Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

The verdict came in today and it still doesn't make anything better. I hope he realizes what he has done, who he has taken away from all of us. A daughter, wife, sister and friend that can never be replaced. I woke up this morning to "Oh What A Night" and just knew that you had something to do with it!

Still missing you and remembering all of the fun that we shared. There is no one here who can take your place.

Anonymous

I miss your gorgeous, smiling face so much...

The trial starts today,
we sit and wait,
we follow the rules of the court.
We allow the law
to run it's course,
though we all know
what is true.
Our strength must be so much stronger now,
our faith, tested to the extreme.
How do we endure the pain?
Once more,
we turn to you.
We turn to you,
and take from you
the strength to carry on.
We turn to you,
and vow to you
that we wont let you down.
Each one of us holds
a reason in their heart,
to carry on for you.
And each one of us,is many!
We turn to you
and give to you
our never ending love.
We turn to you
to let you know,
how much that you are loved
NO matter how long it takes ,
no matter what the pain,
we will go thru what ever it takes,
to let justice ring in your name
The trial starts today

Anonymous

Life ain't always what it seem to be
Words can't express what you mean to me
Even though you're gone we still a team
Thru your family I'll fulfill your dreams
In the future can't wait to see if you'll
Open up the gates for me
Reminisce sometime the night he took my friend
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it's real feelings hard to conceal
Can't imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still livin' your life after death

Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every time I pray
I'll be missing you

Thinking of the day
When you went away
What a life to take
What a bond to break
I'll be missing you

We miss you, Jess....

It's kinda hard wit you not around
Know you in Heaven smilin' down
Watching us while we pray for you
Everyday we pray for you
Till the day we meet again
In my heart is where I keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts, Jess, I just can't define
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Still can't believe you're gone
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still livin' your life after death

Every day that passes
Is a day that I get closer
To seeing you again
We miss you Jess
And we won't stop
Cause we can't stop
We miss you Jess...

I met Jessica when we were at FSU. I too was in the Criminal Justice program, however, I was younger. She was truely an inspiration to all women entering Law Enforcement. I only hope I will be as quick thinking as she was in her last minutes of life.

Your love for your wife, daughter, sister, and friend has been inspirational over the last year.

I have been following the case, and I am praying for the guilty verdict of this horrible man within the next couple of weeks. I hope everyday he sits in prison is a reminder of what he took away from your family and the entire world.


I will be praying for your family and all Hazel Park Officers as the brave the upcoming trial.

I pray the jury will return with the same verdict that was delivered in Scott Stewarts trial. Jessica deserves justice.

Good luck-

Jessica
Citizen/ Holland, MI

Missing you today... Missing you everyday... Wishing you were here. I love you.

"For some life lasts a short while, but the memories it holds last forever." -Laura Swenson

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on." -Robert Frost

"It is not length of life, but depth of life."
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

"WHERE THERE IS LOVE, THERE IS LIFE." -Mahatma Gandhi

Tell me you've had trouble sleeping
That you toss and turn from side to side
Tell me that you wake up crying
And you're not sure exactly why
Tell me that something is missing
In your life
Tell me that it's not just me

I could have sworn I saw you smile at me
Standing in the pouring rain
At a loss for words and running out of time
I said this crazy thing, I said

I’ve found you find strength in your moments of weakness
I've been trapped in the past for too long
I’m movin’ on

I’ve lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they’re always the same
They mean no harm but it’s time that I face it
I'm movin' on

I’m movin’ on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there’s no guarentee’s, but I’m not alone
There comes a time in everyone’s life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I’ve loved like I should but lived like
I shouldn’t
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I’m movin’ on


I love you Jess.

I miss my sister so much. You're missing Jessica as much.

I went to Washington D.C. in May for the Law Enforcement Memorial ceremony and to see her name on the wall, as well as my sister, Melissa Schmidt.

I sat with my Mom and Dad directly behind your family, and I was thinking about how BOTH of our families lives were affected by such an atrocious act on a police officer.

I visited Jessica's reflection page and thought I would send my thoughts, prayers, and sincere love to her family, friends, and Jessica's husband on the Detroit PD.

