Officer Down Memorial Page

Jo'Nee and family not to worry about the slip...grief does strange things to people .....I am the San Diego area trustee for the SoCal board of COPS[Concerns of Police Survivors] and I am trying to help others who have lost their loved ones.
6 weeks before my son was killed ..he was back in Pa. helping me bury my Mom ...so in in 6 weeks I lost them both with Christmas in the middle and that was the last time we were all together . Losing a child is the nightmare of any parent. My other son is also a Deputy and 3 days after the trial , Jim's youngest son became a Deputy and now wears his Dad's badge number. I encourage you to get together with your Chapter of COPS and maybe go to the Spouses retreat that they have every year. My husband and I go to the parent's one every year and it is very helpful Your family and mine share a bond that we never wanted but will have forever.

Maureen Tutino
Mom
April 9, 2012

Jo'Nee Jim was and is my son.... unfortunately we have no contact with his wife ...just thought you should know that.

Maureen Tutino
Mom of Deputy James Tutino EOW 1/26/05
February 10, 2012

Hi Cochran Family...sorry I missed our "day" ....I will always remember Tommie Cochran....as we are survivors of a terrible tragedy that we share always ...I work with Concerns of Police Survivors [COPS] and I am in DC and Sacramento every year trying to help people get through what we have suffered....Jim's son now wears his badge number proudly and is following in his Dad's footsteps . I always look up your Dad and husband on the wall and pay a little visit...it was a hard one this year ....worse than usual. 6 weeks before Jim was killed he was in Pa. helping me bury my Mom....this year was the worst on the date of her death for me ... the bright spot in this was the guy who killed my son came up on an appeal the 17th of Jan. and on the 25th the court denied his appeal and confirmed his sentencing...Hooray ..hope you all are hanging in there... hugs for the whole family

Maureen Tutino
Mom of Deputy James Tutino EOW 1/26/05
January 29, 2012

Your heroism and service is honored today, the 7th anniversary of your death. Your memory lives and you continue to inspire. Thank you for your service. My cherished son Larry Lasater was a fellow police officer murdered in the line of duty on April 24, 2005 while serving as a Pittsburg, CA police officer.

Time never dimishes respect, and your memory will always be honored and revered. I pray for the solace of all those who love and remember you for I know both the pain and pride are forever. Your family is in my heart's embrace today.

Rest In Peace

Phyllis Loya
Mom of fallen California Officer Larry Lasater, Pittsburg PD, eow 4/24/05
January 26, 2012

Tom…remembering the sacrifice you made, and we Honor your memory today…and every day. We love & miss you more than words can say. This never seems to get any easier, but one understands when they think of what we lost. A large part of me died the day you did. Hold onto it until I see you again. Love you always.

Jo'Nee Cochran
Spouse
January 26, 2012

It has been 7 years but yet it feels as though it was yesterday that we got the call and we spent 24 hours praying you would be okay. You are so greatly missed by so many, but most of all, I miss you so much. I love you. I will never forget and I will honor all that you have taught me. You are my hero, our hero and one that few can live up to. I will miss you and honor you today. I love you.

Tomya Cochran
daughter, EOW 1/26/05
January 25, 2012

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. I love you, I miss you and wish you were here. It still feels like only yesterday you were with us on these Holidays.
I will always remember.
Love,
Trace

Tracy
Daughter
January 2, 2012

Hey daddy, my birthday is almost here. Can u believe I'm almost 20 years old!!!!?? Its crazy.ive got a good job and I'm doing soooo amazing other than my surgeries. Its passed midnight on new years I did blow u a kiss I hope u got it I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND MISS YOU ALWAYS. I hope ur proud of me. Which I do.know.you are :) thanks tor all the signs on Christmas. U have never let me down. Your the greatest man ever. Just please watch over josh and Troy as they now patrol the streets Bc I cant take it. Ride a raindrops for me, I will see u one day again.


Xoxoxo your little princess

jessica cochran
daughter.
January 1, 2012

Tom...remembering our last Christmas together & wishing you were here with us. We miss you more and the pain of losing you never goes away. Hope you are enjoying Christmas in Heaven. Until we meet again. Love you forever.

