Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

SUGARBEAR,
I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE IT HAS BEEN ALMOST A YEAR. THE NEXT FEW WEEKS ARE GOING TO BE REALLY HARD WITHOUT YOU. THERE IS OUR ANNIVERSARY, CHRISTMAS, YOUR BIRTHDAY AND NEW YEARS. I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW I AM GOING TO HANDLE IT. I WAS WITH YOUR MOM AND FAMILY LAST WEEKEND FOR THE CHRISTMAS GET TOGETHER. I REALLY ENJOYED IT. THEY ARE TRULY A BLESSING TO ME. WE ALL MISSED YOU WITH THAT BIG SMILE AND EVEN BIGGER HUGS. I KNOW YOU WERE THERE WATCHING OVER ALL OF US WISHING YOU WERE THERE TOO. I HOPE YOU LIKE THE TREE I MADE FOR YOU I TRIED TO MAKE IT LOOK LIKE THE ONE AT HOME BECAUSE YOU ALWAYS HAD SUCH A FIT OVER IT. ANYWAY BABY I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT I WAS THINKING OF YOU TODAY AND ALWAYS MISSING YOU. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.
I LOVE YOU ALWAYS,
YOUR WIFE
12-14-04

AMANDA
WIFE

December 14, 2004

Hey Sweetheart,

I still think about you all the time. We sure missed you this past weekend, a lot of tears, some from laughter from some of the things you did last year, some from sadness that you were not there with us this year. I know that's the way it will be from now on. It just doesn't make it any easier. Dad and I brought jingle bell bunnies (police officer) put your name on them and gave them to everyone. Aunt Sandra, Aunt Diana, Candy and April made an ornament for you also gave them to everyone, we all knew you were there with us.
It's been 11 months, and it seems like yesterday in so many ways, then a lifetime in others. I guess that's the way it will be from now on.
Amanda put a tree at the cemetery, it's a replica of your tree last year, she has done a beautiful job with the headstone, I know that you really love it. We all know that Christmas was your favorite time of the year. You were just a little kid at heart. You are now our little angel watching over all of us, just wanted to tell you Happy Anniversary, Merry Christmas, Happy Birthday, we LOVE YOU and MISS YOU.
I STILL LOVE YOU THE MOST :o)

Mama

December 14, 2004

Hey Marine. I am sorry to hear what happened to you. The Marine Corps teaches us to leave nobody behind. I wish I could come get you so you could see all the wonderful things people are saying about you. Your mother and wife love you very much by the reflections they leave you. Your mom leaves a reflection on other officers memorials I think my mom would do the same if something happened to me. I commend your mom, she seems to be a very wonderful person from what I have read on here. Well Semper FI brother we will meet again soon. To the mother and wife, I am very sorry for your loss. As a US Marine and now State Trooper I offer my prayers to you both.

State Trooper D Osborne and K-9 Coco
Tennessee Highway Patrol

November 28, 2004

Happy Thanksgiving Sweetheart,

I woke up last night about 1 thinking I needed to come and write to you, I wanted to tell you that I'm still missing you, and think about you everyday. I will eat some pumpkin pie for you, if I could I would send you some. I know how much you enjoyed the holidays. Amanda, Linda, Jerry, Nina always made the holidays special for you, always working around your schedule. I know they will miss you also this holiday season we all will...
Just wish you were here... I love you the most :0)

Mama

November 25, 2004

Emily Dickinson wrote the poem "After Great Pain":

After great pain, a formal feeling comes-
The nerves sit ceremonious, like tombs-
The stiff Heart questions was it he, that bore,and yesterday, or centuries before?

The Feet , mechanical, go round-
of ground, or air, or ought-
A Wooden way regardless grown, a quartz contentment, like a stone-

This is the hour of Lead-
Remembered, if outlived,
As freezing persons recollect the snow-
First- Chill- then Stupor- then letting go-.

I (actually "we") lost a close friend in the line of duty in 1998 and I think of him so often. I was looking for a way to express what I was feeling and had such a difficult time doing it. I found this poem that kind of helped. I stumbled on to Officer Walkers' site and read the beautiful reflections-he was a well loved person for sure.

Anyway, here is the poem above, I hope it helps. God bless, you are certainly missed by many.

