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Police Officer Charles Richard Thomas Haist

Henry County Police Department, Georgia

End of Watch Wednesday, February 16, 2005

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Reflections for Police Officer Charles Richard Thomas Haist

Chucky-
It has now been 8 months, and it still does not seem real- I think about you alot and MiKayla is still asking questions about everything- she just does not understand how a "policeman" can go away- Unfortunatly policemen are human too and are not in-destructable- however they should be! I went by the cemetary a couple of weeks ago and saw your headstone and it was breathtaking. I have to say even though as beautiful as it was- it seemd fake, I don't even think time will make death seem real, I still find myself thinking my parents are still here even 7 & 8 years after they were taken- Well I just wanted you to know I was thinking about you and I miss and luv ya cuz!

Amanda Smith (cousin)

October 24, 2005

I come to this site about once a week to read what has been written to you and about you. I am still so amazed at how much you touched others. I just read the Commedation that you would have received for catching the guy at Wal-Mart while off duty. I was so filled with pride. You had turned into such a wonderful man. I am so sorry that you were taken away so soon. We are all going to something this weekend in Henry County in honor of you. It is an honor to be your cousin. You did so much for us to be proud of, and we are. We are making plans for Thanksgiving, and it feels so wrong knowing that you will not be making an appearance like you usually do. I also saw pictures of you headstone. It is absolutely beautiful. I hate that it has to be there, but since it does, you could not ask for anything more beautiful. It has your picture on it, and it is as if you are there. I miss you and you smile, but I know you are smiling right now. One day we will all be reunited, until then...Love ya, See ya, bye.

Brandy Mapp
cousin

October 14, 2005

I miss you brother. Words seem so hollow here. This world seems to dark knowing you are not here to make us all laugh. I saw Chris Archer and his wife today. They are expecting their first child as is Brent and his wife. I know we had not talked a lot the past couple of years, but I feel like you are talking to me now. Everywhere I go, I have reminders of you... whether it is a song we used to sing or stupid things you'd do to make me laugh. You are the best friend I have ever known. I am truly sorry for letting that fade. God Bles you and all who grieve in your absence.

greg

October 8, 2005

Rachel, could you please get in touch with me? I've been trying to reach you for awhile. Any of our other cousins has my phone number. Thank you.

Marla Gray
Chuck's Cousin

October 8, 2005

Chuck another day has gone by and I still think of you. I always think of those good times we had at work and while we were in role call. We just got our new badges in a couple of weeks ago and I catch myself looking at your badge number and Jimmys. Chuck it is an honor to pin that symbol on my chest everyday with your number and Sgt. Gilberts number on it. It is a reminder that yall are gone but you will never be forgotten.

Rest in Peace Brother.

Officer D.H. Gagnon
Henry County Police

October 7, 2005

I will never forget the night that I was called to pin your badge and name plate on your uniform. I remember saying to myself that this was the biggest honor in my life to be at your side putting your badge on your uniform. Sgt Rosen had to help me I was so nervous. That is something he and I will never forget, it is one honor we share together. You are somebody I will never forget. I just wish I would have known you better. I hope all is well. To the family of Chuck I hope you are all doing well. I check your name every week just to see what's going on. I will check in on you next week. The new badges look great, your badge number is on them. I wish I could show you, heck I wish I could give you one. I my heart and mind you already have one. Take care my friend and God Speed.

Sgt. J. A. Maddox
Henry County PD

October 5, 2005

Chuck I miss you so much. I wish you were here. I think about you all the time. Since I have been sick and have not been able to do anything I just sit and think about you. At times I think all of this is just a bad dream and you are going to call me and ask me what I am up to. I feel so numb when I think about the events of the past year. You were there for me when my friends son died in that accident. The family will never forget what you did for them and neither will I. Then less than one year later you are gone from a tragic accident. Now I have lost yet another to a tragic accident. It just seems to get worse every day. I miss all of you so much. It is so unfair that the best people can only have a short amount of time here on earth. I spoke with Kathalee recently and we talked about the things you did for people. I wish I could heal your families pain. But the only way to do that is for you to be here. I am sure you are entertaining all the folks there and when I see the brightness of the sun I know it is your smile from above.
Kathalee thank you for the items you sent me. I have been sick and unable to call and let you know that I received them. I hope we can talk again soon.
Chuck I love you and miss you.

