Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Hello Shane,
Just think, your will be having another birthday this month. I hope you and Jesus and all the rest of our family and friends will help you celebrate. You know that all of us will be thinking about you. I am still going to buy you a gift and put it in your room. Now, help me think of what you would like for me to get you, I'll be waiting. OOP'S, yes you will soon be the big 30.
Shane I can just see where you would be at 30 years old. Oh yes, hair cut as usual, clothes fitting perfect, shoes shinning bright and a big smile on your face that shinned as bright as your shoes IN A BLACK AND SILVER!
It is so unfair that this dream was taken away from you. Something you had pursued for a lifetime taken away in a second. Now, tell me how anyone cannot be upset (well, can't say what I would like to) about this? I don't want to sound like a mean person and I'm not, but sometimes people just don't stop and think about their actions before they react upon them. Guess I'm venting just a bit. Well guess what, I have to sometimes. Do you remember when things were not going well with you and who did you vent to, yes me. I am so thankful that I was always there for you. Gosh could you get wound up. You always spoke what was on your mind, but you knew how to voice it with profession and control.
Thanks for being a wonderful person.
Until next time, I LOVE AND MISS YOU!
MS

April 7, 2006

To Shane's Mom and Dad: While reading a reflection page for another fallen officer, I saw something about your son and the light sentence the defendant in your son's case served. Passing the Shane Miller law will help such an injustice from occurring again.

I too share your anquish of losing your child in the line of duty. I know exactly the pain you are going through as it feels like a big chunk of your heart is missing. Our lives were forever altered in a few minutes time.
And it does seem so unfair that we lost our beautiful and beloved sons. Only another parent in this circumstance can fully understand how it devastates your life. My prayers and thoughts are with you.

My son Larry was fatally shot on April 23, 2005; the last night that I slept soundly was on April 22nd. I know that you have had many sleepless moments as well. We are steeling ourselves for the trial of the two defendants, and I am focused on my quest for the full measure of justice for the brutal murder of my youngest child.

Larry was born in Durham and was delivered by the same doctor that delivered me when I was born. We still have so much family in North Carolina, and Larry loved to visit there. UNC was always his favorite team, and he had bought several baby outfits with UNC slogans on them for his first baby. Cody was born three months after Larry was killed, and is just now fitting into the UNC outfits his dad bought him. I hope that Shane and Larry are together watching over their families and telling us to be strong and faithful until me can link our broken family chains once again.

God bless you.

This reflection is sent with the utmost respect for the service Shane gave to his community and the citizens of North Carolina, and the supreme sacrifice he and his family made on May 15, 2004.

Phyllis Loya, mother of Larry Lasater, Pittsburg Police Dept. eow 4/24/05

April 3, 2006

Shane, I know heaven is sweeter with you there. I can just see you with that sweet smile and that glow on you face.
Shane when you were backing your truck out of the driveway to go too TCPD for your first night when you turned and looked at me and waved bye, I saw a huge glow around you. It was unlike anything I had ever seen before. You were glowing so bright, it is hard to explain. Then when I turned to go back in the house I remember saying to myself, OH GOD this could be the last time I see Shane. Little did I know that when I spoke to anyone else they would be bringing me news that you were gone forever. GOD WHAT AN AWFUL NIGHT. I relive this everday of my life. Will somebody PLEASE tell me things are going to get better....................
OH GOD I need to know, somebody PLEASE.
WHY, WHY, WHY, WHY,...................
It hurts soooooooooooo bad.
AS always I LOVE AND MISS YOU.
MS

March 21, 2006

Have you ever been terrified of getting close to someone because you're so afraid you will lose them? That's where I am Shane. I have lost my two main men in less than 2 years. What gives? I guess I'm just not in an understanding mood today. Please somehow channel me some advice on how I can deal these feelings. Oh God, how I wish you were here!!! Mere words will never express how much I miss you and love you. Tell my dad I miss him and love him too. He tends to get a little jealous. Always........

