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Police Officer Charles Richard Thomas Haist

Henry County Police Department, Georgia

End of Watch Wednesday, February 16, 2005

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Reflections for Police Officer Charles Richard Thomas Haist

Chuck,

I can't believe it has been six months since I got the call about your accident. I think about you everytime I pass the accident site and still wonder why things happened the way they did. Even though I have visited this site often, this is the first time I've written something because I don't really know what to say.

I just keep remembering the highlights of our friendship. I still remember back to the first time I met you when I was in Narcotics and we were on that search warrant. I remember talking to you and listening to your plans for finishing school and starting law school. I thought it was pretty cool because you were so excited about going to school. But then again, you were always excited about something everytime I saw you.

I always enjoyed our talks last summer at Monarch Village when you "59" while I was working that part-time. I found it easy to talk to you and confide in. You always gave such good advice and could always see something positive in every situation. I really miss those days when I could ask your opinion on something and you'd be straight up with me. My last memory of you was on Valentine's Day. You had my entire roll call laughing when I called you to see if you would come to work early because we were shorthanded. You laughed so hard and so loud before reminding me it was Valentine's Day. I am so thankful I got the chance to talk to you for awhile that night. Once again, you were a sounding board for me and gave me good advice. I still remember the look on your face when you realized a certain someone's brother was in the roll call room. Like always, you laughed it off, but left real quick after that. It was so funny; I still get a kick out of it to this day.

I just wanted you to know that I think of you often. I miss your goofy smile and laugh, but most of all I miss the friendship we had.


Sgt. Christy Nebel
HCPD

August 16, 2005

Brother, it has been almost 6 month since you left us and the pain still feels like yesterday. I think of you often but for some reason, I cannot go to church without seeing your face. It is a different church and a different time, but with all of the memories we had growing up together in church... it is almost too much to take. The last time I saw you was when you showed up to tell me you were sorry to ehar that Pa had died. It had been months and you could have left things unsaid... but then again, that wasn't you. You believed in keeping things said and right and you are obviously remembered for these things. No doubt that Heaven has a comedy section now with you there. I know there isn't supposed to be any pain there, but I do not think that laughin cramps count and no doubt that you have 'em rollin by now... bet you're the talk of the town. Please know that life will NEVER be the same but we are marching on as you would demand if you were here... just doesn't seem right knowing you are gone. I love you my brother and cannot wait to see you again. I know you are watching over your family cause that was always your nature. I pray they have God's peace now and know that you are to be envied in your deliverance from this evil world. God Bless you always!!!!!!

Greg Banks

August 7, 2005

I miss you so much Chuck. It is so unfair that your life had to end so soon. I look around at all the bad people in the world that kill people and their main goal in life is to make others miserable. Those people don't deserve to live. Then a wonderful, sweet, and caring person like you is taken from us. A person whose job was to protect us from the bad guys. It is just not fair. I think about you all the time. I keep that picture of us on my desk and then a copy of it with me everywhere I go. I show it to everyone I come into contact with and tell them about you. I wish I could be in contact with your family. I know this is a difficult time for them also. I know just from the short time that we were friends the great impact you had on my life. I can't image the pain they must feel having been with you your entire life and them losing you. I still have dreams about you. I dreamed just last night about your funeral. The one dream I hope I never have again. My heart breaks every time I think about February 16. I miss you so very much. I love you. I never got to tell you how much I cared for you and valued your friendship. I miss your emails. You always had something funny to tell me. I miss talking to you late at night when you were on patrol. I wish you were still here with us all. I miss your hugs. You always had a big warm hug for me. Especially when I was going through a tough time.

Linda Brewer

August 7, 2005

Chuck,
Hey man, I was thinking a lot about you this week. I went to D.C. for family, and stopped by the Memorial. Instead of an hour trip, it ended up taking me half of the day. I took rubbings of Wilbur, and Jimmy's names on the wall, and remembered that your's will be added next May. I can not tell you how emotional going to that place is. I take comfort in knowing that you are now in the company of those brave men and women who made the supreme sacrifice for their family, friends, comrades, and communities. I also know that as long as people continue to remember, your only death is a physical one, for I will always cary your spirit with me. Thanks Chuck, you continue to give me a wonderful gift. Take care friend.