Detective
Longmont Police Department-Colorado

November 19, 2004

Clint....over 10 months have come and gone but time has seemed so short. As another police officer's wife I can imagine though that it has seemed much longer to Amanda. I will never forget that day because my husband had been at the same training class. He had to leave to answer a call only to get an emergency call to come back. Later, I saw the ambulance and police car going to the hospital and knew something was terribly wrong. My first reaction was to call him to make sure he was ok. What a relief to hear his voice. However, when I found out what happened, my heart went out to your family. Amanda is living what I have feared for almost 20 years. Over the past 10 months my heart has broken for her and your family (especially your Mom.... I also do the "I love you most" with my son). You would be proud of how strong they have been. I will continue to pray for them as we approach the holiday season. It's not easy to lose someone you love so much. I pray that God will continue to surround them with his love and that they will be able to remember the good times through the sad times. Thank you for your service...... you are not forgotten.

Betty Emfinger - Radio Operator
Alabama Forestry Commission

November 15, 2004

SUGARBEAR,
THIS WAS THE FIRST BIRTHDAY IN 11 YEARS THAT I HAD TO SPEND WITHOUT YOU. IT WAS NOT EASY! YOU ALWAYS MADE A BIG DEAL OF PICKING OUT THE MOST PERFECT CARD OR SHOULD I SAY CARDS SINCE YOU ALWAYS ENDED UP GIVING ME 2 BECAUSE YOU JUST COULDN'T DECIDE WHICH ONE WAS THE MOST PERFECT. I ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT WAS SO SWEET AND YOU DID THE SAME THING ON OUR ANNIVERSARY. BUT I CAN'T SAY MUCH BECAUSE I COULD NEVER PICK OUT JUST ONE FOR YOU EITHER. I GOT A PHONE CALL YESTERDAY THAT I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR, IT WAS FRANK AT LEAK MEMORY LETTING ME KNOW THAT YOUR HEAD STONE WAS PUT DOWN. SO I WENT YESTERDAY ON MY BIRTHDAY AND SAW HOW NICE IT LOOKED. I HOPE YOU LIKE IT. I STILL HAVE TO GIVE THEM THE PICTURE OF YOU IN UNIFORM TO PUT ON IT. THE DEER AND MARINE CORP EMBLEM TURNED OUT GREAT. I THOUGHT IT WAS KIND OF NEAT THAT THEY LAID YOUR HEAD STONE DOWN ON THE MARINE CORPS BIRHTDAY. ANYWAY BABY I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW HOW MUCH I MISS YOU AND I THINK OF YOU EVERYDAY.
UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, I LOVE YOU BABY!LOVE ALWAYS,
YOUR WIFE
AMANDA
11-12-04

AMANDA WALKER
WIFE

November 12, 2004

DEAR WALKER FAMILY,
I READ A REFLECTION LEFT BY YOU{CLINT'S MOTHER} AND WANTED TO SAY THANK-YOU FROM MY FAMILY TO YOURS FOR THINKING OF US WHILE YOU HAVE ALSO SUFFERED SUCH A GREAT LOSS. I READ CLINT'S STORY OF WHAT HAPPENED AND KNOW SO MANY FEEL YOUR LOSS. HIS PICTURE SOMEHOW REMINDED ME OF JEFF. I READ THAT HE TOO PLAYED FOOTBALL AND WAS A HUNTER. THESE THINGS WERE VERY DEAR TO JEFF, AMONG #24 IN RACING AND UT WAS HIS FOOTBALL TEAM. I MISS MY BROTHER SO MUCH AS I KNOW YOU AND MY PARENTS MISS YOUR SON. MAY GOD COMFORT AND KEEP YOU ALL AS YOU ARE IN OUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS. I WOULD LIKE TO SHARE A POEM WITH YOU, LEFT IN JEFF'S REFLECTIONS BY DEPUTY SHERIFF KEVIN B. KELLEY/CARTERET CO. BEAUFORT, NC SHERIFF'S DEPT.

DON'T GRIEVE FOR ME FOR NOW I'M FREE,
I'M FOLLOWING THE PATH GOD LAID FOR ME.
I TOOK HIS HAND WHEN I HEARD HIM CALL,
I TURNED MY BACK AND LEFT IT ALL.
I COULD NOT STAY ANOTHER DAY,
TO LAUGH, TO LOVE, TO WORK, OR PLAY.
TASKS LEFT UNDONE MUST STAY THAT WAY,
I FOUND A PEACE AT THE CLOSE OF THE DAY.

