Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Deputy Sheriff Joshua Thomas Rutherford

Blaine County Sheriff's Office, Montana

End of Watch Thursday, May 29, 2003

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Reflections for Deputy Sheriff Joshua Thomas Rutherford

Don't think of them as gone away,
their journey has just begun.
Life holds so many facets,
this Earth is only one.
Just think of them as resting,
from the sorrows and the tears,
in a place of warmth and comfort,
where there are no days or years.
Think of how they must be wishing,
that we could know today,
how nothing but our sadness can really pass away.
And think of them as living in the hearts of those they touched,
for nothing loved is ever lost,
and they were loved so much.


April 25, 2006

Josh,
I couldn't sleep tonight so I got online. I think of you often even though I only knew while at the Academy together. I remembered you always smiling and being so excited to learn everything there was to learn about law enforcement. I was only around you for those 12 short weeks, but you touched my life. You will never be forgotten and you will always be a hero. May you smile down on us and protects until one day we join you in heaven.
Shawna

Shawna Newby
Former Patrolman Miles City PD

April 21, 2006

Just wanted to wish you a happy Easter Joshman. Miss you

DC

April 17, 2006

Josh,

Jackson 2nd and last motion for a new trial was denied. Now it rests with the Montana Supreme Court. He is getting what he deserves, now if we could have you back for just a minute.


April 6, 2006

Josh, I attended the funeral of a Border Patrol hero and made me think of you. Your aunt and I think of you always and you will always be a hero even to those who never met you. I will be in Great Falls on May 15th for the opening of the new Memorial and will have you there with me God Be with you HERO

Sgt. Mike Zuhoski
Laurel Police Department

March 27, 2006

Hey buddy. You were my best friend and you touched my life forever. I am a better person because you were part of my life. I miss you so much man its not even cool. I dont show it much but its been really building up. May 29 is so hard and its coming up again. I know you dont want me to be upset or worry about you but how can I not be? I never was able to say goodbye I didnt come over to your house when you told me to. I never would of thought that it would be the last time I would ever speak to you. I would fill you in on what I have been doing but I know you have been by my side watching over me so you know what I been up to. Thanks for always being there on scary calls when I was all alone and when I called for you to get my back. I know you will never let me down. Love you man.

Cory Shelhamer

March 25, 2006

Josh, you will never be forgotten by your large and loving family. Please keep watch over them.

March 24, 2006

In two and a half more month's it will be three years since your departure. The absence of you in my life is still difficult to deal with. It feels like just yesterday that I was visiting and laughing with you. In the past two and a half years I have had some difficult losses, but I find comfort in my heart knowing that you are on the other side to greet them. It was you that showed me that even though we experience such great pain and longing, life moves forward and eventually we can join the rest of the world and experience joy and happiness again. I love you!

March 15, 2006

Son,

Today Matthew is seven. I remember how happy we were when he was born so big and beutiful. I pray that you are watching over him on this day and always. I thank you for my grandsons. I am so grateful that your youngest son carries my fathers name. I appreciate that. To know that you had honered your granddad in such a way is a blessing for me.

Although, when you left, I reacted horribly to your death and was evil to Jennifer. Therefore I have not had any contact with them. I pray that they know they are so loved by your family. I hope that time will heal some of the wounds and we will be able to see them.

The first year I ran on shock, the second year was getting justice for you, the third had been about reality. I am now beginning to understand that you are really gone. To lose a child is such an unimaginable horror and the grief is so profound. There are days I feel that my heart has been ripped from my body. So I will end this by saying I am one day closer to you. You know how much I love you.

Mom

March 4, 2006

Joshua,
I have been thinking about you a lot lately. Our son is in High School now and I have a hard time accepting it. He has girls calling, he has them messaging him on the computer and approaching him at his basketball games. He is so much like you Josh. He is funny, smart, outgoing, conceited, well liked by others and he is one awesome basketball player! He loves to watch basketball, play basketball and he know all there is to know about college ball and NBA Ball. He is a HUGE fan of Duke. He is a replica of you Josh. It is amazing how much he is like you. Even on the basketball court, people say that Thomas looks like you on the floor. Your style, your technique. He has stepped up for his Coyotes this season. Clay is a senior now. He stands at 6'5 so he makes Thomas look short. Clay is an excellent ball player too. When I went to thank Clay for playing awesome and getting his team to the divisional tournament do you know what he told me Josh, he said he wanted to thank me for Thomas. Clay said that Thomas stepped up for him this basketball season and that Thomas helped them succeed to divisionals. That comment will never leave my memory. We may have had Thomas at a young age and we made alot of people mad for not being more responsible, but I never regreted our son. Now that you are no longer with us on earth, he is proof that you existed and that you were an awesome person and dad. Watch over our son Josh. He is a growing up on us so fast and there are days that are challening for both of us. Thank you for instilling all you did into him before you had to leave. His ego is just as large as yours was. That is you living through him.
I miss you everyday and think of you everyday. Take care of your boys all you can from where you are. And try to help Teague lay off the stubborness for a little while. I guess you had to give that quality away too and Teague is definiately living that part of you!
Until we meet again on the other side, watch over us! We love you Josh.

