Officer Down Memorial Page

Hey grandpa, sorry I havent wrote you since in 2007 i think about you all the time though. I went and got a tattoo of a badge with your initals, bday, badge number and roses. Im not sure if you would like it but i wanted something in memory of you. Alex is now a Junior in high school hurts more body parts than anyone i know of from football. mom and dad is doin great and im doin ok as well. we all miss you so much and love you

Brittany
Granddaughter
May 24, 2012

Your heroism and service is honored today, the 21rst anniversary year of your death. Your memory lives and you continue to inspire. Thank you for your service. My cherished son Larry Lasater was a fellow police officer who was murdered in the the line of duty on April 24, 2005 while serving as a Pittsburg, CA police officer.

Time never diminishes respect. Your memory will always be honored and revered. I pray for the solace of all those who love and remember you.

Rest In Peace.

Phyllis Loya
Mom of fallen California Officer Larry Lasater, Pittsburg PD, eow 4/24/05
January 20, 2012

Hey daddy, I was just setting here thinking about you and thinking about how many thanksgiving dinners we have missed. Its been over 20 yrs with you and 10 for mom.
Daddy i am getting old.. ha ha I was up in the hills the other day and just about didnt get back out. my knees and lungs are letting me down. I wish things was like the way it was back when i was little. I knew that you would fix anything. I try to do what i think is right, I dont have anybody any more. I think i did wrong by getting out of the army. My kids dont want anything to do with me because of what they hear from their moms. I tryed the other day with ethan , That didnt work. Amber has so much hate for me. I know it was hard on her while i was gone in the army. But why cant she have her own mind about me?
I miss you and love you. Please keep an eye out for my babies and let them know that i love them.

Mikel Kidwell
Son
November 27, 2011

gary it has been a while since ethan and I visited this for you, its not that we,ve not been thinking about you, just alot going on as you know. With all the bad things that have been wrote on here about me I really wasn't sure if I should but you are Ethan,s grandpa, of course as you know the truth it is all absolute lies and slander, and you deserve reflections from your grandson as well. He is growing so much. He's 4 now and so handsome. He talks about you everyday. He has your picture by his bed so you can watch over him. I really wish you were here with us I know things would be so different. Everything has been so so hard Gary. I tried so hard, but it just wasn't good enough, its hard seeing ethan going through it the most, he's the most precious little boy in this world and its so unfair to him he has to miss out on you,and his dad abandoned him. He is so tough though he has a constant smile and big dimples just like you, we may have lost you but you still carry on everyday in our hearts and Ethan is so proud of his pappaw Gary. Just the other day we were eating in a restaurant there was these 2 state troopers came in Ethan said look mommy there's my pappaw Gary and he wanted to go hug them tears began to stream down my face, oh Gary how I wish he could hug you and play with you, he loves you so so so very much. I know the two of you would have been the bestest of friends. He loves dogs tremendously just like they say you did. He's been trying to talk his other pappaw into taking him coonhunting imagine that...
It has been so hard' I know everything happens for a reason sometimes its hard to see that reason, I guess its like that song : we'll understand it in the sweet bye and bye: We love you Gary and SuE

april and ethan
grandson
June 12, 2011

Reading the various entries from this officer's son makes me realize the longterm and lasting effects of the loss of a parent. It makes the death of a beloved mother or father all that much harder to deal with when the punishment is not what was expected.

I truly hope this officer's loved ones can find themselves, find a way to carry on in a manner that would make their dad proud, and follow the straight and narrow as he did.

Gary, watch over your loved ones and guide them as best you can. Your loss has obviously devasted many lives.

RIP brother. You are not forgotten.

Constable Amanda Pandolfi
York Regional Police, Ontario Canada
March 15, 2011

I want to thank you Mr. Kidwell. Your service and sacrifice will never be forgot. I also want to thank your son for his service to our country. I have had the chance to met your son and he is so awsome. He once told me that he wants to be just like his dad.
It is hard on him not seeing his little boy, I dont know what happen, But i can ensure you if he felt like something was wrong he must have had a good reason. He talks about his family and his wife all the time. April i know with out a dought that he still loves you and cares deeply for you. He has cryed over and over again worrying about you and your heath. And also talks about the good times you guys had.
Mikel, i have not heard from you for days. Please becareful and let me know if you are ok. I was just setting here thinking about you and it came across my mind that today is when you lost your mom. I know you must be hurting and down, I wish the best for you and hope to hear from you soon.

