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Bruno. I have been missing you even more than usual these last few days. I have a haunting need to talk to you. Oh how I wish you were here. We all need you so much. Sue Soboleski Bruno - In looking at these reflections I cannot believe it has been two years since I have written anything for you. I know you know that doesn't mean you have left my heart or mind for one second. You are always close, but it seems as though the only things I can think about are all of the things you have missed. My boys need you so bad, even though they have a wonderful father, it is such a shame that they cannot experience your joy and wisdom. What I wouldn't give for one day that you could have with them. They are both awesome in their own unique ways - Kaeden with his endless love for school and baseball and Trevor being a teenager with normal teenage struggles could surely benefit from your wisdom as I did. How lucky I was to have you in my life - especially during those awful teenage years! Mom is doing ok and Mallorie seems to be truly happy these days. She has someone new in her life and they both seem to make each other very happy. (He is very good to her, and you would like him very much!) You would be proud of all she has accomplished and you would love listening to her plans for the future. I hope I was able to instill some of your life lessons in her and she has grown up to be a very responsible, caring adult. She has your love of travel and exploration in her and she has already seen so many wonderful things. Jason does his best to take care of Mom and help her out when she needs something. And between you and me, I think he really enjoys being there for her! We realize that we are all each other has, so if someone needs something we are all there with our love and support. The past 18 1/2 years have not been easy, so much has changed, but our love for you has remained the same. You are truly missed by all who knew you and even those who weren't lucky enough to. It seems at times my kids know you just because they have seen the love that Mom, Mal and I have for you and of course because of all of the wonderful stories and memories we share with them. Trevor cries for you sometimes because he knows what he has missed out on by not having the chance to know you and he feels/sees our pain of not having you with us. We have been given news on your two assailants in these past few months that has really strained our faith in the judicial system. We have received word that your second shooter will be release on parole early next year. And of course, there are so many things that are unfair about that. But I can tell you the fact that we all fought so hard and he will have spent 19 years of a 20 year sentence is almost unheard of. I am so proud of all of us and very thankful to everyone who supported our protests each and every year. Without the support of your fellow law enforcement officers and even perfect strangers who never knew you, but had heard of the life you led, he would have been released years ago. The amount of support and love that the citizens of Houston have shown for you each and every time we asked was truly overwhelming and we will be forever grateful. We would not have been able to accomplish so much without their suppport and their love for you. As for the other, we are still waiting news on how that will turn out. But know that I will continue to fight for justice in your name. I will never let your horrible death and the details of what happened that fateful night go unforgotten. Please keep watch over Mom, Mallorie and my boys, we all still need you sometimes now more than ever. I love you and miss you horribly that my heart just aches. This is something that we will never get over and there is no way you could ever be forgotten. You live on through Mallorie and your two wonderful Grandsons. Love, Stess Stefanie Soboleski-Ernsbarger Bruno, I miss you so much. Every time thoughts of all that you have missed come creeping into my mind, I am overwhelmed with a great sadness. Mallorie growing up. Her great experience of her trip around the world she would love to have had the chance to share with you. The grand kids and all their wonder. I can sometimes imagine you scooping Kaeden up in your arms and laughing with him. And playing an endless game of ball with him. Teaching Trevor to drive. The many things you've missed, the normal everyday things you were deprived of are endless. There will never, ever be justice for that. Never. The great senselessness of it all just goes on and on for me. Anonymous I don't know what it is about you, or perhaps your family, but your death pushes me to be a better father, officer, and person overall. I did not know you, yet reading these reflections, I strive to be like you: loved, respected, cherished, missed. I am So distrusting of our government, and more so with our judicial system, that when I signed that petition 3 years ago, honestly, I felt as though I may have just wasted ink. Thankfully, someone read it, and agreed that justice needed to be served. Mrs. Soboleski and kids, some of us still care, still fight, still struggle to carry on the pursuit of justice, as corny as that may sound. Hopefully your lives have achieved some sense of normalcy, and the memories have become happy ones. Anonymous Rest in God's loving embrace, hero. You will never be forgotten. Reading all of your refelctions, you must have been an incredible person. To this day it's obvious that you are loved and adored by your family even more as time goes by. Wisconsin L.E.O. Somehow the last reflection I wrote was marked Anonymous. I am quite sure that by now the wonderful people who read these reflections know that Sue is your loving wife. Sue Soboleski My Dear Bruno, another year has passed since that fateful day you were taken from us. The usual things have once again taken place without you being here to enjoy with us. Trevor and Kaden, Mal and Stess and me, the ones who love you and miss you so very much. Trevor has just celebrated his sixteenth birthday and I know how much he needs you to be here to guide him in so many ways. Kaeden has heard so many stories of you that even at a very early age he was aware of what he has lost. You would be so happy to see him play baseball. Mallorie is doing well, but I know in her heart she is lost without you. It makes me so sad to see her hurting all these years later and to know there is nothing I can do to help her understand something I will never understand myself. Stess is also lost without you. She speaks of you often, always with such great sadness at the great loss. As for me, what can I say? I miss you today as I missed you eighteen years ago. As the saying goes, some things never change. I know I will always need you. I have done what I can for the kids over the years, always putting them first without regret all the while knowing that it is you they need most. But my heart is shattered by the loss of you. It will never be the same. I love you and I miss you. I have you in my heart always. You are never far from my thoughts. Watch over the kids for me, keep them safe and give them your wisdom and your stilling gracefulness. Anonymous Your heroism and service is honored today, the 18th anniversary of your death. Your memory lives and you continue to inspire. Thank you for your service. My cherished son Larry Lasater was a fellow police officer who was murdered in the line of duty on April 24, 2005 while serving as a Pittsburg, CA police officer. Phyllis Loya How unfortunate that so many heroes are taken from us at the hands of others. You have left behind friends and a family that speaks so highly of you. I know that you must have exemplified the characteristics that we all strive for. Miranda Here we are, another year passed since you had to leave us. Another year of firsts and wonderful times that you have missed. Little Kaeden's first T-ball game, oh how you would enjoy that. And Mallorie's exciting stories of her around the world trip. You would be so proud of her and so excited about all the things she has seen and done. And Trevor just growing up and having questions that I know you would be so helpful in answering.
