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I swear it really doesn't take much to make me think about you and then for me to just start bawling my eyes out these days, you know that? It's starting to hurt a lot more because I'm starting to understand so many things that I didn't when I was little. I'm starting to feel emotions towards you that I'd never dreamed of and it's honestly a little scary, considering the circumstances at least. I've been mourning a lot more here lately it seems and it's all very confusing and it hurts, but at the same time I don't know how it can hurt or sometimes even why it does. But I want you to know that I'm trying my hardest to get through it and to not cry too much. I've got several people to help me out when I need it. Now, on to another topic, if that's okay.
I just started my 3rd year of walking the halls of Greenbrier East and I just gave out another scholarship back in May to Josh, Tony's son and he's attending Concord this fall. I'm taking an Advanced Placement class to gain 6 college credits in American History and an honors class in English. I'm still in JROTC and still heavily thinking about the military, but to be more specific, I'm thinking about the Air Force. I'm also really starting to look into colleges and a career that suits me. At the moment I have a college visit scheduled for this Friday at William and Mary in Williamsburg, Va. Aunt Lynne kinda scheduled the visit for me and I plan to spend the weekend in one of my favorite atmospheres and I pray it goes well. I'm still in choir with Mrs. Lutz and it seems like it will be very fun this year and I'm looking into auditioning for a Theatre Troup tomorrow so, wish me luck I guess?
Did I mention that I'm part of the leadership group at church? Well, its going to be my second year in and I'm pretty excited to see what all God has in store for our church. I've grown a lot in my faith and walk with Christ the past couple of years. I feel like you'd always be helping me find new ways to please and serve our God. Dad, I've gotta brag about Adam and how far he seems to be taking our group. It's pretty awesome to watch these teens grow in their faith just like me. I just pray that everything were doing now and whatever we come up with in the near and distant future is pleasing to God.
The last thing I want to talk about is just how much I wish you were here, but how happy I am. I'm selfish about that and I'll admit it. I want you here with me and mom, but at the same time I'm very happy with my life and with your best friend looking out for me and mom and being part of our family. I gotta admit that he's doing a great job and brag on him that he's the pain in my back side that I know you would've been and I love that. It's annoying that he's like that, and I don't really show it, but I love that he is the way he is when it comes to being my dad and on special occasions, my best friend. And the moments that I find my best friend in him is when I can really see how our relationship would be. And when he meets the guy that I really like, I can see you there in him and along side him, helping him put the fear of God in the poor guy. Like I've said, God couldn't have chosen a better man to step up to the plate for mom and me and I'm so happy that it was him and not someone else.
Well it's pretty late, and mom's going to inevitably wake me up at 5 in the morning when it's midnight already. I love you so much. I'll keep in touch. Rest easy, Daddy.
August 29, 2016