IF MY PARTING HAS LEFT A VOID,
THEN FILL IT WITH REMEMBERED JOY.
A FRIENDSHIP SHARED, A LAUGH, A KISS,
AH YES, THESE THINGS I TOO WILL MISS.

BE NOT BURDENED WITH TIMES OF SORROW,
I WISH YOU THE SUNSHINE OF TOMORROW.
MY LIFE' BEEN FULL, I'VE SAVORED SO MUCH,
GOOD FRIENDS, GOOD TIMES, A LOVED ONE'S TOUCH.
PERHAPS MY TIME SEEMED ALL TO BRIEF
DON'T LENGTHEN IT NOW WITH UNDUE GRIEF,
LIFT YP YOUR HEARTS AND SHARE WITH ME,
FOR GOD WANTED ME NOW, HE SET ME FREE.

"BLESSED ARE THE PEACEMAKERS FOR THEY SHALL BE CALLED THE CHILDREN OF GOD" MATTHEW 5:9

AS YOU APPROACH THE HOLIDAYS, I KNOW THEY WILL BE DIFFICULT. I KNOW CLINT AND JEFF WILL BE WITH US THOUGH AND THAT GIVES SOMETHING TO CHERISH.
THE HEWITT FAMILY

SUSAN HEWITT/SISTER/SGT JEFF HEWITT EOW
RESIDENT -WAYNESVILLE NC

November 10, 2004

Hi Sweetheart,
I've been thinking about you alot lately. Dad and I were going through some boxes of things and found some more of your things. It made me laugh and cry, all the clippings from when you were playing football. All those things ment alot when you were alive, but now they are priceless.
Dad and I attended the Law Enforcement Summit in Montgomery where they honored you with CERTIFICATE OF VALOR, we are so very proud of you, of course we always were.
Amanda looks great, I know you are so proud of her. I know that she misses you as much as I do.
Dad was pulled over for speeding yesterday, "okay stop laughing." The officer never said anything, but Dad thinks he seen you stickers on the back of the truck. He talked for a few minutes and let him go, told him he didn't want to catch him again.
The next couple of months are going to be very hard, Amanda's birthday, your anniversary, thanksgiving, christmas, your birthday and anniversary of your accident. Just help us all through them. We will be thinking of you as always... I love you the most :)

Mama

November 2, 2004

SUGARBEAR,
JUST THINK....IF I HAD BEEN PREGNANT WHEN THIS HAPPENED TO YOU, AS I PRAYED TO BE, THEN I WOULD BE HAVING OUR BABY NOW. I KNOW THAT SOME THINK THAT IT WAS A BLESSING THAT WE DIDN'T HAVE ANY KIDS BECAUSE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN SO HARD ON THE THEM TO GROW UP WITHOUT YOU. I THINK IT WOULD HAVE BEEN THE BIGGEST BLESSING TO HAVE LET ME HAVE A PART OF YOU STILL HERE. WE WANTED KIDS SO BAD!!! THAT IS THE ONLY THING THAT I REGRET. I KNOW THAT GOD HAD TO HAVE A REASON FOR US NOT TO HAVE ANY. BUT IT WOULD HAVE BEEN SO WONDERFUL. THAT IS JUST ONE MORE QUESTION THAT I WILL HAVE FOR HIM WHEN I GET THERE. MY LIST JUST KEEPS ON GETTING LONGER. I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!! HUNTING SEASON IS FIXEN TO START AND I AM GOING TO MISS YOUR STORIES AND GETTING TO GO WITH YOU SO MUCH. I WENT TO A SPOUSES RETREAT A FEW WEEKS AGO AND GOT TO SHOOT PISTOLS AND SHOTGUNS. YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN SO PROUD OF ME. WHICH I KNOW YOU ARE, BUT IT WOULD HAVE BEEN NICE IF YOU WERE THERE STANDING BEHIND ME LIKE YOU ALWAYS DID WHEN WE WOULD SHOOT TOGETHER. I DID VERY WELL JUST LIKE YOU TAUGHT ME. I SHOT SPORTING CLAYS AND ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT IS WHEN YOU WENT WITH JERRY AND HOW MUCH FUN YOU HAD. NOW I UNDERSTAND BECAUSE I HAD FUN MYSELF. I MET ALOT OF GREAT PEOPLE AT THE RETREAT. C.O.P.S. IS A WONDERFUL ORGANIZATION TO TAKE SUCH GOOD CARE OF FALLEN OFFICERS FAMILIES. I WILL BE GOING BACK NEXT YEAR. ONE OF THE ONLY GOOD THINGS THAT HAS COME FROM THIS HAPPENING TO YOU IS THE PEOPLE I HAVE MET THRU C.O.P.S. YOUR MOM AND RICHARD WENT TO THE PARENTS RETREAT AND SEEMED TO HAVE A GOOD TIME TOO. I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU EVERY DAY. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.
I LOVE YOU ALWAYS!!!
YOUR WIFE
10-14-04

