Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Police Officer Isaac Anthony Espinoza

San Francisco Police Department, California

End of Watch Saturday, April 10, 2004

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Reflections for Police Officer Isaac Anthony Espinoza

In the sunlight that's where I'll be
In the moon light close your eyes, you will see me
In the sunrise in the twilight
I'll be the morning and the evening star
I will be there with you wherever you are...To Rae(taken from "Wherever You Are" by Celeste Prince)

sister of SFPD officer

May 18, 2004

Dearest Isaac, It is said life is measured by it's quality not by it's length. Certainly your life was filled with love and self sacrifice, therefore your life was enviable in it's giving. Bless our SFPD Family with your prayers before the throne of God. A Peace Officer's Mom

Mother of an SF Peace officer

May 18, 2004

051604

dear isaac,
how are you doing? I hope that your doing good. sorry i havent written to you in a very long time, but you know that i pray to you every night, so it makes up. how am i doing? well okay i guess, trying to stay strong, and trying not to break down. but its hard i miss you and so does everybody else. the other day BELLA came over to play with CHIPPY. shes so cute, she was sitting on my lap and she was singing her little way on, and i was playing with her hair. gosh it made me cry when i was playing with her, because she looks so much like you, then she asked me " MONICA WHY YOU CRYING?" i go " OHH BELLA, YOU JUST WOULDNT UNDERSTAND" SHE SAID " OH MONICA i UNDERSTAND" " DONT CRY MONICA". each day she reminds me of you. just know what shes doing good, shes away from harm. we were upstairs in my room and we were just playing. so just know what we are taking care of her. gosh she eats alot! haha =) well yess. days have been getting better. we all miss you. i miss you oh so much. everyday i think about you. i just remininse on the times when you would be so mean to me and my sister. i miss you isaac. well im going to go just wanted to write in here, to tell you this. hope your doing good. be good up there ISAAC, please dont be too mean! miss you isaac, and i love you. save a spot for me up there will you? love you.

Monica

May 17, 2004

god bless you and your family.i miss seeing you at gideons gym, training for the ironman, holding court.i remember you told me that you would be fit and do the entire ironman after shattering your ankle. i thought in the back of my head that you were crazy that your injury would hold you back.i was so wrong.you not only finished, you kicked ass.

ofc.kevin moylan
sfpd

May 16, 2004

HEY ISAAC I KNOW YOU ARE NO LONGER WITH US BUT, I HAVE HOPE THAT OUR GOD JEHOVAH WILL BRING YOU BACK IN THE RESSURECTION AND WE WILL SEE YOU AGAIN ,SO TO YOUR FAMILY : GOD KNOWS ISAAC WAS A WONDERFUL PERSON AND WE WILL SEE HIM AGAIN HERE ON EARTH LIVING FOREVER IN PARADISE JUST LIKE HE PROMISES IN HIS WORD THE BIBLE. LOVE ALWAYS LYDIA.B

YOUR FRIEND LYDIA

May 15, 2004

OH ISAAC WHAT CAN I SAY, I ALWAYS KNEW THAT YOU WERE A GREAT PERSON YOU RESPECTED YOUR WIFE SO MUCH AND I KNEW YOU LOVED HER SO DEEPLY EVEN KNOWING THAT I LOVED YOU SO MUCH ,I RESPECTED YOU FOR BEING SUCH A GREAT PERSON AND PUTING YOUR FAMILY FIRST, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART. YOUR FRIEND

LYDIA.B
FRIEND

May 15, 2004

It is very difficult to write words of comfort on this site. Law Enforcement is a large family and when one is lost it has an impact on all of us. You seemed like a good guy to know and one who loved his job. I recently served in the California Officers Memeorial to honor all of the fallen officers. I would proudly do it again to honor you. God bless your family and friends.

We have the watch from here my friend. May you rest in peace.

Officer
Burbank PD

May 13, 2004

I think about you everyday and it still hurts me so much that you are gone. I am so sorry that I was so angry at you the night before you died. I know that you didn't mean to hurt me, but living with never telling you that I understood kills me. I hope you knew that I did understand. I knew that you never meant to hurt me. If I had known that that was going to be the last time that I was ever going to see you I would've told you everything that I had ever wanted to tell you. I have always respected you and thought highly of you. I am so glad for the times we did share together, even if our time together was short. I think about you everyday, I can still hear your laugh and see you smile. You were such an amazing person with a huge heart. I know how much it hurts for me that you are gone, but I can't even begin to imagine the pain that it has caused your wife and family. I know that I never got to meet them, but my heart goes out to them and I pray for them everyday. Please know that I love you and always will. I miss you.

