Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Dear Officer Damian Jackson,

I am touched by your kind and loving way of wanting to honor my husbands memory. I am still amazed by all the support and kindness that people have shown my family and it brings some comfort to know that Isaac in some way touched many lives without him knowing. He was an amazing and wonderful man who I loved with all my heart. He was my soul mate. Most of all he was an amazing Father. I am honored that you would dedicate your class in his memory. I will pray for you, your family and all your training classes that you are blessed in every way and that God may show you the same love and kindness that you have shown me and my family. Thank you.

Gratefully,

Renata Espinoza

January 14, 2005

Officer Jackson, we are pleased and honored that you want to pay respect and honor Isaac by dedicating your academy class in his memory. Please keep us up to date of your class's progress. It fills my heart to know you and your class are doing this.
Isaac's auntie

January 14, 2005

Officer Damian Jackson,

I am a cousin of Isaacs. Tears streamed down my face as I read your reflection. I am so touched that you and your class would like to honor my cousin by dedicating your class in his name. Isaac was a man like you Officer Jackson, always thinking of someone else. I am absolutely touched by you and your class. Thankyou from the bottom of our hearts.

January 13, 2005

Hi sweetheart,

I am missing you so much right now. Today as you know was a difficult day. But having what I hoped for confirmed by another has brought some peace of mind. I cam home and sat in your room today and looked at all the pictures that I hung up of our crazy times with our family and friends. I want you back! We shared so much together and some days it just seems too unreal. Your smile used to brighten my days and nights I miss that. Lately I have been going thru our pictures over and over again thinking about all the good times. I don't get it though, you should be here with us. It's like I am re living my life thru those pictures that start since we where in high school all the way until you were gone. I realize that we grew up together. That for this reason we fell in love with each other at such a young age. We shared so much in those years we spent together. We had a happy life. It makes me smile to think that with you I went from a girl to a woman, to a wife and finally a mother. With you such a wonderful one of a kind man. Its amazing to me. Remember how we used to talk about if we could start all over again what would we change. and the answer was always Nothing. We were so happy with the life that was given to us to share together. I still feel the same I would never change anything. I think about the first time that you ever talked to me and the first thing you said to me and it makes me laugh because that is how you won my heart. Remember? Because of one simple misunderstanding. I guess we where always meant to be. I love you always and forever.

January 12, 2005

When the warmth of the sun touches my face,I see your smile and feel your embrace

I hear the whisper of love in the wind and I know that you are close to me again

the rain speaks of tears and the thunder of pain
But soon the sun comes the earth to reclaim
As the days come and go and the world moves on,I know you are still here , you will never be gone.
On the night the angel came and took your hand,We cried as you left for an unknown land.
But heaven rejoiced as you came into sight,
For your soul was a diamond, shining so bright!

v.mejia

January 12, 2005

isaac, we miss you. I love you , you are always in my thoughts. We NEED you. There is not a day that goes by that i dont think of you......

V.Mejia

January 12, 2005

My name is Officer Damian Jackson with the Escondido Police Department in San Diego. First and foremost, I want to extend my deepest and most heartfelt respect and condolences to the Espinoza family, especially Renata and Isabella, as well as the whole SFPD family for your immeasurable loss. I never knew Isaac, but I wish I would have.

I have come to this site from time to time over the last several months and have been greatly moved by the reflections left for Isaac by his family and friends. I have a 3 year-old daughter and 9 month-old twin daughters and it is impossible not to identify with all that he lived. I have been moved beyond words and emotion reading Renata's words and I genuinely feel for each and every second he is not with you. I honor him, I honor you and I honor his legacy.

What I am asking here, in this forum is for Renata, Isabella, the whole Espinoza family and every officer with the San Francisco Police Department to give me your blessing to pay respect and honor Isaac by dedicating our academy class in his memory. I am one of the Training Officers for Class 12 of the Police Academy here in San Diego and we would like to dedicate the next year of our training and the potential hundred years over their careers to the memory and service of Officer Isaac Espinoza. Their class Guide-On would bear something along the lines of, "In the memory of our fallen brother, Officer Isaac Espinoza SFPD" and we would like to incorporate his badge number into our class. At this point in the academy, week 2, we are doing an extra push-up each time we hit the ground in Isaac's honor "And 1 for Officer Espinoza!" We are at the infant stage of what we would like to do to pay respect Isaac and would solicit your input and blessings. We have also loosely talked of doing a community event with the class to raise funds for a scholarship fund (whatever little bit we can muster)for Isabella.

Thank you from the bottom of our hearts and know we are all with you and keep you and Isaac in our thoughts and prayers.

