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Special Agent Jared Robert Porter

United States Department of Justice - Federal Bureau of Investigation, U.S. Government

End of Watch Thursday, August 9, 1979

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Reflections for Special Agent Jared Robert Porter

Last week I recieved a card from one of your daughters about the loss of my K-9 partner. It was unexpected but did bring tears to my eyes as well as the eyes of my wife. Your daughter touched our hearts and that was because part of you still lives within her. She is truly a daughter to be proud of. She did a nice ,thoughtful gesture as did you by taking the fight to the coward that came to your office that day. So others may live. Plain and simple. My respects Sir.

K-9 Trooper David Osborne
Tennessee Highway Patrol

January 26, 2013

Hi Dad,
I visited your grave yesterday. I was hoping to find some peace but that didn't come. I just don't understand why I can't feel it.
I also watched the documentary "Heroes Behind the Badge". It made me sad. Of course I thought of you. I thought of everyone I know who has lost a loved one in the LOD. My thoughts are full about all of those strangers who are affected by a LODD. I also think about all the people, friends and others who have no clue what it feels like. That is why I feel alone. Except for friends I've met in law enforcement and those I've met in C.O P.S. no one in my life has ever understood me. They've never understood the profound pain and loss I've carried. It just sucks sometimes but I know I'm not the only one who feels this way. That makes me even more sad. That so many will know this pain is unbearable.
I am so grateful for those who wear the uniform. I wish I could shake the hands of everyone who serves and sacrifices to personally thank them. I wish I could hug those officers who will be called to give their life tomorrow, next week or next year.
Please be with me Dad. I need you now.

Surviving Daughter of Special Agent J. Robert Porter
Federal Bureau of Investigation
E.O.W. 8/9/79

December 4, 2012

Kristi & the Porter Family:
I would like you to contact me. Although I did not know Bob, I was a classmate and knew Chuck Elmore. I give presentations regarding the brutal murder of SA's Jack Coler and Ron Williams, Leonard Peltier and the RESMURS investigation. During my presentations I mention both Bob and Chuck. I am doing some research and planning to add an additional section to the No Parole Peltier Association website regarding other agents killed in the line of duty.
My prayers remain with you and your family.
"In the Spirit of Coler and Williams"
Ed Woods

Ed Woods, Special Agent (Retired)

December 2, 2012

God Speed, Brother.

P.O. K. Murphy
Union PD, NJ

December 1, 2012

Thank you for your Heroism again Sir, RIP knowing that your daughter is doing fine and your impact on law enforcement is still being talked about.

James Kotke
Civilian / Former Officer
WSF Park Police (Wi.)

November 20, 2012


I am writing this reflection to let you, your family, and your friends know what a great job you did raising your daugther Kristi Porter. Though that time was short, it still definitely shows. I say this because your daughter wrote to me wishing me well and told me about you and her story. Now I will tell you mine. The night of October 26, 2012 I was injured in a severe crash, that had circumstances been slightly different I would have been severely injured or more likely dead, and I would not have gone home to my fiance or our four year old daughter. I will not go into complete details, but the driver was drunk who hit me. She was not injured at all. She was seatbelted and her airbag deployed. I suffered severe whiplash with a minor head injury and right leg bruise and pain up and down my spine. I happened to be in the driver's seat of my police vehicle and had put my seatbelt back on. I had my belt off minutes before and decided to put it back on (my gut told me). I was helping other officers in front of me with a crash and they were out of their vehicles and I stayed in mine and placed my vehicle in a lane to shut traffic down in the lane as a buffer. My emergency lights were active and I was there for almost 10 minutes. I never saw her coming since it was a rear impact and I was not viewing my mirrors at time of impact. The vehicle that struck me pushed my police vehicle 65 feet while I was parked and bent the frame and pushed the trunk almost into the rear seats. I had to be helped out of my vehicle. I am very lucky I did not see the vehicle coming, that I put my seatbelt back on, and that I was there to stop her so she did not kill officers ahead of me who were helping someone else. Maybe you were watching over me that night. I would like to think so since my story found your daugther from Ohio to Arizona. I wish I had the chance to meet you and I wish that someone could have been there for you when you made the ultimate sacrifice. Remember we work for God and you and all who take the oath are doing God's work. Rest in peace sir.

Patrolman Michael J. Schwanbeck
Northwood Police Department

November 17, 2012

I was working a detail and was assaulted by an individual who attempted to deprive me of my weapon. I have no doubt his intent was to end my life. I ended up surviving the event. I write this today because your daughter reached out to, me via a letter, offering her support and wishes for a speedy recovery. I know she was only 7 years of age when you were taken from her, but is very clear to me that in that very short time, you were able to impart to her a sense of honor and dignity that most people never attain in a life time! You should be proud of what you have left behind.

