San Francisco Police Department, California
End of Watch Saturday, April 10, 2004
Reflections for Police Officer Isaac Anthony Espinoza
Isaac,
Everybody still thinks about you everyday. All men and women in uniform are brave, and you were one of the best. Sorry I didn't get the chance to tell you enough but THANKS!!!!!
August 17, 2004
Isaac,
As someone who didn't know you, over the months I've been struck by what a rare perfect blend of positive but usually conflicting qualities you are...tough but loving, full of humor but sensitive, busy as a whirlwind but always thinking of others. I'm sure it's easy to be that way in heaven, but not here on earth. How did you do it? I think of you every day many times, and of all the lessons you've given me in love and freedom from fear. You don't need my prayers, but I pray for your wonderful wife and family, and for my chance to meet you in the afterlife.
D
August 17, 2004
WHY YOU? WHY? WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE US? I WANT THE PAIN TO STOP. I WANT TO SEE OUR FAMILY HAPPY AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HAVE HAD ONE MORE TALK WITH YOU. BUT, I GUESS THAT WOULD HAVE KEPT ME WISHING FOR ONE MORE.
COUSIN
August 16, 2004
Couldn't help but think of you as I sat at candelstick park watching the action, it was cold and windy. 49ers vs. Raiders. What a battle, all you heard was NINERS and then someone would answer back RAIDERS. The whole game! It was exciting, exhilirating and a rush. It was a terrific game, to the very last moment, however the Raider Nation Pulled out by 3 points and won the game. I know you enjoyed watching from up above.
August 16, 2004
At least once a day, every day, I think about you. One little touching memory of you, your little head bobbing up and down when you smiled and laughed, and I cry and say, "Why was it you!? You're the good guy!" I wish I knew you better, I guess that's why I spend more time getting to know everyone better now. That's why I spend a second longer to speak with someone. People are so selfish with their time, but you never were, I've learned that from your family and friends. I'm scared Isaac, I don't know if we could ever handle anything else like this happen ever again...Please continue to watch over us. I remember praying to God before I go to sleep, but now, it seems as if I pray to you before I sleep...I trust you Isaac.
anonymous
S.F.P.D.
August 15, 2004
isaac today the 49ers amd the RAIDERRSSS playy. ohhh no. i wish you were here. we would have been having a big battle field here on cuesta drive with the flags. hahah do you remember that?. we shall see who wins. i hope its the 49ers today though. j ust for you isaac. i miss you. byeee
MONiCA
August 14, 2004
Hey Isaac, remember last year when the 49ers played the Raiders, well its today!! I did not know who the niners were playing but my husband did, but did not want to tell me. Renata looked so cute with her niner jersey and her beanie, we did not put out our flag, my husband did not want to!, but Renata as you can see put out your flag! We know you are watching from heaven, you are missed every day of our lives.
Sonia
August 14, 2004
Hello Isaac...I just wanted to let you know that there isn't a day that goes by where I don't think of you. There have been several times when I have been on-duty and had to take a double look at someone because they reminded me of you. I know you are with us. I went to the Medal of Valor awards ceremony last night. Several officers and Lts. from Bayview were there to support Barry and Luis. Isaac we carry you in our hearts at every function and even though we know you are with us spiritually, we sure do miss seeing you. We've all shed so many tears for you and to this day still do. Please continue to bless all of us with your spirit and guiding light...We miss and love you...Annie
Ofcr. Annie Valenzuela
SFPD/Bayview Station
August 13, 2004
isaac. you got your car back today. when i got home from work. me and my mom were turning the corner from the house. you know where you never made your stops & where you and my mom almost crashed. haha. well yess we were comming down the street and our hearts dropped and we go " ahh isaacs home". man without your car it was like you were completely gone. i miss you though issac. i bet your the coolest angel up there huh. i know your watching over us and i know when your listening to me when i talk. i just know. i miss you isaac. and i love you so much. watch over us. love you byeee!
