San Francisco Police Department, California
End of Watch Saturday, April 10, 2004
Reflections for Police Officer Isaac Anthony Espinoza
Bella
Happy birthday to a beautiful little girl full of energy and surrounded by strength and happiness! Your father lives on in you...Your family, S.F.P.D., Bayview Station Officers.
Bayview Station-ALL Watches
San Francisco Police Dept.
August 1, 2004
renata
I say many prays for you, for the Lord to give you the strentgh to be that pillar that those who loved Issac need so much.I know you have needs of strentgh yourself,as your pillar has been taken from you.Jesus has his angles and he has appointed Issac as yours and Isabellas. Love like the one he had for you transends all.Because that is all this is ,distance, he is with you. God knows why this had to happen. Now you must search inside yourself and ask how can I learn the lesson Gods wants me learn. How can my family and I give Issac's death honor. I have seen you , you are a beautiful women, more than beautiful you have inner strength and beautiful. Use that to touch others. Let the Lord and your angel guide you.
My prayers are always with you.
August 1, 2004
Isaac,
I made a collage from pictures of you and Bella since she was born until this year. She asked me if you were going to come down from heaven to her birthday party and I said NO. She got sad so I told her that we could pick out all the pictures of you and her and we could put them together and bring them to the park so she would know that you were there watching her at her party. That brought her comfort and that is what we did. All of your friends and family were there and even though it was a cold gloomy day we had a good party for Bella. Oh Isaac how I missed you yesterday. It was hard planning the party and being there without you cracking jokes or without "Surprises" falling out of the pinata (Remember last year? the little surprise that you put in the pinata?) It was a good party but you were still missing. anyways I am trying my best to be strong for our baby. I know you are with me everyday helping me out and all your family and friends have been wonderful to me and bella, they are always here when I need them. Bella and I miss you so much. We take it day by day for you. We love you always.
re
August 1, 2004
Isaac these last couple of days have been really hard for me. I wish you would come back...this is so hard on all of us. We miss you so much. Everytime I go to your house , I feel that your going to walk through that door.But your not! Bellas b-day party was yesterday and it just wasnt the same without you. Your presence was definately missing. You were all in our hearts just like you are everyday. Renata and Bella are doing good but they are still hurting, just as we all are. Isaac... I dont know what to do anymore. I dont like this feeling. I still dont get it! Isaac you are always in our hearts and we miss you and love you more than you know. Renata and Bella miss you more and more each day and just keep looking after them as you have!
Veronica
August 1, 2004
ISAAC: SIEMPRE VIVIRAS EN BELLA,Y EN RENATA.TE EXTRANO,SE QUE PRONTO TE VERE.
AMIGO
August 1, 2004
Wow. I just read through a few reflections on this first page that I was sent to and I am overcome by emotion. It is obvious that you had SO many people that loved you and still love you. I smile at the frequent mentions of jager...must've been your favorite drink. As I read through the reflections everybody seems to recount memories w/ such vividness. You must have been a wonderful man to know and love. It's a shame you were taken from us so soon. Such a young, handsome man w/ so much left to do in life. I guess it's not our job to try to make sense out of things that cannot be made sense OF. God Bless You, Officer Espinoza. From what I've read it seems I missed a lot by not knowing you.
A 911 Dispatcher
August 1, 2004
Hi Isaac, today was a beautiful day, Bellas birthday party, you left a beautiful little angel with all of us, and a whole lot of people that love and miss you. Your wife is amazing she tries so hard to keep her self together and keep going, I really admire her! We love you, and miss you so very much. God Bless You
Sonia
July 31, 2004
dearest isaac
its been over 2 monthes that you have been taken away from us. today is the 31 of july and today was bellas birthday party at the park. my sister was like practically in charge of everything---- you know how she always wants the attention. so we made bellie her cupcakes and her theme was little mermaid. shes soo cute! she was dressed up in litttle red tights, black mary- janes, and this little pink long /short dress and a little jacket, and pig tails..=].. looked exactly like you. the party was fun but i wish that you were there to seee how much fun she had but i know that from heaven you were watching over us. oh isaac. i cry everytime someone speaks of your name because it brings me deep sorrow to know that you will never be with us again. i was over your house the other day playing with bella and her new dog! " nemo" and i was siotting on the ocuch and someone had opened the door and it reminded me of you comming home one day and saying " monica! what the heck are you doing here AGAIN".. like i bothered you!... hagag memories just hit me. i miss you so much isaac and always will . i think of you everyday. and your always in my prayers. renata misses you and so does little bellie. watch over us. i miss you and i love you alot.
