Detective Kevin Shumway Orr

This 16th year has felt very different than the previous 15 years.
I can't help but be sad that 16 years ago we were sitting down as a family to eat dinner, then have family home evening and play a game. After the game was the last time I saw you. It doesn't seem real that it could be so long, but yet it seems like so much longer. So much has changed. And I'm sure things will continue to change.
As I've snuggled, played with, taken care of Kolson, watched Donovan do the same and make us food today, I've had so many mixed emotions.
I'm in the stage of life that you were in. I'm closer to your age when you passed than I am my age when you passed. I'm a parent, not a carefree child. I wish you could be here for me, but I wish he could be here for Kolson. I wish I could see you thrive being grandpa. Mom, Tyler, Kaylee, Ashlee and I were your pride and joy. (And we all know that you're humble like me.) I'm sure you'd be even more prideful and proud of your grandbabies.
I'm sure you aren't far, and have very much been a part of Kolson's life. There are times I wonder if Kolson is looking at you, knows you and recognizes you.
For now, we will continue to keep your memory alive and teach Kolson about his namesake- until I see the day you can meet, and I can hug you again.

Jessica
Daughter

November 21, 2022