Linda Brewer

October 1, 2005

Hey Baby,
I miss you so much! I was thinking about you, my dad and my grandad the other day and how much I have learned from all 3 of you and I can't see any of ya'll! yes I said Ya'll!!!! You are so much like the perfect mix between the 2 of them and you are so perfect for me! I was watching a movie this past weekend on my couch and was thinking about how we would lay around on the couch on your/my days off and watch movies. We would be snuggling and you would look at me and we would both just smile!!! I want that back so bad. I just want that feeling that i would get when I would look at you and there was such a peace that I never felt like I had anything to worry about, for the rest of my life. You wanted to take care of me and I felt that! I really miss your skin and your smell! I know that sounds weird but...... I know you understand what I mean! I am still trying to be strong for you and not break down but it is still hard and I have to concentrate on good things about us almost every minute just to keep from crying. Dakota and Buckwheat miss you! I LOVE YOU very much and miss you Boogies!!!!!

Rachel Andrews
Girlfriend

September 29, 2005

Hey Chuck! It's really hard to come here, it makes me face reality. Every single thing reminds me of you. The reminders are difficult because you should be here, living your wonderful life. You had accomplished so much, and there was so much more that you wanted to do. I knew you were going to make it back to Avondale after you retired to take over as chief, and re-open that case! I'll never forget when you were guarding that scene, that was when you were still a "bigshot rookie". You cracked me up. You were always cracking everyone up. You are so greatly missed. I love you, and I know from up there you are very aware of that jar "full of beanie weanies"!!!

September 28, 2005

Chucky,

It is so hard for me to leave my messages to you here, for you will never respond to me again. I see you and talk to you in my dreams, I feel you all around me but I know in my heart I will only see you once it is my time to come home.
Emily wrote a song about you and it will make anyone cry, just ask Kathalee. She is all the time writting songs about you, she tells her friends about you and she even writes in a journal about you.
She misses you so much!

Well my job at Delta is not so secure anymore, and I just had my 15 years. I know I asked you at the beginning of the year about working for Henry County, I just wish I would have applied there when you were still there it would have been a lot of fun working and seeing you. I'm going to start watching the site for jobs at the Police Department and surrounding area's that way maybe working around all of your friends will help me cope with losing you.

We love you so much and miss you everyday!

Please give my daddy, your uncle Tommy lots of kisses and hugs for me. Oh I bet you are enjoying mamaw's chicken and dumplings, not fair.

Your Cousin
Melissa Provau

Melissa

September 15, 2005

Hey Bud, I saw the pictures of the marker, "outstanding" Rick Frankiln had some shirts made up in tribute to you and Sgt. Gilbert, I have one, and have seen a few others. The new badges are in, and should be issued out soon, they have "110" above the address on the courthouse. They did it deliberately since that was your number. It's cool though because if you don't know you can't see it. Take care of yourself, and if you see him say hi to my friend Jimmy Chandler, his anniversary is on the 25th. Tell him I try to live up to his name. See you later man.

Detective Sergeant V.T. Rosen
Henry County Police

September 15, 2005

Hey Cuz,
Wanted to write and say "hey". Last night the Falcon's played their first game of the season on Monday Night Football. Kat called me and asked if I was watching, and I told her Jay and I had just gotten home from football practice and I was just getting ready to turn it on. She told me that she knew that you were there, because the pre-game announcers were BOTH named Chuck. I mean, what are the chances? We were both blown away. It is nice to know that you are still around and letting us know that you are. We miss you so much. I remember when the four of us went to the Falcon's game in the rain. We were soaked. It poured the entire time and it was cold, but we had more fun at that game than any other game I have ever been to (so did everyone around us). I have so many fond memories of you. I hope you knew how much you meant to me. Jay is playing football now, and I wish you were here to watch him play. I know you would love it. Please keep letting us know that you are around, it gives us hope whenever we "hear" from you. Rest easy and know that you are loved and missed more than words can say.