Cristina
December 14, 2010

HEY DADDY, JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT I WAS IN CARTER CO. WENDSDAY. I TALKED TO A GUY WHO WORKS AT THE PRISON THAT THE GUY WHO KILLED YOU IS IN. HE TOLD ME THAT HE IS PAYING FOR IT EVERY DAY. SAID THAT HE IS AN OUT CAST IN THERE. AND THAT HE IS LOOKING LIKE HE IS 70 YEARS OLD.
BOBBY SAID NOT TO WORRY CAUSE HE IS NOT GOING ANY WHERE. I CPOULDNT BELIVE THAT I RAN IN TO A GUY WHO GAURDS HIM. I TOLD BOBBY TO LET HIM KNOW THAT HE RAN IN TO ME, AND THAT I AM NOT THAT LITTLE KID NO MORE. AND I HAVE NOT FORGOT...
I THINK GOD THAT THE GUY WHO KIILED MY DADDY IS HAVEING A HARD TIME. I LOST MY GRAND PAW , GRAND MAW AND MOMMY CAUSE OF WORRYING OVER WHAT HE DID TO MY DADDY. I WILL NEVER FORGET, NEVER. IT IS HARD ON A KID 13 YEARS OLD AND HIS DADDY GETS KILLED, HIS GRAND MAW AND GRAND PAW WORRY AND GRIVE THEIR SELF TODEATH AND THEN LOSE YOUR MOM ON TOP OF ALL THAT. OH NO... I'LL NEVER FORGET. NOT EVER. TO LISTEN TO MY LITTLE BOY ASK HOW COME PAW PAW GARY CANT COME PLAY WITH ME?
I MISS YOU DADDY AND LOVE YOU

MIKEL
SON
November 19, 2010

Mikel. you need to stop downing April and Kim.....This forumn is not for that..I would sue you if I was one of them........this is to let your Dad know how much you love and miss him.

Anonymous
November 18, 2010

Mikel, You need to stop talking about Kim and April...This says,it is not a forum to display family grievances..go somewere else

