Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Deputy Sheriff Joshua Thomas Rutherford

Blaine County Sheriff's Office, Montana

End of Watch Thursday, May 29, 2003

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Reflections for Deputy Sheriff Joshua Thomas Rutherford

Six years and I did not think that it was possible to live without seeing the smile on your face. Then Harley arrived and brought with her your grin. When her eyes light up I know that you will never leave us. Thanks for the blessings.

Jody came home for my graduation and for your gram's memorial. Harley has two teeth and Jody was feeding her cookies. I reminded her of your first two teeth and how she found them sneaking you chocolate chip cookies. It was one of the moments that I know you were here.

We went and cleaned your spot today. To me it is sacred. I miss you. I love you and I am one day closer to you.


May 30, 2009

Your heroism and service is honored today, the sixth anniversary of your death. Your memory lives and you continue to inspire. Thank you for your service. My cherished son Larry Lasater was a fellow police officer who was murdered in the line of duty on April 24, 2005 while serving as a Pittsburg, CA police officer.

Time never diminishes respect. Your memory will always be honored and revered. Rest In Peace.

To Josh's Mom: I share your anquish in losing a beloved son, and understand the meaning of a life forever altered. I read all of Josh's reflections today, and now have tears streaming down my face. Losing a child surely has to be life's greatest sorrow. In looking at your reflections, so many of your feelings seem identical to mine. I am holding you in my heart's embrace today.

Phyllis Loya


May 29, 2009

My grandson, I can't believe that it has been 6 yrs. since we lost you. Time flies so fast anymore.You are a grandfather and your dad is a great grandfather and I am a great great grandmother. Your brother Lewis and his wife Tara have identical twin girls. You would have truly enjoyed being with all of them. We all love you and remember you with great pride. Keep watching over us.

Your grandmother Ruby

Ruby Rasor

May 29, 2009

Well our oldest son graduated from High School and graduated as Valedictorian. He made all of us so proud with his great accomplishment. He did a slide show and had great pictures with you and him. I know he misses you daily but missed you more during his graduation. It was an emotional time for me as well. I know you were smiling down on him as he gave his valedictorian speech and when he recieved his diploma. He is making plans to attend MSU-B this fall. I'm hoping that he looks into the basketball program and joins the team.
Joshua Teague is doing great in the 7th grade at Castlerock. He made honor roll all 3 quarters and looking at making it for the 4th quarter. He is a smart kid. He stepped up during Thomas' graduation and walked by his side. He can't believe how fast Thomas' Senior year went. They both are doing so great. They miss you dearly. Teague is officially taller than me and his voice is changing. He's growing up so fast. He likes being taller than me. He laughs about it. They have your sense of humor and your sillyness.
May 29th is fast approaching and it's unreal to think it's going to be 6 years you have been gone. You are missed each and everyday!
Watch over the boys! They are awesome miracles you left behind. I'll never forget you because of them.


May 26, 2009

Josh, it is hard to believe that already it is going to be 6 years that you have been gone. Seems like yesterday when I got that awful call at 1 a.m. from Grandma Ruby telling me what happened. Six years or no, you are still thought of daily and still our "HERO". Always and Forever in our hearts.


May 24, 2009

Josh, I thought about yesterday and I had to stop by this site and tell you. I had someone ask me about that tragic night and just got me thinking about you. You were an exceptional officer and I respected you very much. I remember you from high school and watching you progress in your career, I was quite proud to have you as a friend. When you came to Helena for instructing it was really good to see you and it felt really good to have someone from home there. All the trainings we went through together I recall fondly cuz we had so much fun. I know your family still misses you and always will, watch over them. You have touched so many lives in your time.

Avis M. Werk, MCS Enforcement Officer

January 30, 2009

Josh, Here it is 2009 and not a day goes by that Auntie Mel does not think of you. We moved to Great Falls and Grandma Ruby is living with us. She has your picture PROUDLY on her nightstand in her room. We met Senator Tester the other day who advised he was honored to have known you. We are proud of all the things you did and know that you will always be our light and guidance as we continue on. Please look over your family as they bring in a new year and keep them safe. I am honored to be a part of your family and know you are a HERO in all of our eyes.

Mike Zuhoski

January 3, 2009

Well Joshman, Christmas will be here tomorrow already. We will def have a white one but I just wished the cold wind would go away for a while. Today is the warmest it has been for a snap. I will be thinking of you and missing you still.
Merry Christmas Joshman


December 24, 2008

Josh, we recently lost one of our own here in Oregon. I was visiting Bill's page and saw that your aunt had visited. I wanted to visit you as well. I wanted to let you know that you are more than just a hero. You are everything that is good and decent in this world and will always be missed and honored by those of us you leave behind. I will always remember you.

Trooper M. Rockwell
Oregon State Police

December 23, 2008

Well Thanksgiving has come and gone. I know better then to eat so much because I am still feeling it today. I think I ate for 3 hours straight then of course slept for 9 hours because I was in no shape to move. LOL.
Was thinking of you and missing you


November 28, 2008

I think about you every day I love and miss
I see your a grand-dad now mom is going to me pictures of he to in dec
love your sister jody


November 26, 2008

Not to much longer until another is done. Time passes to fast. When the Holidays come around is when you realize how much you miss your loved ones and you are one of them. Just wanted to let you know you are so deeply missed still and always will be.