Maybe I'll see you in 2004 in Washington D.C. I hope to meet you, and reflect on Jessica's, and my sister Melissa's lives here on Earth. My parents and I plan on going to D.C. next year. I hope you do as well.


Love and sincerity, Chris Schmidt

Brother of Melissa Schmidt,
Minneapolis, MN Police Dept.

Badge 233
has now become a blue ribbon
I wear proudly on my chest.
It is one way I have, to keep alive,
the memory of you.
Badge 233
had a face behind that number ,
I want everyone to know
who you were,and how we miss, the person
behind Badge 233

Anonymous

Every now and then,
Soft as breath upon my skin,
I feel you come back again,
And it's like you haven't been,
Gone a moment from my side
Like the tears were never cried
Like the hands of time are holding you and me

And with all my heart I'm sure,
We're closer than we ever were
I don't have to hear or see,
I've got all the proof I need
There are more than angels watching over me
I believe
Oh, I believe

Now when you die your life goes on
It doesn't end here when you're gone
Every soul is filled with light,
It never ends and if I'm right,
Our love can even reach across eternity
I believe
Oh, I believe

Forever, you're a part of me
Forever, in the heart of me
I will hold you even longer if I can
Oh, the people who don't see the most,
Say that I believe in ghosts
If that makes me crazy, then I am,
'Cause I believe

Oh I believe

There are more than angels watching over me
I believe
Oh, I believe

Every now and then,
Soft as breath upon my skin,
I feel you come back again,
And I believe

Jess
That pesky little kid, that would make you laugh with his antics graduated. I know you are watching over him.
Wish you were here,
love ya

Anonymous

Jess,
It has taken me a long time to write to you here. I could never find the words that would express the loss we all feel. I have been trying for so long to come up with the "perfect words". I have finally realized, there are no "perfect words."
I can only let you know that I carry with me in my heart, all the good memories, I have of you with my family. You were a part of that family and we miss you dearly.Not a day goes by that I dont have a memory of you pop into my head. I want you to know, that I sing your Harper Valley PTA for you, and attempt to sing the two songs that you, Jill and Sherrie always sang! Love you and miss you with all my heart,
your"childhood adopted mom"

Thinking of you... You will always be sorely missed by all, but never forgotten. We all love you. -Katie

We made it through your birthday. It wasn’t easy but I guess we have no other choice. I think I was at the cemetery 3 times that day, trying to find a way to close to you, to feel you somehow here with me. It was a long weekend without you. I was glad to see it come to an end and get back to the routine of the week.

Love you and missing you always.

Anonymous

Happy Birthday! I'm a little late, I'm sorry. I was thinking about you though, you can count on that. I love you.

"Ca-ca":

You are everything I wish I could be. I admire you so much more than you could ever know. You are my inspiration and when I feel like I can't go on, I look to you for guidance. You lead me where I need to go, and you give me strength when I have none. And I know what he said is true: it's two against one.

May 23 2003.

Happy Birthday Jess;
I wish with all my heart that I were giving you this wish in person. There is not a day that goes by that I am not missing you and the friendship that we shared. I cannot tell you how hard it is to try and find the words to express what I am feeling. It hurts to not have the words to talk to you because there was never a day that I could not pick up the phone and talk to you about anything. I don’t want to talk to you about…how much I miss you or how much our friendship meant to me. We should be talking about how we are going to live near one another and when we have kids they are going to be best friends like us.
Jess there is not a day that goes by that I am wishing I could call you and reminisce about the past birthdays we have spent together. I smile thinking about your birthday watching the movie dirty dancing and coloring our hair and one of my birthdays when I know I did not spill the darn thing. I know you will always be with me because I can feel you presence around me and I have you in my heart always.
You are and always will be my best friend and you will always be my sister of the heart. There is no one like you and there never will be as true a friend as you!
Happy Birthday Sis!
I love you always.