AMANDA WALKER
WIFE

October 14, 2004

Hi Sweetheart,

I'm thinking of you, and miss your smiling face. I will think of you everyday, for the rest of my life. I love you the most...

Mama

October 13, 2004

Hey Clint,
I just thought about bow season starting in 11 days. I'm going to miss exchanging hunting stories with you this year between shifts. I keep a picture of you on my dresser mirror. The one with you and your bow kill buck. It makes me laugh every time I see it and you know why. Anyway, I see you often and you remind me of a lot of things. Mostly of how fragile life is, and how to love like there is no tomorrow. Thats what you did and we all miss it.
Amanda almost didn't believe me, but I pulled watch on your house one night and a buck ran out of your yard and crossed the street.
Take my boys hunting for me all the time (for there is no darkness where you are). Tell Joshua and Jeremy about me just like Ken asked you to tell Dalton.
My oldest daughter asked me who that was in that picture on my dresser. I told her that was my friend that I worked with. Well, friend, I will continue to see you and think of you often, as I put on my uniform on. Thanks for all you gave. See you when I get home.

CPL BRYAN DAVIS
PRATTVILLE POLICE DEPARTMENT

October 4, 2004

I never knew Clinton but was browsing the fallen officers and sort of stumbled upon Clinton's page.

I remember hearing about what happened to him and how awful I felt for his wife and family. My fiancee was killed almost a year ago. He was a police officer and I remember and still feel the pain of loosing him everyday.

Amanda, as I read your reflections to Clinton they could have been my own to my fiancee. All I can tell you is the good and bad days come and go, and eventually the good will outweigh the bad. I can tell you are a very strong person - and I can tell that you and Clinton must have really been truly in love. That is something that is rare these days.

Good Luck.
Jessica

October 3, 2004

I check this site daily since our son recently lost his partner on a code call. I didn't know about this site but it has become a big part of my life. You see, I collect angels in heaven, and with your permission, may I add you to my list. I will pray for you daily and will you pray for all of us. We need it down here for life is hard.

I was reading the reflections from your family and clearly, your mama thinks like we do. She sees signs that you are around (the horseshoes and the pennies). I frequently am aware that members of my family (who are on your side) come by because if I listen to my quiet thoughts I can hear their voices. Sometimes I can even smell them. As they were getting ready to cross over I was able to ask each one that if they could, would they please let me know they are okay. They do that for me.

We'll be listening for you and will meet you some day. We love you.

Grandma & Grandpa Hinkle
Parents of a Deputy Sheriff

October 1, 2004

Hi Sweetheart,

Sure have been thinking about you alot lately. I miss you like you wouldn't believe. I was going through pictures, and that smile I miss so much. And the way you hunged me whenever we seen you. "Heck" I just miss everything about you.
Amanda told me you had the shirt that Dad and I gave you for Christmas on the day you were shot, as you know I had told Dad on the way home that I knew you had that shirt on. Dad said that you probally thought about us as you were putting it on that morning. I just want you to know that I think of you everyday.
Love you the Most :.)

