Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Police Officer II Glen Alvin Gaspar

Honolulu Police Department, Hawaii

End of Watch Tuesday, March 4, 2003

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Reflections for Police Officer II Glen Alvin Gaspar

yesterday, I missed you. today... even more and tomorrow nothing about that will be different. our babies are mommies and our blessings abundant. but that emptiness... it is vast. the 'what if' - debilitating. and despite all of it - I am thankful for this life. this one and the one that will follow. when I will see you again. until that time, I will miss you. until that time, we3+ need you. until that time I ask you- be near. <3

gg3127... eow 3.04.03...

August 21, 2018

Sweet G... another Brother has fallen and another family must begin the most painful journey they could have ever anticipated. We ache for Officer Kaliloa’s ‘Ohana in these immediate days. Our beautiful young ladies and the grand blessings that are now your legacy remind me that there will be hope for their future as well. In time they will build new normal’s, traditions will be celebrated differently and many firsts will bring pain but healing as well. I pray that they know they are never alone. That this family that extends across the nation, these brothers and sisters in blue are for ever vigilant in there unwavering support and we in turn remember them daily and pray for their safety. Their Bravery and commitment as they serve in the face of every adversity brings hope that maybe our grandchildren will live in a better place. My hope is that you and all those gone before have welcomed your brother home to his new watch. For ever watch over us, allow us to feel your presence when we need it and know that we carry with you as we make new memories every day. No matter the amount of hours, days, weeks and years... You are forever in our hearts.

EOW 3.4.2003

July 22, 2018

It has been a long time since I visited this page, but you are not forgotten. I had planned to visit your grave when we made a trip to Hawaii, but due to the airlines I was not able to. I hope that the girls are doing good and the rest of your family are well. Rest in the knowledge you are not forgotten.

Lt. Stephen Jackson (retired)
Baton Rouge Police Department

January 14, 2018

It's been a while, brother. Know that I think of you and your family often. I remember you and the girls playing soccer behind the Kailua station one day- long ago. I remember you all laughing and enjoying each other's company. I always knew that was what I wanted- to be a hero to MY family. I listened to my heart.
You always made me feel welcome. That meant more to me than you would ever know. I've told your story many times over the years. Even with groups of more than 50 trainees sitting on the edge of their seats, and despite sharing your story so many times, I always have a hard time fighting back the emotion. That's not typical of me, but that's the gravity of our loss of you.
That was a rough couple of years with HPD. Between the loss of you and Danny, I learned the frailty of life and the path we were chosen to take. You have guided me through the years, you truly have. For that, I thank you. I've moved on to the Mainland. That was a tough move, but it allowed for life to happen. I've got two young ones of my own now, and a beautiful woman to keep me grounded.
Glen, thank you. Rest easy. Keep helping your family. Be the guiding light for them. We all need that nowadays.

Dan Chipp
Rocklin Police Department

August 5, 2017

Thinking of you my brother.

W Kim, Det. (retired)
Honolulu Police Department

March 4, 2016

Thinking about you for awhile now and remembering the old days. Peace be with you and your loved ones. Until we meet again.

Jeriod Lee Deputy
King County Sheriff's Office

July 25, 2015

Gotta live up to the name!
Thank you sir for your service. If I make it out of this academy, I will most definitely visit and pay respects.

Karen Gaspar, Police Recruit
Long Beach Police Department

May 23, 2015

It has been a long time since I visited this page, but you are not forgotten nor are your family forgotten. I hope that all is well (as far as it can be) with your family. Rest in Peace in the arms of our Lord.

Lt. Stephen Jackson Retired
Baton Rouge PD

January 9, 2015

Aloha fallen brother, I am a current student at Heald college on the main land. My father and his side of the family is from the islands and I would like to have the honor of dedicating my last quarter of my program in your memory.

SPC Senados, Nick
Heald College Modesto, CA

July 30, 2014

Remembering you ... always smiling.

Lani Faumuina Natividad, SPRD
Friend & Honolulu PD Dispatch

May 16, 2014

Still in our thoughts Brother Glen.

See you again one day.

Peter Nakagawa, Officer

March 4, 2014

10 years, 2 days, not forgotten my brother.