Detective Sergeant V.T. Rosen
Henry County Police Department

August 7, 2005

Everytime I pull up this website and see your smiling face, my heart hurts. It has been over 5 months, and I still cannot believe you are gone. I want to let you know that I made a promise to you that I have not been able to keep. I told you that I would not let your girls disappear again. I am sorry. It is beyound my control. I have done all that I know to do. We have not seen them since they were here for Jay's birthday party, and we miss them so much. I think about calling you all of the time. I have to catch myself and remind myself that you cannot answer. I miss your smile, your sense of humor and your advice. The Holidays will not be the same without you. No one is looking forward to them, knowing that you will not be joining us. I know that you would want us to celebrate as usual. Please know that that is impossible. A huge chunck of our family is missing, and is never coming back. I love you and miss you. I thank God for the times and memories that we did have. I will miss you for the rest of my life. My "twin" cousin is gone! Life will never be the same.

Brandy Mapp
Cousin

August 3, 2005

Chucky-

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU EVERYDAY

LOVE ALWAYS EMILY PROVAU

Emily Provau

July 26, 2005

My Bro, my friend, I miss you terribly. I meet a women today, here bday is April 9th. The 4th was hard. Really everyday is hard. I carry you with me in my heart, but also talk about you to as many people as will listen. I am sure I make some feel uncomfortable, but I love you and miss you and want others to know what you gave to us and why we miss so much. I think how can I manage w/o you? How can life go on w/o you? It simply is not right. I was reading one of your bibles the other night that you highligted and there is no doubt in my mind that you are with our father. I pray and look forward to seeing you again one day. To getting one of those big bear hugs. I feel when I walk in a room, when I visit friends and their brothers are there - that I will never experience the feelings that you and I shared as brother and sister. Such a special bond. Somethimg that will never be replaced. I want you back. I don't want you to be gone and I know that sounds stupid.

Little Emily wrote a song to you. We will have to get her to publish it here so everyone can see it. Emily loves and misses you so much. I truly wish your daughters could have had the same relationship or better w/ you so they could have know what a wonderful person you are and how much you do truly love them.

Dad took off for AL today for business. Don't know how long it will be till I get to see him again. That's hard, but I know working is good for him. He misses you more than words can say. He hasn't been the same since.

We all love you very much. Miss you! Think of you daily.

Kat
Sister

July 13, 2005

I miss you bro. I have thought about you so much lately. I drive past the Taco Bell several times a week and I wish I could turn back time. I talked to Kat a couple of weeks ago and she sounds busy. I know she and you mom and all of the people who loved you so much are just trying to move on... but life isn't the same without your smile. I treasure the times we all had hanging out and goofing off when we should have been paying attention, but I know now that we didn't miss out on any lesson any more important than the one that you were teaching me... live life to the fullest and show love to your loved ones. Thanks my friend for being so genuine. I will miss you always!!!

greg

July 11, 2005

Hi Boogies! I love you and miss you! I didn't do anything for the 4th of july, I just couldn't without you. I remember last year we went to Avondale Estates and watched the fireworks with all your buddies that you policed with there. We were so close we had ashes falling on our heads. That was fun. Just like your cousin Brandy said, everything this year will be the hardest because there are so many firsts. We just had all of our firsts together, I really don't want to experience these firsts. I have been working so much lately it is so hard to stay focused on anything else but I think about you almost every 15 seconds through out the day and night. I will never understand. It makes it harder for me when I play that night back in my head. I just saw you 4 hours before you..... I hate writing or thinking any word that has to do with you not being here. I always think about our meeting in the parking lot that night. I don't remember ever being more happy in my life. You were so funny when you asked me what my plans were for the next 50 years. Like you needed to ask that question. My last memory of your face is when i was following after we met for my birthday that night, you stopped at a stop sign in your patrol car in front of me and got out, came back to my car, kissed me(with that huge smile on your face), told me you loved me, and jumped in your car and drove off. But the phone message you left me at 4:00 AM is the memory I can listen to forever. Your goofy little voice while you were laughing throughout the entire message. If I were forced to have a last memory of you, which i am, I would pick that night anytime. I love you FOREVER boogies!!!!!!!!!

