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Deputy Sheriff Perry Austin Fillmore

Clinton County Sheriff's Department, Michigan

End of Watch Saturday, March 27, 2004

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Reflections for Deputy Sheriff Perry Austin Fillmore

hey you, put up the blue lights and got out the Redneck Christmas Story but thats all I can handle. Will get cleetus something good and am trying so hard to carry on your traditions. You loved Christmas, but you were my christmas. I miss you so much...........

i love you

December 17, 2007

"The Badge"
He starts his shift each day
To respond to calls unknown.
He drives a marked patrol car.
A police officer he is known.
He's paid by the citizens' taxes
To make it safe on the streets.
But he usually has a second job
'Cause a waitress has his salary beat.
Now he doesn't know a holiday
'Cause he works all year round.
And when Thanksgiving and Christmas finally arrive
At his home he cannot be found.
He's cursed and assaulted often,
The one whos blood runs blue.
He seldom ever gets a thanks,
To some he's just a fool.
His friends are always other cops
'Cause people just don't understand
That underneath his badge and gun,
He's just another man.
He knows there might not be a tomorrow
In this world of drugs and crime.
And he gets so mad at the court system
'Cause the crooks don't get any time.
And each day when he leaves for work,
He prays to God above.
Please bring me home after my shift
So I can see the ones I love.
But tonight he stops a speeding car,
He's alone down this ole' highway.
It's just a little traffic infraction.
He does it everyday.
Well, he walks up to the driver's window,
And his badge is shining bright.
He asked the guy for a driver's license,
When a shot rang through the night.
Yes, the bullet hit its mark,
Striking the officer in the chest.
But the Department's budget didn't buy
Each officer a bullet-proof vest.
So he lay on the ground bleeding.
His blood wasn't blue - His blood was red.
And briefly he thought of his loved ones
'Cause in a moment the officer was dead.
In the news they told the story
Of how this officer had died.
And some who listened cared less,
But those who loved him cried.
Well, they buried him in uniform
With his badge pinned on his chest.
He even had his revolver,
He died doing his best.
Written By:
David L. Bell
Richland County Sheriff's Department
Columbia, South Carolina
Used with Special Permission of the Author
Copyright © 1999 - All Rights Reserved
and may not be duplicated without permission

Investigator David L Bell
Richland County Sheriff's Dept., Columbia, SC

November 13, 2007

You've been on my mind a lot lately. I've been thinking about how your death has changed so many of our lives. I sit and wonder how things would be so totally diffferent if you were here. Sadly, your death has brought Paula and I closer together and I swear I would go back to the way it was if you would be back with her, just to take the pain and numbness away. I haven't told anyone that when I'm driving in my truck, I will feel pressure on my back and I always think of you. It's like you're pushing me,"just get it done, Jobob" It keeps me going when I just want to get out and run screaming. Not that I haven't done that a few times. Gavin was talking about up north the other day and your malts. I can't believe he remembers that. He was so young. It pisses me off that my two best friends that were meant to be together, aren't. There is no greater picture, no reason, no big ah-ha moment. It just sucks. I will never get it, never make sense of it, never believe it. I could of swore I saw you the other day. Stopped me dead in my tracks. Of course, wasn't you, was your nephew. But, just for that spit second the world was back to normal. Thank you for giving me my friend back. But dammit Perry as always, you didn't have to be so drastic. Really miss you and Paula being together and listening to all those god-awful Jerry Springer stories, that you both loved so much. Peace my friend. I hope God is taking care of you. JoBob

November 8, 2007

Just re-reading some of the relections that people have sent to you. You are so loved and remembered by so many.

Keep taking good care of Paula and those deputies at Clinton County!

an old friend

October 19, 2007

Have not been on here in awhile, and see that brooke left you a message. I'm not surprised, all of your neices and nephews talk about you all the time. It is so nice to listen to them tell stories about you or tell their friends about you. They all miss you so much. We all do.

I love you

September 4, 2007

Hey You,
Another tuff week here in Clinton County. Tomorrow is going to be another tuff day... Will it ever end.... I can't take many more of these... I miss you so much. I miss seeing you at the Wheel, I miss seeing you at calls... I just miss everything. Keep watching over us and I will talk to again later.
Miss you,


June 26, 2007


I hope you are looking over him and keeping him safe today. I keep praying for a miracle, but feel like all hope is gone. Please be with him today since I can't. I know you are looking down on him and if you could walk with him each day until God guides him in the right direction, it would mean so much to me.

Everybody misses you and I know your work is far from being done. Please continue to guide Paula. She is a great person.

June 23, 2007

Uncle Bum,
Its been three years and I finally have the courage to write to you. Its been SO hard for me to get over this and I dont know if I ever will. Last night on the news there was an accident involving a cop that was going to assist some other cop. I couldnt beleive it I cried so hard just thinking about getting woke up at 6:30 in the morning being told that. It was definatly the worst day of my life. I visited your grave the other day and left my bracelet for you. It just makes me feel better knowing that something of mine is their, I dont know why but it looks nice. I think about you and Aunt Paula every single day and it hurts. I dont know what I would do if I were Aunt Paula, but I love her and so does everyone else, I just hope shes happy. I dont know but I miss you so much and hurts to think about it, but I do everyday....Sorry it took so long but I wanted to find the right thing to say. I Love you and still am thinking about you. Love You,
Sitting Dog

Brooke Coleman

March 29, 2007

Miss ya! My thoughts are with you and your family.