Mama

September 26, 2004

SUGARBEAR,
I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH. PLEASE WATCH OVER ALL OF US BECAUSE WE ARE GOING TO GET HIT HARD BY IVAN IN THE NEXT FEW DAYS. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN!!!
I LOVE YOU ALWAYS!
YOUR WIFE,
AMANDA

AMANDA WALKER
WIFE

September 14, 2004

I just talked to Amanda yesterday. I'm still in shock. I loved you because Amanda loved you so much. You were the most wonderful thing that ever happened for her and I want to thank you for that. I've never seen two people love each other the way you two love each other. I'll never forget you and I promise that I will be there for Amanda when she needs me.

Ressie

Theresa Maxwell Orcutt

September 3, 2004

CLINT!!!!!
I miss ya brother. I know you're aware of what happened with my family this month. I never really asked any favors from you except to be my friend but my little Dalton is up there with you now. Next to God I can't think of a better person than you to watch over him for me until I make it up there. I also left 3rd and am now on 2nd. What a hand full!! I hope I can stay as busy as you did. Any way... if you could teach Dalton some of your good values and tell him about me I would appreciate it. My time was short with him and hopefully it will be a few years until I see ya'll. We haven't stopped thinking about you.

Thanks Clint

Police Officer Ken Nesbit
Prattville Police Department

August 29, 2004

Hey Sweetheart,
I know you're having a great time in heaven, Dad found the horseshoe in the flower bed by the mailbox. I said,"oh Clint must have been playing", we both laughed because we thought of some of the wild shots you use to make. Dad has been finding most of the pennies also, but that's okay he needs them.
There is always so much that I want to tell you, then when I start I can't think. Yeah, Yeah, I know that's called old age.
I know that you know how much you are missed, and loved, just wish you could be here with us. I can just hear you saying,"Oh Mama don't sit here and wait on me." I'm trying sweetheart, I'm really trying.
I love you the most... I sure wish I could hear those words from you again...

Mama

August 20, 2004

Your mom and your wife love you. Officer Walker you will never be forgotten. I'm I for certain you lived like you died A TRUE HERO!!! PEACE BE WITH YOU AND YOU FAMILY!!! We will never understand the reason. The only thing that would make sense of it all is it was just God's will.

Sincerely,
Sharon Atkins, Identical Twin Sister of Officer Sheila Herring killed in the line of duty January 16, 2003

August 17, 2004

Sugarbear,
I just can't believe how fast these last 7 months have gone by. It sure didn't go by this fast when you were in Japan. I guess I could look at it as the faster time goes by the sooner I can be with you again. I know that I shouldn't think that way, I should be thankful for every single day I have here because I know you lived everyday to it's fullest. It's just not the same without you here. I might have 60+ years to wait or 1 day, we just never know do we, I am just waiting to see what God has in store for me next. Anyway, I just want you to know that you are in my heart and on my mind now more than ever. I miss you baby sooo much!!! Until we meet again.
I love you ALWAYS!
Your Wife,
Amanda

AMANDA WALKER
WIFE

August 17, 2004

Thank you Sir for serving the people of Prattville as well as this great nation. May God bless you and your family.

Detective T. Henshaw
Bell Gardens Police, CA.

July 27, 2004

Clint, I want you know that it was my pleasure to be your pastor, I only wish that it could have been for a much longer time. God has used you in life to cheer and encourage so many people, and he has used you in death to remind each of us of our great need for the Lord Jesus Christ. It will not be long until we meet again in our heavenly home. Until then know that you are missed and remembered. In the Love of the Lord Jesus. Glenn Brock, your Pastor.

Pastor Glenn Brock
Camellia Baptist Church

July 20, 2004

Baby,
It is July 14, 2004. I just can't believe it has already been 6 months. You are on my mind all the time. I miss you so much. I wish that I could tell you that it is getting easier but I'm sorry I just can't yet. I am just so lonely for you. It is just so hard not having you at home. I can make it while I am at work or with friends, but when I get home I just want you there. I miss that big chest and strong arms that would wrap around me and make everything o.k. again. Sugar bear I just wish you were still here.
Until we meet again,
Love Always,
Your Wife,
Amanda

Amanda Walker
WIFE

July 15, 2004

Clint,
Time and Patience.....Two words we have no control of. I forget that we are on God's time, not ours.....Was there Holt training today? Were there thoughts of you? I sure hope so.

Never the Same.....

Love and Thoughts Always,
Your Other Mother
07-14-04

Linda Mann
Mother-n-law

July 15, 2004