Anonymous
November 18, 2010

HEY DADDY, TODAY IS MY BABY BOYS B-DAY. LET HIM KNOW THAT DADDY LOVES HIM AND MISS'S HIM. I COULD CALL UP THERE TO HIS GRAND MAW AND TELL HER TO TELL HIM FOR ME , BUT I CANT TRUST THEM.
APRIL TOLD A JUGDE THAT SHE FEARED FOR HER LIFE AND ETHANS TOO. THAT I WAS A TICKING TIME BOMB.. HA HA SHE TOLD THEM THAT THE ARMY HAD TRAINED ME TO KILL, AND THAT SHE IS SCEARED OF ME BECAUSE OF WHAT I HAD TO DO IN WAR. I NEVER ASKED TO BE TREATED THIS WAY. I THINK IT IS A LOW DOWN SHAME THAT A JUGDE WOULD EVEN THINK ABOUT LISTENING TO A BUNCH OF LYES. I ALMOST HATE THIS COUNTRY ANY MORE. THERE GUYS LIKE ME GETTING HOME FROM WAR AND HAVEING A HARD TIME ADJUSTING BACK TO CIV. LIFE. SO EVERY ONE AROUND THEM PRETTY MUCH CUTTS THEM OUT OF THEIR LIFE. BUT I KNOW THAT I DID EVERY THING I DID TO KEEP THEM SAFE AT NIGHT WHILE THEY WHERE IN THE BED ASLEEP"""EVEN MY SO CALLED WIFE AT THE TIME WITH ANOTHER MAN.""". I LAYED OUT IN THE DESERT FOR WEEKS AT A TIME, WITH LITTLE OR NO FOOD. THINKING ABOUT HOME, HOW IS EVERYONE? THINGS LIKE THAT. THEN TAKE BULLETS AND SPILL MY BLOOD. JUST SO I CAN BE TREATED LIKE A DOG WHEN I GET HOME. TO WHERE YOUR SO CALLED WIFE CANT HANDLE YOU DREAMING ABOUT WAR, KILLING, YOUR DEAD BUUDYS, AND JUMPING AT EVERY LOUD NOISE. MAN IT REALLY MAKES YOU FEEL GOOD TO KNOW YOUR LOVED THAT MUCH. I LEFT ONE THING OUT, AS LONG AS I WAS HANDING OUT MONEY, THEY KNEW ME THEN!!!
I EVEN CAME HOME AND GOT APRIL OUT OF BEING BEAT ON AND ABUSED. PUT HER UP IN A SAFE HOUSE , GAVE HER MONEY TO GET BY ON, SENT HER MORE MONEY FROM IRAQ, OH YAH, SENT HER MORE MONEY FOR WILSONS B-DAY, AND X-MAS. SENT HER THING ALL THE TIME. WHEN I GOT BACK TO HARLAN GOT HER A CAR. AND THIS IS HOW SHE REPAYS ME. BY GO OUT WITH EVERY THING SHE CAN GET. WILSONS DADDY AND GRANDPAW TOLD ME SHE WAS LIKE THAT. EVEN HER OWN COUSIN SAID IT TOO.
IT IS JUST HARD TO THINK ABOUT MY BABY BEING AWAY FROM ME, THAT IS WHY I SERVED MY COUNTRY FOR MY FAMILY, AND YOU KNOW WHAT REALY HURTS? I HAVE NOT HEARD FROM NO BODY FROM HOME. IT IS LIKE I DONT EVEN KNOW THEM ANY MORE. KIM WONT TALK BECAUSE SHE IS AFRAID I'LL GO OFF ON HER FOR TAKE THE STUFF OUT OF MY HOUSE. BUT I STILL LOVE HER NO MATTER WHAT.
I KNOW I'M LOVED HERE. IT'S NOT LIKE HOME. I HEAR THINK YOU BABY. EVERY TIME I DO SOMETHING. I AM BEING TOLD I LOVE YOU, OVER AND OVER ALL DAY. CRISTINA IS ALL THE FAMILY I HAVE. AND I GUESS THAT IS ALL I NEED IF I'M JUST GOING TO BE TREATED LIKE A DOG BY EVERYBODY ELES.
WELL IT IS STARTING TO GET COLD UP HERE. FOGG STAYS ON UP UNTILL AROUND 9 OR 10. IT MAKES IT A COLD MORNING. SNOW BY NEXT WEEK. I GUESS I BETTER GET OFF HERE AND DO SOME WORK OR JUST LOOK LIKE I AM ANY WAY. OH YAH, I SEEN A BIG BUCK YESTERDAY, HE WAS DARK BROWN. MY BUDDY THAT IS A FISH AND GAME OFFICER SAID IT WAS FROM PIGMANTATION. JUST LIKE ONE BEING WHITE OR ALL BLACK. ALL I KNOW WAS HE SURE LOOKED FUNNY. HE HAD HIS HEAD DOWN TO THE GROUND TRAILING A DOE. I LET HIM WALK BY THIS TIME. I SEEN 3 DIFFERANT DEER THAT WILL SCORE IN THE 190 TO 200 RANGE. THEY ARE SMART TOO.I COULD HAVE TRYED MY LUCK AT ONE SATERDAY EVE BUT HE WAS BEHIND A THICKIT OF CEADER BUSH. ALL YOU COULD SEE WAS A BIG RACK THAT LOOKED LIKE A MOOSE. HA HA . I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU, LET MY BABY BOY KNOW I LOVE HIM AND HAPPY B-DAY. I MISS YOU ETHAN AND LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT YOU HEAR.