Rachel Andrews
Girlfriend

July 9, 2005

Chuck,

I was just thinking about you today. At least you have a good seat for the fireworks tonight. I miss talking to you. I love you.

Linda

July 4, 2005

Chuck,
Every time I see your picture I just can't believe that you are really gone. I think of you every day. I miss you so much. Every time I have a serious problem I want to pick up the phone and call you. Then it hits me that I can't. I still don't understand why you had to leave. Every time I hear the song "Here without you" I think about you. You touched so many lives. I hope to see you soon. I love you.

Linda Brewer

July 1, 2005

Chuck,
I was just sitting here looking at you picture that hangs in my office. I still cannot believe that you are gone. It has been over 4 months, but we are all still in shock. We are trying to figure out what our new "normal" will be without you here. I have wanted to call you several times, but then realize that you cannot answer. You were the closest thing that I had to a brother, and I thank you for being there for me the way a brother would have been. Everytime I hear "I can only imagine" I think of you, and I hear it several times a day. I know that you are in a better place and that you are watching out for all of us, but it does not stop me from wishing you were still here. This will be a hard year for all of us. All of the "first" without you. All of the first birthdays without you, all of the first holidays without you, and the first anniversary of your accident. It suck's! We are all trying to be there for each other, and trying to go forward. Know that I love you and miss you everyday. You were a true hero, and I am proud of you!

Brandy Mapp
cousin

June 22, 2005

Hey Chuck,
Just wanted to say that I am thinking about you! And please wish my father a Happy Fathers Day tomorrow! Miss you both so much! Take care of him and he will take care of you!
Love Always,
Allison Gilbert

Allison Gilbert
Sgt. Jimmy Gilbert Daughter

June 18, 2005

I love you!!! I want you back!!!

Rachel Andrews
Girlfriend

June 15, 2005

Chuck,
I would like to say hey and you are truly missed by all! I hope that you are taking after Daddy and that he is taking care of you! I feel so sorry for your family because I know their pain! I hope that your family is able to go to Washington D.C. It was so amazing and it dosent make the pain go away. But it is really nice to talk to people that are going through the same thing that you are going through. I miss you and wish you were here! Tell Daddy I said hello and that I love him! I Love and Miss You Both!
Well Keep watching over your family!
I meet your mom at the funeral home, she is an awesome woman! But I wish I would have meet her on another day! Not that day!
Love Allison

Allison Gilbert
Sgt. Jimmy Gilbert Daughter

June 3, 2005

Chuckie...I think of you every moment of every day. I miss you more than words can express. Your my big bro and I need you. I need your smile, your big bear hugs and most of all your infectious laugh. Life is simply not right without you here. I think of all the wonderful times we shared and I feel so blessed to have had you not only as my brother, but one of my very best friends. Rachel had bracelets made for mom and me. They are great. They encompass things that we shared and cherished together. I continue to cherish those thoughts every day. Mom and Dad and Suzan miss you terribly. Our lives will never be the same. For me - there is a hole in my heart and I sometimes feel as if I can't breathe. I know mom and dad feel the same. It is truly amazing how many lives you touched and how much you were and will always be loved. So much of this still feels competely unreal and I really wish this wasn't happening. I miss you so much and love you with all my heart. Your sis...