Jo'Nee Cochran
Spouse
December 25, 2011

To the Cochran family I think of you all the time too ...especially during the Holidays .... Jim's oldest son now has 3 children since he's been gone . His youngest graduated from the LASD Academy 3 days after the verdict and a year later the head Sheriff pinned his Dad's Badge Number on his uniform...He wears it very proudly. The Memories are endless and he will always be with us. Have a Peaceful Christmas. Hugs

Maureen Tutino
Mom of Deputy James Tutino EOW1/26/2005
December 2, 2011

Hey dad, I wanted to say Happy Thanksgiving to you today and I wish you were here to celebrate with us as a family but you are always in our hearts. We love and miss you very much. I am thankful for the memories of the wonderful man and great father I had in my life. All of us, Tracy, Troy, Josh, me and Jess, move through this life with the reflection of the incredible morals you have given us. You are our hero and father. I love you dad and miss you every day. Kisses sent to you above.

Tomya Cochran
daughter
November 24, 2011

To my dearest family,
Some things I would like to say,
But first of all, to let you know
That I arrived ok.

I’m writing this from Heaven
Where I dwell with God above,
here there’s no more tears or sadness
There is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy
Just because I’m out of sight.
Remember that I’m with you
Every morning, noon, and night.

That day that I had to leave you
When my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me
And He said, I welcome you.

It’s good to have you back again
You were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest; family
They’ll be here later on.

I need you here so badly
As part of my big plan.
There’s so much that we have to do
To help our mortal man.

Then God gave me a list of things
He wished for me to do.
And foremost on that list of mine
Is to watch and care for you.

And I will be beside you
Every day and week and year.
And when you’re sad,
I’m standing there to wipe away the tears.

And when you lie in bed at night
The days chore put to flight
God and I are closest to you
In the middle of the night.

” When you think of my life on earth
And all those loving years,
Because you’re only human
They’re bound to bring you tears

But do not be afraid to cry
It does relieve the pain.
Remember, there would be no flowers
Unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you
Of all that God has planned,
But if I were to tell you,
You would not understand.

And to my many friends trust,
God knows what it best.
I’m still not very far away from you
I’m just beyond the crest.

And now I am contented that my life,
It was worthwhile.
Knowing as I passed along the way
I made someone smile.

When you’re walking down the street
And you’ve got me on your mind,
I’m walking in your footsteps
Only half a step behind.

And when you feel that gentle breeze
Or the wind upon your face,
That’s me giving you a great big hug
Or just a soft embrace.

And when it’s time for you to go
From that body to be free,
Remember, you’re not going,
You are coming here to me.

And I will always love you
from that land way up above.
I’ll be in touch again soon,

P.S. GOD SENDS HIS LOVE!

Tomya, daughter
October 5, 2011

Dad, we are all missing you so very much and it breaks my heart that you are not here. I know I could really use your shoulder right now. Me and Jess were talking the other day about how different things would be if you were here, to hear your words of wisdom, for you to make a joke so we would laugh and know that everything is going to be ok. We have all had those talks about if only you were here. I know you were with me on 7/19/11 which was one scary day. I know you got me out of that truck and gave me the strength to survive. What any one of us would do just to have one more day, one more minute with you to hear you laugh, say some witty and give us a big hug. I try to always remind my sisters and brothers that you are with us and you can hear us even for us to just say we love you. You would be so proud of all of them, I am. Troy is at LPD carrying on the Cochran name. Josh is at Jefferson and just made the SWAT team, you would be so proud. Tracy is really doing good and of course, still at the Coroner's Dept. Jess wants to be an EMT and I believe she can do it. Well me, I'm headed back to HCJFS to do forensic investigations again. I just wish you were here for all of this and I could see that beautiful grin on your face. And your grandkids, dad if only you could have met little Macy. She would've given you a run for your money. And little Kale, he reminds me so much of Troy. Zachy misses you too and talks of you often. He tries to tell the other grandkids all about their wonderful grandfather. I tell everyone that we have two moms now cuz and boy, Jo'Nee and mom sure make a heck of a team when we need them most. But again, we would all give anything for one more minute with our hero. I love you dad and you will always be my hero. We all remember the words that described you the most, JUSTICE, INTEGRITY, HONOR. Unitl I see you again in the Heavens above dad, keep watch over us. I love and miss you so very much. Love your daughter, Tomya