Your "Little Carmen"

A Friend,

May 13, 2004

So long, but never goodbye.
We will not forget you, brother.


Phoenix PD

May 12, 2004

Isaac....this is so hard! If only you knew how this is not only on me but on all of us. I miss you so much. Its like everyday that I come home I see your car there and think your inside but your not. Your not here with us anymore. Why Isaac? Saturday was my birthday and I know that you would have told me that you were going to have extra police in that area to make sure I dont drive home drunk. You always lectured me about that...come one Isaac I would never do that. Last night when I was driving home I just lost it. It hurts even more when I get home and see your car there. I wish you could come home. You know everyone says that you are in a better place but I dont. I think the better place is here with us, with Bella and Renata, with your mom and dad and sister. The better place is here!!! We want you to come back and I cant get it through me that your not. Isaac we miss you so much and dont you ever forget it. I was telling my mom the other day that I wish we could have more memories to share together. More times to make fun of you, see you working hard in your yard, see you get your impalla fixed up, and even take me on a ride on your Harley. Isaac you are always in my heart no matter where I go and remember we miss you a lot and wish you were here and though you aren't we still think of how you would react or say to us. You are never forgotten!

Veronica

May 12, 2004

Dear Isaac, where do I begin!!We miss you so very much. My husband misses not seeing you in the mornings when he goes to work and you were just getting home. I miss not seeing you 3 or 4 times a day and chatting with you, and you telling me about your plans with your house, or how very much you loved Renata and Bella, and how you talked about your dad and what he was going to help you with in the house.All the jokes you played on us for the last four and half years. Remember when you did your old deck and you were in the little pool with Bella trying to tan your legs because we use tell you "tan those legs Isaac". Working in the back or front yard without a shirt was another one of your specialties, gosh how we miss you. Football season will be hard, you will not be here to take down our Raiders flag so that you can put your 49er flag, or when I knew you were home watching the game I would go past your door and yell "Go Raiders, and you would come to the door and say hey, hey, hey watch that. Your life was cut short, and I sit and wonder why God works in such mysterious ways. You had so much to give and live. You have some wonderful and true friends, they have been here working on your house and looking out for your family.Your deck and fence look really nice. There is not one day that goes by that our family does not talk about you. I see your car outside and when I go to get in my car I can almost hear you calling me" hey Sonia" with that happy and charismatic way you had, but you know I like seeing your car there because its like oh, Isaac is home, just like old times. I know you are in a better place and that you are a very especial angel up there, looking and taking care of Bella and Renata. We will always talk to Bella about her daddy, and what a wonderful and great daddy she had, and how very much he loved her. How he took her to the park, let her play in the water outside, ride her little jeep, get ice-cream when the ice-cream truck came around and when you played with her.We are next door and we will always look out for Bella and Renata. You know nothing beautiful and loved in this world is ever really lost, all the things that we really love live in our hearts forever. We love and miss you so very much, you will not be forgotten and you will never be forgotten in our prayers.Love you Isaac -Sonia

Sonia/Neighbor-Friend

May 12, 2004

Not one day goes without me going on this website to see and read about how people feel about you. I think about you everyday! I still can't believe you are gone. It's not right. I want to see you again, but I know it will be in 50 years from now. Man Isaac, even in death you are still popular! Great personality. I'm thinking of you...rest in peace..watch over us.

May 11, 2004

DEAR ISSAC,
IT'S ME AGAIN. I FEEL SO LOST AT THIS VERY MOMENT. LOST BECAUSE YOUR GONE. I KNOW THAT YOUR IN A BETTER PALCE AND I JUST CAME BACK FROM SCHOOL AND I KNOW THAT IM SUPPOSED TO WRITE IN HERE, MY PRAYERS AND REFLECTIONS, BUT I FEEL LIKE I CAN EXPRESS MYSELF IN HERE AND THAT YOUR READING IT. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. TODAY AT SCHOOL WAS REALLY HARD FOR ME. I THOUGHT ABOUT YOU THE WHOLE DAY. WE HAD A MEMORIAL THING AT SCHOOL FOR THE PEOPPLE THAT HAVE PASSED AWAY, AND SURE ENOUGH I WAS UP THERE, MADE A PRAYER AND EVEN DID SOME ART WORK, A PICTURE OF YOU! AND EVERYTHING. ITS SO HARD TO COME HOME EVERYDAY AND SEE YOUR CAR THERE, NOT YET MOVED FROM IT'S SAME SPOT. PLEASE GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO GO ON, DONT PULL ME BACK. I MISS YOU ISAAC. I HOPE YOUR DOING GOOD UP THERE. SAVE A SPOT FOR ME IN HEAVEN TO BE BESIDES YOU. I HAVE YOU IN MY PRARYERS EVERY DAY. TODAY WE ARE HOLDING A VIGIL FOR YOU. EVERYONE WILL BE THERE. I KNOW YOU LOVED THE ATTENTION. TOMORROWS ANOTHER DAY. I MISS YOU ISAAC AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