Kat
Sister

May 30, 2005

RACHEL,

Please contact me through Roger Parker, the GA COPS chapter president!! I have some very important news to share with you, and I would like for you to be a part of our significant others group!!

member of OfficerDownSignificantOthers

Jessi Garger
Fiancee of Cole Martin EOW 4.25.03

May 26, 2005

I feel like everytime I write something to you on this page I am saying the same thing over and over again, but this is the hardest thing I have ever gone through, and I feel so alone!!! AGAIN. I feel like I lost my future, our future the day of my birthday. WOW. My Birthday and your "Homecoming" day! It will never be the same again. I promise I am trying to be strong but I am so close to giving up. I never thought this would happen! Never in a million years! Why? I can't stop asking that question, but there is no answer. You know me, I always have an answer. I miss you so bad. I need one of your huge "boogies hugs". I love you and always will until I see your big smile again and you hold me forever!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

Rachel Andrews Girlfriend

May 25, 2005

Chucky-

Wow. It has been a little over 3 months since you left us. Every time I drive down 81 I think how could this be the place where you were taken? I passed a police car yesterday and on the back read: "In loving memory of C. Haist"
What an impact you made. I sure do miss you Chucky- you will always be remembered.....

Amanda Smith
Cousin

May 23, 2005

Chuck I received a phone call earlier today from my brother. He told me that last weekend his church honored you and all of your fallen brothers. He deeply touched my heart the number of lives you have impacted in your short time here on earth. I hope to impact just half the number of people that you have. You are the best. I love you.

Linda Brewer

May 22, 2005

Today is graduation. i can't believe I made it. You are one of the reasons I am here to enjoy this day. THANKS. I wanted to have a big party but I really lost interest in having a party after February 16. I know you would have made it spectacular. Miss you. Love ya.

Linda Brewer

May 21, 2005

Well Chuck here I am on the eve of graduation. My thoughts are of you. I know what you would being saying about graduation. I so wish you were here. I will think of you tomorrow when I receive my diploma. You were so close to getting yours. You always did well in school. I know you will look down on me tomorrow. I love you and miss you so much. I really needed you yesterday. Why is it all the wonderful people in the world have to leave early? I have pictures of you everywhere. Your even on my cell phone. I am taking it to grad so i know you will be there with me tomorrow. I love you and miss you so much. Peace

Linda B

May 20, 2005

I hate that this is the way I have to handle my thoughts and memories fo you, but I feel like it is the only way. I know we hadn't talked in the last few years but I always knew that had I ever needed you, you would stop the world to help. I regret I didn't try harder to get abck in touch with you when you called last Christmas. I tried the cell number I had at the time, but you didn't answer. Time just slips away. Kat asked everyone to write down some memories we had of you to do a sort of time capsule and preserve all the fun times we had together. I have tried two dozen times and remember the thousands of times we were playing volleyball or just riding around in our cars enjoying one another's company, but nothing seems right. There are no words to encapsulate you. Even now, you seem bigger than life to me. I pray for Kat and your mom and dad and Rachel daily. I cannot imagine how they are dealing with this. I am truly honored to have known you as long as I did. I bet you are already speeding around with your new wings. God Bless you and all the friends and family who are grieving in your absence.

Greg Banks

May 16, 2005

It has been 3 months today since you were taken away from us. It still is so unreal. I look at your picture and want to call you, but I know you won't answer. It hurts everytime I think about you. I cannot believe that you are no longer here. There was a ceremony Friday morning at HCPD in your's and Sgt. Gilberts honor. It was fallen officer memorial week. Next year your name will be added to the fallen officer's wall in Washington, D.C. You were inducted into the Police Officer's Hall of Fame. You have been honored in so many ways, yet I would rather you be here instead. I am so proud to have been your cousin. The more people I meet and the more stories I hear about you, make me love and respect you more. You were truely a great person, and missed by so many. I hope that I can touch as many lives as you did. I doubt that is possible, but I am certainly going to try. It will be my tribute to you and my way of keeping you with me. Oh, I almost forgot, I found one of your "game balls" from little league baseball that you had given Jay when he was playing baseball. It is priceless to me. I plan to get a ball holder for it. It is amazing how a dirty old baseball becomes so valuable. I also want you to know what a great police department you were a part of, of course I'm sure you already knew that. They have been so awesome. They all miss you. I love and miss you cuz!

Brandy Mapp (cousin)

May 16, 2005

I miss you Chuck. Remember how I used to always call you when I was in trouble. I know you thought I was crazy. I wish I could talk to you now. I have once again done some crazy stuff and need your advice. I cant believe you are not here. I miss your hugs. I love you.

Linda B

May 13, 2005

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