Tomya Cochran Allen
daugher of Det Sgt Thomas Cochran, EOW 1/26/05
September 15, 2011

Today would have been your 63rd birthday and I miss u more today then ever. I just wish u were here if only for a minute so I could hug u and tell u one more time how much I love u dad. We are all getting together to remember u tonight. I just wish u could walk thru that door. Happy birthday dad. I love u and miss u very much.

Tomya
daughter
August 9, 2011

Tom,
Today would have been your 63rd birthday. You were so full of life. Me and the kids as well as great friends who also love and miss you...will have our yearly get together for dinner to honor your memory, and remember all the great stories. We know you will be with us because you have never left our hearts. You would be so proud of your kids! They are all amazing and I love them so! There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of you...that grin...the sound of your laugh...and your voice saying" I love you"...call you later...as you left our bedroom to go to work on the night of your accident. I can only wait til it is my time to join you. I love and miss you dearly. We all do. Continue to watch over us. Wish you were here to celebrate.

Jo'Nee Cochran
Spouse
August 9, 2011

rest in peace.

maureen rolniak
widow of an officer 2-4-04 det william rolniak jr
June 13, 2011

Hey Dad. LPD put up a memorial with the departments fallen officers names and E.O.W. It was hard, not that it is ever easy. Chuck retired and I couldn't help but think you should be retiring with him. Not that I ever thought you would retire, you loved it to much. Six years. You would think that that day would not be such a vivid memory but it is. I refuse to forget all the memories, I can still here your voice. Six years of feeling like emotionally I was just existing is a long time. Not knowing how to deal with the emotions and the grief was a whirlwind for me. But now feeling I understand it all better. Wish it wouldn't have taken me so long, I missed a lot during those years. Don't think I will ever be able to remember you without a tear with the smile but that's OK that's what makes us human. During those years after loosing you I didn't want to be a nurse (but it was all I knew). It was as hard of a job as yours, watching people loose their loved ones and feeling their pain. It left me with an open wound. I didn't want to continue to feel that pain. But as I have become a little bit stronger, closer to the person I was before I have found the drive to love what I do again. I went through so many jobs scared, so scared I didn't want to go back. I am still very emotionally attached to the lives lost at work more than ever and it sets me back but with a better understanding. I think about all of those families. And I pray they do not judge the way each other deals with the grief but helps them through it. Sometimes I joke and say "remind me why I am a nurse" or " I want a job that doesn't deal with the loss of human lives" but that wouldn't be me. I've come to understand all of these things (and other get tired of hearing me talk) and since we both know I have to tell someone, I came to you. Well me and your grand-daughter are going to go plant flowers. I'll be thinking of you......as I always do.
I love you.

Tracy
Daughter
May 25, 2011

Happy 26th Anniversary Tom. Wish you were here to celebrate with me. I often thnk of "what could have been". I miss you so much. I will always love you.

jo'Nee Cochran
Spouse
April 20, 2011

I can't believe it's been six years today. I think of you so much. Love you, Pat

Pat
Cousin
January 26, 2011

Tom-I think of you & your family on this day-wishing for them peace in their hearts. I have been lucky enough to know them & watch as the kids grow up. Jo-Nee is an inspiration to all of us-she is a special girl-you're lucky to have had her.
You're missed by so many, but never forgotten.

Richie Grant
wife of Deputy Dave Grant/EOW/5/31/04-Tuolumne Co Sheriff's Dept.
January 26, 2011

Tom...remembering this day, 6 years ago, receiving the worst most heartbreaking phone call. You had been in an accident...and it didn't look good. What an understatement that turned out to be. Still can't believe its true. Miss you so very much. Love you forever.