CBW
2189/EMT-Paramedic

March 16, 2006

Shane, Just had to stop by again and tell you how much we love and miss you. We know that the pain we have will never go away. Sometimes it feels like it happened yesterday. We sometimes wonder how the heart can bear such pain. Anyone would think that it would just stop beating. Pain and hurt are just small words when you try to explain how we feel. MAYBE ONE DAY WE WILL NOT HAVE TO HURT LIKE WE DO NOW.
WE LOVE YOU!

MS & D

March 13, 2006

Shane, what I would give if I could just see your smile or hear your voice. I remember when you would call me early in the morning when you were driving the mail truck and say, "mom are you home", would you like to meet me in TC for breakfast? We had some wonderful times together. I MISS YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING. There is nothing that anyone could ever do that could hurt me more than this has. Shane, I pray daily that the Lord will help me live my life in such a way that when he is ready to call me , I will be ready for HIM. I don't want our family circle to be broken in heaven, so just please watch over us daily.

ALL OF MY LOVE!!!!
MS

March 1, 2006

I know that tragedy happens,but I still can't understand why this had to happen. I have tried to think of many different things and have yet come to a conclusion. This tragedy has just left me with so much hurt, sleepness nights, a river of tears and a heart that will be broken for the rest of my life.
God only knows the pain. Does life get any eaiser? Does the stabbing pain that you feel daily ever lighten up? Will life ever be even close to just bearable anymore? Will I always have to face people with a fake smile just because I do not want to ruin their day? Smiling on the outside, dying on the inside, is that any way to have to spend the rest of your life?
I know that there are other families who have gone through this uncalled for tragedy and they feel the same way. GOD WE NEED YOU, PLEASE HELP US.

SHANE, WE LOVE AND MISS YOU SOOOOO MUCH.

February 18, 2006

You Are My Angel
by Robyn Fortney

The day we met I did not know him
We were strangers in the night
Both of us not sure of ourselves
Or of our place in life

I needed a strong hand to help me
someone who would protect me and understand
my many moods, the way I am

An angel graced me with his presence
the strength was felt so strong
he's helped me through rough waters
when my belief in myself was gone

Suddenly I am flying
I am not afraid to fall
for with the love of my angel
I will survive it all.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY IN HEAVEN SHANE!
Thank you for being my angel!
I miss you so much.
You will forever be in my heart.
XOXOXOXOXO

CBW
2189, EMT-Paramedic

February 14, 2006

Just had to tell you that Chad and Chris came by today. We sure did enjoy their visit. Naturally we talked alot about you, cried and laughed at some of the things you use to do. Shane, everyone misses you so much, not a day goes by that I don't hear someone talking about you and saying what a wonderful guy you were. I thank God that you were one that had alot of care and concern about your life, and fulfilling your dreams.
There is one thing that I know for sure, WE will see you again. Watch over us as we go from day to day. You and the LORD keep your wings around us because life without you here is very hard to handle. WE LOVE YOU!!!!!!!

M&D

February 11, 2006

gone but not forgotten. always on our minds and forever in our hearts. we love you cuz!

February 8, 2006

gone but not forgotten. always on my minds and forever in our hearts. we love you cuz.

February 8, 2006

I think about you daily, you are even in my dreams,I wake up in the morning and hope to see you here, but I know that could never be, so quess I'll have to wait till eternity.

WE LOVE YOU DEARLY , WEBSTER DOESN'T HAVE THE WORD OR WORDS THAT COULD EXPLAIN HOW WE MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

M&D

February 1, 2006

Hi Shane,

It's been a while, not because I've forgotten you, but because of situations beyond my control. Please help my Dad and show him the ropes up there. I hope you both get to know each other really well. I wish you could have become more familiar with each other while you both were still here.

I do still think of you each day. Your parents helped me out with Chloe for a week and she loved it. I think it was great for them too. You gave your mom great courage the other night. It's still tough, keep encouraging her. She'll use your strength to withstand the pain.