MIKEL
SON
November 16, 2010

HEY DADDY, JUST SETTING HERE THINKING ABOUT YOU AND MOM. I'M DOING OK, I HAVE NOT HEARD ANYTHING FROM ANYBODY DOWN HOME. I WAS OUT IN THE WOODS THE OTHER DAY, MAN DEER ARE BIG UP HERE NEXT TO OHIO. I SEEN BUCKS THAT WOULD SCORE 170 AND 180+ OUT THERE. I GOT SOME BUDDYS THAT ARE FISH AND GAME OFFICERS AND STATE TROOPERS. THEY HAVE TOOK ME UNDER THEIR WINGS. THEY TELL ME THEY REMEMBER YOUR NAME.. I HONESTLY THINK THEY ARE TRYING TO GET ME LOST UP HERE. BUT THIS OLE FALL LICK CREEK BOY SHOWS THEM ALL UP.. HA HA LETS JUST SAY CRISTINA AND I DONT HAVE TO BUY ANY MEAT FOR AWHILE. HA HA I'M GOING ON A DEER DRIVE NEXT WEEK WITH THEM. UNCLE SAM LEARNED ME TO MUCH.... THEY HAVE NICKED NAMED ME BOONE. ONE OF THE FISH AND GAME OFFICER WAS IN ROCKCASTLE CO. FOR 5 YEARS. HIS NAME IS CORBY SMITH. HE MUST HAVE GOT ON HIS CUMPUTER AND CHECKED ME OUT,, HE SAID,, BOONE IF THE BUCK DONT MOVE, DONT SHOOT IT FULL OF HOLES LIKE YOU DID BEFORE.. HA HA I JUST SMILLED AT HIM CAUSE I KNEW HE KNEW ABOUT ME SHOOTING THAT DUMMY DEER UP ON SHELTON RIGDE. I HAD A GUY FROM THE BOW SHOP ASK ME TO GUIDE HIM ON A HUNT. HE HAD GOT A ELK TAG AND WANTED SOME BODY TO SHOW HIM WHERE TO GO. I COULD HAVE TOOK HIM UP IN HARLAN AND PIKE CO BUT I KNEW IF I WENT THAT FAR. I WOULD HAVE TO GO SEE IF I COULD FIND MY BABY BOY.
I KNOW IT IS HARD ON HIM, CAUSE I KNOW WHAT IS LIKE NOT TO HAVE YOU ANY MORE. MY CHILD HOOD WAS TOOK AWAY CAUSE I HAD TO GROW UP AND WACTH OVER MY MOM AND 2 SISTERS. SOME TIMES I THINK ABOUT GOING UP THERE TO HARLAN AND TRYING TO SEE HIM, BUT I TRYED TO WORK IT OUT LAST FALL WITH HIS MOMMY, BUT SHE JUST IS TO HARD TO GET ALONE WITH.
BUT I'VE FOUND CRISTINA NOW AND SHE LOVES ME FOR WHO I AM, JUST AN OLE BOY FROM FALL LICK. I FEEL SO LUCKY TO HAVE HER. EVEN WHEN I AM A JERK SHE STILL LOVES ME ANY WAY. WELL I LOVE YOU AND MOM . I'LL TALK TO YOU LATER.

MIKEL
SON
November 8, 2010

HEY DADDY, I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU I'M OK. IN OHIO, WEST VIRGINA, AND KY. I WORK FOR JOHN DEERE. IT IS NEVER THE SAME. ALWAYS BUSY. I THOUGHT OF YOU YESTERDAY, I WAS IN WAYNE WEST VIRGINA OUT ON A FARM CRISTINA'S DAD OWN'S. I GOT FEEDERS UP FOR THE DEER. I HAD 11 DOES AND 2 BUCKS FEEDING UNDER THE FEEDRS. I HEARD A NOISE BEHIND ME AND I SEEN A BIG OLE DARK COLORED COON WALKING DOWN THE CREEK GOING TOWARD THE FEEDERS. HE WAS SO FAT HE COULD HARDLY WALK. WELL I NEED TO GO BACK TO WORK. I LOVE AND MISS YOU. I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU DADDY. I'LL ALWAYS WRITE TO YOU. WATCH OVER MY BABY BOY AND LET HIM KNOW HIS DADDY LOVES HIM.

MIKEL RAY
SON
October 22, 2010

HEY DADDY, JUST SETTING HERE THINKING ABOUT YOU AND MOM. I WAS AT SCHOOL WITH CRISTINA THE OTHER NIGHT HELPING HER GET HER CLASS ROOM IN ORDER,, I WALKED OUT IN THE PARKING LOT AND I COULD HEAR COON HOUNDS RUNNING A COON IN THE CREEK BOTTOM NEXT TO HER SCHOOL. IT MADE ME THINK OF YOU. ONE OLE DOG HAD A BIG LOUD MOUTH ON HIM, I LISTEN TO THEM TRACK THE COON FOR ABOUT 10 MIN. THE LOUD DOG STARTED BOOING, I KNEW HE WAS LOOKING UP THEN. ALL AT ONCE , IT WAS EVERY BREATH. HE WAS CHOPPING AS HARD AS HE COULD GO. MAN IT MADE ME THINK BACK. IT WAS ALL I COULD DO BUT NOT TO TAKE OFF TO THE DOGS.
I REMEMBER ONE NIGHT WE WAS UP IN GRIFFEY HOLLOW, THE DOGS HAD A COON UP AN OLD OAK TREE. I THINK I WAS AROUND 5 OR 6 YEARS OLD. YOU SAID HERE BOY HOLD THE LIGHT ON HIM , AND I'LL GET HIM FOR YOU. MY EYES GOT BIG WHEN YOU STARTED CLIMING THE TREE. YOU TOOK YOUR COAT OFF AND RAN YOUR SLEAVE BACKWARDS, GRABED THAT COON BY THE TAIL AND PULLED HIM INSIDE OF YOUR COAT.
I MISS YOU DADDY. AND LOVE YOU . GOT TO GET BACK TO WORK, CHECK ON MY BABY BOY FOR ME AND TELL HIM I LOVE HIM.