Best Friends Forever

The grasses, and stars, the moon above,
the sun that warms our day,
I imagine your spirit right there beside them,
all the wonders of the world.
I sense you watching over us
I feel your warm embrace.
I hear your soft wispered words, of reassurance,that you are in a better place.
The grace of the birds flight, the rainbow after a summers rain, the first snowflake of the year,
the blooming of springs first flowers, a butterfly's first debut,
I imagine your spirit right there beside them,
all the beauties of the world.
A puppy's cry, a cat's meow,
your spirit shines right thru.
I imagine that it is you.
And I hear your soft wispered words of reassurance, that you are in a better place.
Yet, I imagine most of all ,
that this wasnt you ,
I am writing to.

Miss you

Anonymous

Rat-a-tat-tat
Rat-a-tat-tat
Tell me where you're at
Tell me where to find you
Give me some clue
Tell me where to find my angel in blue.

Rat-a-tat-tat
Rat-a-tat-tat
Tell me where you're at
Tell me what I need to hear
Tell me that you are near
Tell me I have nothing to fear.

Rat-a-tat-tat
Rat-a-tat-tat
Tell me where you're at
Tell me it's okay to cry
Tell me you didn't really die
Tell me you're closer than the sky.

Rat-a-tat-tat
Rat-a-tat-tat
Tell me where you're at
Tell me that I'll be okay
Tell me I'll see you another day
Tell what I need you to say.

Rat-a-tat-tat
Rat-a-tat-tat
Tell me where you're at.

Thinking of you....Katie

Jess...
I don't really know what it is I want to write. I just feel so lost right now, I needed to do SOMETHING... D.C. was a rough trip, I'm assuming for all of us. I loved being near everyone who loves you so much, who you love so much... who I love so much. Just being with your dad, and being with all of the officers you worked with, made me feel so close to you. No one can ever beat your dad's hugs. They make me feel so safe, and at peace. I was so sad when it was time to leave D.C. Like I said, just being near all the officers you worked with, made me feel closer to you. And I loved meeting all of the officers from all over, just to see so many brave and amazing people, who were so kind and caring... it made me feel... something I've never felt before. To see the police family completely amazed and awed me. Every day I think of you. Every day I cry for you. Every day I wish you were here. I thought time was supposed to heal... for me, time is making everything worse. The more time that goes by, the further from you I feel. As time goes on, the tears come more often. The littlest things now set me off and I fight the tears with all the strength I have. I'm so sick of crying and so sick of feeling like there's no reason to cry, that I should be done crying by now. I'm so sick of myself. I cling to everything that reminds me of you, to everything and everyone that makes me feel close to you. That's why I loved being in D.C. because I felt you all around. It was rough, but everywhere I looked, there you were. In each of the Hazel Park officer's eyes, I saw you. All I wanted to do was run up and hug each of them, hoping that it would calm my fears and help me breathe. I can't even believe what an impact you've had on my life. I'm amazed by how much I'm feeling. I love you, and I always knew I did. But you were always just my sister's best friend, 10 years older than me... I never imagined I could possibly love you so much. All I do is ramble, just like now. And I'm sure everyone is sick of hearing what I have to say, because it's all the same. but I can't run from these feelings, there's nowhere to hide. I'm drawn to that damn murderer's house, and envision that night over and over again. I'm drawn to the police station, wishing I could just walk in there and find you. Wishing that if I went there these aches in my heart would be soothed. I am full of wishes, and full of whining, while so many others are hurting, probably so much more than me. I'm sorry for complaining... for the never ending crap from me. I love you and miss you. -Katie

Jess,

I have been thinking about you alot these past months, and I can see that big smile everytime I feel down. I never got a chance to tell you how much I respected and admired you!

We just got back from DC and I am so glad I could be there to represent you. You are a true warrior and will never be forgotten! Until we meet again NAGS!

PSALMS 144:1
Blessed be the LORD my strength which teacheth my hands to war, and my fingers to fight:

Anonymous

I returned from DC yesterday and a poster of this young woman caught the eyes of my co-worker and I. She was just a bit younger than us. We both could not get her out of our minds. I just want to say that my prayers are with you, Jessica, and your family. God bless.

Site Officer Vera Dunn
Boston Municipal Police Department

Jess -

I have a softball tournament today... in Hazel Park : ) I hope I can make you smile a bit, and make you proud. Wish you could be there. I'll be playing for you...