---- monica--- your little neighbor
monica
July 31, 2004
"All My Heart"
I love you with all my heart
I love you with all my soul
you bring me light
you bring me happiness
When you are near me I need a kiss
If I could spend my life with you
I'd love you everyday as the First day
I never thought love could be so true
but I was so wrong
because I found YOU!
Isaac remember this poem? I found it going thru our high school stuff. This is the very first poem you gave to me. I remember I was 16 and you where 17. I can still see your smile when you walked down the hall and gave it to me. Isaac I would do anything to go back in time and hear you say these words to me again. All I can do now is cry and remember our love. You kept your word and loved me everyday as the first day. Thank you. I could of never asked for a better love than yours because it was so pure and true, one of a kind. I love you now as I did then and always will.
re
July 26, 2004
ZAK- Mars...
Had two Jagers with GMAK and B.L. It was the 1st time I could get them down without hesitation. I now know that I can get through this one step at a time. Renata is trying sooo hard to get through everything, she's amazing! I cry for you every night, if not, every other night, and don't know how everyone is coping...its bs Zak, its wrong the way you went out! We love u, Patty.
Off. Brown, Bayview-MIDS
S.F.P.D.
July 24, 2004
You stand out like the moon on a beautiful night. You were such a beautiful person!
Cousin
July 23, 2004
ZAK-
During a traffic stop after a 49er game, YOU were the one who taught me the famous Bayview, "We've got a crowd gathering..." rule! I think about you every time I use it...which is often! Haaa. ;D Miss you, Patty.
Off. Brown, Bayview-MIDS
S.F.P.D.
July 23, 2004
Rudy I dont know who you are but you really touched my heart. I read what you left and I couldnt help but to just keep cying uncontrollably about your dream. Because I too have had crazy dreams like yours. It hurts that he is gone and we all miss him more than anything. Thankyou for your reflection it keeps us close and thinking of Isaac!A cousin
July 22, 2004
Rest in peace buddy, your work is done.
You'll be missed by all those who's lives you touched.
SC Brad Taylor
Metropolitan Police (London)
July 22, 2004
I had a dream the other night and you were there. I belive that God speaks through dreams & i know it was real. We were at Your house and my sister and Chris were watching videos of when we were all younger. My dad & some other people where in the new addition just fixig some things in there. I walked out side & saw Rick, My brother & You outside and you guys were smiling and stuff. I think that they were building a fence in the front lawn because they had some wire things around the grass. Any ways the guys went in and you called me over to where your car is still park at today and you began to say " this is what we are going to do, you guys are going to move this car and put a little tree here." Then like you always joked you said, " and you will have the honor to cut it back down." then I stared at you for a moment & then i just huged you. I was hugging you so tight that I could feel all your muscles from you chest and arms. I started to telll you to come back. I kept saying come back Isaac Come back. I was crying and saying this to you becase inmy dream I knew you had already passed away. Then you said to me,you crying aswell, I wanted to come back, I wanted to. then I woke up and when i got up I noticed that I was still crying. Man Isaac, I miss you so much. I love you.
Rudy
July 22, 2004
to lsaac family and friends i just want to let u al know how sorry i am fore your lost.i never met him dont know who he is but one an officer goes down it like i lost a family member too. just want his family and friends to know he is with u al the time watching u al.god bless u al and lsaac god bless u fore what u beleaved in a friend from pa
denise
July 22, 2004
I miss you so much. Specially these past couple of weeks.
July 20, 2004
Okay so Im a little late on your birtday but you know you wouldnt be on time with mine. But dont worry you were in my prayers all day just like everyday. You know Isaac, I still sit here and wonder why this happened? It just doesnt make sense. Im still confused. I cant believe you would have been 30! Holy, you would have been almost an old man. Ahhhh....I would have teased you for days! Isaac I wish you were here. I would even stop making fun of you just to have you with us again. We all miss you so much! This is so hard for me to accept still and it will take me a while. Isaac I miss you!!!