MIKEL RAY
SON
September 8, 2010

HEY DADDY, JUST THOUGHT I WOULD SAY THAT I MISS YOU. IT IS SO HARD SOME TIMES IN LIFE. BUT WE ALL FALL DOWN, BUT EVERYTHING WILL BE O.K IF WE JUST GET BACK UP AND STAND OUR GROUND.
I MISS MY BABY BOY SO BAD, DADDY IF YOU CAN PLEASE LET HIM KNOW THAT HIS DADDY LOVES HIM AND THINKS ABOUT HIM ALL THE TIME. I KNOW IT IS HARD ON HIM, HELL I KNOW HOW IT IS NOT TO GET TO BE WITH YOUR DADDY. PLEASE LOOK OVER HIM.
TELL HIM THIS FOR ME DADDY,,, ETHAN, I LOVE YOU BABY BOY, YOU ARE MY LIFE, THERE IS NOT A DAY GO'S BY I DONT THINK ABOUT YOU, WHAT YOU ARE DOING, IF YOU HAVE FOOD, IF YOUR MOMMY TELLS YOU ABOUT ME. I LOVE YOU BABY BOY AND MISS YOU.
DADDY I DONT HEAR MUCH FROM KIM AND KRISTI, TO TELL YOU THE TRUTH I'M STILL HURT AT KIM, SHE DID ME SO WRONG BY TRASHING MY HOUSE AND GOING IN AND TAKING EVERYTHING. I WAS SO MAD,,,, BUT I JUST THOUGHT ABOUT YOU AND MOM. I STILL HAVE NOT SAID ANYTHING TO HER ABOUT IT, BUT SHE KNOWS I KNOW. SHE EVEN TRYS TO ADVOID ME NOW, DADDY I TRYED TO BE GOOD TO HER, SHE IS MY BIG SIS. I SENT HER MONEY FROM THE ARMY, WHEN I WAS IN I WOULD FILL UP HER CAR WITH GAS, BUY HER CIGS, POP ANY THING SHE NEEDED. I LET HER MOVE IN MY HOUSE, LIKE A FOOL I LEFT TO WATER A ND ELECT ON IN MY NAME. I HAD TO PAY OVER $250 FOR WATER, AND $600 FOR ELECT.
ALL I ASKED HER WAS NOT TO HAVE ALL OF HER BOY FRIENDS IN THE HOUSE, OH WELL.....
I HAVE NOT HEARD FROM KRISTI FOR EVER. I THINK SHE IS DOING FINE. I THINK SHE HAS THE RIGHT IDEAL BY STAYING AWAY FROM CRAB ORCHARD,,,I MISS MY FAMILY, BUT I GUESS WE ALL HAVE GONE OUR OWN WAYS.
DADDY PLEASE LOOK AFTER MY 2 SIS, MY WORST FEAR IS I GET A CALL SAYING SOMETHING HAS HAPPEN TO KIM, OR NO ONE KNOWS WHERE SHE IS, OR SOME OLD TRASHY MAN THAT SHE HANGS AROUND KILLED HER OR SOMETHING.. I KNOW THAT KRISTI IS TOOK GOOG CARE OF, BRIAN IS A GOOD MAN, HE THOUGHT A LOT OF YOU DADDY AND I THINK HE STILL DOES. JUST LET KRISTI KNOW I LOVE HER AND MISS HER.
TELL MOM, GRAND MA KIDWELL, GRAND PA KIDWELL, AND EVERY BODY I MISS THEM AND LOVE THEM.
PLEASE BE WITH MY BABY BOY DADDY, LOOK OVER HIM, I KNOW HE IS IN BAD PLACE TO GROW UP, THE DRUGS AND THINGS ARE SO BAD UP THERE. I PRAY HIS MOMMY DONT GET BACK ON THEM. SO HE CAN HAVE SOME SHORT OF A LIFE. APRIL IS A GOOD MOMMY, I DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPEN, MAYBE DRUGS? I DONT KNOW. SHE JUST STARTED GOING OFF. OH WELL....
AMBER JUST DONT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME AT ALL. HER MOM HAS TURNED HER AWAY FROM ME, I'M NOT GOING TO FUSS WITH THEM JUST TO GET TO HER HER TELL ME WHAT EVER!!!
WELL I NEED TO GO NOW, CRISTINA HAS MADE ME SOME HOME MADE CHICKEN SOUP... SHE IS SO GOOD TO ME DADDY. I KNOW YOU AND MOM WOULD LOVE HER. SHE HAS STARTED SCHOOL, SHE LOVES IT. SHE HAS 24 KIDS. 1 FROG, 1 TURTLE, 2 TADPOLES AND A BUG OF SOME SHORT. HA WE GET ALONG SO GOOD, WELL I NEED TO EAT AND GET BACK TO WORK, WORKING ON A FORD 3000 LIKE GRAND PA KIDWELLS. I HAD A TEAR IN MY EYES FROM THINKING ABOUT HIM DRIVING UP THE FEILD,,,, I LOVE YOU DADDY