MoNiCA

May 10, 2004

Isaac, not one day goes by that I dont miss you. You were the brother I never had.I will make sure that Isabella is always reminded of what a great father,husband, son and brother you were.I still feel as if this is a dream and that soon I will wake up and you will be there. Everytime I go to the house I expect to see you there. I miss your advise and your friendship. I regret not joining the gym with you earlier so that you can give my work outschedule like you said you would. Iam proud to tell people that you were my brother in law and an SF police officer. Thanks for motivationg me to get into construction trade. I am working with a contractor who is mentoring me in the trade. I know that
that evrything is going to work out well in that aspect of my life. Iam also greatfull to your SFPD family for there support to Renata and Isabella
I pray to our Lord that he protects and blesses there lives. Iam great full to your family for giving me the oppotunty
to represent them during this difficult time. All of your friends have been awsome in showing nothing but love to my sister and my niece. I will never forget you brother and will make sure your daughter never forgets who her daddy was either.

Your little Bro: Egg

May 10, 2004

Dear Isaac,
Even though I didn't live next door, you always made sure I felt like I did.You would always look over when you would see me pull up and say "not another mendoza sister".You were always plotting some kind of joke to pull on us. In the five years that I have known you, you have managed to leave a deep impact in my life. You will be really missed but we have alot of wonderful memories to remind us of how special you were.

Neighbor/ana

May 8, 2004

DEAR ISAAC,
WHERE DO I BEGIN WITH THIS? MY GOD ISAAC I MISS YOU SO MUCH, YOU DONT EVEN KNOW. THE PAST DAYS HAVE BEEN SO TOUGH, LOOKING AT YOUR HOUSE THROUGH MY WINDOW AND SEEING ALL YOUR DREAMS BEING FINISHED. THE DECK IS LOOKING SO GOOD! HAHAH IT'S FUNNY BECAUSE THE OTHER DAY I LOOKED OUTSIDE MY WINDOW AND SAW THE DECK FINISHED AND I WAS LAUGHING TO MYSELF THINKING " IF ISAAC WAS HERE, HE WOULD HAVE BEEN LIKE " MONICA COME LOOK AT MY DECK!" AND I WOULD HAVE BEEN LIKE " FINALLY YOU CAN GET A TAN ON YOUR DECK ISAAC!" I THINK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME ISAAC, THERES NOT ONE DAY THAT PASSES BY THAT I DONT THINK ABOUT YOU. EVERYDAY AT SCHOOL WHEN WE HAVE PRAYER IN RELIGION CLASS IM ALWAYS THE FIRST PERSON TO GET UP THERE AND SAY A PRARY FOR YOU. ISAAC YOU DONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT RENATA AND BELLA WE'LL TAKE CARE O THEM. THEY MISS YOU ALOT TOO. EVERYONE DOES. I JUST STILL CAN'T BELIEVE THAT YOUR GONE, IT JUST DOESNT SEEM REAL. EVERYTIME I COME HOME FROM SCHOOL I SEE YOUR CAR AND I FEEL LIKE YOUR STILL HERE WITH US. I WILL MISS SO MUCH NOT SEEING YOUR CAR MAKE ITS COMPLETE STOPS AT THE CORNER, AND THEN ALWAYS YELLING AT MY SISTER SAYING THAT SHE NEEDS TO STOP, WHEN YOUR THE COP AND NEVER STOP! YOU WERE SO FUNNY, ALWAYS MAKING JOKES ON US. WE MISS THAT SO MUCH. I TRY TO TELL MYSELF THAT YOUR GONE, BUT THOUGH YOUR STILL WITH US, I KNOW THAT YOU WANT US TO BE HAPPY, AND JUST SMILE BECAUSE THIS WONT BE THE LAST TIME WE SEE EACH OTHER. I HOPE THAT YOUR DOING GOOD UP THERE WITH THE ANGELS. WATCH OVER ME ISAAC, WATCH OVER ALL OF US. I MISS YOU SOO MUCH. AND DONT WORRY WE ARE TAKING GOOD CARE OF RENATA. I MISS YOU ISAAC. I WILL COME BACK TO SEE HOW YOUR DOING. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. YOU WERE ALWAYS THE BESTEST NEIGHBOR AND NO ONE WILL EVER CHNAGE THAT. BYE ='/

MONiCA MENDOZA - NEiGHBOR

May 8, 2004

Isaac, you would be so very proud of all your family , friends and of the public you helped protect. For in their time of great sorrow they have come together to show honor in your memory. They have come out by the hundreds to pay their respects, help your wife and daughter, and are demanding justise for having you taken from them. You are so dearly missed. Rest in peace and watch over your loved ones as you always have. Everyday I say a prayer for you mama , your beautiful wife, and your innocent daughter. May GOD get them through this nightmare.