November 13, 2008

Thanks for the blessing


October 23, 2008


Montana lost another hero. Please welcome him and continue to watch over us. I miss and love you!!!

Melody Zuhoski
Aunt of Deputy Joshua T Rutherford

August 28, 2008

Happy birthday, we are going to have a party for you. The playground is going to be dedicated and with a lot of help we are going to have a barbeque afterwards. I hope you enjoy it. Miss you


August 15, 2008

thinking of you as always

cousin m

July 30, 2008

Josh, Mike and I went to D.C. last month for our vacation, and I went to the National Law Enforcement Memorial to see your name engraved on the wall. I left you a note to let you know how much you are loved and missed. What a beautiful memorial it is. We wanted to go to the museum, but it was closed due to the fact that they are moving to their new location. Maybe next time. I miss you very much. Please watch over us from above. I love you my nephew!!

Melody A. Zuhoski

July 8, 2008

I've never wrote on this before to you, never really could. I miss you alot and think of you every so often. You were my first FTO and showed me the ropes at Blaine County. You took me under your wing and showed me true friendship, you also helped me out alot with trying times in my relationship with Ang. I deeply appreciated everything you did. It's been just a little over 5 years since your departure. And almost 5 since I've been in Law Enforcement. It affected me more than I like to admit. The last few years I've spent maturing and bettering myself. And I was also looking for my true calling in life, i think i missed it when i left Blaine County.
I spoke with Pat the other day, it felt good to talk with him. I asked about Loren and Glenn as well. I really miss all the guys at times, especially you. It seems like yesterday Colby was calling me to let me know what happened...Anyway Pat asked me to send an application to him, and i think i would like that. I deffinately feel ready and confident. Put in a good word for me with the Man upstairs, keep watch over me and wish me luck.
You were a great friend and Officer Josh. I know I will see you again someday. Have some good jokes lined up for all of us too, you always did have a great sense of humor.And I will always remember...6 is better than 5 :)

Shaun (former deputy BCSO)

June 26, 2008

life gets me down and it helps to think you are there watching over us all. i wish things were different and i could've been there to see you this summer but hopefully someday we will meet in a better place.


June 15, 2008

Josh I miss you and I hope your watching my back I have some choices coming up that are major. I miss being able to call and bounce things off of you. God bless.

Officer JC

June 5, 2008


Five years ago today I was waiting for you to get back from the state crime lab in Missoula. I would or could not believe that you had really been murdered until I saw your body. Everything was so surreal as we waited for your return. The sun was shining, your lilacs were blooming and the air was filled with there scent. Today here in your home the conditions are the same except now I have now accepted that you are truly gone. My heart feels like it has been taken out and stomped on. I miss you so much that sometimes it is hard to breath.

I have tried to make you proud of me. I have just finished the fourth semester at your alma mater. My grade point is pretty decent. Two more semesters and then I will transfer to North Dakota state. I will have achieved my dream of being a nurse at the age of sixty two. Every thing I do is in honor of you.

Thomas has been here. I think sometimes its hard for him to be in the house without you in it.

This hurts som much so I will end this with "I am one day closer to you"

Love, Mom

May 31, 2008

Well tomorrow will be another year that has come and gone. It sure does not seem like you have been gone that long. You are still dearly missed

May 28, 2008

Wow Josh, I cannot believe that in just 3 days it will have been 5 years. Seems like just yesterday that I was awakened in the middle of the night with that horrible call from your Grandma Ruby telling me of what had just happened. Life just does not seem fair but for all things there is a reason. I am not sure to this day what the reason for your death was except maybe for you to keep watch over all of us. Just the other day at my work we were talking about hero's and I was telling my co-workers who my hero's were and you topped the list. So you are never forgotten, even after 5 years. A hero to me, always!
Aunt Kerri

aunt of Dpty Josh Rutherford

May 26, 2008

five years almost and it seems like it was yesterday. keeping your boys in my thoughts and prayers and always thinking of you.


May 2, 2008

I went to watch Thomas at the grand march at Dodson's prom. I had to remind him that the last time I was there that you were a sophomore and he was in Berta's belly.
You would be so proud of him. He looks so much like you. Maybe I will pick out your and his mom's prom pictures and share that memory.

They are going put new playground equipment at city park and dedicate it to you. I know that you have this under control. It brings up so many feelings. I know that it is a good thing for Harlem. Lorri, your loan officer on the house wrote a grant. Jenny Jones is going to fund it totaly. I didn't know that people had such big hearts. Life sure send suprizes.

I know that you have been here this week. I thank you. I just miss you so much son.

Teague came over and played scrabble with Tom. I had to tell them the story of the game. Teague beat us. Please watch over him. It was such a blessing to have them here at the same time.

Love Mom

April 27, 2008

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