Brandy Mapp
Cousin

September 13, 2005

I swear I think time stands still and nothing else matters when I see your face on this page! I cry enough during the day and when I see you here it just makes it all real again! I sit here and think "did that really happen?" and yet I still don't believe it. I am still stuck in the "keep myself extremely busy and everything will be O.K." mode but it just hurts me in the long run. I look at your picture on my bedside table every day when I wake up (you are in uniform of course) an i read the police man's 23rd psalm an think of how brave you are and were. I didn't know how lucky I was! You are so special! Your mother and I drove to B'ham this past weekend to see my grandmother (meme) and we had an emotional but good time! I was sitting there while your mom and my grandmother were talking just thinking about what you and I would be doing if you were there also! I always go upstairs and lay down in the bed you slept in and stare at the ceiling. It is hard going to places you and I went to together. I can not even set foot in a Red Lobster or a Japanese restraunt. I go off into a zone and I don't even want to be there anymore. I want you to come home. It is so hard to believe you never will and that you are just waiting for us. I know you are much happier where you are but some of us were not finished with you! When your mother and I were talking this weekend I was telling her some of the things you had done for me and certain things that we did together and she was so proud of you. I know she already was though! I don't want to live in denial but the truth is not fair! I don't want to believe it! We all miss you very much and we are all very proud of you and I love you soooo much and I need you here with me! You are my Boogies! I love you and Miss you!
Rachel-your soulmate

Rachel Andrews
Girlfriend

September 12, 2005

Rachel,

I understand how hard it is to want to talk to the love of your life, but can only do it on-line. I talk to Scott in the same manner. I go to his page everyday, but I cannot write some days. I know how much you miss Chuck. We all miss our officers. There's not a day that goes by when they are not in our minds and hearts. If you ever need anything please try to contact me and all the ladies of yahgroups officerdownsignificantothers.

To Chucks family,

I'm so sorry for your loss. I couldn't even imagine the pain you are feeling. I hope Chuck sends you little messages of comfort to help you along your road. I know you too will be able to find great support from parents and siblings. Scott's family has benefited greatly from the support of the "survivor" family.

Chuck - from one sister in blue to her brother - Thank you for your service and dedication to the job. We are an elite branch of people to be able to face the horrors of society and still be able to give love and comfort to everyone we know, and those we don't know.

You'll never be forgotten,

Monica
Fiancee Scott Stewart Detroit 8-11-02
MonMidg
moderator
officerdownsignificantothers

September 10, 2005

You were a true freind. We miss you.

Agt. Mack Ward
AL ABC Board

September 9, 2005

I miss you. I wish you were here. I really need to talk. I could really use one of your hugs right now and your smile. I still cant believe you are gone. It just doesnt seem real. I just need you so much right now. I love you and miss you.
Kathalee- I havent been able to get by HCPD.

Linda Brewer

August 30, 2005

When We Go Home Tommorrow We Shall Tell Them Of You And Say, For Our Tommorrow, He Gave His Today.

Rest In Peace.

Police Officer Andrew M. Singleton
Cobb County Police Department.