Retired Detective
Honolulu Police Department

March 6, 2013

10 years today... hurts no less, still honor your life daily, love our girls for two... faith keeps me strong... they keep me breathing and the next generation keeps me teaching of your legacy. Two - Four- Six or Ten - time makes no difference. Someday I will see you again. Until then I see and feel you in ways unspoken. Beloved angel still my guide... Forever in my heart.

gg3127... eow 3.04.03...

March 4, 2013

Thank you for your service and for helping to make America a safer place.

Deputy Brian Jones
Boulder County Sheriff's Office, CO

November 27, 2012

another brother has fallen and it is 3.4.03 all over again... miss you always - love you still <3

gg3127... eow 3.04.03

July 24, 2012

Thank you for your service Sir, RIP

James Kotke
Civilian / Former Officer
WSF Park Police (Wi.)

July 9, 2012

Rest in Peace, Officer Gaspar. Your sacrifice is not forgotten.

Officer 11169

April 7, 2012

8 years.arill in my thoughts.still missed.still loved... until we meet again.i will love the girls for both of us and tell auri everything she will ever want to know about the amazing man her papa-g was... i will forever go to that place in my heart that belongs to you and i alone.there no time has passed.i see you and hear as if you are here with us.sustanance for my soul... in this world i breathe daily.go through the motions.i relish every moment i am blessed to have on this earth.despite losing you i am thankful for each one... memories of you in songs and smells and things and them.our babies... your smile.the way you would tilt your head.your laugh when you were tired.that dumb tv live on.just like many have said... they have said too that in time the hurt would pass.i am a does not but we try.with
the love and support of so many.we learn.every day a new lesson in life... faith i do a big way and with new hope.our belief says live for the father and life i will have.eternal that life i will see you again and i do all things with that hope. 2day i need you more than know the heaviness of my heart.where i would go to you in times like this i am unable yet i know you are here... quiet and still i seek your comfort for me and them.we are 3 and yet our hurt is 1.we lean on each other and have learned to keep our heads up.still life it deals its own hand.another trial.tribulation.roadblock - we will be fine.we are blessed.and we focus on that... you and our heavenly father - we ask you both to keep and as always i am renewed when remembering you&trusting in HIM... comforted to think of another time when i will see you again.and know HIS kingdom... until then.beloved angel now that guides me - forever in my heart. RIP*

gg3127... eow 3.04.03...

March 7, 2011

When calamity comes, the wicked are brought down, but even in death the righteous have a refuge - Proverbs 14:32.

You are not forgotten. My heart and prayers are with your children.

Constable Amanda Pandolfi #1249
York Regional Police, Ontario Canada

March 4, 2011

it hurts today g... who am i kidding - it hurts everyday! i miss you... need to know you're near... and love you still <3 i have been spending a lot of time with mom and dad... it gets harder each day - dad asks for you sometimes and it stops me in my tracks... it's been 8 years -- i just say you'll be home later, even saying that out loud stings. i wish it were true. c thomas called about the 110 class reunion. i would have loved to go and see everyone but it was sort of last minute and since my time with kiana is so limited now days - i opted for church with her and baby and some time at home after.... i cannot believe it would have been 20 years for you in the department - wow. i remember the study groups at our house and our lanai lunches during evok and mock crimes.... good stuff - even better memories. today is just one of those days... at work - thinking - i hope you know - noone will ever take your place - for me or the girls... i hope i am still doing right by you when it comes to them... and most of all i am banking on faith that i will see you again one day. my time with auri are a constant reminder of your missing spin on things but i can almost predict how it would go. she'd have you wrapped around her finger and you'd be the proudest papa. when we share about you we call you papa-g. she's gonna know it all... the great man you are, the wonderful daddy you were to her mommy and the amazing angel you will always be for her. she is so much like you and people say it all the time. it is sooooo true. her mannerisms.... and she has this little smirk that says 'i'm my papa-g's girl' all over it. my heart aches the most when i am with her and realize what has been taken from her.... tragic to say the least.... i know i'm just rambling - and i guess my lunch break is almost over. but i was just thinking about how i would call you from work about nothing and just touch base during the day - i miss it. i miss you. i miss what would have been - could have been and should have been. be with me today - i need you. beloved angel now that guides me.... forever in my heart.

gg3127... eow 3.04.03...

February 15, 2011

I love you and miss your smile.
I'd give anything just to get a phone call to hear your voice just one more time...

Watch over Granny & Granddad, they need you more than ever. Granddad asked when you were coming home the other night :/ Didn't know what to say...