I want to say thank you. I could not have made it through the last month and a half without you. I have always admired your strength and everytime I felt as though I would fall apart, I called upon you and you were there. Adapt and Overcome. Love you.....

XOXOXOXOXOXOX

CBW
2189

January 23, 2006

I wanted to stop in and leave a reflection. Some how I hit on your name while checking on Jeff Hewitt, another NC Officer that was killed in the line of duty a month before you. I have become friends with his family as I am also a member of Gold Star Families. This is an organization that no one wants to be a member of because we all have met due to losing an officer in the line of duty. Your story of finally becoming a police officer and then losing your life the first day on the job because of an individual that could not even come up to your boot straps is heartbreaking. I am glad a law was finally passed in your State to assist police officers. I also worked for a new law which they named after my son here in Illinois. These laws will not bring him or you back, but it is a legacy in your honor. You will never be forgotten. Watch over your loved ones and wrap your wings around them to relieve some of their suffering. Their broken hearts will never completely mend but they will always think of you and will never forget you. Please say hello to my son Mike, you can't miss him as he'll be the one with the spit shined shoes.

Bob Gordon, father of fallen officer Mihcael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04
www.michaelpgordon.com

Bob Gordon

January 18, 2006

If I were to light a candle every time I thought of you, they would light a stairway to Heaven.
Shane, a very good friend of yours called me yesterday morning very early. I knew something was wrong for them to be calling at that hour. I was right, they were very upset had you on there mind. You know this already I'm sure. We talked for a long time about old times and what could have been. I sure wish things would have been different for both of you-- who knows, maybe you would be here today. Why, because I don't think you would have been a police officer. You know what is on my mind, and yes I will. I know that is what you would want me to do.
Until we meet again, may the Heavens smile down upon us with your love.

MS

January 8, 2006

IF ONLY THE HANDS OF TIME COULD BE TURNED BACK THEY WOULD BE SO MANY THINGS DIFFRENT.YOU KNOW MY PAIN.PLEASE WATCH OVER AND GUIDE ME IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION.

January 2, 2006

SHANE, JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! SORRY I HAVE NOT WROTE IN AWHILE. LOVE YOU ALWAYS

DURINA KEEFER
FRIEND

December 30, 2005

WHY? THE PAIN, THE HURT PLEASE CAN SOMEBODY TELL ME WHY?

I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I KNOW YOU WOULD NOT WANT TO COME BACK TO THIS EARTH,BUT IT WOULD BE WONDERFUL JUST TO SEE YOU FOR A LITTLE WHILE.

WATCH OVER (US). WE WILL SEE YOU IN THE BY-AND-BY.

December 29, 2005

HEY SHANE I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU MERRY CHRISTMAS AND THAT I WAS THINKING OF YOU AND YOUR FAMILY.CONTINUE TO WATCH OVER US.

kellie soles

December 24, 2005

Saying that I miss you is the biggest understatement of the year. One year, seven months and counting. Still seems like it was yesterday. XOXOXOXO

CBW
2189

December 15, 2005

Shane,

I know I haven't written in a while, but I do come to the website often and read the reflections that have been left. I've been out of touch with a lot of people lately due to my surgery. However, I wanted to thank you for giving me the opportunity to get to know and share your parents. They have stuck beside us just like they have always stuck by you. It just proves to me more why you were such a good man. They are so proud of you and they have every right to be proud. We know that each day is hard. All of us think of you daily and about this time of the year, it just seems to be on our minds more. But, we know that you are in a better place, waiting on all of us to make it there. I still meet people who talk about what a fine young man you were and tell stories about how you helped or impressed them. I had someone tell me last night that as long as I knew Shane Miller and had the memorial decal, I was okay. That just goes to show the mark you have made in so many lives. I still have a file of things for the memorial fund here at home and I keep looking through it. Inside, I have put the disks that you brought to me out of the fire and the piece of paper where you wrote down your cell phone number a few days after it. Those will always be treasures. Your mom and I actually talked about it as we were walking through the parking space where you gave the disks to me on January 5, 2004.