MONiCA
August 13, 2004
I miss you. Sometimes I pray to God and ask him, "will I ever see Isaac as an angel? right here? right now?" I hope someday god will answer my prayers.
Bella, your father is an amazing man and Im sure your mama will agree. Your father lives in you. God Bless you and your mama.
a kid who admires you. You're my Hero.
August 12, 2004
Hi Baby, Well this weekend was a hard weekend. The Softball tournament was great. Unfortunately Bayview did not take it this year but they will next year. SFPD Blue won the tournament I was so happy to see all of your friends there. All the teams played hard and honor for you. Thank you for being there. I am so proud and honored to be a part of the SFPD and law enforcement family. They have been by my side never leaving me alone. That gives me strength. The games were all wonderful but everyone missed you there and I thought about you every minute I saw those men and women playing softball out there. Bella had a really good time she enjoyed herself being on the field. She will be playing softball someday just like you. She told me she wanted to play like her papi. We miss you. I miss you so much. I love you.
re
August 11, 2004
Wow...it's been months and the only comfort is to go on this website to read what is said about you. You knew so many people, it's weird how friends in my life new you too? i didn't know we had you in common? I want to tell you "hey Isaac, I know some people that know you", but I can't. I just keep seeing your face at the "R" Ranch. You were always a cutie. I miss you. I miss talking to you. I miss the funny things you would say. Damn, I hate that you are gone.
August 11, 2004
I didn't expect to see you in my dreams, but I saw you last night. It was a family gathering and we were all sitting in a circle. You were sitting next to your mom and regina as I said goodbye to everyone. But I specifically looked at you, and I said, "Man, Issac, I haven't seen you in you a while. Were have you been?" You started to tell me (but you never completely told me), and then you said, you would walk me to my car. Again, making sure I was safe! I woke up and tears just came down. Thank you for being you. Please continue to watch over us. I miss you Eyz! Adele
Cousin
August 10, 2004
Isaac we miss you and love you, sometimes it feels like I'm in a bad dream, and I will wake up and see you outside!!. Rest in Peace
Sonia- neighbor
August 10, 2004
Issac theres not one day that goes by that I dont miss you. It is still really hard for me. I mean I know your gone but the truth is ...I dont want to accept it. I want you to come back home. I want you to be with Renata and Bella and your family.We all miss you here. I miss seeing you everyday and telling me to stop speeding down Cuesta. I miss you waking me up on the weekends. I even miss you picking on me. Issac why cant I feel at ease with this. Why? Why did you have to leave us. Isaac rememeber that you are always in everyones hearts and you were such a great person... We miss you!!!
veronica
August 10, 2004
THANK YOU AGAIN
August 10, 2004
Isaac, Today is four months....seems longer. We miss you! Rest in Peace.
August 10, 2004
isaac. gosh i miss you so much. words cant even explain how much it hurts me to know that you wont be comming back. its been so hard for me the past monthes. not only for me but for many people to. its so hard to know that your gone. it was funny because i went into BLOCKBUSTER yesterday and the lady that worked there asked if i had known you. and i told her yes. and she would tell me that you would come in to get movies and i go " yeah that isaac never went to the movies, he would always say " i bring the movies to me man". just made me laugh and smile. cuz thats something you would say & did say to me once. gosh isaac i miss you so much. the past days ive been reading all of your reflections and i was saying to myself " wow isaac had my friends, i feel bad for saying he didnt have any" . i miss you isaac and love you so much. may god always be with you.
monica mendoza
August 10, 2004
So did Bayview win or what???
Isaac I miss you! Watch over us from Heaven. Are you still dancing??
August 8, 2004
Still cannot beleive you are gone...... I read everyother day the things that people write here and it amazes me how you have touched so many lives! You were a wonderful human being with so much heart..... Its a shame you had to leave us so soon..... I hope that I too can be half the person you were.
