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Investigator Brandon Heath Thacker

Kentucky Department of Alcoholic Beverage Control, Kentucky

End of Watch Thursday, April 16, 1998

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Reflections for Investigator Brandon Heath Thacker

Just thinking about you. Nearing 5 years and just so you know, you have not and never will be forgotten.
The impact you made on my life will forever live. That is just the kind of person you were. You made deep and meaningful impressions. Wish there were more like you around me today. Until we meet again.....

Anonymous

Had a dream of you last night. You were alive and I could see you move and smile and hear you talk and laugh in the dream. Had lunch with Katherine yesterday at school and she wanted me to tell her friends all about COPS kids. I encouraged her to tell them and she said, "Well, it's something you get to do only if your dad has died..." How sad that she has that story to tell. How tragic that she has to cope with a fear of the "Bad man". Not just some arbitrary fear, but a real, understandable fear. I still have so much anger. Especially when I see our daughter missing out and hurting all because a monster was having a "delusion". This just is not JUST.
I miss you and I miss laughing with you. I watch a TV show called Who's Line Is It Anyway. One of the comedians on there reminds me so much of you. His facial expressions when he's doing improv are just like the ones you would make. He makes up songs like you did and dances like you. I think he's the funniest on there. Sometimes, I feel like I looking at you, although he doesn't look anything like you, when he's ON, he does in his mannerisms, his movements, and his expressions. My heart will never stop hurting and aching for you. I love you.

Time does not dim the memories or Love we have for you.
We dream of what you could have done, if only you had been left on earth longer. Another year has started, and as April draws closer, all the heartache and pain seems to surface again. Lord, help us turn to you, and not Hate. Hate only hurts us, We know Brandon is in a better place, but the empty place he left will remain a long long time.

Aunt Edna Thacker

In the dark of December, in the late afternoon
I can still remember all about you
'Cause the heart of the memory; it hasn't faded yet
And the way that you loved me, I will never forget

And the snow falls right by my bed at night
So steady like your heart
Falling silent in the dark

In the days of winter, it's even cold in the sun
And that's probably a good thing because
It keeps me numb
So I can remember and not even cry
The smile on your face and the laugh in your eye

And the snow falls right by my bed at night
So steady like your heart
Falling silent in the dark

In the dead of the night, in my deepest of dreams
We are always together in every scene
I can feel you with me, I can feel your skin
I can feel how easy it would be to love you again

And the snow falls right by my bed at night
So steady like your heart
Falling silent in the dark
And it's so strange to be apart
Falling silent in the dark
-Catie Curtis

As I sat here reading the reflections for Bran....I looked at my two daughters and began to cry. I pray that you find solace in your heart Jenny. After reading the reflections, I feel like I knew Bran. I pray that you and Katherine can continue to move on and always feel Bran's presence in your world every day. I sob as I imagine what you two have been going through. I lost my father when I was almost 4 years old, in a car accident. It was tough growing up without him here. God Bless you both.........If you ever need any advice or anything, email me.
Please give your daughter a hug from one of her daddy's brothers..........GOD BLESS

DFC. Matt Crisafulli
Worcester County Sheriffs Office

As the holidays come creeping up on me, it seems the infectious energy you had for the holidays, planning and prepaing the perfect meal, going shopping for such thoughtful gift giving, fills my heart, as you always do. I will always remember the flavor of your apple dumplings that you labored over every holiday.
I'll always remember how you said "Hogwash!" to not buying gifts for everyone in the family when they decided to limit the amount of gift giving.
I'll always remember how much joy you received from helping when you helped to serve the homeless Thanksgiving dinner at the Salvation Army.
I heard someone say to another, "If you were 100%, then you wouldn't be here. There's still more growing for you to do." I immediately thought of YOU! You were not perfect, but you were perfectly honest, perfectly true, and perfectly caring for others. You were 100%. And I like to think that's why you're gone. How blessed I am that you loved me, that you wanted ME to be the mother of your children, and that you wanted to spend your time with ME. I know you are with us each day. I still wish I could feel your face, hear your laugh, watch you dance and see you love our daughter. She needs you. It hurts me so deeply that I cannot give her everything she needs. She is so beautiful....and so much like you. I'm always loving you, Bran. Time may pass, but the pain doesn't. They say time heals, but that's a huge lie. Time does nothing but pass. Katherine has grown and changed, I have grown and changed, but the hurt in our hearts never changes. Never.
All my love, Forever.

Brandon, as we celebrated our 50th Wedding Anniversary, we believe you would have been here to celebrate with us if possible. One Day, I believe we will be together again as a family, and we can celebrate forever together. Our Love and thoughts will always be with you......Aunt Edna

Aunt Edna Thacker

Brandon,

I was thinking you the other day. I do that quite often. I think of you and what it meant to be your friend. I am glad our paths crossed in life. I did not say this in the previous message, but the day you passed we found out that we was expecting our youngest one. I look at her often and think of you. She turns four this month.

Take care my friend and I look forward to the day we meet again. You and Greg Hans departed this world to soon.

One day our paths will cross one more time.