Officer Damian Jackson
Escondido PD

Officer Damian Jackson
Escondido Police Department

January 12, 2005

Officer Espinoza, you will always be in my thoughts & prayers.. your watch is over now..we will take it from here..MAY YOU REST IN PEACE & WITH EASE..please watch over your brothers/sisters in blue..To the family - friends & co-workers of Officer Espinoza, my thoughts & prayers are with you all..Mrs. Espinoza, when I read your reflections to your husband..they bring tears to my eyes..the love that you have for him really shows....

Recruit....Karen
Detroit, MI

January 11, 2005

Hey eyes, we miss you alot and this or any year will not be the same without you. Your cousin Erik and family.

January 10, 2005

isaac-
you are in our thoughts and prayers constantly as well as renata and bella. your strive, courage, dedication, and hardworking ethics will truly be missed. we miss you!

SF Emergency Comm Dept

January 10, 2005

I can only imagine what it will be like,
When I walk by your side,
I can only imagine what my eyes will see,
When your face is before me,
I can only imagine,
Surrounded by your glory,
What will my heart feel,
Will I dance for you Jesus,
Or in awe of you be still,
Will I stand in your prescence,
Or to my knees will I fall,
Will I sing Hallelujah,
Will I be able to speak at all,
I can only imagine,
I can only imagine when that day comes,
And I find myself standing in the Son,
I can only imagine when all I will do,
Is forever, forever worship you,
I can only imagine.

January 9, 2005

Isaac another holiday came and went. My husband and I went to visit you on Christmas eve, someone left you a beautiful reflection and we could not help to shed some tears.We dearly missed your family christmas picture we got each year, but we have all the previous ones on our mantel all the time, and we received one of your beautiful little angel Bella, she looks so adorable, gosh Isaac you are missed so much, you and your family were in our thoughts and prayers during these holidays. We missed not seeing you decorate your house, and make fun of your christmas tree you put outside last year, it was very hard. We miss you with all of our hearts. Help Renata and Bella stay strong and to go on and ease their pain. You are thought of every day of our lives. Miss you Sonia

January 8, 2005

I never knew Officer Espinoza or his family. I came to this web site for my sister who just entered the Police Academy. Her class is dedicated to Officer Espinoza and she was told to review the reflections on this web site. As I was printing the them, tears were flowing down my face.

I can't wait to hug my husband and let him know how much I love him. Renata and Isabelle are in my prayers. I can't imagine the pain they go through everyday. I pray I never know the pain. My daughters are my life and I am glad that God gave Isabelle to the Espinoza family as a daily reminder of the love Issac and God have for the family.

My sister will read these reflections and cry like I did. I know her well enough to know that Officer Espinoza's death will make her work harder to become a police officer. Isaac Espinoza died while serving and protecting his family as well as the millions of people in San Francisco. There are few jobs that noble. I will thank him in my prayers.

God bless

January 6, 2005

Ice, I miss and love u very much, I will never forget you. Ask God to give us strenght to carry on . Love

Eggy

January 4, 2005

Hi Isaac,
i am so glad that the holidays have came and gone. it was not the same without you here. i know i was only being strong for nina and the baby,but crying inside. our family misses you and loves you so much! let me tell you that i really see a special kind of change in her, i know that it is you that are giving her the strength to go on day by day. i pray to God every day to help us get through this. it doesnt hurt any less but it gets a little easier to cope with. I wanted to tell you that your little girl is growing and she is sooo smart nad funny. her and noah are each others life savers.
mike and i always think of you and we remenise about all the good times and i always tell him about all the funny stories and preciouse memories spent with you. he always says what a good man you were,with his watery eyes. we miss you and we love you so much , Isaac.please help us get through this new year and give us the strenght to go on. you are always in our hearts and in our thoughts. Always loving YOU...

v.mejia

January 4, 2005

Hi Sweetheart,

Gosh I miss you! I'm glad that 2004 is over. It has been really hard. The holidays where really hard without you but thanks to our family and friends and all their support, we were able to get thru them. Painfully but we got thru. Anyways I wanted you to know that our lovebug got all the presents she asked Santa for. She was really happy but she sure did miss you alot. We talked about you alot. She has alot of questions and remembers everything. She is so smart. I have found myself in this new life it seems and new world of mine where only bella and I exist. It has helped me get thru bad and lonely days. The memories of our love and life together is what I treasure the most, what makes me smile. Even though you are not her with us and there are so many emotions I have inside me right now. I want you to know that I can say now that I am grateful and blessed because I had a chance to meet you and share my life with you. Gratefull that I even got a chance to share a perfect and wonderful one of a kind love and be able to create a beautiful daughter with you. I am able to see now the amazing gift you left behind for me. Thank you. All I ask is that you help me get thru this new year, because I know things are only gonna get worse. I have made three resolutions for 2005 one of which I started today. Help me accomplish what I have set my mind to do, not only for me but for bella. I will try my hardest to stay strong for her and will wait patiently for you to talk to me. I love you and miss you dearly. Bella is sitting here with me and wanted me to tell you that she loves you very much. She is beautifull. She is gonna type her name in for you. Isabella. We love you.