August 8, 2004
Isaac this weekend is going to be a hard weekend for me. This weekend is the softball tournament that is going to be played in your memory. I know how much you loved baseball and your team. You were so good at it. I remember when softball season came around you would stay up late making up the roster and calling your team mates to make sure they were going to play and show up that year. I miss those days. I will be there all three days to cheer all the police officers, firefighters and all the men and women who will be playing in the tournament. I will proudly be wearing your #8 Potrero softball jersey. Bella will be with me and it will be an honor to watch all the wonderful teams that will be playing and showing their support. I know you will be watching from heaven and making sure that "Bayview's" softball team takes it this year. Ha Ha I love you and miss you.
re
August 4, 2004
To the Espinoza's:
I am a 23 year old in Las Vegas, NV. I am moving to California at the end of this month to enroll into the Santa Monica Police Department. I monitor this website almost daily. The amount of sincere gratitude I have towards Ofc. Espinoza is astounding. I have never admired or looked up to anyone that I have not met before as I have to your Ofc. Espinoza. I hope that one day, I can be half the man, husband, father, friend, and finally police officer that Officer Espinoza was to all of you. It is a true tragedy that something like this has to happen to such a great individual in order for people to wish they could have been in his presence. I hope Reynatta and Bella are doing okay now. After reading all the stories and responses on this site, I feel like I know them in some way. I hope your family understands that this has made me re-think the way I live day in and day out and the way I view police work, not as a career where people look up to you for answers, but a career that you dedicate to the protection of everyday life. I will enjoy being a police officer and helping people in need. I will do this knowing that every fallen officer before me has taken this lifestyle with great pride and honor. God Bless Officer Espinoza, Bella, Renatta, and family.
Sincerely,
Michael C.
Future Police Officer
Mike
none yet...
August 3, 2004
Hi Isaac/Renata,
Last week I was looking through some picture books, and ran across a few pictures, that made me smile. I have one of you, Renata, George & Tezzy, I think it was for someone's wedding at church, Tezzy and Renata were wearing Hot Pink dresses that were identical. It seemed like such a long time ago, but it was fun. I also ran across a picture of when you caught the garter belt at my wedding. I couldn't believe it had been 10 years ago. Those days were great. This weekend Wendy got married, and I cried, just like I cried at your wedding and at everyone else's wedding. I saw a video of when Renata and you went to visit Wendy after Alejandra was born, and you had bought Alejandra this Blue workout outfit and shoes. It was great to see your smile on video. I just want to take time to Thank you for your friendship and for being a Hero. Luis and I think of you often, I pray for your family daily.
Julie
August 3, 2004
Hey Issac, it's me again, i just got off lunch break and thought of writting you. So Bellas B-day party was great! Of course not the same without you. You know, I missed the "Protection"(wink wink) that you put in the pinata last year:) Man, Bella is getting so big. I know that everybody at the patry had a good time but missed yuo really really bad. I miss you Issac, I always think bout you though I don't really show any emotions about this ahole thing, only God & you know exactly how most of my nights in my room go. I'm trying Isaac! Well I better get back to work before I get fired....Yea right....well I still keep loving, missing,& thinking of you.
To whoever wrote to me about my dream, im glad that it touched you as much asit did me. I am Isaacs sister inlaw (Renata's yougest sister)
Always Rudy
Rudy
August 2, 2004
Issac,
I have tried to write to you on this sight so many times in the last three and a half months, and can never get through it. I am still trying to make sense out of why this happened, and struggle with it daily. Renata and Bella have been amazing through this horrible tragedy! I don't know where Renata gets her strength from, maybe you are sending it to her from heaven, but she is so strong for your beautiful little girl. You should be so proud of her. I miss hearing you say "Hey" from across the street, or coming over to talk to Tim and comparing home improvement ideas. I also miss you and Tim giving the girls a hard time together. Everyday I when I turn on my computer I come to your reflection page and check for any new messages. I love reading all of the peoples memories of you. I have to come to realize that jager was one of your favorite drinks as it is one of mine. May God bless you always Issac. Please know that you are truly missed by both Tim and I. We will always be here to help Renata and Bella when they need it.
Kristi
friend/neighbor
August 2, 2004
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