Roberta

March 2, 2006

Well........I have to say i haven't been on here in awhile!, but i think of Josh everyday, and i do truly miss him, and i think of his family, and pray for them, we will see josh again someday. i know he is watching over his sons and his family, i'm not sure what it is like in that big place up there, or if our loved ones could even watch over us. I Miss Josh, and how i wish he was still here, he always had so much pride in his job and for his kids, and was always there for someone, if they needed advice etc. he was the most Unique person i knew, and that i had pleasure ever knowing, and i'm thankful i got to know him, and his grandmother "maxine" i miss her dearly, and i hope to see her again in due time. I love You Josh, and i miss you and love you.

Georgette

Georgette

February 28, 2006

Josh:

Losing you changed a lot of lifes. People change, People are still in pain. And we still dearly miss you. But knowing you are where you are and still can protect us, makes it a little bearable.

You were such a great father. I left Montana in Sept. 2004. I flew back home to attend the Dodson Coyotes district Basketball tournments in Glasgow, MT on February 8th - 11th, 2006. Thomas Michael Rutherford was awesome. He is now 6ft 2in (of course he is my #1 grandson) I just couldn't get over the fact that he is a High School Freshmen. He is a starter for the team. It brough tears to my eyes everytime I heard his name announced. The tournments were available on the Internet. They said there was over a 1000 people signed in. I could tell he was nervous, this being his first tournment. Josh if you could of watched your son play ball. I know there probably wouldn't of been a door that would accomonidate your head. It would of been swollen with Pride.

Of course I have to include Joshua Teague who was full of business and mischief was watching his big brother. He's probaly gonna want to have better moves than his brother. He is just a handsome little guy. His looks will get him where he is going alone.

They miss you dearly. Josh you instilled so much LOVE in these boys. They are like looking at a mirror image of your gestures, laughter, the greatest abilty to Tease, and great manners and of course your great Looks. You were such a great father and friend to them. They hung on to every word of advise you had for them. They are living in Dodson now. I told Thomas he was the boss of my house there. And Boss he is. Both Thomas Michael and Joshua Teague love school in Dodson. And they love being part of the Dodson Coyotes.

Your first mother-in-law
Bea

Rebecca Clark-Grandmother of Josh's sons

February 27, 2006

Josh,
Well three years is coming up very quickly. I have been reading over the reflections that all so many people have written and how each of their's displays what a great officer, family member, and friend you were. I go back to Class #107, remembering all the great officers that were that class and to see today where all of them have made it today. I remember study groups that ended up in football games in the dayrooms, the wrestling matches and all the other great memories that I have left. After you were taken from us, I had to stop and re-evaluate what was and is important in my life. Life is sometimes very short and needing to be taken advantange of. Josh, I think about you and your family everyday and everycall. I appreciate all that you did and pray for your families health and safety. Thank you for all you gave. I will see you again, just not today. Your friend.

SGT. Wynn Meehan
Broadwater County Sheriff's Office

February 21, 2006

Josh,
Well three years is coming up very quickly. I have been reading over the reflections that all so many people have written and how each of their's displays what a great officer, family member, and friend you were. I go back to Class #107, remembering all the great officers that were that class and to see today where all of them have made it today. I remember study groups that ended up in football games in the dayrooms, the wrestling matches and all the other great memories that I have left. After you were taken from us, I had to stop and re-evaluate what was and is important in my life. Life is sometimes very short and needing to be taken advantange of. Josh, I think about you and your family everyday and everycall. I appreciate all that you did and pray for your families health and safety. Thank you for all you gave. I will see you again, just not today. Your friend.

SGT. Wynn Meehan
Broadwater County Sheriff's Office

February 21, 2006

Josh,

I miss and love you so much. I can't believe that its almost been three years.