Shon

CPT Shon Adams
Military Police Corps

Another Birthday passed, but the ache in our heart, over the senseless loss of one of our Pride and Joys, is not any less. We pray for Jenny and Katherine, that they would continue to follow the Lord as Brandon did. He was not perfect, as none of us are, but HE HAD IT STRAIGHT. Look forward to meeting him in Heaven. Aunt Edna

Brandon's Aunt

I'm really missing you. Katherine is getting ready to turn 6, our wedding anniversary just passed, your birthday is coming up, and I just wish that I could turn the clock back 5 years when our knees were all worn out from "walking" with Katherine. I remember how we had to take shifts because that was all she wanted to do and our knees were so carpet burned, but we loved and relished it. So many things have changed and I hate that it's all had to be without you. Nearly 4&1/2 years since you had to leave us and at times, it's so difficult, still, to bear. I miss laughing with you, dancing and singing with you. I miss seeing your face and hearing your voice. I miss your laughter, your comedy routines, your excitement. You are irreplaceable. Visiting with Heather last week and she told me that no one has ever made her laugh like you did. You are so missed. Not just by me, not just by Katherine. By so many, you were and are so loved and I hope you know that.

Hey Brandon, just thought I would let you know you are still sadly missed everyday! I think of all your jokes and all of the great laughs.

Jennifer Wilson
Attorney General

Brandon,
Just thinking about you brother.

Louis Mitchell
FBI

Life would be so much better and easier if you were here. I miss you.

This Country WOULD HAVE been a better place, had Brandon been allowed to fullfill his deam. He will always live in our heart and memory.

BRANDONS AUNT, EDNA THACKER

There are so many aspects of raising Katherine without you that are difficult and trying for me, but the most difficult part is that Katherine is missing out on YOU. I see a father look lovingly at his daughter, tickle her, laugh with her, and all I can see is what Katherine never will and my eyes fill with tears. She loves you and she already proudly announces that she gets her sillies from you (isn't that so true!). What she's lost is what she will never know and that breaks my heart every single minute. You were a father every child deserves and a husband every woman wishes for. Four years without you and it is still so hard to be without you. Brandon, you were an amazing, incredibly funny, honest and noble man. Your absence is always felt and your presence is always longed for. Always.

Brandon,

We miss and love you. Hope you are keeping an eye on us down here.

Anonymous

Brandon,
Thought I would drop you a line to tell you that I still think about you a lot. Times are really crazy down here as I'm sure your well aware. I know that you would have some opinion's on everything that is going on, and I would love to hear them. Keep an eye out for us Brandon, talk to you later.

Special Agent D. Louis Mitchell
FBI Miami Division

This morning, Katherine crawled into bed with me and told me that she often wishes she could bring you back to life. She said, "I wish that just by wishing Daddy could come back to life. Sometimes I wish for him to be alive when I pray at night and then I dream that he's alive." If only just by wishing....
I'm so thankful for video....Katherine has the opportunity to hear your voice, hear you laugh, see you smile and see just how you looked at her when you held her. She can see your love and she always asks to watch her "baby videos" and she just smiles as she watches you.
We both miss you morning, noon, and night. It never ends.

Katherine said to me the other day, "Mom, do you know that Daddy is still alive? Yes he is! He is alive in Heaven and he's up there waiting for us." She had the biggest smile on her face as she told that to me.
She's amazing....just like you.
I love you, Bran, and I miss you like crazy.

I was in the ER with Katherine last weekend....nothing too serious, she cut herself and needed a stitch, but initially, I was scared, as all parents would be. I sat in the waiting room with her and knew that if you were here, you'd be right beside us, holding her and worrying just like any wonderful daddy would. I felt really lonely and sad and I cried for her and for me that we had to experience yet another first without you and alone. First visit to the ER. It was an adventure for her and she was so brave. Although I know you are with us, it still feels so lonely because you aren't with us. Did you see her learn to tie her shoes? Do you hear her when she talks to you? Do you hear of her plans to draw you a picture or to give you a big hug when she comes to Heaven? Do you feel how much she loves you? How much I love you and miss you? It's so bitter because you were going to be a terrific daddy, you were the most wonderful husband. I don't think I will ever stop missing you.

Brandon
When you were born,you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. You lived your life that when you died , you was the one who was smiling and everyone around you was crying. We will meet again.

Anonymous

We miss you!

Anonymous

Brandon,

I met you but you never knew you met me. I was Working with Caldwell Co EMS when we received the inital call of Officer Down. I was heading toward you when we was notified that it was in Lyon CO. We then went to the hospital to wait for you. I worked with the ER doctor and nurses until you took your last breath. Earlier that day I had turned in my two week notice with EMS to go to work for Princeton PD. Brandon your memory will always be with me and the officers that were in the convoy with you that day. I didn't know you very long but there will always be a special place in my heart for a fallen brother.

May God richly bless your family and co-workers

Sgt Craig Young
Princeton Police Dept
Princeton KY

Sgt Craig Young
Princeton Police Dept

sure wish you were here, Brandon. I really miss talking with you about UK basketball, world events, politics, and family. Sure would love to hear your take on this past year! I hope you're sitting right in the front row at all the Kentucky games. I hope you're able to see how beautiful and spirited your daughter is becoming. What a legacy! Things just aren't the same without you around! You won't ever be forgotten.

Brandon,

It seems like only yesterday that you were grilling those monster hamburgers outside of your mother's basement before we went to work. I thought that you and I and everybody that was there would be together forever. Now none of us are together. I guess I was young and dumb about a lot of things. Things have changed so fast. It's funny what you remember about a person. Work just isn't the same without you. I hope to see you again someday. You will never be forgotten. God Bless You.

Investigator Loren T. Wells
Ky. Dept. of Alcoholic Beverage Control

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