MIKEL RAY
SON
August 30, 2010

HEY DADDY, JUST SETTING HERE AT WORK, THOUGHT I WOULD TELL YOU I'M IN WEST VIRGINA, HUNTINGTON. I STARTED WORK FOR JOHN DEERE. EVERYTHING IS GOING GOOD. PLEASE WACTH OVER MY BABY BOY AND LET HIM KNOW DADDY LOVES HIM. I DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT THEM NOW, SHE IS TRYYING TO KEEP HIM AWAY FROM ME. SAYS BECAUSE OF MY PAST ARMY TRAINING AND THINGS I DID IN WAR, MAKES HER AFRAID OF ME.HA HA WHAT EVER... I LOVE YOU DADDDY. ME AND CRISTINA ARE DOING GREAT. I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY IN MY LIFE. NO ARGUING, YELLING, OR NOTHEN. I CANT BELIVE IT.

MIKEL RAY
SON
August 14, 2010

HEY DAD, JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT EVERY THING IS GOING FINE. AMBER IS GOING TO BE IN THE FAIR PAGENT THIS YEAR,,, I DONT KNOW ABOUT IT MY SELF. THATS MY BABY GIRL UP THERE EVERY ONE IS LOOKING AT!!! SHE IS SO PRETTY.
ETHAN IS DOING FINE LAST I HEARD. HIS MOMMY WANT LET ME TALK TO HIM OR SEE HIM RIGHT NOW. HE IS AT HIS GRANND PA UP IN HARLAN. IT IS SO HARD BEING AWAY FROM HIM. BUT I THINK IT IS BETTER FOR HIM NOT LISTENING TO ME AND APRIL FIGHTING OVER THINGS SHE COMES UP WITH IN HER HEAD.
FEMALES...... LORD HELP THEM....HA HA I CAN STILL REMEMBER THE NIGHT ME, YOU AND COY LEDFORD WAS COON HUNTING UP ON COPPER CREEK. YOU HAD ME UP ON YOUR SHOULDERS PACKING ME AROUND THE WOODS AFTER THE DOGS. COY STARTED GIVING ME GIRL ADVICE.. HA HA SO THATS WHERE I LEARNED EVERY THING,,, HA HA
ME AND CRISTINA ARE DOING GREAT. DADDY SHE IS SO GOOD TO ME. SHE IS A SCHOOL TEACHER, AND ADVISER... SHE HAS 2 DEG. IN TEACHING AND THINGS.. SHE IS A EX-ARMY WIFE OF A LT COL. . SHE HAS A LITTLE GIRL NAMED HEATHER.
SHE IS GETTING READY TO MOVE ME UP NORTH,,, OUT OF THE HILLS.. I GUESS I CAN HANDLE IT.. HA HA THE ARMY DID LEARN ME TO OVER COME ANY THING. EVEN IF IT MEANS GOING NORTH!!!! HA HA WELL I NEED TO GET BACK TO WORK. I WORK FOR JONNIE CONNLEY AT THE WARNER FERTLIZER PLANT IN STANFORD. I ALSO MANAGE ALL OF HIS FARMS. I PLANT CORN, SOY BEANS, ROLL HAY, FEED COWS AND HORSES YOU NAME IT I DO IT. COONS EVERY WHERE, DEER EAT OUR SOY BEANS ALMOST TO THE GROUND,, JUST TO SAY WE HAD A LOT OF MEAT!!!! HA HA
DADDY PLEASE WACTH OVER MY BABYS WHILE THEY ARE AWAY FROM ME. I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU. HAPPY FATHERS DAY DADDY..