Captain Michael Bentolila
Aventura Police Department

November 8, 2012

Hi Dad,
Had a rough weekend. Been missing you. There is so much i feel i could have learned from you and it hurts knowing i am alone in most things. When i need someone... you... and you aren't there, it is so lonely.
I really can't wait to see you again and i better have all these years missed made up to me!!!
pooh bear

Surviving Daughter of Special Agent J. Robert Porter
Federal Bureau of Investigation
E.O.W. 8/9/79

September 19, 2012

Agent Porter, today I remember you and your family in a very special way. I just became friends with your daughter, Kristi, this June at the AC retreat and I learned of your sacrifice. Your love of God, family, and country will never be forgotten. I know that you're keeping a good, close eye on all in law enforcement and their families, as well. Rest in peace and know that you are truly loved, missed and prayed for.....forever and ever.

Judy Deckert
Daughter-in-Law of Sgt. Eugene Deckert, Teaneck, NJ PD EOW 2/11/57

August 9, 2012

Although I never knew you, I wish I had. My partner was shot and killed on June 6, 2011. During the tragedy, a member of your family, whom I have never met, contacted me and provided me a crutch which helped me to deal with and heal from the emotions and situation that I was involved in. Yes, I lost Officers Corr and Lindsey before that, whom I knew well and miss dearly, but I was not there when it happened like I was when I lost Kurt, so the emotions were different and much stronger and harder to deal with, especially since I had trained Kurt and spent so much time with him....never thinking that I would lose him. People in this world do horrible things to each other, and I am still trying to figure out why? And during our courses of carrying out our duties, we sometimes make friends, but most often make more enemies, and only because we are doing what is right.
I just want you to know that your high values and ethics were carried on to your children and they help people, even strangers like me, as I'm sure you often did. And although they miss you, they are also very proud of you. As am I. Thank you for everything. Rest in Peace brother.

Deputy Mark R Chrysler
Oneida County Sheriff's Office

August 9, 2012

Today you have been gone 33 years. He stole you from us. I won't speak his name. Life is hard with you gone. An ocean of tears has been shed by so many of us. I miss having a daddy. I miss your hugs. I miss you rocking me, singing to me & tucking me in. I look forward to our reunion in Heaven when the time comes.
Love you,

Kristi Porter

August 9, 2012

This year at the Adult Children Survivors Retreat in Missouri , I had the honor of meeting Agent Porter's daughter, Kristi. Like my husband, Kristi lost her Dad at a very young age and misses him every day. Kristi shared a lot of memories with me and I wished so much that I could take some of her pain away. I pray that through the support of her COPS family, Jim and I being some of the newest members, that Kristi will find some peace and comfort. Only other survivors can understand the sorrow and we must help carry each other's pain. Together we can move forward a little each day and find joy in the knowledge that our parents are at peace.

Judy Deckert
Daughter-in-law of Sgt. Eugent Deckert, Teaneck PD, NJ EOW 2/11/57

July 5, 2012

Police Week is upon us. I wish I could be back in D.C. with my friends and fellow-survivors. Lots of memorials in May that make me proud of those who serve and sacrifice but make me sad that you are not here with me, mom and the family. I feel peace when at the memorial wall and i am sad i can't be there this year. We will be attending the Phoenix FBI memorial soon. I know it will be hurt my heart but i am truly proud to be your daughter. I just want to see you sooner than later.
i love you.
pooh bear

Daughter-Surviving Adult Child

May 12, 2012

In the mid 1970s I was assigned to the FBI Resident Agency in Scottsbluff, Nebraska (Omaha Division) and attended a two week in-service at the FBI Academy, Quantico, Va.
I met Agent Porter prior to the Sunday we were required to be at the Academy. He had somehow scouted me out and knew I also was a member of his church, the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. He took the initiative to find an empty room at the academy, found at least 10 or so of us ,who shared his religion, and we met that Sunday. It was a very special occasion to be at that meeting with him and hear him express his love for his Savior, his family and his country.
During the next few days we bonded and he shared with me his desire to get his family out of San Juan and to the western part of the U.S. I was happy for him when he finally got his wish and the transfer to El Centro.
I was so shocked and saddened by the news of the senseless tragedy that took his life and I have silently reflected many times what a special man he was to gather us together on that Sunday to worship as friends and fellow agents.
I now spend my winters in Yuma, Az and frequently travel to El Centro. Never do I pass that way without a silent reflection and prayer in his behalf and for his children.
It was only recently that I found out through my daughter, who works in the Salt Lake City FBI Office, that his son serves as ASAC there.
I know how proud he is of that accomplishment and I am so thankful for the positive way he touched my life.
My special condolence to each member of his family.
My children lost their mother to cancer at about the same time as your father was taken so I have a bit of understanding about your loss. May God be with you all.

