well Chuck here I am on the eve of graduation. My thoughts are of you. I know what you would being saying about graduation. I so wish you were here. I will think of you tomorrow when I receive my diploma. You were so close to getting yours. You always did well in school. I know you will look down on me tomorrow. I love you and miss you so much. I really needed you yesterday. Why is it all the wonderful people in the world have to leave early? I have pictures of you everywhere. Your even on my cell phone. I am taking it to grad so i know you will be there with me tomorrow. I love you and miss you so much. Peace

Linda B

May 20, 2005

I hate that this is the way I have to handle my thoughts and memories fo you, but I feel like it is the only way. I know we hadn't talked in the last few years but I always knew that had I ever needed you, you would stop the world to help. I regret I didn't try harder to get abck in touch with you when you called last Christmas. I tried the cell number I had at the time, but you didn't answer. Time just slips away. Kat asked everyone to write down some memories we had of you to do a sort of time capsule and preserve all the fun times we had together. I have tried two dozen times and remember the thousands of times we were playing volleyball or just riding around in our cars enjoying one another's company, but nothing seems right. There are no words to encapsulate you. Even now, you seem bigger than life to me. I pray for Kat and your mom and dad and Rachel daily. I cannot imagine how they are dealing with this. I am truly honored to have known you as long as I did. I bet you are already speeding around with your new wings. God Bless you and all the friends and family who are grieving in your absence.

Greg Banks

May 16, 2005

It has been 3 months today since you were taken away from us. It still is so unreal. I look at your picture and want to call you, but I know you won't answer. It hurts everytime I think about you. I cannot believe that you are no longer here. There was a ceremony Friday morning at HCPD in your's and Sgt. Gilberts honor. It was fallen officer memorial week. Next year your name will be added to the fallen officer's wall in Washington, D.C. You were inducted into the Police Officer's Hall of Fame. You have been honored in so many ways, yet I would rather you be here instead. I am so proud to have been your cousin. The more people I meet and the more stories I hear about you, make me love and respect you more. You were truely a great person, and missed by so many. I hope that I can touch as many lives as you did. I doubt that is possible, but I am certainly going to try. It will be my tribute to you and my way of keeping you with me. Oh, I almost forgot, I found one of your "game balls" from little league baseball that you had given Jay when he was playing baseball. It is priceless to me. I plan to get a ball holder for it. It is amazing how a dirty old baseball becomes so valuable. I also want you to know what a great police department you were a part of, of course I'm sure you already knew that. They have been so awesome. They all miss you. I love and miss you cuz!

Brandy Mapp (cousin)

May 16, 2005

I miss you Chuck. Remember how I used to always call you when I was in trouble. I know you thought I was crazy. I wish I could talk to you now. I have once again done some crazy stuff and need your advice. I cant believe you are not here. I miss your hugs. I love you.

Linda B

May 13, 2005

Chuck,
I have been trying to decide what to write and it has been very dificult. I am still in shock that you are not just a phone call away. Being the older one I never imagined that I would outlive you. In fact, I think I always felt you were invincible. Losing you was the hardest thing that I have ever been through. It has been good seeing Robert and Gerald again-I have really missed them. It was also good to finally meet Rachel and your brothers and sisters in blue-they are all so great. They've been extraordinary to us-especially to Kat, your mom, and dad. I wish we had lived closer the last few years so that we could have met them while you were still here. Through all that has happened since Feb 16, 2005 my one thought has been that I wish you were here with us because I know you would have us all laughing instead of crying.

There is a song that some of the words make me think of you when I hear it-

"Fly me up
To where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are"

I think that it reminds me of you because the one thing that I will always remember and treasure is your wonderful smile. I wish I had the chance to see it one more time.
I miss you more than I even thought possible.
Love ya!
Beth

Beth Freeman cousin

May 13, 2005

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH!!! I thought time made this easier but it makes me miss you more! I love you so much. I know you are watching over me but life is very hard right now and I need you more than ever here with me!!! I love you Boogies!!!

Rachel Andrews Girlfriend

May 12, 2005

Hey Chuck,
I was just thinking of another friend of mine, whos anniversary is on the 19th of this month, and I thought I would drop by to say hello to you. His name is Sgt. Wilbur Berry. He was a good man, and has been up there since 2001. Look him up, he can show you the ropes! I think of you each day while I drive in to the office. I miss you a lot. Tell Sgt. Gilbert I said hello.

Detective Sergeant V. T. Rosen
Henry County Police Department

May 11, 2005

My Dad Jeff Edwards Misses You Haist

Johnny Edwards

May 9, 2005

Chuckie-Chuck-Charles- Not a day goes by that I don't think about you. I have so many wonderful memories that I keep close to my heart. I Love You.