Mikel Ray
Son
June 19, 2010

I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU I HAVE FOUND THE MOST AMAZING WOMAN. HER NAME IS CRISTINA. SHE IS A SCHOOL TEACHER. AND A REALLY GOOD PERSON. SHE CARES FOR ME. SHE WILL LISTEN TO EVERY THING I SAY. I HAVE NEVER HAD THAT BEFORE. IT HELPS ME TALKING TO HER ABOUT WAR AND THINGS THAT BUG ME. I FEEL LIKE I HAVE SOME ONE WHO CARES ABOUT WHAT I AM FEELING. SHE IS SO PRETTY. SHE LIVES IN ASHLAND BUT SHE IS A TEACHER IN LEX. SHE OWNS A HOUSE HERE TOO. SHE IS SO GOOD AT HER JOB. SHE WANTS ME TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL TO GET MY DEGREE. SHE HAS FAITH IN ME.
I KNOW THAT YOU AND MOM ARE LOOKING OVER ME. JUST WHEN I THINK I HAVE LOST EVERY THING,,,,, I FIND EVERY THING AND MORE. ONLY GOD KNOWS WAIT WILL BECOME. THANK YOU FOR BEING HERE DADDY.

MIKEL KIDWELL
SON
April 20, 2010

IT IS ME AGAIN DADDY. I KNOW YOU ARE BUSY MAKING UP LOST TIME WITH GRAND MA AND GRAND PAW AND MOM, BUT I NEED YOU GUYS. MY FAMILY HAS BEEN TORE APART. I HAVE NO ONE NOW. ALL I THINK OF IS WAR AND KILLING. I KNOW MY MIND IS NOT RIGHT NOW. APRIL WAS A GOOD GIRL DADDY, I JUST CANT SEE WAY SHE DID ME THAT WAY. I TOOK AND GOT HER AWAY FROM A GUY WHO WAS BEATING HER AND TRYING TO KILL HER EVERY DAY. I WENT AND GOT HER AND PUT HER IN A SAFE HOUSE. WENT BACK TO IRAQ AND SENT HER MONEY TO TAKE CARE OF HER AND HER SON. I HAVE BOUGHT HER CARS ANY THING SHE EVER WANTED. I EVEN BOUGHT A NEW HOUSE. AND NOW SHE DONT WANT TO BE HERE FOR ME....

mikel ray kidwell
SON
April 19, 2010

Daddy, I HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT MY PROBLEM AND I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT I THINK I'LL BE OK. I UNDERSTAND THAT EVERY THING IN LIFE DON'T WORK OUT SOME TIME'S. I KNOW YOUR HERE FOR ME. YOU ALWAYS HAD YOUR WORDS AND WAYS YOU DID THINGS. I REMEMBER OUR NIGHTS COON HUNTING OVER ON FALL LICK. I TRY SO HARD TO BE JUST LIKE YOU. ETHAN IS 3 AND LOOKS JUST LIKE YOU. HE SEEN YOUR PIC. AND ASKED ME TO CALL YOU SO YOU COULD COME OVER AND PLAY... I WANT TO BE JUST LIKE YOU, I WANT TO LOVE MY KIDS TO SOME WAY YOU DID YOURS.
EVEN IF ME AND APRIL END UP APART. I THINK IT IS HOW IT IS JUST CAUSE.... I'LL BE OK. THEY ARE PLENTY OF OTHER LADIES OUT THERE. I JUST HAVE HELD ON SO LONG.. I KNOW WHAT IT IS LIKE TO GROW UP WITH OUT A DADDY , AND I TRIED SO HARD TO MAKE IT WORK WITH APRIL.
TELL MOM I LOVE HER TOO.. I KNOW YOU TWO LOOK OVER ME. I CAN STILL SEE YOUR SMILE. IT HURTS SO BAD ON THE DAYS I LOST MY GUY'S IN IRAQ. I LOST 11 TOTAL. IT HAS MADE ME SO COLD HEARTED AND FULL OF HATERED. I HAD TO DO SO MANY THINGS IN IRAQ, DADDY, I HAD TO PICK UP BODY PARTS OF MY MEN. HOLD THEM WHEN THEY TOOK THEIR LAST BREATH. MY HANDS FEEL LIKE THE BLOOD WILL NEVER COME OFF. I THOUGHT THE OTHER DAY ABOUT HOW MANY LIVES I HAD TOOK. AND I CAN NOT BEGIN TO START TO COUNT THEM. I DID WHAT I WAS TRAINED TO DO. BUT IT HURTS SO BAD TO DREAM EVERY NIGHT ABOUT WAR. EVERY LOUD NOISE I JUMP. I SEE A BOX OR ROCK ON THE SIDE OF THE ROAD AND I SWERVE, BECAUSE I THINK IT IS A I.E.D . MY WHOLE LIFE HAS CHANGED SO MUCH THAT MY WIFE CAN NOT STAND ME. PLEASE HELP...... I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART.

mikel kidwell
son
April 15, 2010

Daddy just wanted to ask you what to do here? i gave up my whole army life for april and now this!!!!! help me me out here....

mikel ray kidwell
son
April 13, 2010

Wanted to stop in and visit and leave a short note. You have not been forgotten, nor will those that love you so much ever let them happen.