May 8, 2004

My Deerest Cousin Isaac,

I cant even understand why this has all happened to you and our family. It doesnt even seem real yet. I keep thinking that I will see you at the next family function. But I get all choked up inside just thinking that it will be Renata and Isabella walking through that door with out you, I am so sorry for you Renata I truly, truly am. It hurts, it really hurts all of us. I cant even think of all of our lives with out you. You brought so much joy to our family. You were the life of our family parties the one that made everyone smile and feel good about themselves. I couldnt stand or sit next to you most times with out a smile or smerk on my own face. Its all so crazy. I really wish you were here, I have never written you a letter so this is truly so incredibly crazy. When I look at my son Isaac it makes me think of Isabella his big cousin and how her daddy is gone. It is so frustrating to me that she wont have you in her life, that protector, the man, her dadddy, who is supposed to see her with that first date to give him grief! But I do know one things for sure Isaac that you will be Isabellas lifetime gaurdian Angel.... like my father has been mine. You were too young to go, too full of life. Its not fair. You werent just my cousin Isaac, you were the brother I never had. You protected me and helped me when I went through that academy, you came to visit me several times at the academy to see how I was doing and called me once a week to see if I needed any help. You were the one who got me through that academy Isaac. You didnt know that though.... I know your with Popo right now Isaac, and crazy enough, I know he has a smile on his face right now, because thats what you do, bring happiness with that beautiful smile! You will always live on in our hearts Isaac and you will never be forgotten, not for one minute! We miss you bad!

May 8, 2004

Isaac I miss you so much. I still can't believe that its you. Why out of all people, did it have to be you? I miss you telling me to slow down driving down Cuesta or how about the nice card you bought my niece on her birthday. Or how about that RCN joke you played on my sister and me. I could go on forever and ever we had so many memories I want you know that not one day goes by without me thinking of you. We miss you and love you so much and we are taking good care of Renata and Bella for you! See you soon!

Veronica --Neighbor and Friend

May 7, 2004

I miss you Isaac! Thank you for trying to protect us citizens. And thank you for being my friend. I think about you everyday. Sorry that it had to be you to leave this world. You were a cool guy. :)

May 6, 2004

I read the story and I could not hold my tears I dont know officer Isaac but I really feel sorry for him I cant think about his family and also his friends. I will pray for him

INSPECTOR
TURKISH

May 5, 2004

As a fellow officer who risks his life everyday to protect society I can't even begin to express my gratitude for your actions. It is fine officers like PO Isaac A. Espinoza who make all the difference in this world we live in today. I would like to send my condolences to the officers family and friends, my thoughts are with you. God Bless and Rest in Peace, your legacy lives on in all of us!

Constable Viktor Sarudi
Toronto Police Service

May 4, 2004

Zak:

I think of you everyday..Waiting for that 12pm phone call to meet you at the gym..Missing our after workout lunches at the Great Steak. Bust most of all, i miss your friendship, your love, compassion, and constant humor in our lives. We are doing our best to support your loved ones as I know you would have done for any of us. Your memory was left in thousands of hearts and your legacy will live on forever. You are a hero to the community, to your family, and to your friends. To me, you were my best friend and confidon. I will miss you but the good times will never be forgotten. I love you. God bless you and the entire Espinoza family. Peace!!

Close Friend (Manoj Sastry)

May 4, 2004

Issac we miss you dearly. Me vas aser falta. No te conoce por mucho tiempo, pero, cuando te fuetes, me duelo mucho. No no vas a crear pero orita estoy con tu amigo. Tu saves lo que digo. te quiero mucho Issac.

Off. Iz
sfpd

May 2, 2004

Isaac I still can't believe it's you that had to go. You were a good guy. Very caring and funny. My heart goes out to your wife and daughter. Please be there for them and give them the strength they need to pick up the pieces. Comfort your family with your warmth. Rest in peace, and I will see you again. Que dios te bendiga.

May 1, 2004

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