Heartbroken Friend

May 4, 2005

Chucky, I really wanted to call you the other night, when a bunch of boys approached my front door around 9:30pm, and rang the doorbell- I was scared, and you came to my mind, I'll just call Chucky and he will drive through my neighborhood or call one of his buddies in the area to come by. There are so many days that I need to talk to you, or find out where you are. I would always two way you on the nextel and say what is your location and you would say something but I never knew what you meant - then I would say what street or area is that? I don't know any other officers that I can contact quickly on my nextel when I'm scared and tell me what to do, so I want be afraid.

I MISS YOU SO MUCH EVERYDAY!!!!!

Love ya, Melissa

Melissa Provau
Cousin

May 3, 2005

I met Ofc. Haist briefly at the scene of a friend's accident. I found him to be personal and charasmatic. I would have enjoyed working with him and know that family and friends will miss him. Peace and blessings to you.

Inv. David V. Hickey
Georgia State University Police

April 28, 2005

rachel,
i just wanted you to know that i have been thinking about you an awful lot lately. i'm coming up on 2 years of losing cole, and i know how much it would have helped back then to know other girls cared. i won't tell you that the pain goes away, and honestly i won't say that it gets "easier"...maybe you get used to hurting. and maybe you know how to deal with it better. please do not hesitate to contact me should you ever need anything. roger (georgia COPS chapter president) has all of my contact info. just know that chuck is definitely watching over you every single day giving you the strength to take one more step. whatever you do, bring honor to his memory. he still loves you, i am sure of that.

jessi

Jessi Garger
Fiancee of Cole Martin EOW 4.25.03

April 22, 2005

I gave blood today in your honor!!! and yes it hurt. I kept telling myself the pain would go away, but I realized that I tell myself that everyday but for a different pain. I miss you so bad. It is very hard for me to pull up your picture on this site because it is still not real and your face does not belong there, you belong here with me and your family and friends. I found our Halloween costumes the other day while I was packing and it was a strang feeling. I was laughing but at the same time crying.... roller coaster. Some days I don't want to go on without you, and some days I am only going on because of you!!! I know your family misses you. Beth and Brandy are so sweet and of course there is Kat!!! I can't imagine you, Kat, Beth and Brandy as kids. WOW!!! I love you so much and fight back tears every second of the day so please continue to watch over me and keep me strong!! I need it really bad right now! I listen to that message you left me at 3:00am the morning of your wreck every day and pretend you left it for me that night. If only I could have changed the next 2 1/2 hours of your life everything would be different now!!!! You were so happy and goofy in that message and I think you say "I love you" about 15 times!! You were so excited about my birthday!! There is no telling what sort of prank you were going to pull on me and there was the scavenger hunt you were planning!! I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU BOOGIES!!!

Love ya bye!

Rachel
Girlfriend

April 15, 2005

Chuck,
I cannot believe it has been almost 2 months since you were taken from us. We all got together this past weekend for your birhtday. It was so amazing that so many people turned out to honor your birth. What felt so wrong was that your were not there to celebrate with us. I miss you so much. This has pulled us all closer together, but I still wish you were here too. I am amazed that you are still touching lives, even though you are only here in spirit. You were such an amazing person. I want to be like you. I want to touch lives, and help others the way you did; With love and kindness, and not expecting anything in return. I am proud that you were my family. You have no idea how much you are missed and loved. We are all trying to be strong for each other, but we are all still grieving over losing you. I do wonder if it will get easier. Everyone says it will, but I don't know. I am trying to be there for your mom, Kat and now Rachel. She misses you very much. I cannot imagine what she has been through. Your mom is a strong women, and I know that she is hurting right now, but in time she will figure out how to have a new normal without you. Kat has been working hard at her new job, it has been good for her to have something to keep her busy. I know that she misses you so. I cannot imagine what they are all going through. I know how much I hurt and know that is not anything compared to what they feel. You were the only brother I ever had. My "twin" cousin. My heart hurts for you. By the way, your girls are beautiful. They are so much like you. They would have adored you and you them. I promise, I will never let them be seperated from our family again. They are all we have left of you. I love you and will miss you everyday for the rest of my life.

Brandy Mapp
Cousin

April 14, 2005

Well Chucky I still can't believe your gone. I am so sorry I could not be at your birthday dinner, but you were on my mind all day. I miss you so much and being able to just hit you on the nextel just to see if you were the cop I had just passed on the street. I still look every time I see one thinking it could be you.
Well I know you, my dad, grandma, and paw paw probably had a great celebration for your birthday. I know it must be an extraordinary sight to behold you being with all of them! I love you and miss you dearly!