Veronica
July 20, 2004
Isaac,
Happy 30th Birthday, I'm sorry this is late, but you were in our thoughts and prayers on Friday. The day was beautiful, warm and pleasant. I imagine that day was hard on your family, especially your mom, who carried you for nine months, and loves you eternally. I pray that God gives her strength.
You are our hero.
A friend
July 19, 2004
Isaac,
I visited your grave site on your birthday, I've never been so proud and so sad at the same time. I was playing ball with my sons, which made me happy, then I realized the moments you'll never be able to spend with Isabella, and I couldn't stop crying. Those times are priceless, Renata has the toughest times ahead of her, going on with life and mournig her hero, who was everything to her. How does this stuff happen? No on eknew that at age 20 your life was 2/3 rds over. At age 14.5 It was halfway, you lived a really good 29 years, your family is blessed, the world misses the fact that we don't get 50+ more years with you. But you taught us all a valuable lesson, smile, live life to the fullest, never leave anything on the table, and do what's right. God Bless you Isaac. You're 30 years are better than most people's lives. We all love you and miss you more than you could ever imagine. You'd be proud of every single one of your friends, loved ones', and comrades. They tried there best , just like you. Your parents, sister and wife are suffering most but aren't alone. Isabella, your Dad is stuff only legends are made of, and all of us realize that.
Mike A.
July 19, 2004
REMEMBER ME”
Law enforcement officers are, indeed, a special breed of people. Ask anyone on the street and they will tell you that they would not have our jobs for anything in the world. It takes something special to do what we do and at the same time be able to even contemplate retirement. We try to be optimists. Unfortunately, there are a few of us who will never make that date with retirement. By the very nature of our job, we are at risk everyday of losing our lives, either at the hand of some deranged individual or in some other situation that we, by virtue of our occupation, may be unable to avoid. Some people have recognized the hazardous duties we involve ourselves in, the risks we take, and the pride we take in accomplishing that job. There is National Law Enforcement Week, dedicated to us who gladly accept the responsibility of protecting the citizens in our respective jurisdictions. National Law Enforcement Officers Memorial Day is dedicated to those who gave their lives in the line of duty. These are but a two examples of remembrances specifically for law enforcement personnel. Remembrances that come but once a year. We should remind fellow officers of another type of remembrance, one that will last a lifetime. Sooner or later, a doctor will pronounce us dead. It is inevitable. Regardless of whatever happens, death is the end we will all have to face.
“IT IS DEATH THAT WE CAN LIVE FOREVER”
This was written by an unknown author.
July 19, 2004
ZAK-
I took pictures of you today. Your family and friends sure know how to throw a 30th. birthday party! Beautiful flowers, balloons, cards, American Flags, and of course, Jager, kept you company. The sun rose and shined on your flawless head gently touched with dew. I knew that you were at peace. I kissed your head and told you that I would visit again soon. I walked away, and no matter how far I got, you still stood out. "You shouldn't be here Zak, you shouldn't be here" echoed in my head...Maybe I'm wrong Zak, but no matter how much that night plays in my head, I know that you took a bullet meant for someone else. You ARE an Angel! May the Lord be with you and yours...Patty.
Off. Brown, Bayview Station-MIDS
S.F.P.D.
July 17, 2004
HAPPY 30TH BIRTHDAY!
July 17, 2004
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISAAC, wow this is so hard ,we miss you so much, you know exactly what a hard time I would have given you about turning 30! I'm so glad Renata kept your car, everytime I go outside, I stare at it and its like I can almost see and hear you, it keeps everyone going. Hope you are behaving in heaven and not driving the way you use to down here! You will live in our hearts forever and will not be forgotten. Love you and miss you! P.S. Your legacy continues, we are still being awaken in the mornings by the workers at your house, just like you use to do, my god don't I wish it was you, even if you woke us up in the middle of the night!! Remember the morning you came to ask if I had any bread because you did not want to go to the store, well Bella came over today and asked "Sonia, do you have pan dulce, and chocolate?" A reminder of you. Love you Isaac, and miss you!!
Sonia
July 17, 2004
Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!! Can you taste the JAGER? Truly-from the TRIBE from DALY CITY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!! WE MISS YOU ZAK.
Your Boy--- GMACK
July 16, 2004
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