March 28, 2007

Two years have passed and you have not been forgotten nor will your loved ones ever let that happen. Continue to keep watch over your loved ones and those still out on patrol. You are a true hero and heroes never die.

Bob Gordon
Father of Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04

March 27, 2007

I cant believe it has been 3 years. You are missed and loved so much. I think of you often and wish you were here. I cherish the time I got to know you and thank you for helping me.


March 26, 2007

Hey there - almost 3 years. Seems like only yesterday we were all partying in you and Paula's basement. And then those God awful eggs you and Mike would make the next morning!

I sure do miss you!


March 21, 2007

hey uncle bum
i was looking at all these old reflections that we all had written and it breaks my heart just reading these. sometimes i keep replaying that whole weekend in my head, from the moment i found out to the funeral. I think of you often and wonder-Why? Why you? and then i think of aunt paula. I call her every now and then but i should stop by more often and probably have more of a girls night out again with everyone. we havent had a brunch in a while but i think that really helps all of us when we do. I think of when grandma and grandpa used to live up north and we would have bonfires and tell "scary" stories and when you would go sledding with all us nieces and nephews. you are one cool dude and i love you with all my heart and miss you terribly like everyone else.
Peace uncle bum

March 7, 2007

i'm always thinking of you, not a day goes by that i don't. love you..

February 23, 2007

Hey, went to turner beach and swear I seen you walk right out of the water! thought of our trip there and how much fun we had drinking beer with the local cops. Miss you.

I love you

February 13, 2007

Another year of missing you.........

I love you

January 1, 2007



December 25, 2006

I have been planning to break out the video I have of us goofing around with my camera in our barracks room at the 534th. Since I heard you left I haven’t been able to watch it. I know if you were here you’d tell me stop being such a cry-baby with some strange accent, probably give me a noogie, and change my entire perspective on it. You were always my good friend Bird-dog. I think tomorrow I will dig out that video and show it to my 17 year old son. Let him see how I use to goof-off when I was his age. You, me, Henning, even Moltrup with his 3ft turd. Merry Christmas brother.

Detective Sergeant Thomas Phillips
UofI Chicago Police Department

December 24, 2006

Merry Christmas Bum. Please watch over us during this holiday season. Miss ya!


December 15, 2006

Hey you,
I haven't been here in a while! I don't care what they say it does not get easier! It's tuff to look at this site and read what everyone says. I think I miss you more. Working the road again, the smallest things remind me of you. We were at The Wheel the other day and someone asked if I remembered when we would hang out at the Wheel all night, I just smiled and remembered all the hours sitting there listening to your stories and jokes!!! Please continue to watch over us and protect us!!!
Miss you tons!


December 6, 2006

Hey you, it's the 27th again and like always am thinking of you. We all miss you and think of you everyday. Winters coming and everytime I look at the fireplace I think of how you liked to see how hot you could get it in the house and you wouldn't stop putting in wood until Cleetus would go out and lay in the snow on the deck...We miss you

I love you

October 27, 2006

It is a deep mystery,
This matter of life and death..
That the same person
Who brought us a thousand joys,
Can one day leave us shedding a thousand tears....
So suddenly, sometimes
That we grope blindly for words left unspoken,
And for the hug we needed to give,
to say good-by,
And we wonder,
How this thread that holds us all to life
Can be so thin and fragile,
Until one day, we find the courage to accept
That the living aren't meant to understand death,
Only to celebrate life,
And to remember that the only real death
is forgetting.

remembering and missing you, love

September 27, 2006

Hey Brother,

I never had the chance to meet you. I was still working in Corrections when you passed, but I remember the day well. I see looking at the posts that we share the same birthday. You have me by a few years though (only a few, I'm hot on your heels!). I'll think of you each year and celebrate our lives. Watch over the rest of us while we keep things rolling...and rest easy, my Brother.

Dep. K.J. Bowden
Ingham Co. Sheriff's Office

Dep Kelly Bowden
Ingham County Sheriff's Office

September 15, 2006

Hey you, have mikey and alex here staying the night. We had to do the whole scary movie followed by the night walk! It's not the same as nothing with big red bulging eyes came running out of the creepy corn to axe us up in a thousand peices........I just love to listen to them tell all their uncle bum stories. Of course I am glad that they remember all those good times and with perfect detail, but pisses me off you can't be here to make more. They still make me do the bathroom checks to make sure nothing in there is going to kill them while their peeing! They kept me up until 2 am playing pictionary, it was like playing with you and erl.......cracked me up. They really miss you. Cleetus and I miss you too........

I love you

August 19, 2006

Just stopped by to say hi, my brother. We never met in life, but reserve a place for the rest of us in heaven. I joined the WMC in 1995 and attended my second ride in St. Johns see ya next year.
WFFW Grandpa

Capt. John Conaty
Ingham Co. Sheriff Dept. Ret 1995

August 14, 2006

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