Special Agent A. Wade Shirley
Federal Bureau of Investigation-Retired

May 9, 2012

I too received a letter from Kristi after losing my Police K9 to cancer. I cannot tell you how much this means to have the support of so many people. Many people don't understand how this can be so devastating. I tell them not only was he my partner for the last 8 1/2 years, I joked about him being my oldest son.
Thank you Kristi for all that you do....
As for her father, Special Agent Porter, you may have only had 7 years on this earth with her, but it is obvious that you did an excellent job in those 7 years, rest in peace brother....

Cpl. John Reddick Sr.
Stuart Police Department

March 29, 2012

Hi Dad,
Our birthdays came and went. I was looking at photos of us sharing our birthday parties when I was a child. Sure wish that tradition could have lasted.
Hope you had a good one in Heaven. Mine was kind of lonely.
Love and miss you.

Kristi Porter
Surviving Adult Child

March 19, 2012

I received a letter of condolences from Kristi regarding my Military Working Dog Ambassador, Niki, or as some called her West Milford’s USO Dog who traveled over the Rainbow Bridge the other day. It is obvious that your daughter is an extremely brave and extraordinary woman. Be assured that her compassion touches all she is in contact with in a very special way. May God Bless her and your family! Godspeed Bro!

Officer Frank Yevchak Jr (Retired)
Upper Saddle River, NJ

February 14, 2012

I received a letter of support from your daughter Kristi this month. She wanted to show her support for an officer we recently lost to ALS. It makes us all proud to wear a badge knowing that people like Kristi are out there supporting us. You should be very proud of everything she is doing to support Police Officers. God Bless.

Sgt. Ryan Russell, President - MPA
Mesa PD / Mesa Police Association

February 6, 2012

Happy New Year. Another year without you. This sucks! There has been such a huge increase in LODD's - especially by gunfire. It makes me so sad to know the suffering that will come to all those left behind. Please do me a favor Dad. Please be there to greet each officer that comes Home. Please be there to welcome them and comfort them. I also hope that your spirit will guide and comfort me because it is so lonely here in this life without you.
Miss and love you.
ps- i will be visiting your grave next week. see you then!

Kristi Porter
Daughter - Surviving Adult Child

January 1, 2012

The Newark NJ Police Department recently lossed one of our own to a gun man's bullet. Last week I too received a letter offering condolences, and support, from Kristi Porter.

I passed the letter along to the family of our Officer so that they would know they are not alone as they head into these dificult times ahead.

Thank you Kristi, thank you for looking out for others, despite what you and your family have been through.

James Stewart Jr.
VP, FOP Lodge 12, Newark NJ

December 5, 2011

Miss you Dad. So grateful for my C.O.P.S. family and extended police family at large. They make me who I am today. Really, really wish I knew you better. Someday.
Love you. You are my Hero.

Daughter - Surviving Adult Child

November 15, 2011

Your daughter sent one of our Deputies a sympathy letter after his K-9 passed away, he received it today. It mentioned you being her motivation so I wanted to come and pay a visit. I think it is amazing that after all these years she is still able to keep your memory alive by reaching out to others - it shows what a great man you were. Thank you for your service sir - May you Rest In Peace knowing that you have left behind such a remarkable woman to carry on your legacy

Meredith McNeill Ward
Gulf County Sheriff's Office (FL)

July 26, 2011

I do not know you, but I was recently involved in an incident where my partner was shot and killed in the line of duty. It was a horrible and tragic event to witness and to be involved in, and yet, that same day, my partner's wife gave birth to their second child. Your daughter had sent me a letter with her condolences, which I found to be completely amazing, since she was a complete stranger to me. Through this letter, I heard of what happened to you and your partner. I just wanted to let you know that we are all brothers and that your service and dedication to this profession is above and beyond any others. You are a hero and I wish I had met you. Be proud knowing that you live in your family's memory and that I, who never knew you, want to say thanks for your committment and sacrifice. Rest in peace brother, we have the watch from here. I will never forget youand your sacrifice.

Deputy Mark R Chrysler
Oneida County Sheriff's Office, NY

July 14, 2011

Happy Dad's Day! Tough day to get thru. I am grateful though for those who have stepped up to help ease the pain. It's not the same but it's all I've got. Heading to the retreat this week. You will be ever present in my mind. Xoxo,

Kristi Porter

June 19, 2011

The end of May nears which means the end of memorials too. You've been on my mind a lot lately. I wish I knew you better. I wish you were still here. It is very lonely without you. I'm learning... all the time trying to learn how to cope.. carry on. I need you more here than God needed you. I know that is for sure. It hurts so bad sometimes. I am grateful that you died a Hero, a Warrior. My police/FBI family helps me through.
Forever missing you.

Kristi Porter

May 25, 2011

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