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Deputy Sheriff Joshua Thomas Rutherford

Blaine County Sheriff's Office, Montana

End of Watch Thursday, May 29, 2003

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Reflections for Deputy Sheriff Joshua Thomas Rutherford


I miss you dearly, and i've been reading the papers on your trial and it just makes me angry, and sad. My Prayers are with your family, mostly your Mom & Kids. I hope after all is done, somebody get's justice for what they have done. I know that i have never told you that i loved you, but i meant it everyday, and how i wished i would of told you how i felt about you, even though we spend every-other day together. I miss you and i'm still in shock about all this, and i just wished that you would of stayed home or something.......I'm angry because you had to respond to a domestic call....and now because of that person and you getting called out.......this is the result. help people, that was your job. And I am so very sorry what happend and how it happend. I wish that when i seen you the night before that fatal night, that i just gave you a big hug and told you that i loved you, and i just wish i could do that now and i wish you were still here, and seeing you in the morning with your Chocolate Milk and your Breakfast Burrito from EzMart, i remember you used to get that all the time!. and everytime i see a Dr.Pepper Pop, i think of you. well, i hope this pain goes away in time. I just want you to come back.

Love Always, one of ur good friends

October 29, 2004

Watch over me and give me strength. I need your love and guidance more than ever. Its so hard without you. I pray for your mother and your sons during this trial. I pray that justice will be served.

October 18, 2004

Wa-Hey My Nephew "Raven Chief" I thought about you and and my relatives today as I heard that the trial is starting today. I prayed to you this morning in my daily smudge and blessing to ask the Creator and Grandfather Spirits to give Courage and Strength to your Mother and all family members as they go through this very painful ordeal. I know that you send your deep courage and strength with the Eagle Spirit to be with your Mother and all family members through this trial. Most of all, I prayed that they can leave their grief and hatred for that person there and return to a good happy life. I know that you want the best for your family and you want your mother and your sons to be happy and having grief and hatred in your heart does not allow you to be completely happy and live life to the fullest. Touch and Comfort your Mother in only the way that have done with her since you have went to the Spirit World. You were and always will be her Strength and Guide in this world and she needs it now more than ever. I was sick myself all Spring and missed your memorial feed and give-away but I heard it was very well done. I knew your mother would do a good job as she always has done with everything. Thank You for helping me to heal as I called upon you and all my relatives on that side to help me heal and return to a good way of life. Anyway, thinking about you and remembering your good life and strong ways and knowing that you will be there for your Mother and all family members on this side as you left us with that legacy - A Warrior who dedicated his life to helping others and being a positive shining example to our people to follow. "Aut Nah Huh Ban" I'll see you again sometime, My Nephew. Peace and Harmony to you and all our relatives on that side as we know that you wish and work for the same for us on this side.

Your Uncle "E Gibe Nah Nake"
(Rides High)

October 12, 2004

Hello Josh,

just thought i would drop a line to tell you that i do miss you still, Your niece is just cute, she thinks that i liked you in some other way. You were a great friend, and your mother is still my great friend to me. I hope that Aunti Maxine is doing well with you, I do miss her Tremendously and i am so very thankful that i had her in my life from the time i was a little girl to i was about 8-10 yrs old. She always looked out for me and my mother, and when i see her again someday, i'm going to give her a very big Hug! as well as You!. I feels so empty without you around, i'm used to seeing you driving around and what not. I hope your mother is doing better, and i pray for her and your family alot. well, my friend, i'm going to end my little letter here ok? I will never forget you, and i miss you now, and i'll miss you forever!


October 8, 2004

uncle josh,

Georgette mush really like you im just messing around

Love your

girl Raelynn

raelynn Rider

October 6, 2004

Uncle Josh,
I miss you a lot.wish you could be here.

Love your
Girl Raelynn

Raelynn Rider

October 6, 2004

I love you and miss you

October 6, 2004

Where do I start? I have not spoken to you in along time...too long. The last time I saw you you were standing against the wall in the Harlem Gym during the 2003 Harlem High School Graduation. You had on a plaid short sleve shirt and khaki trunks and running shoes. I wanted to go over to you and ask, "How you doing?" I wished that we never had gotten into that fight. Most of all I wished I would have made up with you. You were one of my best friends as well as a brother. I truely believe that things happen for a reason because that is how God wants it. I remember the first time I met you with Tonka. He brought you over to my house on Seasame Street. We hit it off right away. I have so many great memories with you, many great and a little bad depending on who's persepective you are look We grew from boys to men. We played football and other sports together. We chased girls together and did some crazy things together for no other reason than to be doing them. We were there for each other when either one of us had trouble. I do miss you and I pray for you and your family. I did not attend your funeral nor did I attend your memorial feed this past May. It was not because I didn't want to. I have no answers for this maybe it's because I did not know how to react. I tried to find where you were laid to rest but I could not find it when I went to Pony Hill. When I heard what had happened to you I was so mad and in shock. I was thinking about you today so I put your name into a google search and it brought this site up. Strange how things happen that way but I belive that God guides you even when you don't expect it. I just wanted to say that I pray for you and your family and that I think about the good times that we shared. Take Care one of your best friends and brother Thomas Champagne

Thomas Champagne

October 5, 2004

Son, I miss you

September 27, 2004

I have been thinking about you a lot these past couple days, with the trial approaching and everything. I hope and pray that everything turns out the way it should. I pray for your sons, your mother, and your sister Tammy for they are the members of your family that have displayed your honor. You are a true hero and will forver be remembered as such.