January 3, 2005

Isaac, it is new years eve and we sure do miss u bro. Our holidays will never be the same without u. I would do anything to have you back with us. We fill empty without you in our lives.I pray to our Lord and saviour that he may grant our families the strength to go on. We all miss u very much. Help our families cope. Love u always brother.
EGGY

January 1, 2005

This Holiday Season, I've been thinking alot about you and your family. I can't imagine the pain this year end brings to them. To your wife and daughter, give them strength, love and endurance to continue on. Life seems unfair, why you? I souldn't be questioning God's reasons, but it isn't fair. You were an all around nice guy.
Rest in peace.

Espinoza family, my prayers are always with you.

December 30, 2004

Christmas was hard this year without you there. Isabella was sad, you could see it in her eyes, she missed you. When we took the family picture of your age group it looked so strange, you were not in the middle of all the girls. I could not stop crying thinking of you not here with us. I'm glad Christmas is over. It is so unbelieveable that you are gone. Isaac, I miss you so much I just want to yell, "COME BACK!!"
P

December 27, 2004

I miss you Ieze
Especially now. We spent thanksgiving and Christmas with Nina and Bella, it wasn't the same. It was quiet and sad. Even though I try to make things a little easier for Nina, I know it cant compare to having you around. I was staring at everyone on Christmas eve as they opened the gifts,but it was as if everyone was only trying to smile to not make the sadness in the air worse.At least I know I was holding tears back, because its to much, its to hard. I cant believe that your gone. I cant believe it. I miss you, you are always in my thoughts and heart.

rm

December 27, 2004

As I thought about my cousin, this is what I found, so I know he was talking to me/to all of us somehow in this Poem:

Merry Christmas From Heaven

I still hear the songs
I still see the lights
I still feel your love
On cold wintry nights

I still hare your hopes
And all of your cares
I’ll even remind you
To please say your prayers

I just wanted to tell you
You still make me proud
You stand head and shoulders
Above all the crowd

Keep trying each moment
To stay in His grace
I came here before you
To help set your place

You don’t have to be
perfect all of the time
He forgives you the slip
If you continue to climb

To my family and friends
Please be thankful today
I’m still close beside you
In a new special way

I love you all dearly
Now don’t shed a tear
Cause I’m spending my
Christmas with Jesus this year.

Love Always,
Isaac

December 27, 2004

*MY FIRST CHRISTMAS EN HEAVEN*
I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below with tiny lights, like heaven's stars, reflecting all in rows.
The sight Is so spectacular, please wipe away the tear for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear, but the sounds of music can't compare with the Christmas choir up here,
I have no words to tell you,the joy their voices bring, for it is beyond description, to hear the Angels sing.
I know how much you Miss me,
I see the pain inside your heart.
But I am not far away.
We really aren't apart.
So be happy for me dear ones,
you know I hold you dear.
And be glad I'm spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
I sent you each a special gift,
from my heavenly home above,
sent you each a memory
of my undying love.
After all love is a gift more precious
than pure gold
It was always most important
in the stories Jesus told.
Please love and keep each other
as my father said to do
for I can't count the Blessings or love He has for each of you.
So have a Merry Christmas and wipe away that tear.
Remember, I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
LOVE TO YOU ALL!!!

TIA

December 27, 2004

Merry Christmas sweetheart. You are forever in my thoughts, as well as your family.

I wish the Espinoza family a merry christmas and a blessed new year. You are all in my thoughts and prayers. May God bless.

Con mucho amor

December 25, 2004

God bless the Espinoza family, and may your holidays be filled with positive memories to fill your hearts with love...2005 is a New Year. It won't be an easier year, but it will be a NEW one, a fresh start, led by a special Angel above. We love you Isaac!!! Renata, you CAN do it! You HAVE been doing it! There is nothing wrong with needing help or a break, you are human. You do what you can, however and whenever. I have never seen such a close family, and I am so proud to see such togetherness during your loss. You are strong. You told me the other day that Bella is even trying you (haa), because she sees your strength!

s.f.p.d.

December 24, 2004

Isaac I think of you often. I'm so sorry you won't be here for Christmas. Please give your family the strength they will need at this time. The holidays are time for cheer but they are also a time when you say good-bye to the year, and hope that the next one will be different. I beg that you comfort your wife, your parents and sister so they can have strength for your daughter.
God Bless You and your family this holiday season.

December 23, 2004