Going to take mommy to work, we needed some us time... come with me for the ride and protect me on my way home..? I know you're there. Thank you Daddy <333


October 20, 2010

It's been a while since I stopped by here, but it doesn't mean I haven't thought about you. Almost 8 years and there hasn't been a single day that i've wished I could hear your voice... I wish you were here, to tell me to keep my chin up. It seems like the hardest thing to do these days... Everyone tries to help but nothing is gonna stop the hurt. No one understands. No one understands that its a hole in my heart that can never be filled or replaced... you know..? Well i don't know... No one knows... In my group counseling I learned that no two people grieve the same... It took me a while to understand but I finally get it, but it makes my grieving even harder.. :/ It made me understand that like for example: even though you were both me and sisters dad and we lost you the same way the same day, everything the same, it still affects us so different. You can't comfort two people who are grieving the same. I don't know if that makes sense. I never understood that before because I guess I was younger when it happened... But now I finally get it. I get that no one will ever understand how I feel, I will never understand how sister feels, I will never understand how mom feels or I will never understand how Aunty Liz, Ryann and Chad feel. It's a big reality check because it makes you feel more alone then ever. Lately i've been feeling like people really don't understand. I got into an argument with a friend about something and you came up in the conversation and I told her that I have times when I feel content and feel like I can handle my emotions but there are other times when I feel like it just hit all over again and sometimes I feel like its the hardest thing to handle. Like I don't remember how i've handled it for this long and my "friend" said... "It was so long ago when are you ever gonna get over it?!" I was so shocked, but that is the reality of it. No one will ever be able to even imagine what it's like. I learned in group counseling that survivors are literally the strongest people alive because if we can cope with losing a loved one we can conquer anything... Sorry if i'm babbling... Im working on expressing myself and typing or writing is the biggest step i've taken. I think that after hurting so much for so long i taught myself to just hide everything and put on a different mask to everyone and now that i'm trying to face what hurts me instead of covering it, its so hard. It's so new to me. Before this, I can't even remember the last time i've even teared.. I just feel really lonely. I guess its such a surprise to people that I actually have feelings and the reactions aren't really what I expected... I feel like when I open up to people, they either throw it in my face later that I need to get over it or I feel like I make them uncomfortable because they don't know what to say or they feel sorry for me and I don't want to be pitied.. Its hard to explain but honestly its hard for even me to understand because its so new... Im learning how to sort everything out everyday its just hard because everyone either doubts me or puts me down because im not doing things the way THEY think i should... It's a very slow process but I guess you can't reverse 8 years of hurting in one night...

I miss you, everyone remembers how much of a great guy you were. Everyone always talks about you :) it's really cool to see that people still remember... I was at work and Lieutenant Kato came in... I didn't think he recognized me so I didn't really say anything I just smiled and sat him at a table... Then he called me over and asked me if I was a Gaspar and I smiled and said yes. And he said, "I could tell you have the same smile as your dad..." I didn't know what to say, it was surprising to hear that he remembered your smile. But how could you forget it..

Oh oh! And me and Isaac started to polish your rims, they're looking good! I'm hoping uncle greig, granny and granddad will let us have your car.. I sit in it when I go to grannys sometimes and remember all the rides we had... But they want to sell it... I don't understand how they could its one of the few tangible memories we have of you and I would hate to see it be thrown away like that...

Anyway... I miss you Daddy.
I hope I still make you proud.
I love you..
Miss you Daddy.

Big small honey <333

October 20, 2010

Aloha brother, how time flies, I took a chance and checked in knowing your family would have thoughts to share. In the totality of life, it has not been that long, and yet it has. Lots of changes going on, they don't make them like they used to.

There is obviously still a lot of pain. Every time we do an operation I remind everyone about how things can go so wrong. Survived one career and trying to stay alive in the next. Rest, you are not forgotten.

Det. (retired)
Friend and co-worker

July 12, 2010

we always said parenting took two... i doesn't matter how grown they get... they will always need us -- i'll never tire of that. look at our beauties daddy - let us all feel your presence now. i see so much of you in auri and know you would be the most doting grandpa... we all need you near... need you here... and miss you so very much. <3 you sweet g.

gg3127... eow 3.04.03...

June 25, 2010

the annual alumni luau is this weekend - i know you'll be with us in spirit, brother. i'll remember you always and will miss you forever.

love you,

classmate and friend

June 8, 2010

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