September 22, 2004

Deputy Rutherford,
I wanted to say "Thank you" for your courage, bravery and for standing your ground when faced with the danger you encountered on that fateful day. I guess the good really do die young. May God bless you in you heavenly realm and also comfort your family until you meet again. You are a true Hero and even though I did not know you, I wanted to say that I am proud and honored to be a law enforcement brother when there are Deputies and Officers like yourself. Godspeed.

Detective T. Henshaw
Bell Gardens Police Dept., Southern California

September 16, 2004

I met your Mom last year at Parents Retreat and we became friends in grief and then we have kept in touch over the last year and we visited in DC. Its time for Parents Retreat again and I know your Mom won't be there this year because of the Trial, I admire her so much, she is putting so much of herself into this trial. My son was shot and killed on 2/20/03 but his murderer was killed at the scene. I thank God for that, I don't have to go thru a trial. My prayers are with your Mom and your Sons and family and friends and Co-workers to give them all the strength to go thru this trial and I pray that Justice will finally be given to you. In this Great Country we live in, too many Officers have been killed in the Line of Duty, it seems like they kill to just be killing. I pray that your killer will receive the fullest punishment allowed by Law and God.

Pat Carruth
Mother of Officer
Jeremy E. (Jay) Carruth
EOW 2/20/03

Pat Carruth

September 4, 2004

Joshua, it's been 15 months since you were taken from us. Time is not healing the grief we are left with. I miss you more everyday. I stopped at Pony Hill the other day. I just sat there and reflected on the past and thought about the future of our boys. Thomas is almost a teenager and is noticing girls. I think about the things you would be teasing him about if you were here with us. He sure takes his time in getting himself ready whenever we go somewhere. I think that he has an interest of some girl at school. If you could see him every morning jump out of bed and get ready. He still has your style in clothing though. Just give him his jeans and jerseys/nike t-shirs and he is set. Joshua Teague is starting to notice girls too. He brags about it though. He don't care. He has that characteristic of yours. He knows that he is a cutie and he goes with it. Thomas and Teague are so much like you Joshua. It's scary sometimes when I catch a glimpse of Thomas and see you. I am thankful everyday to you that you gave me two of the greatest boys. I am doing my best to raise them myself. I know that you are looking over them too. They help me more than anything with the grieving process. I know that I have to stay strong for them. There is not a day that goes by Joshua that I don't think about it. You will always hold a special place in my heart. I miss you!!! I'll love you always and forever.


September 3, 2004


Its been fourteen months three days and sixteen hours since you left. I still don't understand how this could of happened in Harlem, Montana. I always thought that you were safe there because nothing ever happens there. I am so mad that you had to go. Why did you follow that fool into the field? Why didn't you wait for back up? Why didn't you just ignore the phone that night? Didn't you realize how valuable you were? You left so many people missing you and cursing the day you left. I just don't understand. I try so hard to go on but life is so difficult without you.

September 2, 2004


i was in wolf point this past weekend visiting your dad and brother and sister. i have been thinking of you a lot lately. i know they say time heals all wounds, but i still have a hard time with you being gone. i miss you lots.

melody stanley
josh's aunt

August 31, 2004


it's been awhile since i've been on here, but i stil miss you dearly. And i just want you to know that i love you and i'll always think of you. :)

Love, Georgette

August 28, 2004

Joshua, "I am sitting here at work today thinking about you and how you impacted my life. I am a better person for knowing you. When things are sad I remember you telling me that, "NO matter how bad we think we have it, there is always someone worse off than us." Thanks for your kindness and words of wisdom. -A friend

August 27, 2004

You are a hero beyond words

August 27, 2004

Happy Birthday son. I know that you and your grandfather are enjoying your mutual birthday. I thought this would get easier. This year I brought cake and ice cream to work celebrate your 28 plus years that you were here. I am grateful for the time that I had with you.


August 16, 2004

i love you
and miss you

July 3, 2004

My family was born and raised in Blaine County, and homesteaded there in the late 1800's. Even though I don't live near there anymore, I still family there and have the dream of returning one day. I send my thoughts and prayers to your Department and to your family. God bless them.

Chief Poppler
Angier Police Department, NC

June 18, 2004

I love you and miss you.

June 12, 2004


i was in harlem this past weekend for your 1 year feast. what a beautiful ceremony you had. everyone involved did a wonderful job, of course i know you were there too. it was my chance to really say good-bye to you, and i am so thankful for that. i miss you and think of you everyday. josh, we will never forgot the sacrifice that you made.

melody stanley
aunt of josh

June 2, 2004

One year ago this date Deputy Sheriff Joshua Thomas Rutherford lost his life
in the never ending pursuit of justice.
We continue to mourn his loss in this
senseless act of violence and we
extend our deepest thoughts and
prayers to his family, friends, and
fellow law enforcement officers. All
of our shifts today are dedicated to
the memory of this hero. He will
never be forgotten by us.


Chief of Police / Olen M. Young
Wauneta PD Nebraska

May 29, 2004


Well.....Today has been a year since your last watch. We miss you dearly and today HARLEM & the other cities, towns will honor you today as well. I see your boys every now and then, and they are growing so fast, at times i see they are so lost without you, but i also know that you look down on them and guid them in your own way. i will be attending your honor today, and to let your mother know how thankful i am to have known you! we love you, and will never forget you.

love, Georgette

May 29, 2004

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