Amanda Smith
Cousin

April 12, 2005

It seems like yesterday that we were cutting up at church. It is hard to believe we grew up and got jobs, but I guess we surprised even ourselves with that one. I met Rachel this weekend. Her and Kat and Derrick organized a get together for your birthday. Most of the youth group was there. Julie Rogers was there too. I'm sure she would have loved to put us all in her volkswagon for one more spin. It was great to see everyone again, but it isn't fair that we had to do it without you. I watched the video that morning that we made when we had the going away party for Les. It has been 17 years since he left and it still seems like yesterday. Even then, you were steeling the show. You MC'd the event in the way that only you could. I miss you brother. My heart feels like it is going to explode when I think of the injustice of so many evil people left here and you were taken. I can see why God would want you soon though. Those pearly whites and that smile won't need to be touched up before you get your heavenly wardrobe. You were born to be an angel. Know that your memory will never fade. We all still love you and we miss you every day. Thanks for being the best friend I have ever known. I love you man.

Greg Banks

April 11, 2005

Chuck,

I was thinking about you and ran across this site. My heart still misses you at school so much. I love that I can talk to you in this way. I am going to do something special for you. I wish you were here. Happy Birthday! I love you. I will not forget you.

Michelle

April 11, 2005

Happy Birthday Baby!!! I love you!

Rachel
Girlfriend

April 10, 2005

Happy Birthday Chuck! I have thought about you all day. I miss you and wish you were here. I wish we could have carried out our plans for your birthday last year. I am sorry we were not able to do that. If I had only known you would not be here this year we would have went forward with our plans. It still does not seem real that you are gone. I carry your picture with me everywhere I go. I guess you are celebrating a new birthday in heaven. Peace.

Linda Brewer

April 9, 2005

Happy Birthday Chuckie! I'm sorry I can't go to the get together Kat is having for you this afternoon. She asked us to come up with a memory that we have of you and I came up with two. I was looking at some old pictures on my computer the other night of the time a couple of years ago when you all came up to my house for a pool party/cook out. I've got some great pictures of you and Kat in the pool trying to hit each other with balls! You can see the evilness in each of your faces as you are trying to sneak up on each other in the pictures.
Another memory I have of you is of loving you so much when we were kids. You were so cute with your dark features and your big, brown eyes. As you know, my birthday is tomorrow and I wanted so much for Aunt Virginia to have you on my birthday. But you were stubborn and couldn't wait. There are 8 years between us and as kids, when we stayed at our grandmothers (Aunt Kays) I remember I used to make all these promises to you. I used to tell you that when I got old enough to drive that I would take you places like McDonalds and the Zoo. We did make it to the zoo once but I had my own brown eyed boy by then.
On this day I chose to celebrate your life and I know that you will be at your party in spirit. Give Aunt Kay my love.

Marla Gray
Cousin

April 9, 2005

Chuck- I am sure you have already met him up there, but my dad is there with you as of 3 years ago today(April 8th)take care of him today for me:( I have been thinking about the both of you all day! I miss you both! And I love you both!

Rachel Andrews
Girlfriend

April 8, 2005

I NEVER DREAMED IT WOULD BE ME

I never dreamed it would be me,
My name for all eternity,
Recorded here at this hallowed place,
Alas, my name, no more my face.

"In the line of duty," I hear them say:
My family now the price to pay.
My folded flag stained with tears;
We only had those few short years.

The badge no longer on my chest,
I sleep now in eternal rest.
My sword I pass to those behind,
And pray they keep this thought in mind.

I never dreamed it would be me,
And with heavy heart and bended knee,
I ask for all here from the past:
Dear God, let my name be the last.

April 8, 2005

Well, it has been a little over a year since we met. I know time will tell but I still don't understand why this happened. Every 5 seconds I am thinking about you. I miss you so bad. There have been so many things that I wanted to pick up the phone and call you or see you after work and tell you about but I can't. I heard "she's my kind of rain" the other day and thought about that time we were coming back from Gatlinburg and you were singing it to me, like you always did, and I had the video camera taping you with your plastic cowboy hat on. I still feel like this hasn't happened and I am going to see you tomorrow. You have an amazing sister though, I don't know where I would be without her. Your birthday is this Saturday and some of us are getting together to celebrate the day you were brought to this earth because we would not have been affected by you in our own individual ways if it wasn't for this day. It is a "Birth" day. I wish you were here to celebrate it! I would take you to Red Lobster! I miss you Boogies! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

Rachel
Girlfriend

April 6, 2005

Hey Snoops! Happy Birthday this Saturday! I am going to see your mom and Kat this Wednesday. I haven't seen them since your funeral. Your funeral?! I'm still pinching myself, it just doesn't seem real! You are the only person I've ever known who "dreamt" of their funeral, let me tell you, it was more than you ever imagined. You would've been so proud. You always said you would live to be 100. I truly believed you! God had other plans, I still don't understand. I am so very sad. It has been exactly 3 months today since our last conversation. I miss your friendship, and pep talks. I miss you!

Hev

April 5, 2005