"The Badge" Investigator David L Bell I was working radar overtime the night Bruno was shot. I was riding on the SO channel but when the dispatcher keyed the mike you could hear the grand juror who was riding with him screaming over the radio. It is one of the moments in my career that I will never forget. Randy Beaty, Sergeant After about nine months of preparation, our Mallorie is on her way. She is on her way to travel around the world. Seeing her leave was very hard for Stess and the kids I know, but for me it was very surreal. I have never seen more of you in her in all of her life then I did that day as she waved goodbye with that huge smile on her face so much like yours. Independent and strong and absolutely fearless. And the thing I realized the most, grown up.
My Dear Bruno, Here we are... another New Year. Another year of new things, of new hopes and dreams for my children. And another year of missing you. When I stop to think of all the times we have needed you over the years, my heart stops. Mallorie and Stess have needed you so much over the years and all they have had is me. Oh how they have been cheated. I can still remember telling the wonderful Dr. Red Duke that he must save you "because the kids could get along without me perhaps, but never you" But as it turned out, I'm all they were left with. I know you would approve of how both Stess and Mallorie have turned out. Stess is a wonderful daughter and she has helped so very much with Mallorie. She is very good to me and I have no idea what I would do without her. Mallorie is doing well. She is so much like you in that she is wise beyond her years. Later this month she will be leaving for a trip around the world, something I know you would be so very happy about. She has inherited your sense of adventure and travel you see. I know that you would be proud of both of our daughters. And the grandkids, oh how you would have enjoyed them. They are wonderful. And as little Kaeden begins T-Ball this year it is yet another milestone you will miss in a very long list of many. I am so sorry that you have missed so much. We all know how much you loved life and being with the kids. Teaching them all you could and giving all your time to us. Watch over us in the new year and keep the kids safe.
Hi Sue and Family,
To Brenda, Juror.
I don't know when it will come, I don't know where it comes from, I only know that it will come, this missing you. It comes like a fog off the ocean and surrounds me with a sadness I can't explain. I miss you so very much and I know that I will always. It has been seventeen years and I miss as I did the day I had to tell you good bye. Only it wasn't good bye, it will never be good bye. I need you so much. We all need you so much. I know you are watching over us and for that I am so greatful. I know that you will never really leave us. And having said that, I still need to talk to you sometimes. I need to see your smile, hold your hand. And Trevor, he needs your advice so much. But, Stess, she is the one who needs you and wants you here the most somehow. And I say that because I think she wants you here to take care of Mal and me and the kids. I know she worries about all of us, as I do. Stess takes very good care of us all. And Mal, she doesn't speak of it often, but I know she, too, is heart broken. I only hope she knows how proud you are of her.
Bruno, Stefanie Soboleski-Esrnbarger Dear Soboleski Family, Brenda My Dear Bruno, I miss you so very much. I think of you every day. I want you here with us so much my heart hurts. I want you here with Mallorie, Stess and the grandkids more than I can say. I will want you always, I will need you always and I will love you always.
Thank you to the HPD Officer for the beautiful and thoughtful reflection. The girls and I appreciate it so very much. I am sorry that you did not know him. He was an exceptional man, husband, father and friend.
I've heard the saying "your vote counts" for years. In elections, I'm not sure I really believe that, yet, when I signed the petition well over a year ago asking that your assassin NOT be freed, I felt it was the most important "vote" I have ever made. I did not know you, Sarge, having joined the department in 2002. But know this: your memory still lives to this day, and sadly, your death still resonates to remind us of the dangers we face. I am an older "rookie", 42 at this writing, yet still feel stronger fighting a crook than the tears when I read your reflections. To the family of Sergeant Soboleski, I offer my sympathies, even after so many years, and know I stand in awe of the love and admiration you still hold. Should I pass on with half the love you have shown the Sarge, I can go knowing I was truly blessed. Rest in peace Sarge, knowing your killer will be resting behind bars a little while longer.
Another Police Memorial Service. Always beautiful, thoughtful and always sad. I can not express how I feel each year when your name is called. My heart breaks all over again. But the most difficult time is seeing Trevor cry. Although he never had the chance to meet you, he knows you. Through his mother and me, he has heard so much about you. In some wonderful way he does know you. I often think how much you would have enjoyed the grandkids. How much you would have taught them.
Rest in peace; your sacrifice has not, nor will it ever be, forgotten.
Another year has passed, another year spent missing you and thinking of all you have missed. I feel this time of the year coming on like a bad storm. Like darkness and oh so much sadness. I miss you so much, I miss you every day. The kids are doing well but they miss you so much. We can't seem to be able to get over the loss of you. For me, it surrounds me all the time and sometimes it takes my breath away. We all think of you every day. You would be so proud of Stess and Mallorie. They are really great kids. And Trevor and Kaeden, what can I say, they are wonderful and I know that you would have enjoyed them so much. Kaeden is only three, but he knows all about you and everytime he sees a policeman or policecar or even a badge, he mentions you. Trevor is so sad I know over your not being here with us. Oh what they have lost. It is not able to be measured by any means.
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