August 30, 2005

Chuckie,
I remember when we were young and cutting up in church and it seemed like the world was so small. We never really worried about much and had one goal... have the best time that we could. That usually led to you trying to get me to do something stupid and me weasling for all I was worth to avoid looking a fool. I really wish I could have seen the value in your zeal at a younger age. I am convinced that God has your early departure in mind all along... how else can anyone explain how much life you lived in such a short time. Your smile and that goofy high-pitched laugh still cracks me up. I have wished on a million stars that I had one more chance to see you and thank you for being the man you were. You visiting me last year blew me away. I used to cringe every time a Henry county cop car was behind me because you probably remember that lead-foot problem I have had for so long. Now every time I see one, I want to go up to the officer and hug them and thank them for their service. They are truly distinguished heroes for the jobs they do and for having served so nobly with you. I find it nearly impossible to drive down 81 now. I tried so desperately to get to the hospital the day of your accident to be with the family. I still wish I could have but I think if I had seen you, I might be with you now. Your face should only be seen as in the picture on this page... with that big suspicious smile. I wonder how many people got tickets from you and were madder because you handed it to them with a smile.

I hope Kat and Derrick and all of your family know how much that they are prayed for. I get a pit in my stomach like I haven't eaten in days every time I think of you. You leave such a huge void. I miss you brother and hope that you are enjoying your reward. You are and always were an angel. God Bless you and all who grieve in your absence.
Greg

Greg Banks

August 23, 2005

To the family and friends of Officer Haist and his fellow officers in the Henry County Police Department: I wanted to extend my deepest condolences on behalf of my family for the grievous loss you sustained when Officer Haist was tragically killed. You are in my thoughts and prayers. May you be comforted and embraced by the circle of love and support you will receive from the law enforcement community, and other police survivors. This reflection is sent with the utmost respect for the service Chuck gave to his community and the citizens of Georgia, and for the supreme sacrifice he and his family made in the line of duty. His dedication to his work will be forever remembered and his memory honored. How tragic he had to die at such a young age leaving behind a young famiy.

Phyllis L. Loya, mother of fallen officer Larry Lasater of Pittsburg, CA PD eow 4/24/05

August 23, 2005

My heart just aches for your sister and your family everytime I read what they write. I didn't Know Chuck but I did know Blake Gammill who we lost a week after Chuck and I know how hard it is. I would like a magnet for my car if I can buy one from someone. If I can do anything to help with the website or anything else please let me know or if anyone just wants to talk.

s.b.

August 23, 2005

Kathalee - thank you. I will go by HCPD asap. Chuck really meant a lot to me. I have pictures of him everywhere. I know he was special to yall to. I am so sorry he is gone.

Linda Brewer

August 21, 2005

Linda Brewer - I know you are a dear friend of my brothers. I would like for us to get in touch, but don't know how. I have a couple of things for you. I will be meeting with one of the officers from HCPD this week. I will let them know that I left this message... Please go by HCPD and ask for my contact information. Chuck would want us to be in contact.
Sincerely,
Kathalee

Kathalee
Sister

August 21, 2005

My big bro... This week and every week seem to only get worse. Crossing over a 6 month date, well just like so many have shared on this site - is one of the toughest things I have ever had to do... I keep thinking as time passing I will accept, I might even start to understand and forgive and when I think of you only laugh, not cry - but the tears and the pain are unbearable... I spend so much of my day thinking of you, crying, praying, hoping, reaching out, trying to understand, trying to forgive, trying to just cope and the love and pain that I endure is shared by so many I feel selfish to even explain or try to explain my hurt. You are my life - every memory I have in my life has you in it... has you associated with it and I don't want this to be happening - I don't want to spend the rest of my life w/o you - Dad and I were talking about how we are still in denile and that this still feels so unreal and that some days we are just in a daze and sometimes we just break down right in front of people and they don't understand whats going on- The only thing that gives me hope is that one day I will see you again. That song that we played, I can only imagine - nothing against God of course, because you know I love him - but I sure hope it's OK if I hug you first when I get there. I don't know what it will be like, but I sure hope I get to see you and you can just give me that big smile of yours -- that is what I imagine. I miss your girls. We have tried to contact them, but can't. Derrick misses you badly as well. You were such a good friend and brother-inlaw to him. He too has a void in his heart like so many of us. He had Magnets made in your honor. We are still trying to get a website built in your honor as well. But of course some of these things are taking longer than we hoped. The magnets look great. But of course, you know...