"What we have done for ourselves alone dies with us;
What have have done for others and the world,
remains and is immortal. by Albert Pike.

Your memory will be immortal for all you have done for others.

Bob Gordon
Father of Chicago Officer: Michael P. Gordon, EOW: 8/8/04
March 5, 2010

DADDY, IT HAS BEEN A WHILE SINCE I VISITED YOUR SIGHT. THIS WORLD IS SPINNING FAST AND I HAVE JUST BEEN TRYING TO HOLD ON. WISH YOU COULD BE HERE TO SEE ALL OF GRANDBABIES. KORTNEE HAS GRADUATED, IN COLLEGE. SHE LOOKS LIKE AN EGYPTIAN GODDESS. YOU SHOULD SEE HER EYES. BRITTANY HAS GRADUATED, GOT A BOYFRIEND. I LOVE HER TO DEATH. SHE HAS THE BEST PERSONALITY, SWEET AND MEAN.HAHA. SCOTT IS OVER SIXFOOT TALL. WEARS A 14 SHOE. HE IS A REALLY GOOD KID. ALEX IS FOLLOWING IN YOUR ABD BRIANS STEPS. THE KID LIVES AND BREATHES FOOTBALL. HE HAS THE MOST GORGEOUS SMILE. JACOB IS A STRAIGHT A STUDENT, MEMBER OF THE NATIONAL HONOR SOCIETY. HE IS SO FUNNY. HE SPEAKS HIS MIND. I HOPE HE IS CENTRE COLLEGE BOUND. AMBER IS A PISTOL. SHE HAS ME ROLLING WITH LAUGHTER AT TIMES. SHE ISNT GOING TO TAKE ANY CRAP OFF OF ANYONE. ETHAN WAS GROWING AND SO PRETTY LAST TIME I SEEN HIM. HE LIVES IN THE MOUNTAINS WITH HIS MOM, SO WE NEVER SEE HIM. ALL OF US KIDS ARE STILL IN THE LINCOLN AREA. SO MUCH HAS CHANGED. WE MISS YOU AND THINK OF YOU DAILY. WATCH OVER THE GRANDBABIES. THEY NEED ALL OF THE HELP THEY CAN GET IN THIS CRAZY WORLD.

kimberly kidwell
daughter
September 17, 2009

Gary, Your 2 beautiful grand daughters are getting ready to finish their Senior years in high school, Kortnee....is so beautiful in her hot pink gown....Britt, I am not sure how her gown will be this year...If Sue was still here she probably would have made both their gowns !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We still miss you after all these years....I love you & Sue.......So many years have come & gone .....I still can hear your laughter .....

Vicki
Sister-in-law
March 11, 2009

IN LOVING MEMORY OF MY FATHER
STANFORD PATROLMAN
GARY E. KIDWELL
July 16, 1949 ~ January 20, 1991


I didn't forget you dad
I'm here today
To pay tribute to your memory
On this sad day.
~
I visit your grave
It's not too far away
But one day I'll see you
I wait for that day.
~
I know you can see me
And all that I do
I hope you are pleased
With the life that I choose.
~
Your memory lives on
In my heart and soul
My love for you
Will never grow cold.
~
On December fourteenth, 2001
You reached down your hand
To help mom on her trip
To the promised land.
~
In a vision I could see
Your smiling face
As you reached for her gently
She accepted with grace.
~
You're together again
My mom and my dad
I know that you'll help her
And for this I am glad.
~
I go on with my life
And take it day by day
My sister, My brother, and I
Will see you both someday.
~
I love you dad......
I love you mom......
And I miss you both
But I must go on......

Your daughter,
Kristi Kidwell McGuffey

Kristi
daughter
January 20, 2009

Just wanted to stop by and let you and your family know that we will be thinking of you and them today. We have not forgotten and we never will. My blue candles still burn bright in Fort Walton Beach for all L.E.O.'s.
Our prayers are with your family.

Connie Barker
Mother of Clint Walker E.O.W. 1-14-04
January 20, 2009