Mom

February 20, 2006

Happy Valentine's day Joshman
DC

February 14, 2006

Hi Josh,

We never had the chance to meet and honestly I never new much about you. It's unfortunate that I get to learn about you from this terrible thing. I feel that even though we never had the chance to meet that I know what a good person you were from all our family. Just because you are gone does not mean you are no longer my cousin. I feel for your sons but am glad they had what time they did get with you. With a family like ours they will never have a chance to forget you. If you were anything like your dad, my uncle Mike, you were outstanding in my eyes. I am glad the sentencing and trial are over. Listening to family talk about how hard it was for every one broke my heart. I only hope that I can make as big of an impact in life as you have. One day I pray we get the chance to meet on the other side. Take care Josh.

February 13, 2006

Well it's been almost three years, and yet I still feel like it was yesterday. I see your face everyday and when I go to work, I know you are there with me. I miss you and wish we could have worked more together.
I didn't relaize this site was here, it is helpful to read the other reflections. I will read it more often. I will see you again, An original "Webb Warrior".

Deputy Joe Renders
Richland County

January 24, 2006

Well hello Josh.....I have visited this site a few times before, but was not really quite sure what to say. Everything is done, and justice has been served. I know this tragedy has to be tremendously hard on your family, but they are very strong, I think their love for you is their driving force. I admire them for that. Your son Thomas, he is an exceptional young man, when he stood to give your eulogy, I don't think there was a dry eye in the gym. It was heartbreaking, yet almost inspiring to know how greatly you had impacted his life. It was very evident you were a wonderful father, your sons are very blessed to have you as their father.
Sometimes I sit and think about that fateful night, I was working too and looking for the same person. Like you I was alone too, with my only backup on the south end of the reservation. There was a something strange in the air and I didn't feel good about responding to this particular call but officers take an oath. When I was told of your passing, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I wanted to break down and cry, yet I was shocked beyond belief. My emotions ranged from fear to sadness to anger that night. But I had to be professional and do my job, and as I got back into my patrol unit after hearing the tragic news, I thought of you. I have thought of you often since.
As a fellow officer, and being a student in a your DT class I admired you. We even had a few classes in high school together, I used to call you a "Brainiac", and you'd say, "yeah, so?!" You were always able to make me laugh. I recall being at the Academy and when you and Guderjahn showed up to do the Defensive Tactics course I was really relieved and also quite happy to see someone from home. I recall visiting with you at various times and it was always obvious just how much you loved your sons. We were always able to joke around, you were fun to be around. One thing that always makes me laugh when I think about you it is when we did the training at the Fish & Game building. You and your fellow deputies were all decked out in brown BDU's, and I told you that you guys looked like UPS men, and you said that was all part of the operation! Then you put your hat on backward and had to demonstrate. We all had a good chuckle that time.
You were a great officer and worthy of much respect. I'm glad I knew you.

With Respect to Your and Your Family
fellow officer and student

Avis M. Werk
former officer of Ft. Belknap Law Enforcement

January 13, 2006

Happy New Years Josh

January 10, 2006

Happy New Year

January 1, 2006

hey josh
merry christmas and a happy new year
watch over us please
I miss you more and more everyday
I love you
your sister jody

December 27, 2005

Merry Christmas Josh, you are so missed today and everyday.

Kerri Flitcroft, aunt of Josh

December 25, 2005

Son,

Well, its the third Christmas without you and reality is starting to sink in. You have really left to be with the grandfathers and I have to wait until I am called home to see your face again.

The sentencing was not difficult to sit through because I knew that no matter what bs his attornies threw into the air that he would never see another free day. I was amazed that he cried when Teague and Tammy spoke. I know that my body was emating anger. That is as close as I have ever been to him. He would not meet my eyes. I feel that I didn't say all that I wanted. If it is possible to hate this intensely than I put Bob Peterson and Shea in the same category as Jackson. He's family was there for probably the first time in his life to talk about the devastation that they would feel if he was put to death. What about the pain we feel. Well my precious baby son, I miss you more today but I am one day closed to you.

I know that you met Wil when he got there to be with you. Talk about a shocking event. I pray that you would touch Marilyn to let her know that Wil is with you.

I know that you are at the most beautiful birthday for Jesus.

I will always love and miss you

Mommy

December 25, 2005

Merry Christmas Joshman
DC

DC

December 25, 2005

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