Chuck... I love you so much. I am so thankful that I know you knew and know that! I am so thankful that I got to spend 30 years having you as my brother. I would not have traded that time for anything in the world. I wish I could have another 30+ and it is the worst feeling in the world to know that I can't. I don't know how I am going to get through this. I miss you so much. We got the pictures developed finally from the last time we saw you in Feb. You have on that stupid Falcons mask - with your fist up and your Brooking jersy... I will cherish that for the rest of my life. You know I went to Uncle Dick's sons funeral probably a year before yours. I stood there after the service looking at Dick's living daughter and thought such sadness for her loss - But in no way, in no fashion did I think I would ever be in her place. And now 6 months after losing you, I can truly say I know her sadness, I know how she feels. I know you can't compare the loss of a husband or son or father to what I have lost. Because I can't even begin to understand how Mom and Dad are surviving this - because it is killing me. There is not a moment that goes by where I am not trying to adjust in order to cope w/out you. Trying to figure out how I will get over the next minute, hour, day. Mom is so devasted. You are her baby boy and she has lost you. The pain she must feel everyday is unknown to me. But I do know she loves and honors you every day by sharing and talking about you to everyone that will listen. I watched my wedding video the other night and you were so crazy... Dancing with everybody and especially mom... You can hear your laugh and see your beautiful smiling face - it broke my heart to see you, yet it was so great to hear your laugh. It made you seem so alive. So near. Mom has not seen it since we lost you, but I promised her we would watch it soon. I can't believe your gone. Tell Uncle Tom, I said hello. I love you so much. I miss you more than words could ever explain.

Kathalee
Sister

August 21, 2005

I cant believe it has been six months. I miss you more now than ever. I cried all day on the 16th thinkin of you. I wish you were here so I could share all the crazy stuff that happens to me in my life. I know you would get a kick out of it. I wish you were still here I would have you come in and talk to my class. They would love you. The same way everyone that has ever been in contact with you has. I tell them about you all the time. Everybody I talk to I tell them about you and what a wonderful person you were and how much I miss you. I just wished you were here with all of us. The light in my world grow dim the day you left us. Well I guess I had better go and try and sleep. It will be hard to do cause I am thinking of you. I love you

Linda Brewer

August 19, 2005

Wow, they say it gets easier with time, well i think i have been trying to force myself into thinking that if i keep myself busy enough and don't sleep at all and drive myself so hard that i will atleast get some relief from not being with you, but it isn't working. i have not looked at this website in over a month and i still don't want to have to come here to "talk" to you. i miss you so bad i can't stop crying sometimes. i really need you here! i had one of the strangest dreams about you the other night. you and i were dating and were making plans to get married soon. you were not a police officer in my dream you were in the air force and were called off to war or something and you had to leave suddenly... you kept telling me everything would be ok,we would see other soon,that i don't have anything to worry about and that you loved me so much and would miss me so much! i had the sick feeling in my dream that i have on a daily basis when i think about you, which is you wouldn't be coming back! you did come back in my dream but the weird thing is you had no idea who i was. you looked exactly the same and i can even tell you what you were wearing. i went to pick you up at the airport and you walked right past me. i tried to get your attention and you didn't know me. so basically you were there but not really. you are here with me now but not the way i want you to be. i see your face everywhere in my apartment but i can't touch you or talk to you. all of these weird vivid memories are in my head all the time. i went through a period where everything was a fog and now i think about what your bottom lip would do if i said something that confused you or the way you took off your "monkey suit" police belt(which of course was done in a very orderly fashion every time). i can't believe how bad i miss you and how hard it is to even believe that i have to do that. Miss you! i know you are with me always because there are funny things that happen to me all the time and i just think to myself, chuch just did that to mess with me! i love you so much and will never be able to replace those feelings for you. nobody will ever compare what you were/are to me. 6 months is a long time to go without something you desperately want, but that is nothing compared to the lifetime without it! i love you and miss you boogies!

Rachel Andrews
girlfriend

August 18, 2005

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