The law for felony fleeing to elude arrest is in effect now in North Carolina. It's wonderful to know that anyone who flees now will have to pay by pulling more time than the one who ran from you. The sad part is that it took great lives to get this law passed and that it will probably be put to use soon. That means that another life will be taken due to someone's lack of conscience. It's like I've heard people say...all they have to do it stop. However, with this law, maybe some other family and friends won't have to go through some of the doubt of a verdict before the suspect's trial.

Well, until next time...Keep an eye out for all of those in fire, EMS, and police.

To all police, fire, and EMS, we know that each day, you put your life on the line to protect us and we truly appreciate it. Be safe and remember we admire you for what you do.

Cassie

December 10, 2005

Christmas is coming once again,another Christmas without the one person on this earth that meant the world to us.

Shane, we cannot begin to even try to express how we feel. There is no one that can begin to know, unless they have experienced this kind of pain.
We know that this is to be a happy time of year,well the one thing that we can be happy about is the true meaning of Christmas. Jesus was born , without his birth and him dying for our sins, we would not have had the joy of having a wonderful baby boy who turned out to be a fine young man. WE miss you so much. What we would give if it had been us instead of you. You were to young and had alot to look forward to. You had talked of some of the things and plans that you had in mind. We know that you would have accomplished each one of them.

We will have our Blue Lights again this year in your memory. I know you already know this,but this is called PROJECT BLUE LIGHT, in memory of you and all other law enforcement who gave the ultimate sacrifice.

So, yes, Shane you were to young for this to happen to you. We will never be the same again, life will never be the same again, nothing will ever be the same again. THIS IS JUST NOT RIGHT AND NOT FAIR AT ALL!!!! M&D

December 5, 2005

HEY SHANE I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU HAPPY THANKSGIVING. I WAS THINKING OF YOU AND YOUR FAMILY YESTERDAY. I LOVE YOU BROTHER AND I HOPE WE MEET AGAIN ONE DAY ALONG WITH EVERYONE ELSE WHO LOVES YOU. PLEASE CONTINUE TO WATCH OVER ME. I AM BEING BLESSED MORE AND MORE EACH DAY. SO MANY PRAYERS HAS BEEN ANSWERED FOR ME LATELY.TILL WE MEET AGAIN I LOVE YOU AND YOUR FAMILY DEARLY.KSOLES

KELLIE SOLES

November 25, 2005

Thursday, November 24, 2005, 2:25am. Happy Thanksgiving, Shane. Here I am at TCRS again and you are on my mind. I give thanks daily for all that I have, all that I am, and every day I spent with you. I am so grateful to have known you and had you in my life even though it was such a short while. Some days I get so angry, because no matter how I try to rationalize this nightmare, it still is so uncalled for. I'm angry because you deserved to to live a full, rich life with the people you loved and those who loved you. You deserved to grow old, have babies and build that little white picket fence. I know you accomplished a lot while you were here, but there are so many things that were left undone. Things that some people don't deserve, they have and you....Well, I just don't understand it. Don't get me wrong, I know you're happy in Heaven. I just feel like it could have waited a little longer, not for me, but for you, Shane. Sure I wanted to be able to spend more time with you, but regardless of how I feel, you deserve to be here. I miss you, I love you, I want you back here. Thanks for sharing you with me. I'm a better person because of time spent with you. Someday, Shane, someday......XOXOXOX

CBW
2189

November 24, 2005

Just had to write to let you know (as if you don't already know) The Shane Miller Bill #1279 SPEEDING TO ELUDE ARREST was ratified and signed by Governor Mike F. Easley August 26,2005.
Becomes effective December 1, 2005, and applies to offenses committed on or after that date.
Losing you was a nightmare that we will never over, but it is good to know that something positive was done to help protect the lives of other people, especially your fellow officers.
Please continue to watch over us and the officers behind the BADGE.

Until the heavens unfold....
M&D

November 19, 2005