Jo'Nee Cochran
Spouse
January 25, 2011

to the Cochran Family...Each year at this time I think of your family and realize what we both have been through these 6 years and I pray for all of us. Jim's 3rd grandchild is coming this week, all since he has been gone...It was one of the last things we spoke of..how excited he was for that to happen. His youngest is now a Deputy and was given his Dad's Badge number..his brother is also a Deputy. Tom's smile is beautiful ..just like Jim's ..I'd like to think they are in a special place for all the fallen officers and smiling down on us all. Tracy ..I do feel that they are around us ,and if you are open to it ..some day you will feel that too. If not around then in our hearts . May they both rest in Peace. I am having a Mass said for Jim and all other fallen officers and the families they left behind on Saturday .. I will think of the Cochran Family ...

Maureen Tutino
Mom of Deputy James Tutino LASD EOW1/26/05
January 20, 2011

Thinking of you and all of your loved ones during this holiday season. I know it is especially hard to celebrate holidays when all we think about are the ones we have lost, but we carry on and take one day at a time, thats about all any of us can do besides keeping the memory of our lost heroes alive. You will never be forgotten as true heroes never die. Continue to watch over all of your loved ones.

Bob Gordon
Father of Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04
December 13, 2010

Hey Dad. Christmas is almost here. I've held it together this year but I guess that doesn't matter much, it is always something. I will miss you this year, same as years before. I can not believe it has been 6 years. Still ready to move, hate this place. Hate Aurora but kids have grown up here and Jonee, Josh, and Jess are here. Tomya is doing good, so glad to see her happy again and things get less stressful for her.
I still struggle with things but only because I have came a long way and fight to find that person you use to know. I don't know the answers but I try. For some trying isn't enough. I have never said I was perfect or that your death has changed me. It made me see how fragile I can be. But I didn't know how to deal with you being gone and Chuck is the only one who has been here through it ALL. You were right he does take care of me and does a fine job. If it were not for him and the kids I know I would have given up a long time ago. You are so needed here. I talk to you almost daily though I don't know if you can hear me. Your were such a positive part of my life and someone I could always turn to, or you'd just drag it out of me because you knew when something was bothering me. Well I was thinking of you and thought I'd leave you a note. Jonee and the kids are doing ok. I worry about Jess and all she has gone through with her back. I know that stresses Jonee. I wish I has your strength. Riley, Syd and Macy are my world. They are such good kids. Riley has turned into an awesome young man and Syd is such a beautiful young lady. Macy is still Macy, smart as a tack and the most outspoken 4 year old I have ever met. She is certain she has met you before. And I just tell her grandpa sent you to me.She says "I know". AnywayI will be thinking of you during the holidays and praying next month I continue to hold it together but I'll have to for the kids birthdays. I love you, I will alway miss you and selfishly want you with me.
I'll write again soon.

Love you.

Tracy
December 5, 2010

Sorry I didn't write on your birthday, I still have a hard time with you being gone. Still can't wrap my head around the fact that it is gone for ever, like your on a trip and will be home. I still dream your here with us and i can see your face, hear your voice and touch your hand. I still can't believe how weak of a person I have become, lucky to manage to get up out of bed. What happened to me, where did that strong, smart and capable person go? And why can't i find her. Why can no one see or understand the pain and damage. It doesn't look that everyone who has lost someone just stop living and just exist. This sure is not the life I signed up for. We don't do your poker run anymore and I can't understand why cause I know you'd love it like a kid loves candy.
I wish more than anything you could have met Macy. She talks about you like she met you in heaven before she was born. You would love her. She is a little you, your mini me.She cracks jokes (and she thinks they are hysterical)just like you. She would have wrestled with you, you wouldn't have been able to scare her. She would talk your arm off for sure. And God she is beautiful and what saved my life. She was supposed to be induced on the anniversary of your death but I wouldn't let them, I didn't want her birthday to be a sad day. She is the only reason I have to celebrate holidays (not that I am celebrating on the inside). I wish you could talk to me in my dreams, give me advice, push me to find myself.
Well Happy belated Birthday. The fair is here and I will be looking for you in uniform like all the years before. I love you and still miss you as much as the day you left us.

Tracy
Daughter
September 27, 2010